31st August 2007, celebrating the last day of August. Well, again I am early for an entry. Its one week into holidays and seriously I had not felt any relaxing moments since then. Monday to Wednesday was judo camp, Thursday which is today had a briefing for a roadshow job which will happen today(Friday).

Judo camp.... It was quite happening, despite the multiple injuries we had for this camp. All of a sudden, I thought I am back for NCO camp as Rudy and Joe was so fierce and demanding on the Dojo. Well, I was frustrated when I heard their demanding and commanding tone on the dojo, thus I was quite fired up for the exercise and training. Day one was a killer, we did judo training, some PT, a 3.2km jog around our campus and 6 laps of swimming over at the pool in sports complex. Second day was quite fun, despite that I injured my knee cap during a Rendori. Partially my fault as I insisted on a throw ,despite that the opponent had broke my points. Third day, Ivan was injured and I accompanied him to the hospital; then it was a home sweet home...

Well, will be working tomorrow, thus shall stop here. There is much more I have to do now, for M.E.L.T which I will start working on it when I get back home from work tomorrow.

27th August 2007, a Monday... Feeling so excited for the judo camp tomorrow which gives me this ability to stay up so late to drop an entry here. Besides that I have 2 announcement to make, Semester One is over!! and I HAVE A NEW PHONE!!!

So going to miss the days in my second year of RP education, and I am really proud of myself being able to excel through my IT years. Think of it, I had move out of the IT idiots circle and I am IT savvy now!! =D I hope I'm really a IT savvy as there is still a long journey to be completed in the field of IT. Anyway, I have 3 predicted module grades A, so lets hope I really get them and my semester dream is once again reached =)

W66D~~! I will never forget the times we have, the laughter and the companions. Shall write some message to them here, since everyone one in W66D is doing so in their blog...Anyway SORRY FOR BEING LATE!

For all facilitators...
Bernard( C121 data communication and networking): Professionalism seems to be his core discipline. Never break rules and follow the flow... He can really show off his talent in this module with all his impressive terminologies.

Jimmy( C108 Oriented Object Programming): I will never forget the first 2 Bs he gave me, but I am happy to get A's from him. A very helpful and understanding facilitator if you ever come across him.

Deborah(C107 Database system): To have the ability of floating and sneaking around true is very impressive=p Of course we never know when she will be leaving or had left, but nevertheless I love her module and she is a very helpful facilitator.

Magdalene (C131 IT security and management): She has the appeal to be the apple in our eyes. Never fails to help, never fails to smile, advice and encourage you. I love her comments, they are very enlightening and useful. This module is top core interesting, but got to say sorry as my confidence led to the bad results in UT =(

For my classmates:
Ain and Roy: Very stylish couple over here. For Roy, you have a wonderful presentation skills; my role model when it comes to presentation =D Ain, you are a wonderful teammate, always there to give a helping hand =D

Mei Yean: Never fails to make the class go crazy. Well, I enjoyed your craps alot cause it really ease the atmosphere. But just a reminder, too much yellow colored jokes is bad for health =D ( you should have seen this in your individual comment, now you know who its from ? ) =p

Charlotte: The one with the exact frequency level with Mei Yean. Your laughter is so OMG~~!! Whenever it fills the room, we will definitely know its from Charlotte =D But its nice to have you in class...

Mei Qi: Sleep Sleep Sleep huh? =D You can be very hardworking in your work and you can be a 'A' student in class. You are also very ON, which I personally like it =D Wish you all the best in RP and in your Yamaha =D AND please come for M.E.L.T meeting =D

Wei Quan: Play boy.. haha... Never fails to have some girls chatting with her on MSN. Good teammate with plenty of jokes~! See you in more BC meeting and work together in M.E.L.T camp =D

Kee Yong: Basket, spiderman~! Crappy guy, which can never be told from his appearance. Thought to be anti-social but you are more than it meets the eye.. See you around.

Guess there is too much for me to tell my classmates what I want to say. Sorry for those who I had left out, but no doubt you guys are great in this semester and I wish to see you around in RP =D Awaiting our Pulau Ubin Trip =)
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In collaboration of Judo training camp and M.E.L.T Camp which is coming soon for me, I shall share my camp experience i had~!

2002
-> Sec One interaction Camp( camper)
-> St John annual Camp ( camper)

2003
-> NCO training course/camp(camper)

2004
-> Sec One interaction Camp(Instructor)
-> St John Annual Camp (NCO trainee)
->NCO training camp (Logistics/Messing executive)
-> Sec 3 adventure Camp( Camper)
-> OBS mobile training camp( camper/Watch Medi

2005
-> St John Annual Camp( Overall - in - charge)
-> Sec one Interaction camp ( Group instructor)
-> NCO training course/camp (NCO instructor)

2006
-> RP Cypher club SIT orientation camp(Camper)
-> St John Annual camp(Hiking activity in-charge/ Discipline Officer)
-> Networking IG Camp(Camper)
-> YA club camp(Camper)

2007
-> RP Cypher club SIT orientation Camp(Team leader)

Coming soon~
- Judo camp( Designer/ camper)
- M.E.L.T camp (Project head)

Failed attempts:
- St John interaction camp(2005)
- Mind your own Business workshop day camp(2006)

I had been through lots of camps since I started my secondary school life. Thus with the experience as a camper , leader or organizer; the things I see, feel and found ; I am very assured and confident that I will bring the best for M.E.L.T. Giving all campers a MELTED experience but I just hope my team will share the same as me ...


