31st December 2007, so early in the morning but frankly I had not sleep for the past few hours.

I was totally drained after finishing the day installation. Run about Tampines and Bugis to get some shit installation done(luckily can claim). After the shits, headed back to the office to return those shits. Then I waited for Nigel shit to be done, but it was never done since something even more shitty happened. Geeess, did I just cursed someone really badly that it happen or is it just pure coincidence??? Anyway, Nigel said:"Job, its all about enjoying the process". Well, I enjoy the moment when an installation under me was successful =) Due to the shit that happen last night, I will have to go down to the problematic case at Seng Kang later in the evening, I will have better pray that they will be nice today or I might need a ear pluck during the installation. So thats how my second last day of the year looks like. Anyway, let me end this story by saying " Shits cost money...."

disclaimer: If you don't understand any of the shits above, never mind just understand that its shit and ask me no questions and I will tell you no lies (thanks Amanda, this line is really useful to me now)

Well, so might be late for the BBQ today due to the shit. Shall catch some sleep now and I will be back tomorrow to tell my new year resolution =D It came true for the year 2007, I will really hope it will also be that way for year 2008.

Thought of the day: Human minds are so wonderful that they really shape this world with conspiracy and lies...

30th December 2007, 1 more days to the last day of the year 2007. Never see that coming actually, had been so busy with work that I had grew numb to time(In fact, I took granted of it).

Anyway, celebrated Christmas with my colleagues. Mainly Amanda, Mayvin, Sabrina, Shao Hui and Jaclyn. As you can see, all are girls why? Nigel had family gathering at the very last minute(fine its ok), Kong Yang, Ian and Andy went to Zhong huan. And for the rest, either they are in the office or totally not invited. At first it was quite bored, no spray no fun(at least to me) so we are like searching high and low for some people selling those sprays. Finally after the count down we found them. Bought 4 bottles and finally had fun with it before being caught in a human traffic jam where I almost beat up the 'Bs'(trying not to be racist) behind for pushing and pushing and still pushing. Edmund join us only to find himself covered with those foams but he left shortly after that. Tonned over at a bridge near Esplanade and took a cab home after that. Christmas sweetly ended.

Was quite bored at home the next day, so drag my brother out for a walk only to find that it could be a mistake. I was bomb by him financially . But its ok... Seriously...

So here is the plan for the first week of January before I am back to school, I am going slow and steady for my job; but I am going to be hard on my studies. Mainly because the final showdown is here!!

The Understanding tests are already queuing up to challenge my knowledge for the last time before I graduate year 2. I am so going to hit hard on this, making sure its a straight As' for the final 4 papers . That's my plans for the last term.
Well, before the school reopens, I believe I will like to spend some of my pay on the clothings for the both new years(lunar and the Georgia).

Besides that, I am going to announce that I happily closed 31 (potentially 32 sales) for the month of December. So that is going to earn me big time again =) Happy is not enough to describe my earnings for the month December. In addition, I am still going to collect some more cash for doing installation =D Just out of curiosity; do we get to get Christmas Bonus as well *money face* Will be so paradise if we do.. =D

I shall stop here.... This could be the last entry of the year as I believe I will be very busy for the next 2 days to blog. So WISH EVERYONE A EARLY HAPPY NEW YEAR!~! haha...

December 17th, 2007; half way through the month of December. Finally, its holiday!! So that will also mean extra time to sleep, more focus on sales and time to buck up what I had left out for the term. Anyway, it had been quite a busy week for the last week and I am seriously ill. Having a cough and flu that never seems to be going away.

School? Well, results are sliding but I had put up myself for the last week before holidays to get myself a straight A's for all the problems in the modules. Well, happy to announce, " I DID IT!!!!!!!!" here is my results for the last week...

Yes, got As' for daily grades, now I need to pull up my UT grades. Have been too focus on some other stuff that my UT grades are also sliding. UT 3 and 4 will be the final showdown and I must score straight As' for that as well. At least this will safe keep my ass in the academic roll of honours. G.P.A 3.71 is definitely not enough for me, I will give all my best to hit that 3.8 when I graduate. So thats for my school life.

Sales? Just went I thought I will flunk my December,but I decided not to give up. Law of attraction indeed, just kept imaging myself getting sales and run out of the low sales nightmare. Got something very rewarding today, total of 7 sales from Yishun, plus yesterday's call back; I got 8 sales more to be added on to my usual 10 sales. So totaling up, I have 18 sales for the month of December. Looks like the 30 sales target is still possible for me to hit within this month; shall strive all the way. Anyway beside myself being happy, Amanda(Likey) is also enjoying the great sales from Yishun, (HAHA) happy for her; and I believe she is really happy as I can see her wide smile everywhere she goes when we are still at Yishun. XD

Arh, had been having late nights nowdays; shall turn in now...

thought of the day: Law of attraction really works!!

December 2nd, 2007; getting atrocious in the updating of my blog. I am seriously being caught up by quite alot of stuffs and by the time I finish doing all I had need to do, its already too late and usually I am a dead meat by then. Thus apologies to neverending89.blogspot.com and those readers.

Well,November was a pretty enjoying month for me as I celebrated a new self record in sales. So I finally hit my 20 sales and will be expecting to get the incentives and commissions by christmas. That will be around 900+ which is really exciting me now =D. Now I am left with 40 Sales to hit for December in order to promote to senior sales. But having mix feeling about promoting, simply because, the price to pay is...
RESPONSIBILITY++
EXPECTATIONS++
but the rebate is....
PAY ++ (haha, that is the motivating factor ya?)
Nigel is like getting 10 sales for the month of December already and I really have to buck up for my sales as I am kind of sliding down. But shall not let that happen. Anyway, it was just yesterday when something really shocking happen to me. We are opening our roadshow @ bedok yesterday and I was like getting the invoice out to sign up a cable TV and a Maxonline for my customer who is already seriously interested(at least from her smile and the nod of head), her friend who said will introduce this promo to his friend to sign up with me; he went away to make a call to get his friend IC and sign up for him. To my shock, after the call; he just came back and drag his friend(the one who is signing up with me) away without any reasons why they change their mind just repeating himself(Think about it first, next time) But more or less I know what he wants, he is wanting a free gift + discount for both of the service, so he was like bargaining with me to get him a CTV subscription and give him discount of 50% and give him the Free LCD TV MONITOR(HD Ready) and like Maxonline $44.94 8mbps with LAPTOP Free and 1 year contract(which is super ridiculous, if Starhub ever come out with this promotion i will seriously consider going somewhere else as they will lose money big time that they have problem paying me). I was quite affected by the case and was really moody yesterday; furthermore I got approached by existing customer like a customer service officer(when i am suppose to be a sales executive) to answer customer complaints and their technical problems. I wasted bedok yesterday because Nigel got 5 and Mayvin got 3 yesterday. Left aside to weep for a better day. But its ok, as I celebrate a real good day today 2 sales from Yew Tee(I should starting changing my mind on yew tee).

School life... I have serious problems on my results now. Scoring C+ and B+ for my test instead of my targetted As, this is really affecting my results. All my module predicted grades are now B+ except for System Analysis and Design which is A. Wa LAO!! I STILL WANT MY 4 As.... Shall buck up for a final showdown~~
Choosing my specialization soon, have what i want in mind already; just going forward for the business electives briefing tomorrow to hear out from them about the various offer.

MELT. IT JUST GET POSTPONED POSTPONED AND POSTPONED.... but I never wanted to do so but I have so many things to consider. Perhaps partially its my fault for being side tracking for a short period which screws up everything. Haiz... always bounded by those stupid reasons i get, stupid excuses i get, stupid last min amendments..haiz... I had never tasted support for quite a long time, and till now; I felt so being betrayed that just feel like quitting and get back to what I am suppose to be doing(like studying and get to University and get to my main field)

Shall stop here and go to sleep.. Web application tomorrow, hard day ahead ...

