31 march 2007... Last day of dear march, coming next is fool april. Here is a early entry for beautiful saturday, just reach home from N~Zire meeting.

Once a man with achievements, with wits,determination and support to arm him to sucess. Look at him now, much like a defeated man. The consequences of falling down is being forgotten and back to square one, the journey of falling down and getting up is such a shameful and painful one. Failure had cast a shadow on him, he lost his wits and spirit; no more support. A wandering soul he is, sitting in his own shadow trying to mend his dream. Cruel world he lived in, passer-bys are everywhere but no one reach a hand for him. No one wants to help him, because no one wants him to be strong again. Others pitied his pathetic state,doubt his ability. He want to mend his dream and take it to the peak, but he is overwhelmed by the fear in him. He is afraid that he can't bear the next failure. But he knew it himself, no matter how cruel this world is; there will be someone who are willing to support him and give him the confidence he need. For those people, he will defeat his devils to bring his dream to peak and also for the long lost feeling of being cherished and to cherish. Because a failure today is for him to cherish his sucess tomorrow. And that man, shall be me....

30 March 2007, once again I am reaching the end of another month. The sun is on the direction of the constellation Aries this month... Nothing much to do for the day, just came back from a swim with Taizi at the swimming complex.

Facts on Aries:
Aries is often associated with the Greek myth of the ram which carried Athamas's son Phrixus and daughter Helle to Colchis to escape their stepmother Ino. Individuals born under this sign are thought to have a confident, aggressive, energetic, active, adventurous, enthusiastic, fair, passionate, and pioneering character but one which is also prone to selfishness, boastfulness, intolerance, impulsiveness, and impatience.
(Information taken from www.wikipedia.org)

I was reading the web, which wrote there for taurus, as a sign which is sexually responsive... the opposite sign of taurus is scorpio which is also sexually responsive.. So I wonder, is taurus sexually responsive to scorpio and vice versa (heex)

Just alittle curious on the various myth of the zodiacs.. So it is perfectly fine to find me sitting infront of my laptop doing research on this during my free time...

Alright I guess I will stop here and prepare to go out again.. haha...

25 March 2007, came back from IVP for judo. Lose my match, at the very last minute. Haiz.. its a story of a judo ka who tries to minimize the pain of his injured opponent but got pinned in the end.

Very tired. So I will have a short blog here... will come back for a longer one...

P/M:
Kelvin- Hey my fellow judo-ka, yellow belt senior... Take good care of yourself... A good fighter needs to have a good rest, for a better fight the next day..

21st March 2007, spend my day at East Coast Park with Business Climate members. A very small number of people, merely only the exco commitee was there; I am the only member anyway. Negotiation failed,(haaz) since when will it be sucessful.

I am going to cypher camp as Asst. group leader!! That was what I promise I will be when I was still a freshmen, to be a group leader though it is a grade down to be a Assistant leader; but I guess it will just be fine. Initially I was not suppose to be part of the leaders since I missed the interview. Edmund requested for me to join since they are suffering a manpower shortage. I am partially excited about the camp. For the leaders I am going to meet and for the long lost feeling of being a camp instructor. Somehow as I browse the group leader list, I spot one or two people whom I know will set up barricades on my way. Honestly speaking, I am still in the dark of what have I done wrong for them to treat me like enemy. I tried to make friends with them, I give a pat on their shoulder, I shook hands with them, I cheered with them then when I was a camper. It could be their arrogance and the way they look down others, but what I know is I will put up my professionalism up and not to avoid them. Just doubting that they will do the same and create a leadership war in the camp(which I personally hate). I want to work with a group of keen leaders and thus then I will cherish the moments not like the take it and forget it attitude I had in the past. Lets hope for the goods in the camp.

Judo competition, guess I will lose this good opportunity to shine again. A very small inter-tertiary competition, but will really give a edge on what is call sportsmanship. Sporty person like me, bound to traditional surrounding which bars me to advance. Parental disapproval is what I am facing now. Indemnity form, chinese(shen shi zhuang) is signed in all martial art competition stating that the competitor is taking part in the competition at his/her own will and will not liase their death or injury to the organiser's responsibility. Now that is the problem, my parents doesn't want me to take the risk. I am just a yellow-tip white belter; what accident can cause my death unless I didn't take care of myself? That is the nice things my parents put it up to tell me that they don't want me to risk, the sad thing is they don't trust their son to do well. I tried to explain and assured them, just to laugh at myself for being a fool once again. Ya! why must I try?? It totally makes me look like a son who can't bring glory and pride to his own family. Tired, I really had tried to make my parents feel proud of me and trust me; perhaps I have just failed under the curse of the Seah Family.