Thought of the day: SO long for a torture in Judo camp....

23rd August 2007, Thursday.... approximately 16 more hours to the end of year 2 Semester 1!!! Happy for the holidays, grief for the departing from just yet another group of good friends...

18th August 2007, 1:46a.m. It seems like all my post are very early. I have really had to declare myself an owl.

Just came back from the usual N~Zire Gathering. Guess some of you are already guessing what is N~Zire. Well simply enough we are just a group of secondary schools friends and friends with chemistry who all have extraordinary and special memories/capabilities which bonded us all so well together even today. Its also a group of leaders, with special thoughts and has been leaders in their own ways.

Its Don's birthday today, so N~Zire had a small celebration for him on the basketball court. Before that was a series of challenging and fun basketball matches. HAHA~~~ We continued playing till the lights are being switched off which follows a chit-chat on current issues and some philosophy(HAHA~~) One particular topic was brought up and I tried to answer as I know the answer but too bad I can't structure and organize my thoughts in time to answer it. The topic was changed since no one have definate answer. Anyway the topic was on what is the difference between Intelligence and Wisdom, and this topic came right after some discussion on the current issues.

After organizing my thoughts which was too late, I came out with these. Wisdom is about making decision and sometimes in the context of advising while Intelligence is about the ability to think and analyze in a way which is better than the other. High wisdom means you can make good and accurate decision and High intelligence means you are able to think more than normal people and analyze things which others might never thought of. Some are wise but not intelligent, some are intelligent but not wise, some have certain level of wisdom and intelligence and some are perfectly both. Some are intelligent where they can think and give good analysis or they have good ideas which they thought of, but they just don't know what to do with them or make wrong uses of them. Some are intelligent, but crisis starts to hit them, they might not know what to do or they might make wrong decisions. Likewise, some had no good and fantastic ideas, but he always know what to do next for his task and make good decisions all because he is wise. When crisis starts to hit them, they have no fanciful ideas to do and turn things upside down but they just know exactly how they could tackle it in reference to their expectations. Some will find themselves being wise at certain issues and intelligent to a certain extents. These sort of category which I believes most average man will fall into. Powerful people can be wise enough to make right decisions and intelligent enough to turn tides, understand things and make new ideas. Some are born with wisdom and making good decision are so easy for them, likewise some are born with this intelligence that ideas flow out of their mind like river. But however out from all these, nevertheless wisdom and intelligence can be gain through years and years of experience. Thats what I thought about the difference between wisdom and intelligence.

Personally I believe I am wise and to a certain extent intelligent. So far I have no problems in making decisions, most of my decisions are right which had not bring lots of problems to me and I generally solve problems with some wise decisions I made. Last but not least, I had council quite a number of people. But though I am blinded at times and made a few bad decisions but they don't usually bad that will cost my life or giving me agony. So far the worse decision I had made is to patch with my ex-girl friend which ended me up in a emotional entanglement. I have no regrets in most of my decisions but the best decision which I am still very happy about is that I decided not to appeal to other schools when i found myself posted to Republic Polytechnic. Seeing me enjoying good results and learning so well, I am happy that I had made this decision which had changed my life to a better end. Another one was to decide to talk and make my stand clear instead of keeping quiet and see things fly by in my team of M.E.L.T management which I saw results coming out which I am personally happy and confident about the camp once again.

Thats all.... hmm somehow I finding out that my perfectionist thinking is going up and is already inviting some people to loathe me. Have to do something to curb that, on my way to earn more respect and more acceptance like what I enjoyed during my OC era in SJAB. Giving myself that drive again...

13 August 2007, its a blue and angered Monday

Early in the morning I got a shocking news! Someone is actually avoiding me, well I pretty much can guess the reason why. Thus perhaps I will find a right time to talk to her. haiz~~~ being serious in work can also result into such entanglement of friendship, seriously there is something wrong in this world.

Sad to say, I had a whole night of soul searching; actually I had did nothing wrong, perhaps some misunderstanding and over imagination of myself. I am right to ask about the process, else if I will never know it and co-ordinate what that needs to be co-ordinate. I have to protect the integrity of the project, can't just let everyone off and let them do whatever they want. Everyone knows what they are doing, and true enough that is an impressive ability, but thats if you are working alone; don't ever use that when you are in a team because everyone has the right to know what you are doing.