November 18th, 2007. Its approximately 1 hour into the new day. Just came back from my company's gathering.

We spend our gathering over at East Coast Park, playing Frisbee,Soccer, Volley ball and my personal loathe, dog and bone.I seriously enjoyed the soccer game especially the beautiful step over and following a perfect shot into the goal. That was the first blood, and also some cuts on my feet, since we are playing on sand; doing step over is such a difficult task on sand(The ball just doesn't go with your momentum, it either your leg get stuck into the soft sand; or you will find yourself leaving the ball behind you) I score a second goal after a few minutes, after making a great escape from the goalkeeper's hand. Eventually we lost; taking the fact that all my teammates are dead tired running on the soft sand. We played monkey with frisbee on the beach after the soccer match, and that last us the whole evening before we went off for dinner. Ken, Amanda and I are all victims for today, Ken got pinned down; I got sat on the head by Andy(damn pissed off by that) and Amanda ate sand today =D

After dinner was pool, I win 2 rounds and lost 1 round. I shall spare the details as it is seriously nothing much. Took a cab home with Nigel, and I am very very pissed off by the driver. He was talking bad about Nigel for being stupid and lazy of him to U-turn into the road and drop him off when he can walk a few distance(WHAT THE FUCK, got money for you to earn you still ass so much) He was insulting me all the way during the journey,well I was too tired to even respond to him. But there is this particular comment which he made that really really boils me. He asked me where am I studying so I am really proud to tell him I am from Republic Polytechnic. Curse him to make the following comment "Why you go that polytechnic", I was telling him that because I choose one of the subject which caters what I want in the future. Haaz, he replied "Cannot be la, how much you score for your english". I thought its not a harm to be honest, thus I told him that I got a 7 for English, and the next sentence he said really really hurt and pissed me off. "No wonder, that only that polytechnic will accept those who fail English. " Get so pissed off and just reply him " ya - ya" for the rest of the journey, just too tired to bother about his comment. But eventually I did something out of that vengeance, I took out 10 dollar and asked him to keep the change, then I told him " Uncle, keep the change and next time just concentrate on the road, don't talk so much and make so much comments." We were waiting for the traffic lights before my alighting point, and he was telling me that his son have no interest in polytechnic as he got the potential to go to JC and stuff like that, making the comment that it is hard and impossible for poly grads to go to University and even if the go they just can't make it there. I got so agitated that when I asked him "How you know?", he confidently replied"I used to work in NUS as a computer engineer researcher"(arh, can't remember what he used to work as but it should be some researcher), out of my anger i replied"oh, then you are now a taxi driver, how sad? Your son still proud of you?"

Well,I am really angry with what that driver had commented; it makes me feels that this society, this country is only caring about those who walk through a Straight 'A's in O'level and JC school life and finally University. Hopefully thats not the case, if not this country will really be a gone case. But come to think of it, it just struck me something which I regret in life(for not putting 100% into my O'levels). I had learn my mistakes, but this wrong doing had lead me to a place(Republic Polytechnic) where I found my real interest and had changed my life. I putting 100% into my school work now, striving so hard for a high GPA; get a place in the academic roll of honors; just because I have a favor to fulfill for myself.

thought of the day: I know myself, might not be very clever and talented; but I don't need anyone to specially prove that to me!!

November 11th, 2007... Finally, I'm back to do some clearing of cobwebs. Its school holiday!!! for just one week, anyway I am too late to celebrate that since school is reopening this coming Monday.

I had finally finished my PP report last week, just in time of the submission date. Well it has been approved by my advisor thus I am clear for the presentation. So I will be presenting on how bricks and mortar retail stores can e-commercialize their business. Haaz, maybe my idea will work one day? So much that you will get to see Online Giordano or even TOP SHOP? But now I have a big problem, because I am still not done with my presentation materials.

Anyway, October is over and its pleasant to announce that I have hit 15 sales for that month. Its quite unsafe to hit that number as there might be a chance where 1 sales actually cocks up or something like that; then I will be down with 14 only which will not eligible me for the $130 incentives. But lets just pray for it. So, I will hit my personal target of cash in bank within 2 months with the cash from my October and September sales plus the bonus from my boss Andy(hopefully he remembers). November and December will be the peak period for sales, so I am aiming HIGH!!

M.E.L.T, something which I am seriously headache about. No replies from schools and I wonder how my teammates are doing with their task. I am seriously being tied down by working and PP and so on,that I almost forgot about this project. Its time to drift back on track....

Ahh..anyway I am dead tired, shall continue some other time....

November 02, 2007... Finally back to blog and I am feeling so overwhelmed today. Anyway the month of October had been really stress and busy for me. Surrounded by M.E.L.T, work, school and PP.

Job as a sales executive is really getting very well. Hit 15 sales by 29th October thus I really really hope that I can get the incentives and bonus which will earn me a thousand plus for the month October. Got to check it out with the customer if their services are good and steady, if not I will not get the incentives. November is here, a brand new sales month; lets aim high for November.

School? feeling so overwhelmed nowadays, no longer good at doing stuffs. No longer appreciated, no longer driven as usual. My results are slacking, and I just don't know how to cope it now. Really afraid of the slide in results. Finding myself learning nothing as the day go by. There is so many people over taking me now and I seriously feel that I had just failed my own target. Am I being brought down??

Well, seriously finding a way out.... Perhaps I have to buck up over the holidays.

October 03th, 2007.... Seeing cobwebs around the blog.... Life had been so far so good...

Job as a starhub sales executive is very good. Total sales had reach 14 today. To be honest I am hell far away from the quota set by my team leader Andy. 40 Sales for the month October. Seriously thinking of ways to get to that target. Can't possibly work everyday now, will have to mug on PP and melt camp as I had really neglect my attention on these issues for quite a time. PP is half done and my teammates in M.E.L.T is no where to be tracked... Anyway the quota still have to be met so that I will get just another treat from my leader =D

Just that Saturday, got a treat to a bar=) Cool atmosphere and a simple great place to slack and get drunk. Feel like singing the song Great Escape there... So anyway took some shots at the bar.
Half-Drunk

Tiger Rocks!

Chilling blue in the bar


Made some new friends there, hopefully. Actually they are more like my colleague than anything.Friends stay in the same world. Awww~~ Bar was so great...

School? what else beside taking the frustrating bus, doing the problems and dealing with different kinds of teammates? Again a SO FAR SO GOOD for the school life in school. Not really bored by the surrounding classmates and some occasional pissed off by facilitators. Well still doing fine and aiming high for the 4 modules A!!

Still left with some cash from the previous pay after working for Golden Village. 4 complimentary movie pass, its a where, when and who can go for a movie? Watching Movie alone in the Cinema, any thing more boring than this? Or should I give it away to those who watch movie more than I do? Try to buy something using my pay last week, so have a slight shopping with Honsonn, went to bugis streets and TOP man... So many temptation but I curb just manage to keep that sum back for rain... =D Waiting for the next pay from Starhub, shall see the figure go up before i spend =D

I was telling almost everyone that I am getting a little socially active and playful nowadays despite the fact that I am back to school!! Maybe this is because my buddies are still at holidays thus I am in their social activities. Anyway getting a little too playful and unstable for the few days back and I am getting a little annoying and irritating to people around me. Time to be myself....

Shall stop here for the day... Forever praying for a good next day...

Thought of the day: We pay for our actions, Take the changes and keep the receipts.

September 20th, 2007... M.E.L.T got its green light to run, school had reopen it doors for those hell-seekers and me; the starhub salesman is getting well with the sales.

