29th March 2008, just another day closer towards my final year. Getting alittle excitement about that, FINAL YEAR!!!

Anyway, I got the class allocation through some 'illegal' means. But it's all thanks to a pro hacker in our school who gain access to the school server. I mean I am not really sure whether this time round he hacked the server or the school just gave him some memo of understanding. Ok, back to topic. Just as I had expected, I have to run about block W6 through out the week.

Day 1:Manufacturing and Logistics system(W66L)
Some familiar faces like Kenneth. Ok make it a face.

Day 2: Financial and Banking Applications (W67F)
Alot of familar faces here all are my previous classmates. HAHA
Wei Tieng, Yew Wien, Shimah and Shee Ying

Day 3:Marketing(W66D)
I'm back to my previous class, W66D...
No one in this class knows me nor do I know them either. Total new faces... MORE FRIENDS!!

Day 4: IT project management(W66B)
Madi and Fion are the familiar faces.

Anyway, its really happy to know that I got all my choices for this semester. Same old goals I have every semester, nothing less than A!! haha.. Must be back to the roll of honors~

SJAB was one of my shock yesterday. Things had changed, from good to bad to WORSE~~ Politics among stubborn NCOs, ill discipline among cadets. I decided to actually listen to the stories that the NCOs have,honestly its all about politics. Jealousy and smart alecs, the core of the problem. I can't really return to help due to my tight schedule, so I'll just hope that SJAB will still be in one piece in the near future, should I decided to make a come back.

ok, got to go now...

March 28th, 2008 the sun is barely up and I'm already "up-ed". Awaken from a dream which I personally had trouble classifying, a nightmare or a comedy? Ordered 4 "roti prata", 2 eggs and 2 plain; but got roti john instead. Haaz, I woke up because of this and started to wonder what time was it. holyshit, its only 5 plus!!

The first song that rings in my ear when I woke up was this song, "Gui Ji" so thought I will search for this song in my classic song store. Found it and is happily listen to it now.

Anyway, the 3 "big" bros in N~Zire had a chatting come beer session yesterday night. It used to be 4 though, haiz... To sum up everyting, yesterday chatting session was something really remarkable; never expected everyone had so much to chat about =D We have times that we really need to cherish and remember, if not there will be nothing worth to keep the friendship.

MELT camp, for the first in my lifetime I led with agony. I can't really portray my feelings here in words. Nothing seems to be smooth. My weaknesses seems to be pouring everywhere on everyone in BC due to this camp. Its somewhere I can't really act, can't really say, can't really convince and I just wonder if its about a deteriorating me or just some problems and facts that I cowardly dare not face.

Michael shared with me what really was in his mind, I really hope thats what's he fired from his heart than his extra rounds. Its pretty true, I am not strong enough; his version was that I have no power to control my teammates in the team and they are all on my head. The downsides of being democractic was my version of why I am weak. Maybe I really care too much on how others feel when their ideas are rejected in this camp; I should had stayed firm on what I thought was right. Melt, something that had turned into nothing of my ideals and its really my fault to miss the importance of team development. Haaz, I was really fierce back then in SJAB; perhaps I should be so in BC?

"Reminising about the past", something that grown stronger in me ever since the start of this year. Looks like I am really stopping down to look around myself, haaz its seems to be an annual routine anyway. Had I really lived better in the past? With status, respect and just little bit of fame. There are really some stuffs I wished I could be more matured back then to deal with the issue,and those are people and places in my life I once valued but losed today.Haaz, I always thought that I had forgotten my past for a new life; but I'm wrong, I haven't forgot those stuffs; I had just simply put them aside. Reconstructing the "used to be seems" rather impossible now, all are beyond my reach and of course some requires serious consideration. Those high peaks in my life, really worth my time to reminising and take a good look at what I am today. Comparing myself today with what I used to be is really a "sour" thing to do.

Love, something which I had left for quite a time but yet have not much urge to pick it up again.
There is something I really hid in me and something which I am very surprised I have the hearts to put it aside. Who's the real one, had I just found and lose one? Someone who just never walk out of my mind, god damn it=/ Love is about doing some stupid and irrational things, do I really want to do those stuffs again??? I am nothing good enough for these things though thusMy conscience is clear, achievements and career before anything.

Haaz, feeling really "shiok" now as I poured out those that clot in my mind for this moment. Guess its back to sleep and get ready for the swimming later.

Thought of the day: Remember the good times.