Trust, all of a sudden this word ring in my ears like swam of bees. I used to get this from my ex-girlfriend but right now I have a upgrade. Have I not entrust enough trust? To split my project to so many parts for so many of you to take it up? I could have plan all this on my own, isn't it? Please respect my position and my offer, its not about finishing what is yours and hiding it as if someone will steal it, you are not alone~~~ Yes its hard for me to trust people, but if I had given you the trust, PLEASE STOP DOING THINGS THAT WILL MAKE ME SUSPECT YOU ANYMORE!! I am a defensive person, I know and hope you understand...

Was pretty disappointed after what I saw, thus affecting my mood a little. But solving the day's problem quickly enlighten my mood. Continued to soul search on bus, reached home and strum the guitar; lying on the sofa thinking of the issues; soon after singing "your call", I fall into a deep sleep on my sofa....

13 August 2007, just 3 minutes into the day and here I am blogging. Just finished doing some parts for the M.E.L.T camp and decided to tell you guys about my dull and irritated life.

Is it my personality?? Why do I feel like everyone is keeping a distance from me? WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG??? Sometimes I wonder, but it will just be great for a person to actually tell me, am I so unaccessible?

Maybe I am not trusting enough, kind of hard for someone to convince me and receive my trust. I have to say sorry for those whom I had spoke to with suspicious and serious words, its my history that contributes to this. I believe I am a total perfectionist who have high expectations for myself and those working with me, and I understood that sometimes we have to lower down our expectations so that we are not strangling ourselves or those who are working with me. Sad to say, I can't do it, it just makes my heart go sour to see things falling apart and not into place; so guys pardon me.

I believe some people out there have certain expectations from me as well. Which I believe is what all my facilitators and teachers are talking about, potential... I find myself not using my human relation skills to work but with my own working attitude, my ambitions and my foresights. Practically, people approach me if they think I am beneficial to them but little will stay as real buddies to me. I saw this practical reaction in my school, when I can't solve a particular thing, I become nothing to others' eyes..

Life is so unpredictable and this society is so full of conspiracy. You never know what will happen next to you and you can never ever know what people are doing behind you. The most you can do is to suspect with no concrete evidence to take actions. Thus it is important to learn how to handle those who are out to bring you down.... And I promise I will learn to be cruel when I need to... Prejudgments from others, I will learn to prove them all wrong... Pessimistic, am I? No I believe I am just being realistic and practical.

Just got some lecture from my mother as she complain that I am too silly to do things for others without giving myself any benefits. Am I really so? Maybe at times I am just to considerate to others feeling which in the end making myself lost. Perhaps I shall train up on my killer instincts like what Honsonn is talking about. Cruel and fearful at the right time, its all man by himself.

Thought of the day: Why is it that some does things so smoothly with so little unfortunate things happening to them? While some always fails or things doesn't go smoothly and yet receive prejudgments from others?

ShaoCheng-logy(line 9): Cruel to those who are cruel, Friendly to those who are Friendly.

9th of August, National day; a day where all Singaporeans will remember and celebrate the independence of our nation.

So thus, I followed the gang of N~Zire to the Padang area to actually experience the atmosphere of this celebration. Kind of disappointed since we are unable to get the tickets for the parade and also failed to squeeze to the merlion park to get a close view of the parade. Thus we are left with no choice but to view the performance from the screen on Padang. Fortunately we are still able to view the fireworks and also some air performance. Well done, as I forgot to bring my camera so there is no pictures to show =( But its enough to actually have it in my mind and I swear I will try harder next year to get the tickets.

We joke about our own country, we curse and swear our leaders at times but its very heartwarming to myself that I'm still so happy to be in this nation. Without fail, I will feel the sense of patriotism when national day come and feel so proud when I see the flag flies in the air. It makes me feel that actually after all, we still love this nation of us. Since young, I had never fail to get excited when I am talking about enlisting into the National Service. It might sound very Singapore-educated for me to say that we should protect our own nation and Singapore owe no one a living; but come to think of it actually it all makes sense. Thus doing my best in the army which will soon be coming, had become one of my goal and a must-do principle. Despites all the unfortunate things I have, the failures and unhappiness I believe I will still do my utmost best to protect this country, not because the government taught me so but because this is where I mature, fall and stand up, my friends and most importantly its here where I got the sense of life.

Thats the patriotic paragraph above... M.E.L.T camp is on the run, and I hope I am doing fine as the project head and transparent to everything; I just don't like the feeling of being outdated. Holiday is coming, but it is never going to be a rest, there will be lots to do during this holiday, I will sum them all out in the next entry. Last but not least, I got another A for UT3 networking.. HAHAHA, looks like my target to score good G.P.A is on its run!! A series of happy and good things are happening to me, I love it and will cherish it just pray and hope that these will last longer =)

Thought of the day: I will learn to protect those I love and those who love me, the things I have and my style...