The first big news, M.E.L.T got its green light to run on one of the holidays. Unfortunately we seems to be crashing with some RP events during the December. Prem will be checking it out for us and we are most likely to get M.E.L.T running. Its really puts a big smile on my face after my presentation with the student advisors and facilitators, which was when I know that M.E.L.T had got its green light. I hope I am not the only one celebrating this.... Finally my can see one of my secondary school wish coming true. Will move ahead with the plan !!

School reopen for some of us to seek some torturing from PBL. First day of school was Web Applications. I really enjoyed the day as I did some HTML and PHP codes for the day. Sad that I am not the first person to crack the mystery of the day, but I am the overall person who solve the solutions. But I am just afraid all my efforts are not being seen. System Analysis and Design, for the first day we analyzed the various System development Life Cycle. We took maple story as our guidelines. Again, a interesting module which I totally enjoy it!! Third day of school, Operating System Concept, mixed feeling about it. Seems to be quite a difficult module but yet I enjoy the theory behind the module. I am happy with my own performance for the pass 3 days, have not really deteriorate, but just wish that I will still maintain my results. I want 4 modules A for this semester!!! Anyway, my new classmate Evon told me" hey you are very on, every time do problem will tell us what to do next and ...." Well, thats my style... Always get the job done...

Hmmmm... So I am still into aiming for higher G.P.A. There is this thing from Republic Polytechnic which I am looking forward to get it. Its more than a roll of honors and it is more than just a diploma. ITS THE DISTINCTION DIPLOMA which I am aiming for. The criteria for the distinction diploma is a total of 12 modules A and 3.5 G.P.A and above. So in total after 3 semesters, I have 6 modules 'A'. Its a good sign as all my planning and calculations is falling into places. So I will need 6 more modules to get that diploma, aiming a 4 this semester and if possible 3 each for the last 2 semester. For Final year project, I hope I will get an A as well =) Thus by the end of the year 3 I will expect at least a GPA 3.7 and a diploma distinction =D I will do it!!

So far so good for being a star hub MSH direct sales executive. Total for the week I have 7 sales. But sad to say I will be getting the commission for 3 sales this month as the other 4 sales are next month's sales. That was because some customer wants to sign up next month but they wish to sign the invoice now, thus its a confirm sale... but next month... My result of door to door sales in yishun wasn't very well for the past weeks. My sales shot up when I am having roadshow at woodlands civic centre. Woodlands residents are so nice!!! I am giving myself a target, 25 sales each month for my beginning stage. Once I hit 25 sales for each month I will plus 5 to every stages I go. XD

Guess that will be all, kind of tired already... Shall stop here....

Thoughts of the day: TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY
(something which we sales man always preach ourselves)

September 11th, 2007; its the anniversary of the horror from 911 incident, that was about a few years back when I was still in school uniform. Well, I have no comments on that incident; just aware you guys of the day.

2 days into sales line with no sales, quite demoralizing ya? Got a few contacts from potential customer but I have to be hardworking enough to call them back. Nigel and Shawn each got their first sales yesterday while I 'enjoy' hearing, from the the customers "I'll consider and call you back?". Both are not working for today as they are having taekwando later. I skipped judo as I am waiting for some calls from customers who some preach that they will call today. Will be joining Andy and some of the seniors to the roadshow later. I SERIOUSLY HOPE AND PRAY TO HAVE SALES TODAY!!

In the mist of doing this, I am actually starting up my Professional Profiling. That is so finally, I had been dragging this for 2months and I had yet to start. I had better start do it now or I'll be screwed for the year. 2 more weeks to the submission of the PP draft and approximately 1 month more to the final submission. Have to dedicate one to two of the weeks to charge all the way.

M.E.L.T camp, I suppose I am getting a green light soon to run this. Suppose to have a presentation today but Prem is unable to make it together with the other facilitators, Alex and Patrick. Have been delaying the approaching of schools for 2 to 3 weeks already and furthermore delays will lead to the postpone of the actual camp dates to next year. That is the least of the least or not what is my expectation.

My next stop in Republic Polytechnic, W65E. Same block different level different room. A few of the new faces I am going to meet and also a few familiar faces I will see. A handful of W66D students are in the same class as me for second semester. Kee Yong, Ain, Roy, Xueli and Fiona. Apart of this some faces I know who I know them through various reasons, ex classmates; ex SA members, camps and etc. Ismadi, Guo Long, Chu Ling. Other than that, the others are all new faces. For the facilitators, I have 3 facilitators who had taught me before in other modules. Cynthia , Jimmy and Deborah. Again I hope to have a good time, enjoyable time with my classmates. Target for my next semester would be:
1. Maintain my position in the roll of honors
2. Maintain 3.5 and above
3. Get at least 3 modules A!

Saying a BIG hi to those interesting modules coming up in my second semester. Web Multimedia, Web Applications Development, System Analysis and Design and Operating Systems. Will work hard on all these modules ya.

Guess, I got to get back to my work =D I am putting up a optimistic mood for my job later. I will get sales today!!!

September 8th, 2007... A series of unhappy and happy stuff. Broke my specs due to some uncivilized hooligans found in Tampines. Found the confident to take up the challenge from Starhub to sell its cable TV and Max Online products. Results for AY07/08 semester 1 is out and its really a jump for me.

As usual, Friday is a day when members of N~Zire will meet out for a slack. I played Mix Martial Arts with Shawn. Quite nice, we play jabbing and kicking. I have to say I am a total lousy guy when it comes to striking. I only manage to jab shawn a couple of times and most of times I escape and block or got beaten. After which did some sharing of martial arts. Shawn shared his Taekwando skills and I shared some of judo. I introduce them my favourite throw "Tai-Otoshi" which is a shoulder drop and demonstrated them how I can execute them when I am attacked and charged. Out of an accident, without warning I slam Shawn onto the ground which actually gave him a short concussion. Felt really guilty about that but he was alright later. This enjoying part of the gathering was being spoiled when I am provoked by some real irritating hooligans.

A roughly 3 year old kid was with them and he was playing around the playground. Because I was playing MMA so I took off my specs and placed it at one safe corner where I can see it. So this kid actually took my specs and broke it into pieces. His sister i suppose saw that he was playing the specs and didn't even take it away from him and just let him play with it. Until I found out and approach her to ask" excuse me that is my specs". All she do is look at me and say something which I don't understand, I have to personally take the specs from the kids hand. The gang actually starts to approach me when they saw me did that. But my bull temper is actually taking over me and I believe I would have charge and kill one of them. They walk off as if nothing had happened and I was so angry that I almost took the ball beside me and slam it to the hooligan. But I know that will eventually start of a fight so I keep dribbling the ball to actually relax myself down. Out of a uncontrolled bull temper, I kicked the ball to the far side of the park and eventually almost hit one of them. They of course stared back and went to one corner to discuss some stuffs. We suspect that they are actually intending to come confront us. Well I have to say with the bull anger coming to me at that moment I will be more that happy to entertain them and I will be sure that my buddies who all have taekwando experience will join in with me and I eventually calm my bull down. I am not blaming the kid, but the sight of his hooligan sister and friends really irks me.

In these tight situation I have, even if they surround me I am sure what I will do. Take one of the hostage, throw him onto the concrete and attempt to break his arm and threaten the rest. I will not kill that person and will eventually roar to show my crazy state. They will eventually back off, which at least I believe. Honsonn was asking, if a stronger person fights with you and you manage to pinned him down and will you kill him or whatever? For me, in conscious state I will not kill him but threaten him with some weapon and roar to get him away. Even in a fight I believe I will resort through some cunning method instead of take all and waste my energy. But a question open to all, "will you fight for your friend, who is provoked?" I am sure my buddies will be down for me if the worse case scenario happen just now. =)

Phew, that is a real long blog. Just another good news to share. I GOT INTO THE ACADEMIC ROLL OF HONOR for this semester! Its really a good news for me for that is my target since year 1 sem 2. This roll of honor is limited to the top 5% of the whole institute, thus I am really proud of my entry. For now I will clinch it like never before and will never let it go...