Sometimes I will realize that actually I am not at all sucessful in my leadership path after all. But I choose to believe that I can be a leader and lead my followers to heights. Perhaps I was once sucessful but later I suffer. Sometimes the consequences of falling down is being forgotten once and for all and it is always "back to square one". The journey of me climbing back to the max, gaining back the things I desire, have a bulleyes on my targetboard; will be a tough one... Shall abid to the quote: tough times will end, tough man won't...

Thought of the day: When you fall down, Just try again.... Can it be done??

20th March 2007, a day in Republic Polytechnic Sports Hall Martial Art room preparing for IVP and training myself for IVP. Spend the end of my outdoor activites at SJAB in Junyuan Secondary School, teaching the secondary 1 students CPR (honestly its a real challenge).

First thing first, talk about the competition. Judo is an offensive Japanese martial Art. It was originated from Jujitsu in Japan. Guess what, I am selected to go represent RP in the coming IVP. But however, the sad thing is my parents will not be allowing me to join this competition. Because they say, I am their first son, so I should not risk my life or any part of my body unnecessarily.But I know why is it so, not because I am weak but because I have alot of injuries before lea... Almost all my limbs had been injured and have scars on it already. My left and right ankle had suffer sprain for more than 5 times that the ligaments are alittle damaged. I broke my wrist before and injured my back as well. I guess all this is the consequences of my childhood mischief. Nevertheless, I doubt I can even stand a chance in the Dojo(Judo Mats). I might be fast, but my accuracy sucks! Perhaps more training will be good before I join the next IVP, but.... This opportunity seems so tempting!! I really want to join the rest of my judo kas in the fight.. ARGH!!! Shall continue to negotiatate.

Will be going for an outing tomorrow with all the Business Climate members. I should happy that I have little problem working there and learning there. Hope it will be a happy day tomorrow..






Since I have the time I shall talk about something which I happen to encounter nowadays.

Just recently, i have been giving advices and view points on 3 kinds of love.
1st: A sweet and stable relationship.
2nd:A missing and full of surrounding obstacles relationship.
3rd: A being played and confused love.

The 1st is the story of a country with a prince and his new wife, the countess. They had never work or even know eachother well for months. Till one faithful day during one of the class in a institute, they both met and was task a project. Soon, the two of them got closer and closer and in the end they are together under the blessing of the people. From a third party view, they seem to be a loving party. A healthy relationship indeed.

As I continue to tour around the little world around me, I met the new era of cowherd and weaving maiden. Now they are the dark ninja and the beautiful princess. The beautiful princess had a secret crush on the dark ninja for quite a long time. And was unfortunately exposed by the king. The dark ninja was a great warrior and was all the time eyed by the king. The king however would like to give a 3 year challenge to the dark ninja before he will bless the princess and him together. Two loving couples, hopes to see eachother more but was blocked for some domestic reasons. A distant love to grow love sickness among two loving bird, for them to cherish the once in a blue moon meet up, so as to build a strong red line between them by the end of the love crime sentence.

Finishing my tour, I met a long time no see junior of mine. He got a crush with a girl. That girl seems to have interest with him. But that girl was so beautiful that all men's eyes will never escape. This junior have no knowledge on what a girl want, and the girl is a play girl. She had somehow become the puzzle of his heart. He wants to love, but she steps back for a pending. Seem so much like a game, where the patient ones wins the prize of this beautiful girl while the loser sits one side and weeps his way. Such love, dangerous??

Along the way, I gave advices, comments and comforting words... So much it is enough to open a love consultant agency. Someone drop by and ask, "wanna practise your promotion line?" I thought for a while," nah, I will rather have all this advices for my own use in the future". Hahaa...

Love can be a want or a need, if I have love now, most likely it is a want not a need. Love is happiness, and it is not something where I can force and make it up. To simlify, love is part of nature, so let the mother decide...

Thought of the day: guts... I need it.. I am out of guts!!

19 March 2007, a ordinary day for most of us but not so for my brother who had just turn 18 this year. Will reveal his photo here...
That is who we call Tai Zi, meaning crown prince. Nickname is not there for fun, and yes this brother I have enjoys the good fate and hospitality of a real crown prince.

The past three day was a big bomb, but only explosions of just pure fun...And without my knowledge or even not the saint can explain, I got myself a daughter...