March 26th, 2008; I just got home from another N~Zire meeting + "Man's" talk with Honsonn. Damn it~ And I just found a undesirable truth; my holiday is ending in 1 week time, when I'm enjoying my holiday the most.. ARGH~~~~~~~

Its about K-box today, after the long time promise to Derrick that, WE WILL GO one day. It took long enough before I can adjust myself back to what I'm use to be in K-box. I almost forgotten how to actually sing a particular song, since they are Chinese Songs. To make it worse, I woke up with a throat full of flams(I wonder if you spell it that way?). Only manage to sing some songs which that is up to the "use to be" standard. Songs like dao dai? Soledad? and some songs which the four heavenly kings in N~Zire used to sing. Haha, even now I can't help to sing the chinese sad songs the rock style =D Too much of Simple plan and Click five.

Everyone went different ways after a dinner at Pastamania. Shawn and Si Yang went to see their dick=X I mean their friend Dickson.Anita and Derrick went home. Nigel left us early for his work(which is my work but I decided to once again off). Thus left with Honsonn and I for a man session. We invited a "long time no see" member to join us for a chat, Sueh Li. Man, I really wish she will be back to crap with us. Anyway she didn't leave us just that she's too busy to meet us. So ya, its a chit-chat session with thousands of topics.

Talked about our appearance and Honsonn and I personally thinks that we are abit "ah-peh" haha, really sad we are just a little more rational and matured mentality only. Its also because of our attire, Honsonn dress "retro-ly" while I dress way too simple. Its always Jeans and a Tee. What to do, simplicity is my trademark. =D My extreme was to wear sport wears, someone actually says I am suitable for sportswear more than fashionwear. I look sporty and have a sport build, can't really imagine myself in skinny and some shirt with Funky, punky creature/words like "HEY FUCK ME IN THE ASS" that kind. Ya, so I think I look better with Addidas or Nike or Puma. Love to wear bermudas, a tank, slippers ,my addidas jacket over and finally a shade =D
Talking about style, I wanted to try something really daring to me. Really want to have a tattoo, but it will be a stupid idea now as I am admitting into the Army in no time. Tattoo means alot of paper administration to settle, so I'll wait for ORD... (long to go) What I wanted to try was a tribal symbol on my upper arm above the tricep and biceps. But of course I need to train for some muscles for that, it will look suck on a bone. And of course there is much to consider about, will anyone get scared by that?? I look scary enough already=D

haaz, its almost 5 in the morning and I doubt I can wake up for Judo again. haha.. Initially it was laziness and now its because there is so much social activities=D

Damn lots to do and achieve, life had suddenly feel so short and fast. I have a list of goals to complete for year 2008 and I really got to start fulfilling some~~ hmm time for some sleep.

thought of the day: I will only cherish the wonderful memories of the past and never walk the same dark road ever again.

March 22nd, 2008 just got back from N~Zire meeting. Had a rather fun basketball match, honestly this time round, I have a different feeling playing this ball game. Used to be very frustrated playing this game, because I can't dribble, shoot, pass, tackle well. But now, its not really the case as I can dribble and shoot better now thus the game is much more enjoyable now. =D

FYP allocation is out, my team are allocated to do a inventory system for our school(SIT). So basically just a online web base inventory system where user can check status of item and the administrator and issue and check the item. Considerably an easy task. So FYP means busy, I will soon be fill with planning, codings, designing and meetings. I really want to clinch an 'A' for this module like any other module I took. FYP 'A' here I come!!

Anyway, my sales had been really atrocious since February =D 5 sales 5 sales, haha I am wondering how to survive the balance in my bank. SO IT CAN'T GO ON THIS WAY~~!!! Got to do something, will be working tomorrow and clinch dealsSSS.

Thought of the day: Success is the mixture of everything I have.

20th March 2008, less than an hour late to talk about what happen on 19th March 2008. Sorry to have to repeat this kind of introduction sentence in almost all entries. What to do? The perfect feeling for blogging only comes in the night.

Its Honsonn's birthday today(19th March 2008), simple and nice. Had our dinner over at Seoul Garden and damn I had phobia on chili already, after it inflicted a terrible throat infection after the BBQ. But anyway its quite fun down there, eating and crapping. After that was movie time, watched the Semi Prom, quite funny though; initially I thought I had just wasted another 8 dollars on the movie tickets. hmmmmm, not really those tickets are complimentary. THANKS SHAWN~ haha.. go for more laser competition.