I got this promoter job for starhub products. The pay is high but its commission based and its really not wise for one to work if his objective is to earn. But I took up the challenge and I believe this job will bring my presentation skills to the next level at the same time gaining some experience of what is real Hard Earn money. I am clear that main objective is to give myself this challenge and also earn some hard earn money. Well I shall try it out, should it exceed my limits and I will know what to do....

Will be working the last day for GV tomorrow. Getting the pay and will soon reopen my bank account =D

September 06th, 2007. Went to another job briefing today, to become a star hub promoter. Hmmmm but I am kind of vague about something as to, I just found out that star hub actually outsource their sales to a outsource company?

No standard pay but all base on commission. If I can get a customer to sign a plan of $53.50 I will get the pay of $40 per plan I sell. And at every 15 plans I sell I will get $130 and the number will climb as more plans I sell. I did some calculation and if my sales is good, I can earn as much as $1000 within 1 month or even lesser than that. Best of all is they allow us to work with our friends in group and the time we work are negotiable. You can even afford to have 1 sales out of the whole month and there is no punishment. It is really a paradise job and the HR person is really convincing me.

But I am not so sure about the validity of all these things, went to ACRA to check on the company but they are under the directory. I went to their company's website, its up but its not really in details. The trustworthy part of this company is only that they are in a known building, from a trusted newspaper I saw the job. Nevertheless, I did some estimation and calculation I will not lose anything even if I sell nothing or the company is actually a scam or something like that, so I am going for this job.

Suddenly I have this urge to earn lots and tonnes of money. Getting sick of being poor and also getting jealous with those who are rich around me. I reached home, sat down with my parents to again hear their moaning and groaning of family and financial problems. Well, I have something which I am really unhappy but I really have to say it out today because its really getting out of hands. My father is a sole breadwinner and he earn barely $2000 per month, with that little amount of money he have to look after 7 mouths. Out of these 7 mouths , only one is not deserving. This person stayed at my house and had been doing so for FOC since the day I was borne. My siblings are growing up and soon the family expenses is going up and we all need spaces to grow, furthermore I will be graduating soon to go to University and my father will have to again fork out a bomb for that. But some idiot just don't understand these and continue leeching my family income. Due to this leeching, I will never fail to hear my parents moaning and groaning that there is not enough money for survival.

Well, I know that if that pest is off and my family will be off of all the financial agony. I have lots of cunning ideas for my parents to solve this thing. But its going to tear this whole family apart and some relatives will start to come in for a major 'Seah' Civil War. I don't want to see that, thus I can only listen to those agony from my parents. All I can do now is to start planning on working part time to earn some for my own pocket money and not taking too much from my parents. But I just want that leech to know, a few breads you brought home are not enough to stuff my mouth. Don't bring me to a stage where I will put you down for my parents with my cunning and crafty ideas.

I have to say that I am not as bad as my siblings who share the same loathe to the leech in my house. At least I still bothers to keep my hands behind to save some happiness in this family. My brother can do things such as deliberately destroying the leech property and my sister switching channel without asking her whether the leech is watching it.As for me, I always go into the room and borrow things without asking her. Its not really respectful because after all the leech is someone senior in my family, but her actions are really irking the family upside down.

Thought of the day: Parents will guide the way out for you, but they will not be forever there for you. Your life is yours and its only wise for you to learn to be independent.

September 2nd, 2007... Greeted by the alarm from my cellphone, with the song "welcome to my life". Indeed welcoming enough, reported to Bishan GV for work at 12 noon. I bargained with Jason to let me work at Bishan as I only know the procedures there, so just don't want to mix myself up.

To be frank, I really enjoyed working at GV as the promoter of the membership card. Its eyes-opening enough for me. You will get to see different kinds of people approaching you. Some customers are as blur as Sotong, some as aggressive as Lion, some are stubborn and some just don't know why they are there for. Out of all these of course there are some customers who I really enjoyed serving them. Wei Quan and I also enjoyed the splendid view of flowers maybe a couple of trees and bushes around at J8 =D*being cheeky*; well I mean there is alot of pretty girls to watch~! For Wei Quan he has to keep his eyes to himself since he already got his own babe but for me I am free to watch any girls!=D Too bad he have to constantly remind himself "路边的野花不能拆" whereas for me, I just have to remember "路边的野花随便拆" HA HA~~~Well its just the glare will do, I don't expect anything more than phone numbers from those girls. Besides that motivating factor, I am still waiting for my pay!!

Working with GV on this membership card which is a project of the marketing team, I saw some real good marketing strategies adapted by GV. Stuffs like free membership which will draw big crowd. The smart move I saw is the $6.50 movie ticket. For most, they will thought its $6.50 every day, but on closer look its actually every Tuesday only. I am an idiot to cinema and only know that it is a way for GV to 'con' and make big money thus I asked one of the marketing staff why must it be specifically on Tuesday. She told me because the rate of Monday and Tuesday is the lowest and on Wednesday the rate will increase till Sunday at $9.50. They don't wish to loss the $9.50 per ticket during the weekends, thus used the lowest rate to play with the consumer. In a way, people will be happy to see cheap movie tickets at the same time GV will see their cinema with life even on non peak days such as Tuesday and Monday. There are still a number of benefits as a member but I decided not to post it here as I am off duty now =D. I got a membership myself and the card looks something like that.



After this working experience, I am getting more interested in marketing and advertising together with retailing and sales.XD. And YEAH! I am set to what I want to take for my year 3 electives and core discipline.

I can't really rest for my holidays still as there are still things for me to complete and look into.M.E.L.T camp, I just hope it can get a green lights from Prem. Its my secondary school life's dream, to run a big camp. Though I was not old and professional enough to take the challenge that time, thus my chance had come today; just as much as anyone in the team I don't want to fail this camp.Judo training every Tuesday and Thursday, guess I have to start skipping some due to the project and also to give myself some break before I break down. On the relaxation part, adventurous week with N~Zire. Cycling around Singapore and toning out of home for 3 days 2 night. Its a personal camp that we had organized for ourselves, hmmm something is up my mind again... X) Together with some Gym to do, jogging and Physical conditioning. I am so going to brush up some skills in Flash and dream weaver in preparation of the new semester.

I guess that should be all for today.. Here I am waiting still for a call about the discussion... -_-''' Shall wait some more... Tomorrow will be swimming!!

31st August 2007, celebrating the last day of August. Well, again I am early for an entry. Its one week into holidays and seriously I had not felt any relaxing moments since then. Monday to Wednesday was judo camp, Thursday which is today had a briefing for a roadshow job which will happen today(Friday).

Judo camp.... It was quite happening, despite the multiple injuries we had for this camp. All of a sudden, I thought I am back for NCO camp as Rudy and Joe was so fierce and demanding on the Dojo. Well, I was frustrated when I heard their demanding and commanding tone on the dojo, thus I was quite fired up for the exercise and training. Day one was a killer, we did judo training, some PT, a 3.2km jog around our campus and 6 laps of swimming over at the pool in sports complex. Second day was quite fun, despite that I injured my knee cap during a Rendori. Partially my fault as I insisted on a throw ,despite that the opponent had broke my points. Third day, Ivan was injured and I accompanied him to the hospital; then it was a home sweet home...

Well, will be working tomorrow, thus shall stop here. There is much more I have to do now, for M.E.L.T which I will start working on it when I get back home from work tomorrow.

27th August 2007, a Monday... Feeling so excited for the judo camp tomorrow which gives me this ability to stay up so late to drop an entry here. Besides that I have 2 announcement to make, Semester One is over!! and I HAVE A NEW PHONE!!!