17th March 2007-
N~ZiRe have a BBQ at East Coast Park. And that day I enhanced my knowledge on setting up fire and also equiped myself with a skill and that is bbq satays. Drank beer on that day, Tiger beer is the beer and soon found myself so hot!!!!!! After that stay awake all the way till the next morning and we saw the sunrise.

Reach home on 18th March 2007, a boring day with me spending almost the whole day on the bed. I sleep that day in hope that it will be a brand new day, but soon i woke up on the same day -_-''' Went out at 6pm, head to buy present for our TaiZi and head to the surprise that our TaiZiFei had planned for him. Mission was sucessful and we attain surprise. A game to test how much our TaiZi know about us, it was a game that I personally find it fun and lengthy... Cut the details, just understand that he is surprise.According to some factual information, TaiZiFei stayed at TaiZi castle for the whole night and after that was forever and ever going to be mystery that no one wants to know. =D

The very next day, which is today; we visited Sakae Sushi... Eat our way till everyone had a real bloated stomach... Now the problem of having a celebrating streak is that, when the cash is not there, the mood will also not be there... We slack around in the arcade and in the end we are left with nothing to do. End the day with a basketball match, when my shoe decided to open its big mouth.
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I guess I shall stop here.. will be back to judo tomorrow. Because I got a warning sms from my yellow belt senior.
" coming down tml? Competition coming this sunday i hope u are aware of it. "

11 March 2007, just woke up for a day at home. I should say finally at home...

2 days ago which was 09 March 2007, we see what I will call sweet romantic scene on pasir ris park. The details again I shall not say, its something those N~ZiRe members who are there to know. The confidential part, we shall wait for the male lead to leak. After the scene was a series of sensational talk.

Holiday holiday holiday, bored.... feel so distorted...

04th March 2007, here I am pinning down another entry about the day before...

3rd March 2007, N~ZiRe had did something which no ordinary teenagers will care and do... Continued the culture from last year, we have a chinese new year visiting marathon yesterday. Though we were quite late from the designated time we are suppose to meet, the visit yesterday was still considered a mission accomplished. Pictures were taken and here are they....

First stop: Batman's hideout... My home

Second Stop: Shen's palace, Derrick's Home

Third Stop: JR nest, Jing Ren's Home

4th Stop: Xiao Fei Xiang safe house, Nigel's home

The last stop was at Tai Zi's castle, but no pictures were taken since everyone was busy. Some were busy playing blackjack, some were busy singing songs while some just chill around... Stay awake there the whole night till the very next day, which is today. we missed Ren Zhe's house, according to him, he is building bomb shelther there...haiz... but overall it was a fun day...

More pictures that had been taken yesterday....

Testing the camera, but somhow....

Shawn as usual..Photogenic

Sueh Li and Nigel

great guitarist

Jr and Shawn together with the peacock Shawn and me


See what happen when everyone snatch for a space


Honsonn, Ferlyn and me with Jolin Honsonn and me with Jolin



BlackJack!!! HUAT AR!!


Shawn and me with someone else shades


Don't know what comments you have but we
had been so like this for a long time... haha..


That should be all the pictures, however I still have some in my files... Now, the full stop will do his job here, to end this blog and also the end of Lunar New year celebration .

1st March 2007, another month just passed...

Good news for a new month...Accomplished my semester 2 target G.P.A. Here is my results of my modules...
Basic Science----------------------------------- > 3.5 B+
Cognitive processess and problem solving ------ > 4.0 A
Computing and Mathematical method---------- > 3.5 B+
Contemporary Issues in Culture & Aesthetics---> 3.5 B+
Enterprise Skills II-----------------------------> 4.0 A

So cummulated G.P.A for my semester 2 will be 3.7 !!! Very glad to announce a slight inprovement of 1 grade from semester 1. I am super happy with my own results, I've made it after all!! Will be aiming to do higher for the next semester.

Judo!!! I am back to training, hope I will win a dignity for myself. If possible, hope I could master the skills in Judo and join the IVP. Come back in two piece will be good enough(the second piece is medal, then the first piece will be my body of course)...However, it will be a long way to that day and I know it will be super tedious. Just went to 3 trainings, I already had aches around the body. But, shall remember one of my fellow Judo Ka's quote, NO pain NO gain.... Currently I am trying to drill some words of my master into my mind. I had found what is needed from me to bring down my opponent. My basic throws, still needs to improve, then speed and accuracy will be primary allies; get close to the opponent and gets him/her on the ground...

hmm... shall stop here, got 2 meeting tomorrow.. haa~~

thoughts: Love can be constructive, but they can be destructive as well. It can be a booster, however it can also be a hindrance...How can one over come this spilt personality of love...