12th April 2008, I am late again for an entry about yesterday. It was a bad friday or should i say I screwed it?
Shao Hui was right, there's no point acting happy when you are not. But I have no choice because I know how much I can spoil a mood when I am really unhappy. I can say the most vicious the most hurting the most killing words in this world, but I just can't say words that are sweet and touch people. I lose my cool today; its really disastrous; its a failure to curb my unhappiness. Maybe its after all right to put all blame on myself and give in; little bro was right I am nothing just a loser. Anyway its my fault today, to make fun of a person who is already in pain. I owe a sorry to that brother i always call. But I just hate being rejected so violently even when I show no harm and I really do. Oh my fuck, Mark; Have fun do over you so much and make you forget about feelings of others?
I'm trying hard to stop making fun of people, its so uncool. No one enjoys it either and I can't find any other jokes.. Its really time to shut my mouth up for good.
Friends, we all stand on the same world. Maybe it's just me, I am out of the world. I need a break, to come back to this world? Or should I just continue listening to stories about the other world?
Anyway, I will still and still and still put a smile to disguise every unhappiness in me. Its only wise to do so.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Monday, April 07, 2008
April 7th, 2008 back to school and pulling myself back on a caltapult.
School is kind of ... today, took a cab to school and an frustrating experience at I.T. Helpdesk.
I guess the double intake of year 1s also means double the time to get to school every morning. The scenario of students + workers + NS men getting up 168 had worsen. Its the same time I set off for school as I did in the previous semester and always I will avoid this human jam; but this time round the human jam is really big. Thus, thats my morning~ Missed 2 buses. Along with some other year 3s like me, who gave themselves a silly smile " What the fuck, again??". Its first day of school and with the new policy, no one wants to get late so I was pretty left with no choice but to take a cab to school. Fortunately enough, I found 3 other year 3 students whom I know to share the ride.
Lifts broke down and a power trip~ thats what happen to my block today early in the morning. Guess the lifts and bulbs had too little excercise over the long holiday. Next on the school blues, I can't log in to my own computer using my own password. So much on the first day of school, lunch time is being sacrificed in I.T. helpdesk. Perhaps I should had consider working for my school I.T. helpdesk since I can even be asked for advices from the staffs. To solve my own problem, I gave a suggestion for the techs to help me out to solve( that was like after 1 hour of frustrating waiting, seeing them doing the same old thing over and over again without solving anything). Haiz, cool my circuits~ its a business bloom today over at I.T. helpdesk, guess they are all too busy.
Started on FYP today, met my team to get some planning on the way. Darn, everyone forgotten a very important documentation which our lovely indian advisor would like to see. THE REQUIREMENTS AND SCOPES.. But at least we were firm on the use case diagram for now. This wednesday is out as we can't have a full team to meet our advisor, so I suggested that we start on the initials and console the advisor next week. At least we won't waste this one week. Anyway, I am right I can trust this team of friends to do their work. Common goal- Graduation~
Some old friend came sighing this morning "haiz, its 8 more weeks to go~" Tomorrow, it is school again. Financial and Banking Applications, when it comes to money I'll take a little longer to digest. Yi Qi was saying, we should had chosen subjects/modules we think we can score high in. while I prefer to be good at something which give me good future. Interest and capability can be nurture so I should not study for exams only, but study for my future.
School is kind of ... today, took a cab to school and an frustrating experience at I.T. Helpdesk.
I guess the double intake of year 1s also means double the time to get to school every morning. The scenario of students + workers + NS men getting up 168 had worsen. Its the same time I set off for school as I did in the previous semester and always I will avoid this human jam; but this time round the human jam is really big. Thus, thats my morning~ Missed 2 buses. Along with some other year 3s like me, who gave themselves a silly smile " What the fuck, again??". Its first day of school and with the new policy, no one wants to get late so I was pretty left with no choice but to take a cab to school. Fortunately enough, I found 3 other year 3 students whom I know to share the ride.