So going to miss the days in my second year of RP education, and I am really proud of myself being able to excel through my IT years. Think of it, I had move out of the IT idiots circle and I am IT savvy now!! =D I hope I'm really a IT savvy as there is still a long journey to be completed in the field of IT. Anyway, I have 3 predicted module grades A, so lets hope I really get them and my semester dream is once again reached =)

W66D~~! I will never forget the times we have, the laughter and the companions. Shall write some message to them here, since everyone one in W66D is doing so in their blog...Anyway SORRY FOR BEING LATE!

For all facilitators...
Bernard( C121 data communication and networking): Professionalism seems to be his core discipline. Never break rules and follow the flow... He can really show off his talent in this module with all his impressive terminologies.

Jimmy( C108 Oriented Object Programming): I will never forget the first 2 Bs he gave me, but I am happy to get A's from him. A very helpful and understanding facilitator if you ever come across him.

Deborah(C107 Database system): To have the ability of floating and sneaking around true is very impressive=p Of course we never know when she will be leaving or had left, but nevertheless I love her module and she is a very helpful facilitator.

Magdalene (C131 IT security and management): She has the appeal to be the apple in our eyes. Never fails to help, never fails to smile, advice and encourage you. I love her comments, they are very enlightening and useful. This module is top core interesting, but got to say sorry as my confidence led to the bad results in UT =(

For my classmates:
Ain and Roy: Very stylish couple over here. For Roy, you have a wonderful presentation skills; my role model when it comes to presentation =D Ain, you are a wonderful teammate, always there to give a helping hand =D

Mei Yean: Never fails to make the class go crazy. Well, I enjoyed your craps alot cause it really ease the atmosphere. But just a reminder, too much yellow colored jokes is bad for health =D ( you should have seen this in your individual comment, now you know who its from ? ) =p

Charlotte: The one with the exact frequency level with Mei Yean. Your laughter is so OMG~~!! Whenever it fills the room, we will definitely know its from Charlotte =D But its nice to have you in class...

Mei Qi: Sleep Sleep Sleep huh? =D You can be very hardworking in your work and you can be a 'A' student in class. You are also very ON, which I personally like it =D Wish you all the best in RP and in your Yamaha =D AND please come for M.E.L.T meeting =D

Wei Quan: Play boy.. haha... Never fails to have some girls chatting with her on MSN. Good teammate with plenty of jokes~! See you in more BC meeting and work together in M.E.L.T camp =D

Kee Yong: Basket, spiderman~! Crappy guy, which can never be told from his appearance. Thought to be anti-social but you are more than it meets the eye.. See you around.

Guess there is too much for me to tell my classmates what I want to say. Sorry for those who I had left out, but no doubt you guys are great in this semester and I wish to see you around in RP =D Awaiting our Pulau Ubin Trip =)
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In collaboration of Judo training camp and M.E.L.T Camp which is coming soon for me, I shall share my camp experience i had~!

2002
-> Sec One interaction Camp( camper)
-> St John annual Camp ( camper)

2003
-> NCO training course/camp(camper)

2004
-> Sec One interaction Camp(Instructor)
-> St John Annual Camp (NCO trainee)
->NCO training camp (Logistics/Messing executive)
-> Sec 3 adventure Camp( Camper)
-> OBS mobile training camp( camper/Watch Medi

2005
-> St John Annual Camp( Overall - in - charge)
-> Sec one Interaction camp ( Group instructor)
-> NCO training course/camp (NCO instructor)

2006
-> RP Cypher club SIT orientation camp(Camper)
-> St John Annual camp(Hiking activity in-charge/ Discipline Officer)
-> Networking IG Camp(Camper)
-> YA club camp(Camper)

2007
-> RP Cypher club SIT orientation Camp(Team leader)

Coming soon~
- Judo camp( Designer/ camper)
- M.E.L.T camp (Project head)

Failed attempts:
- St John interaction camp(2005)
- Mind your own Business workshop day camp(2006)

I had been through lots of camps since I started my secondary school life. Thus with the experience as a camper , leader or organizer; the things I see, feel and found ; I am very assured and confident that I will bring the best for M.E.L.T. Giving all campers a MELTED experience but I just hope my team will share the same as me ...


Thought of the day: SO long for a torture in Judo camp....

23rd August 2007, Thursday.... approximately 16 more hours to the end of year 2 Semester 1!!! Happy for the holidays, grief for the departing from just yet another group of good friends...

18th August 2007, 1:46a.m. It seems like all my post are very early. I have really had to declare myself an owl.

Just came back from the usual N~Zire Gathering. Guess some of you are already guessing what is N~Zire. Well simply enough we are just a group of secondary schools friends and friends with chemistry who all have extraordinary and special memories/capabilities which bonded us all so well together even today. Its also a group of leaders, with special thoughts and has been leaders in their own ways.

Its Don's birthday today, so N~Zire had a small celebration for him on the basketball court. Before that was a series of challenging and fun basketball matches. HAHA~~~ We continued playing till the lights are being switched off which follows a chit-chat on current issues and some philosophy(HAHA~~) One particular topic was brought up and I tried to answer as I know the answer but too bad I can't structure and organize my thoughts in time to answer it. The topic was changed since no one have definate answer. Anyway the topic was on what is the difference between Intelligence and Wisdom, and this topic came right after some discussion on the current issues.

After organizing my thoughts which was too late, I came out with these. Wisdom is about making decision and sometimes in the context of advising while Intelligence is about the ability to think and analyze in a way which is better than the other. High wisdom means you can make good and accurate decision and High intelligence means you are able to think more than normal people and analyze things which others might never thought of. Some are wise but not intelligent, some are intelligent but not wise, some have certain level of wisdom and intelligence and some are perfectly both. Some are intelligent where they can think and give good analysis or they have good ideas which they thought of, but they just don't know what to do with them or make wrong uses of them. Some are intelligent, but crisis starts to hit them, they might not know what to do or they might make wrong decisions. Likewise, some had no good and fantastic ideas, but he always know what to do next for his task and make good decisions all because he is wise. When crisis starts to hit them, they have no fanciful ideas to do and turn things upside down but they just know exactly how they could tackle it in reference to their expectations. Some will find themselves being wise at certain issues and intelligent to a certain extents. These sort of category which I believes most average man will fall into. Powerful people can be wise enough to make right decisions and intelligent enough to turn tides, understand things and make new ideas. Some are born with wisdom and making good decision are so easy for them, likewise some are born with this intelligence that ideas flow out of their mind like river. But however out from all these, nevertheless wisdom and intelligence can be gain through years and years of experience. Thats what I thought about the difference between wisdom and intelligence.

Personally I believe I am wise and to a certain extent intelligent. So far I have no problems in making decisions, most of my decisions are right which had not bring lots of problems to me and I generally solve problems with some wise decisions I made. Last but not least, I had council quite a number of people. But though I am blinded at times and made a few bad decisions but they don't usually bad that will cost my life or giving me agony. So far the worse decision I had made is to patch with my ex-girl friend which ended me up in a emotional entanglement. I have no regrets in most of my decisions but the best decision which I am still very happy about is that I decided not to appeal to other schools when i found myself posted to Republic Polytechnic. Seeing me enjoying good results and learning so well, I am happy that I had made this decision which had changed my life to a better end. Another one was to decide to talk and make my stand clear instead of keeping quiet and see things fly by in my team of M.E.L.T management which I saw results coming out which I am personally happy and confident about the camp once again.

Thats all.... hmm somehow I finding out that my perfectionist thinking is going up and is already inviting some people to loathe me. Have to do something to curb that, on my way to earn more respect and more acceptance like what I enjoyed during my OC era in SJAB. Giving myself that drive again...

13 August 2007, its a blue and angered Monday

Early in the morning I got a shocking news! Someone is actually avoiding me, well I pretty much can guess the reason why. Thus perhaps I will find a right time to talk to her. haiz~~~ being serious in work can also result into such entanglement of friendship, seriously there is something wrong in this world.

