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NCO course 2005

today the day i prayed for.. but hmm.. its a disaster day...NCO course..day one..so suay, early in the morning already scolded le..but thats my fault la..cos i din cut hair..haha.. so i am like a ah beng instructor there.. so i am ready to get the whacking..its a veri stress and chaos in the morning..lots to do.. cadets registration, then must check strength, check uniform, choose grp ic .so on so on... all the instructors were so like busy den we heard this' INSTRUCTORS!!!!!' becos it is too busy so we din respone..den in the end..scolded again.. wah..sometimes i feel life can get too suay at times oso...

actually, i am not particularly happy today..maybe its that i am not use to the life yet..it has been 5 months since i scold people..5 months since i act as a leader..furthermore, pinned down on hair alot of times.. this kind of pin pointing reminds me about my NCOC as a trainee... I don't like to put personal stuff into my work.so I didn't argue..cos i got one strong feeling tt pin-pointing comes with personal conflicts... however,now i am more keen of training the trainees in my gp.. thought of leaving there at first, but their keen eager face to lead destroy my intention..I will stick to my reason of coming, The urge to train leaders..... anyway its NCOC that change my life....

back home, i am so dead.. don't feel like waking up, troubling over my hair..haiz..nvm lucky i noe how to spike nicely..haha..if not like mushroom head..haha..anyway, haiz..bothering over the course assessment, how to grade them..some veri hard to grade..cos dey quiet like no one bussiness...

99% of life is sufferings and regrets, how you juggle determines how long you live...

Life is like an expressway, can speed, can corner, can drift..but of course in the end got accident...

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another day out...

hmmm..exams over le... suddenly its a life with no directions and slack life....last time still got study to worry abt..still got tis thing tt thing..suddenly aft the paper, nothing to do..now life so sian..whats life now.. wake up late, watch tv, play computer, chat and look for jobs..haha.. bt what happen to me ar..isn't this what i want b4 o's end..haha.. shit hor...

Today..hmm spend time with buddies.. one of them got prob..so do what i should do..help... den aft that.. play ranonline..yea character lvl up le..so shiok.. haha.. then discuss with shi yong about training since i am going back..then prepare for NCOC this sat..haha.so fast...

Well since life so sian.. so today nothing big to write..onli to say that i have to change b4 i become a pig in the end..here is some things i wan to do for the nxt, like 7 mths

November n begining of dec 2005--->

1. settle my soccer teams..all the necessary researches
2. go help in NCO course and 2 bring JYSS SJAB back to its shape
3. moltivate SJAB comp team to win
4. Go train my physical fitness through joggin and swimming and doing sits up..
5. change a outlook appearance...highlight my hair(mayb aft NCO course then do)
6. search for a job, take a income

Mid Dec 2005---->

1. Do my job to the best
2. Get on with advance training in my soccer team
3. Go take up Akido(mayb, still need parents consent)

Late Dec and Jan---->

1. still do job
2. go SJAB to train pple
3. get the COmp team ready

Feb---->

1. be there for SJAB and comp team
2. be prepare for result slip..humpf..dis one scare le
3. choose my courses for POLY
4. improve my appearance again

March- July---->

1. Do the same thing as above
2. prepare for Poly life
3. get on with life
4. find one new gal friend(hehe, kiddin)
5. no more slacking

thats should be all..but this is only the draft..i feels like there is alot for me to do.. i am not the best yet now.. somehow i got urge to get the whole world..but i know if i really have the whole world, in the end i wil still need to hav a fix place to stay.. maybe it give me a veri impt thing to do now, think of my future.. I always want to be in a mangerial post or a presenter or a moltivator.. but it looks like i am still undergrad of all this..after i saw an ambulance tt day, i mean yesterday... i think back, i did quite alot of first aid thingy, and thus found out that i am more confidence in rescue work and first aid...nvr i see myself panick when emergency come or saving someone..compared to ytd when i play soccer...i am not panick when i dribble the ball pass defenders, but i panick when i shoot...furthermore, i am more confidence when give instructions during an emergency, remembering a case i once met..though tts my first time and a little chaos..its still prove my basic abilities in handling stress like questionings and so on...I find myself more to those kind of risk taking and adventure seeking type..so its like a very stressing thing now for me.. but whether or not, theres one thing i know, i have to do something to myself b4 i can do something for others.... as for part time job and about taking up some pain in life..hmm i feels tt still early.. life for me is still long.. pain and sufferings I had b4, the rest, let it come naturally i dun find it for myself....hmmmm.. tts shd be alll

KK.. now signing out.. with one chinese qoute(translated).. so long as u don' give up at the edge of time, tradgedy will turn to miracle....