Lifts broke down and a power trip~ thats what happen to my block today early in the morning. Guess the lifts and bulbs had too little excercise over the long holiday. Next on the school blues, I can't log in to my own computer using my own password. So much on the first day of school, lunch time is being sacrificed in I.T. helpdesk. Perhaps I should had consider working for my school I.T. helpdesk since I can even be asked for advices from the staffs. To solve my own problem, I gave a suggestion for the techs to help me out to solve( that was like after 1 hour of frustrating waiting, seeing them doing the same old thing over and over again without solving anything). Haiz, cool my circuits~ its a business bloom today over at I.T. helpdesk, guess they are all too busy.
Started on FYP today, met my team to get some planning on the way. Darn, everyone forgotten a very important documentation which our lovely indian advisor would like to see. THE REQUIREMENTS AND SCOPES.. But at least we were firm on the use case diagram for now. This wednesday is out as we can't have a full team to meet our advisor, so I suggested that we start on the initials and console the advisor next week. At least we won't waste this one week. Anyway, I am right I can trust this team of friends to do their work. Common goal- Graduation~
Some old friend came sighing this morning "haiz, its 8 more weeks to go~" Tomorrow, it is school again. Financial and Banking Applications, when it comes to money I'll take a little longer to digest. Yi Qi was saying, we should had chosen subjects/modules we think we can score high in. while I prefer to be good at something which give me good future. Interest and capability can be nurture so I should not study for exams only, but study for my future.
Sunday, April 06, 2008
April 6th, 2008; again I am 20 minutes late to talk about yesterday. Had a very sporty week, cramps and aches are invading me...
Had visited the gym twice this week, once on monday and today. Most likely this is going to continue as I have a goal for myself and of course IPPT is around the corner. Right now as I type, I can even hardly feel my limbs. Its anyway good for me as I can prepare myself before going back to judo training, which is somewhere monstrous. Haiz, still arguing with myself for the reason to turn up for judo training.
School is like practically tomorrow and there is more reasons to sleep early and wake up early to catch a good bus to school. My school had just decided another scheme which leaves us no chance to be late or absent.
This was the announcement pop up when I sign in leo today.
It used to be deduction of 0.5 grade after 3 accumulated late arrival, but now its every single lesson. And there used to be a 15 minutes grace, thanks to some who misused it (inclusive of me during semester 2) now we have no more grace. So for RP senior years students, its 8.30a.m every day SHARP. Have to wake up early avoid the squeezing in bus~
And they also decided to be more stringent in their policy, the screen shot below is something in our student study portal. Its a tracking system of how many lessons have you been absent, present, late, partially present(which means you decided to declare end of lesson yourself) or not in the first meeting. What a way to remind us~
Unlike the previous years where the school decide what I take for core general and core discipline. This time round, I decide what I am taking for my core specialization and electives. So base on my interest and future, I made my choice. I even have plans on the modules I am going to take on the second semester.
It seems like I have lots to achieve and fulfill this year.haaz, I am a freak and geek who loves to be busy.
Ok, the tireness is killing me~
Had visited the gym twice this week, once on monday and today. Most likely this is going to continue as I have a goal for myself and of course IPPT is around the corner. Right now as I type, I can even hardly feel my limbs. Its anyway good for me as I can prepare myself before going back to judo training, which is somewhere monstrous. Haiz, still arguing with myself for the reason to turn up for judo training.
School is like practically tomorrow and there is more reasons to sleep early and wake up early to catch a good bus to school. My school had just decided another scheme which leaves us no chance to be late or absent.
This was the announcement pop up when I sign in leo today.
It used to be deduction of 0.5 grade after 3 accumulated late arrival, but now its every single lesson. And there used to be a 15 minutes grace, thanks to some who misused it (inclusive of me during semester 2) now we have no more grace. So for RP senior years students, its 8.30a.m every day SHARP. Have to wake up early avoid the squeezing in bus~And they also decided to be more stringent in their policy, the screen shot below is something in our student study portal. Its a tracking system of how many lessons have you been absent, present, late, partially present(which means you decided to declare end of lesson yourself) or not in the first meeting. What a way to remind us~
Unlike the previous years where the school decide what I take for core general and core discipline. This time round, I decide what I am taking for my core specialization and electives. So base on my interest and future, I made my choice. I even have plans on the modules I am going to take on the second semester.It seems like I have lots to achieve and fulfill this year.haaz, I am a freak and geek who loves to be busy.
Ok, the tireness is killing me~
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