Sad to say, I had a whole night of soul searching; actually I had did nothing wrong, perhaps some misunderstanding and over imagination of myself. I am right to ask about the process, else if I will never know it and co-ordinate what that needs to be co-ordinate. I have to protect the integrity of the project, can't just let everyone off and let them do whatever they want. Everyone knows what they are doing, and true enough that is an impressive ability, but thats if you are working alone; don't ever use that when you are in a team because everyone has the right to know what you are doing.

Trust, all of a sudden this word ring in my ears like swam of bees. I used to get this from my ex-girlfriend but right now I have a upgrade. Have I not entrust enough trust? To split my project to so many parts for so many of you to take it up? I could have plan all this on my own, isn't it? Please respect my position and my offer, its not about finishing what is yours and hiding it as if someone will steal it, you are not alone~~~ Yes its hard for me to trust people, but if I had given you the trust, PLEASE STOP DOING THINGS THAT WILL MAKE ME SUSPECT YOU ANYMORE!! I am a defensive person, I know and hope you understand...

Was pretty disappointed after what I saw, thus affecting my mood a little. But solving the day's problem quickly enlighten my mood. Continued to soul search on bus, reached home and strum the guitar; lying on the sofa thinking of the issues; soon after singing "your call", I fall into a deep sleep on my sofa....

13 August 2007, just 3 minutes into the day and here I am blogging. Just finished doing some parts for the M.E.L.T camp and decided to tell you guys about my dull and irritated life.

Is it my personality?? Why do I feel like everyone is keeping a distance from me? WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG??? Sometimes I wonder, but it will just be great for a person to actually tell me, am I so unaccessible?

Maybe I am not trusting enough, kind of hard for someone to convince me and receive my trust. I have to say sorry for those whom I had spoke to with suspicious and serious words, its my history that contributes to this. I believe I am a total perfectionist who have high expectations for myself and those working with me, and I understood that sometimes we have to lower down our expectations so that we are not strangling ourselves or those who are working with me. Sad to say, I can't do it, it just makes my heart go sour to see things falling apart and not into place; so guys pardon me.

I believe some people out there have certain expectations from me as well. Which I believe is what all my facilitators and teachers are talking about, potential... I find myself not using my human relation skills to work but with my own working attitude, my ambitions and my foresights. Practically, people approach me if they think I am beneficial to them but little will stay as real buddies to me. I saw this practical reaction in my school, when I can't solve a particular thing, I become nothing to others' eyes..

Life is so unpredictable and this society is so full of conspiracy. You never know what will happen next to you and you can never ever know what people are doing behind you. The most you can do is to suspect with no concrete evidence to take actions. Thus it is important to learn how to handle those who are out to bring you down.... And I promise I will learn to be cruel when I need to... Prejudgments from others, I will learn to prove them all wrong... Pessimistic, am I? No I believe I am just being realistic and practical.

Just got some lecture from my mother as she complain that I am too silly to do things for others without giving myself any benefits. Am I really so? Maybe at times I am just to considerate to others feeling which in the end making myself lost. Perhaps I shall train up on my killer instincts like what Honsonn is talking about. Cruel and fearful at the right time, its all man by himself.

Thought of the day: Why is it that some does things so smoothly with so little unfortunate things happening to them? While some always fails or things doesn't go smoothly and yet receive prejudgments from others?

ShaoCheng-logy(line 9): Cruel to those who are cruel, Friendly to those who are Friendly.

9th of August, National day; a day where all Singaporeans will remember and celebrate the independence of our nation.

So thus, I followed the gang of N~Zire to the Padang area to actually experience the atmosphere of this celebration. Kind of disappointed since we are unable to get the tickets for the parade and also failed to squeeze to the merlion park to get a close view of the parade. Thus we are left with no choice but to view the performance from the screen on Padang. Fortunately we are still able to view the fireworks and also some air performance. Well done, as I forgot to bring my camera so there is no pictures to show =( But its enough to actually have it in my mind and I swear I will try harder next year to get the tickets.

We joke about our own country, we curse and swear our leaders at times but its very heartwarming to myself that I'm still so happy to be in this nation. Without fail, I will feel the sense of patriotism when national day come and feel so proud when I see the flag flies in the air. It makes me feel that actually after all, we still love this nation of us. Since young, I had never fail to get excited when I am talking about enlisting into the National Service. It might sound very Singapore-educated for me to say that we should protect our own nation and Singapore owe no one a living; but come to think of it actually it all makes sense. Thus doing my best in the army which will soon be coming, had become one of my goal and a must-do principle. Despites all the unfortunate things I have, the failures and unhappiness I believe I will still do my utmost best to protect this country, not because the government taught me so but because this is where I mature, fall and stand up, my friends and most importantly its here where I got the sense of life.

Thats the patriotic paragraph above... M.E.L.T camp is on the run, and I hope I am doing fine as the project head and transparent to everything; I just don't like the feeling of being outdated. Holiday is coming, but it is never going to be a rest, there will be lots to do during this holiday, I will sum them all out in the next entry. Last but not least, I got another A for UT3 networking.. HAHAHA, looks like my target to score good G.P.A is on its run!! A series of happy and good things are happening to me, I love it and will cherish it just pray and hope that these will last longer =)

Thought of the day: I will learn to protect those I love and those who love me, the things I have and my style...

26th July 2007, back once again.... Having some trouble sleeping, thus thought of blogging now. Hmmmm, just finish up what I have to do for the proposal for the melt camp...

Nowadays, I am working on a list of quotes which is creatively generated by me. This set of quotations shall remind me of my principles. Thus, they will all form Shaocheng-logy. You see, the purpose is because I need something to remind me of my principles so that I will not forget them and betray myself.

About going to school, I should be soon celebrating the coming of HOLIDAY!!! That is so going to be saying good bye to JAVA, IT security, Database and networking. Kind of love these modules though, gave me the specialty. So school was great anyway, as I found back the very moltivation to go back to school. Anyway facilitators are always commenting that I should ask more questions to other teams, hmmm but they never know why I never do so... I don't take questions as personal attacks, but I have this feeling some do. Either it makes the whole class think they are in a war of "A"s or its some principles of theirs which makes them be so defensive. But however, one of my facilitator gave me the following comment, which is quite a useful advice for me.

Sorry its kind of blur, I am particularly attentive to this whole paragraph talking about questioning other team.
" I understand that some students 'shoot' questions for the sake of making the other person look bad, but I hope that you will not feel personally attacked its normal, constructive questioning turns a little aggressive. This is one of the skills that you have to learn. That is learning how to handle people who are out to bring you down. Think about how you can defend your stand, and whether or not the questions they are asking is relevant".
WoW! I love this facilitator... She is right, I have to learn to handle those who are out to bring me down as there seems to be alot... Can't just keep avoiding those people because they will always be back to shoot me down. I shall learn to not let those people get what they want, but maintaining a peaceful me....

hmm.. shall stop here...

Shaocheng-logy (line7) Learn to handle those who are out to bring you down.

In my head, I sing....



Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
I'm listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take
while you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

16th July 2007... I should say a big FINALLY to see myself sitting in front of my laptop screen with the blogger browser up.A real long time since I last blog, and the reasons are the usual busy.

School life? Honestly speaking, there is almost nothing to say here besides telling you that I went to school almost everyday only till recently when I started to skip lessons. Mainly last week which I skipped Friday and Monday lesson. Meiqi was like saying that I have Monday blues and Holiday mood. Haa~~ smart guess I would say, that was one of the few reasons I had. For last Monday, I was seriously so frustrated and tired that I decided to not go to school for the day which I found out later that it was a wise choice though. For the sinful bad Friday(13th), so tired to go to school thus faking my sickness and sleep my way for the day. Its the 13th of Friday, it might had been a bad day.