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First Entry...HOW's Life??
lols..this is my first entry in my new blog..ya.. new blog also mean new life..haha.. hmm.. almost 2 months since i'm ditch back to single...sort of getting with the single life here.. that kind of systematic life kind being unloaded from worries...thats life, teenage love, how many of them are successful? har... hard to understand hard to answer... Given a chance to go back in time, perhaps i would not had gone into relationship in the first place..haha.. but anyway..ya life is kind of good and smooth now...After the 7 october accident...My injury after an accident on the day i was ditch is getting better...no longer pain, but scars all over, perhaps that should be on me now emotionally, scars...haha.. but anyway..ya life is kind of good and smooth now....
Time drifting:--- back in time...code **071005**
maybe i should write what happen to me here 2 months ago...ya its sad, but kind of a way for me to forget...so I don't mind sharing....but the aftermath of the tragedy is a life-changing path for me
abt 2 mths ago, a girl i thought to have love me, left me... unreasonably left me... don't know why when she tell me the reason, i became so angry... so lose... she said her feelings had died on me.. har... so funny to think back now.. what a joke.. that love is a joke...b4 she broke up with me, i cycled pass her house, met her sis.. got the info she was wif the other guy... upset?? think too much??? cross the road.. then a BANG!!!..wow.. dislocated my wrist.. Good buddy shawn, sent me home.. then the msg came in... asking me to call this no. So i call..its my gf.. she wants to break up with me..ask her, tt guy is wif u..she say no... ironically... so who's no. is this.. i have no choice..but to sliently listen to her bullshits... I asked 3 times why? she say her feelings dead..no longer like me.. tell her... if thats the case, we shd not have start this..ans was nt 2 hurt me..reply frm me... then which is more hurtin?? now or b4??quick in mind, she changed her words, like me b4,bt feelings dead now...asked her...is she in love wif other guys..she said NO... i asked why again?? she emphasize again..her feelinngs dead on me.. ANGERED!!..I rebuked UTTER BITCH!..hang up the phone... went cycling again...
Perhaps its the pain..perhaps its the sorrow.. I felt nothing from my injury.. not till i calm down, then i found out that my wrist hurts...look on my fone, wow..the news spreads fast.. i got 5 miss calls frm my buddy, 2 msg frm my buddy... sleep quite well tt day, perhaps just too tired..wake up..found out that i can't bend my wrist.. afraid..refuse to tell parent..go find buddies..buddies bring me to doctor... send to hospital..thereafter in cast for one week..Pain no longer aft 1 week..but wound is still on its way of healing..whether or not.. likewise of my physical wound, emotionally i too will have a ugly scar...
along the way, heard lots of story... wonder why the news spread tt fast... so its that unfaithful ex who send the words around...
heard she wif one man, a 20++ man.. no names shall be mentioned...but he is a 'man'... i know him as he is in sjab.. the man who always ask me abt the status btwn my stead..."broke up already?"... the ans is always no..till then there is finally a 'yes, we broke up'.. that man no console... mocked me...onli reply wif" HAHA, relax la..over means over le..haha"laugh and laugh and laugh...i could have describe him wif this poem
that man is a thorn my throat...A man who dun knows wats love...a man without a brain. is that still a man?? stupidly straight forward??no conscience?? egoistic, womanizing...thats a man?? its an outdated man...modernally a loser..thats the 'man'
second piece of news...the unfaithful one insulted me... she broke my heart..wat more she wants??? i shd be the one insulting, bt she did it beside the fact i din insult her..i could have start a rally describing abt bitch using her as an eg.bt i din...Ironically the story made up by her is to put me in losing end..bt neither she noes she is quite hated among all.. reason to brake up wif me is tt feeling is gone... bt the words tt is spread around..she explained" SHAO CHENG IS A GUY WHO SEE PPLE GOT STeAD DEN WAN..SO I BREAK UP WITH HIM"... so lame... a little gal trying to be noble?? nvm dreams are there for her to dream on...always hears frm her tt guys doesn't respect gals...so she hate guys...har?? then what abt her.did she respect guys??hmm.. dun noe...she is a sore loser..she doesn't wan 2 be pinned dwn..well..dun blame her..she still young...
One month passed..getting prepared 4 o'lvl... met her along the streets..she smiled..and say hello... i din smile to her..onli a simple hi n walk away fast enuff... funny?? why she still got the cheek to smile?? har..forgotten.. she can smile becos i am like no other guys in her, a toy in her toy box..to play... i found out too why i kan smile..tts becos i once treat her like an angel..now she is a devil..who on earth will smile to a devil...sickening...
2 mths flies..i'm finishing my o'lvls... whether tt sorrow and painful exp she gave me had really spoilt my life is yet to be known... i felt guilty for myself even till now...o'lvl its still a mystery whether i pass or nt..so scared.. but whether or not.. i know i won't revenge on her... anyway hatred begets hatred.. and i shall take shi mu yi qi's words.. tt gal..is not worth it...forget abt her and i will find true love and the worth one...I wun also be demoralised..thus taking my god proverb... happiness after tragedy...And i will strives on....for taking my motto...Life is full of sufferings, No pain?? no gain...
What i had learnt
In regards to no pain no gain... i have to say tt..the pain i exp allows me to matured even more and know even more...Love was once purely a need of trust n faith to me initially...but aft all this it proved me that its more than what it is... Love as usual needs absolute trust and faith...Love is also as usual noble and life changing... What i really learn is that, love is more than just celebrating anniversary and saying tt three magic words... I also learn that True love comes with no reason... i learnt also to have big pairs of eyes in searching of true love..never shall i be hurted again by my nxt love.. and of course i will not hurt my nxt love....i will leave a perfect memory even if my nxt love dun work..bt i will make it work...
Lastly.. MY FAV CAR
haha.. well i play max tuning..and my new speed now is 640 HP..wow..haha.. so fast... kind of like speeding and so on abt cars..u noe cars have hidden beauties... now i shall share some pics of my fav car.. "" MAZDA RX 8""
marks fav car..initializing pics code**mazdarx8**