School is going to start soon, approximately another 2 to 3 weeks more. Pretty reluctant... I am excited about the fact that its final year already and it means time to put in double effort and 'chiong' all the way towards the finishing line to be a champion. Reluctant because my holiday fun just got to its peak~!

I am starting to think am I abit getting to become a feeling-less jerk? Use to sweet talk people and so on, but nowadays I am shooting off without being considerate~ hmm....

March 15th, 2008... Mark is down with the same problem again. Throat infection, which also means if the infection don't subside, my fever will not go down. Gees, wonder which god had I offended to meet with such a misfortune. It has been more than 10 years since my last throat infection. Fortunately this time round its not as 'jialat' as the previous case, about 2 months ago.

Haaz, lets forget about that I will make a speedy recovery before Honsonn's birthday this coming wednesday.

I am about 2-3 days late to talk about the Aranda Chalet N~Zire had as a replacement/compensation of the missing chalet last year December. Suppose to head back to SAF but Nigel has been lucky enough to get a 50% discount from Aranda. Honestly, I prefer Aranda now(haha), its so 'mansionate'. Its big, classical and comfortable(except the chairs I slept on). But sadly, it had been raining for the whole 3 days 2 nights in the chalet which really affect our activities. There is too much to share about this chalet, the pillowfight, trying the hottest sotong in the world, up and down beer game and so on. All I had to say is, this chalet was fun~

Everyone is down after the chalet, so I guess there is no N~Zire meeting yesterday. The very next outing is Honsonn birthday~ hmmm

March 8th, 2008. It's another friday. I mean Saturaday, just late for 2 hours. Don't have to say, you know what I am doing on this friday. Or should I say every friday? haaz, nothing much just usual routines.

Darn! I made a mistake again, a very foolish; stupid mistake. Just recently I had clinched a deal and I just subconciously forgot to take the customer contact number. Its already the second time,purely the result of stoning during work. But its because of this stupid mistake, I tasted the harsh reality of working life. It is almost near zero possiblities that someone will help you when you make mistakes, its all on our own. Just received some lecture from the Admin Manager of the company for this stupid mistake, of course I won't retaliate because its after all my fault. But I offered the possiblity that I can get the number from the customer which I think it's responsible enough for me to offer that but all I got was a very sarcastic remark ." Save the trouble la, just put down your number, anything wrong call you lo". Thanks huh! You, goh-liee goat. mEh-h-h~ (so random)

But afterall, the customer haven't call; guess that goat is already off to submit the Service agreements. Just pray hard the customer don't owe money or do anything to starhub~

Listening to some chinese songs now, its been a long time since I listen to these chinese songs. Its a change that I took 2 years ago? Year 1 semester 2, that was when. No more chinese songs, but soft English rocks or any variations of English songs. Jay Chou, Tank, Ah Du, LJJ are all history to me. Click Five, Boys like girls, Simple Plans are the present melodies and rhythms for my ears. Its a sudden taste change 2 years ago but I don't know why? But I know I am dying for a change back in my past and I know I had succeed because I had become someone who no one who known me 3 years ago will recognise me as Seah Shao Cheng Mark today. haaz, I really miss the road behind me and it makes me wonder; have I changed from good to bad? I had departed from where I am without landing on another place which it feels like flying alone among the clouds; performing stunts without any audience seeing. Or just crashed?

All that is left from my past is N~Zire, all of the rest had been thrown away and all that I have now is a new designed key with no lock to fit, it can't fit the past and it can't fit the present. But I'll stick to my theory, everlasting friendship is about putting the effort to maintain. So its about me to remember the common past and ignore the different present. Though my stories will never be understandable anymore but its ok, I'll listen and understand the stories being told.

haaz, looks like its always friday that I am specially emo. But its always short coming and smile will be back tomorrow, as always and hope it does. Thats all I have to share about my thoughts today.

Melodies from chinese songs died in my ear, its time to go back to English soft rock!~

Thought of the day: Future lies unknown to everyone, just where and who will I be?

March 1st, 2008... I am just late to talk about the day which happens only once every four years, thats the 29th February. Thats what they call the leap years when Earth will have an extra one day in the year. Something to do with Moon gravitational influences on Earth, but not really sure what is it about~ 29th February falls right on friday this year and just had the usual N-Zire meeting. Haaz, looks like those words are very common in my blog "usual N-Zire meeting". Lets put it this way, without them I think I will be back to my loner days~

Thought of the day: Don't understand why I will be so full of thoughts at the end of the week~