Melt camp? Planning stage coming to the end. And I wonder if I had done a good job... But it seems like we are all behind schedule for one week. The meeting today was canceled at the very last minute. Pretty angry when I heard that news as I am in the doubt that my teammates can't make it till the last minute and not directly even. So anyway, that was some rushing hot blood, thus I am cool right now. I am more concern on the plan of the activities that will be running on the camp, the proposal which I need to compile and the clients which I need to settle and approach. I fully aware that this is no one man job, I will take the good initiative and all that I have for this thing as a project head just to run this marvelously for one good time. I failed before, it can be quite demoralizing.Its understandable for me that sometimes we just can't put down our pride to be under a person that have failed before, but I have to emphasize that I don't need anyone to work for me BUT TO WORK with me for a better good. I am aiming right at the camp, to run this well; trust my teammates are with me, I believe they will. I understand that I am already in a situation where I just can't fail this anymore. I am blinded from some facts, or everything is just fine?

Just for the past 3 weeks, I had receive comments and also comparison of my face with others. Personally, I am quite pissed by that.I shall spare the details because its a "everywhere I go thing". Well, I wonder should I blame anyone or should I blame myself. Part of the wonder, have I had really comment someone's bad looking face on a random basis so much so that I had hurt that person; I have to say I have not seen the high frequency in that? Anyway thanks for those who had commented, I understand where I stand and I will never bring my look out as a means to serious market myself to irks the other party off, so EASE!! Next, I don't need any one in this world to tell me how turn off I am in terms of appearance or worse a third party to determine or prove how turn off I am. Lastly, if you would like to comment on me please take a good look at the mirror as well.

Climate changing is for real, world is turning upside down is also too good to be true. You might have heard people saying "APPEARANCE DOESN'T MATTER". Ladies and Gentlemen, I present you that lie of the world. Once I heard from my buddy saying that the society is very particular about how a person look, he says for example a handsome guy with better charisma will tend to get a job in an interview compared to an average man with a good charisma. I thought that was something which is not so true. But soon I see this practical reality of this society. Just recently I went to Giordano for interview, so what happen was I am suppose to give them my particulars. Upon handling up those information, the staff started to look at Nigel, Shawn and me very throughly on our hair and face. Very practical, it seems like they are looking for those who look good to fill the part time slots. So another thing was that, once I walk down my Campus Agora with another friend of mine who had been quite popular among the girls for his look. So we met this lady whom we both know, being polite I said hi but her immediate attention was to my friend beside me. HAA~~ I was like, thanks huh??? I watched 200 pound beauty and there was this particular quote in the movie which says "there are 3 types of women in this world, the beautiful ones who all man will treasure; the average ones are the necessity and the ugly one are rejection." A pretty structured quote to describe women in men eyes. I had did something which I thought was quite stupid of me but it was just for fun. " there are also three type of man in this world, the handsome ones who will always be the topic of admiration, the average one who are all subjected to comparison and the ugly one who will always become the joke for the year." SIGH~~~ Fortunately, this is just the frown side of the society; there is always otherwise. Part of Shaocheng-logy will say: Comment only the good things, reflect on the bad things. To use this on the scenario here it simply says, for those who like to randomly comment on other's appearance please only make a big hu-ha for those who you think looks good, for those who looks bad just keep it to yourself/among friends and make sure it don't leak. For those bad looking or average ones, know where you stand and don't invite idiots that may just demoralize you...

Since I got the time, I shall share a story told by Honsonn about his senior. This man named Donald(correct me if I am wrong) who was a very enthusiastic man and had excellent results. He is a cheerful man, though he likes to irritate others. A few months ago, he was diagnosed of brain tumor. It was a malicious tumor which spreads fast and was endangering his life. But this respectable man knew he will die, but he never gave up and fought with the devil till the end. Unfortunately, god always takes away a good life; he passed away. Honsonn told us this story of his senior in the context of a brother who sort of sell us out and he feels that everyone should have a second chances for the mistakes they made because life is unpredictable.I am agreeable to him, life is indeed unpredictable. Thus I have to learn to treasure and cherish the every moments I have with the people around me... Unpredictable life...


I am done for the day, with more busy and ****-up days coming for the week. So much things to worry, so much things to consider and so much things to think and brainstorm on. As usual I will pray for the goodwill in each day I go through.... zzzzz

Shaocheng-logy (line1)
The world will never try to accept you, but you can try to make the world accept you...

Song of the day:

05 July 2007, it had been a long time since the last time I blog here. The weeks had not been very good for me.

What will you do if you are frustrated over things around you? What will you do if you fall down? Will you learn to fall. Can you tolerate the injuries and hide the scars after that? Can you stop thinking and imagine about your surroundings for that one minute?

Just lately I am kind of very frustrated nowadays and it had been deteriorating my performance. There is no definite answer to that, just feel frustrated every morning. It seems like any thing around me can frustrate me now. In the morning, when my hair refuse to stand, waiting for the bus, which is always late. When I can't really think about an issue effectively when my brain feel so struck, thus when the other answer to the issue came, I will get glares which seems to be saying"hey, why are you so stupid?". Then generally I will feel stupid. Thought of using violence to solve that, like punching a punch bag; but the problem is I have no punch bag. Thought of singing, but my sister is forever in my room. I don't quite like singing out my anger in front of any body. haiz.. Should stop this frustration soon, if not the message that transmit to my mood everyday is " hey, lets just give up."

22 June 2007, look back and it had been a long time since I last blogged. Well, you guys are used to it? (haha)

Back from school holidays, pretty bored at home. Thus for most the time, I am out to play sports. Every tuesday and thursday is judo and Friday Basketball. Swimming on wednesday, if not soccer. Anyway, just very happy that my skills for all these sports had improved~~!! Visited Kbox on the last wednesday of the holiday, sung and drunk all the way. errrrrrrrrrrrr kind of forget what else I had done after that HAHA so is the rest of the holiday.

Anyway, there is this girl whom I saw on bus for continuous 2 days. First day, she was sitting diagonally opposite of me and the second day she walk past me while alighting the bus with a surprised smile to me and that was WHEN i started noticing her. HAHA, but anyway I find her quite beautiful and cute. Height is about 160++ with a beautifully tanned body. There is a saying in chinese which says, the first meet is by chance, second meet is concidence, third meet is fate. So I was waiting for myself to see her again for the third time but sadly I didn't see her for the third day else if I might make an effort to know her! HAHA... Something tells me I am just a bus away from her on the third day....Such a puzzle of my heart as her face had been imaging on my mind for the past 3 days already, could this be an infatuated love?Or is it just a spark that cause that small fire which will extinguish one day?

School had been quite a drag for me for the week. Database SQL, JAVA, Networking and IT security and what SO EVER!! Don't really have the mood to do things right or even lead my teammates well to the solution for the day. Well, I had been forcing myself to come to school just to get that few more good results...

Now, I have some problem dealing/handling or even getting use to some people around me. Some just take me as a competitor, omg as if they are worth for me to defeat them. Rubbish.... I shall spare the details, don't wanna invite any revenge oriented spamming on my tagboard =D

Will be going for grading tomorrow, FOR MY YELLOW BELT!! Finally i have the drive for this sport.HAHA...

Shall stop here, i am still in class actually...

10 June 2007... Look here!! I am the owl again for tonight.....

Kind of bored, BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That should work.. understand?? bored....

9th June 2007...

All of a sudden, I thought I am an Owl. Why? I noticed that I have been much more active in the night than in the day. Is this part of mutation?? Most of my ideas for projects and stuff like this are done in the night.What is worse is I am always sleepy in the day. I am done for sure man, having more night life than day life. hmmm, should I join Police Force than since I am so active in the night, for then I will be the reason why Singapore sleep well in the night. WAHAHA...

Holidays had been trainings ,some games and guitar. Judo's grading had been postponed to next saturday. Had continuous physical excercise for the past 3 days and I admit that I had not been excercising for a long time. Stamina and strength had all deteriorated. Speaking of grading, I had not even really practise on the throws and ground work.. hmm I am so going to take that 5th Kyu(yellow belt). HAHA, quite slow in grading because the federation is alway slow further more I missed 2 gradings already. Pathetic huh?? Had been crazy about Need For Speed and also Blitzreig. Games are always boring to some, so I guess I shall not share the details. Guitar? hmm what is there to share beside the melodies and rhythm of it?

There is this one extra thing I am doing currently, and that is designing my own blogskin!! hahaha.. I had been trying since the start of the holiday, thus if this is successful more skins will come from me!! If I had really have the capablities then I might go into even more advance development. haha..

Shall stop here, a few days more I will be going to K box again... Seriously I had not sang for a long time, I am quite dissappointed with my deteriorated vocal the last time I went with my classmates.. hmm, back to some more vocal training!! wahaha.

3rd June 2007, finally june and here I am in the middle of the night? Ok fine, morning.... Don't really have the urge to turn in to the bed, thus stay up for movies; games and blog of course.

Finally, this thing which we call holiday descend to my life. So like an angel in my life... Cut the crap, I am going to enjoy this 2 weeks long holiday. Whats up for this holiday?? Into some planning for the external project, it will better work this time. Putting my time in Guitar as well, Don advice to hold my perseverence and patiences for this instrument. Just loud and clear here, I WILL!! There will be more things which I will be doing for this holiday... Anyway, my results for the term ends...

Well, quite satisfied with the results but of course what I want is stll pretty far. When I used to think that good results doesn't mean that I will be sucessful, but not really so now; I had to accept the fact that I am living in this world where that piece of paper and recognition is so much important. Just doing myself a favour=)

For the last day of my school, I had JAVA lesson. Touching on Object Oriented Programming. Till now, I still can't get the codes done.. wahaha.. FOR THE FIRST TIME I FAILED A PROGRAM!!GOD DAMN IT!! Its ok, human make mistakes and I truely understands it...

As usual for friday, there is this standard; N~Zire Meeting. I read Xiao Fei Xiang's blog, and gave some thoughts to it. Had everyone changed? or had everyone matured. What caused it? Happy or sad? We have a important person handling his 3Ps, we have competitivness in a casual Basketball Match. Fortunately we have smiles and laughter occasionally. Is it a stage of maturity when guys became serious in things they do, play hard work hard? Or was it something else bad enough to happen?? Well, I have no exact answer to all this questions but just hope that all the good brothers will not just disband like this. Remember the craps, remember the soccer teams we trashed, remember the songs that rock others....

Well, I too had changed.. I am pretty sure about it =) The way I dress, changed. The way I think changed... My perspective changed... What else? There is this something which I lose, after one year in RP. Remember there was once this facilitator of mine during my year one semester one class told me that I have the verbal power to convince and to inspire. Well, I lose that confidence and that drive to be a good presenter at a time when I don't even know it. I find myself stumbling more and more... Just recently I felt that confidence and drive coming back, is it that the devil had been moved away from me?? I really hope so... I don't want to lose my faith and confidence again..

hmm,well I am done for the day.. er.. ok morning... Before my mother steps in and yell at me, i shall turn in to the bed for my own good...

30th May 2007, opps I broke my promise on the last entry.. Kind of forget to continue the last entry..haha.

It had been a very long week after my birthday... Finally I submitted my professional profiling proposal to the school. hmmm, I will be doing a profile for Retail Industry. For alot of RP students, this choice seems to be a sucide. But I am ready to take this... Industry is definately a very big thing to analyse and so, I took the advice of scoping my profile all the way down to the sectors of the industry...So thus, I will be looking into the competitive environment in department stores and E-commerce, which from there I will recommend new entrants on the competitive measures. Well there are 2 reasons why I did not choose to profile a company...
1. I have no company in mind...
2. I want to learn more about the industry I am interested of...
Yah, and that is the two main reason why I choose that.
Academically, I also hope that my profile will help me somehow since I had been hoping to field into Retail and hospitality next year. Knowing how retail industry process, I will be able to quickly understand the applications used in that industry. I guess I shall not talk so much about it, lets just wait till it is being approved.

There is this thing which I am personally happy about. I had got my first A in the UT-_-''' there is only one test so far that is being graded. But A will be driving force for more of such 'A's in the future... PUSH FOREVER!!

I guess I shall stop here..there are plenty for me to do now...

Again.. out of boredom, I did these

Mermaid 'cbo', am I that beautiful? haha...

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are. While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need. Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational. You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

wahaha , this one is cool.. I always thought I am either an owl or a hawk... this test comfirms.

Your Power Bird is an Owl

You are beyond wise. You are so smart, you're almost prophetic. Your inner voice always speaks the truth, and you take the time to listen to it. You are good at seeing who people are... including the darkness of others. As a result, you tend to have a rather dark - yet realistic - outlook on life.

What's Your Power Bird?

hmmm...

What Your Favorite Color Blue Says About You:

Emotional --- Affected --- Sensitive Peaceful --- Tranquil --- Connected Spiritual --- Experimental --- Deep

What Does Your Favorite Color Say About You?

exactly my physical blood type..

Your Inner Blood Type is Type B

You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day. Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable. And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success. You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible. You are most compatible with: B and AB Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio and

What's Your Inner Blood Type?

yeah.. i feel it too..

You Are 78% Perfectionist

You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others. While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high!

Are You a Perfectionist?

Your Inner Color is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

What's Your Inner Color?

Quite true...

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills. Flexible and broad minded, you can fit in to any situation. There's no telling where your life will take you. Practical and down to earth, you're a doer not a dreamer. You rather get something done than think about it all day. Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

Do you guys???

People Envy Your Confidence

You have the attitude and self esteem to take on anything. Failure is beyond not an option for you - it doesn't even cross your mind. People envy your ability to take on any challenge ... and they're secretly afraid you think you're better than them. You don't. You're just sure of yourself.

What Do People Envy About You?

28th May 2007, just back from school.. A Showcase of what I had done during the bored and tired third meeting...

Your Life is Rated PG-13

Your life isn't totally scandalous, but you definitely don't shy away from adult themes!

What is Your Life Rated?

You are a PC

You're practical, thrifty, and able to do almost anything. Appearances and trends aren't important to you. You just like to get the job done.

Are You a Mac or a PC?

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

Taurus - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad. You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice. Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak. Your negative traits: Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships. If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander... You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset. Your ideal partner: Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you. Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave. A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart. Your dating style: Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant. Your seduction style: Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy. Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either. Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time. Tips for the future: Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you. Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best. Lighten up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions. Best color to attract mate: Pale blue Best day for a date: Friday

What's Your Love Profile?

You Are Incredibly Logical

Move over Spock - you're the new master of logic You think rationally, clearly, and quickly. A seasoned problem solver, your mind is like a computer!

How Logical Are You?

Your Values Profile

Loyalty: You value loyalty a fair amount. You're loyal to your friends... to a point. But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties. Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself. Honesty: You value honesty a fair amount. You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it. If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it. In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity." Generosity: You don't really value generosity. Your needs always come first, no matter what. And you'll possibly help someone else out... But only if it helps you in return. Humility: You value humility highly. You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are. And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better. You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low. Tolerance: You value tolerance a fair amount. You are open to new cultures, beliefs, and ideas. You have very few prejudices that you're aware of. And while you are tolerant, you do stand true to what you believe.

The Five Factor Values Test

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

You Should Drive a Blue Car

You're the type of driver who isn't hung up on the what car you drive. You don't need a flashy car to show off your wealth or style. Instead, you go for value and reliability. You're quite practical. You're a great driver, but you don't show off. Part of your skill is not standing out on the road.

What Color Car Should You Drive?

My actual post will come after this....