February 23, 2008... March on the way, times flies. Anyway, I am just home from N~Zire Soccer and some spooky expereince(damn, its not a nice story to share) Kind of thoughtful today, but I am feeling hard to put them into words today~

Its 3 weeks into holiday for goodness sake. The result for the semester is out anyway, damn just as I predicted~ No longer in the role of honors and there is nothing more saddening than that for now~ But I know its my fault in this slack in result, if I only I had put in more effort to this than the sales work. Thats it, I have to really gear myself up and drive for what I want from my poly. There is another 2 more news, awaiting to trigger my emotions. 1. FYP project allocations 2. My modules selection results.

Sales into the last phrase and I am still stucked with 5 sales~nothing much to comment from here,I am geting lazy nowadays~


Thought of the day: As always, I am always not sastified with myself ~

February 18, 2008... Just another day of holidays, BoRED~ so just a show case what I did~

You Are Wind

Strong and overpowering A force to be reckoned with, no one dares cross you You have the power to change everything around you You are best known for: your wrath Your dominant state: commanding

What Type of Weather Are You?

Your Chances of Being a Multimillionaire: 76%

You have a good chance of being a multimillionaire. Better than most people. You simply have a natural knack for money and the personality for success.

Will You Be a Multimillionaire?

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT)You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test

You Are a Phoenix

Driven and ambitious, you tend to acquire material success easily. You have grand schemes - both for your own life and for changing the whole world. You are a great leader, and you have no problem taking the reigns. However, you aren't all business. You also have great talents for performing and visual arts.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Your Power Element is Wood

Your power colors: green and brown Your energy: generative Your season: spring Like a tree, you are always growing and changing. And while your life is dynamic, you are firmly grounded. You have high morals and great confidence in yourself and others. You have a wide set of interests, and you make for intersting company.

What's Your Power Element?

What Seah Shao Cheng Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

There's a Chance You Could Be Violent Overall, you're a pretty chill person - and you have a good handle on your emotions. Sometimes your anger gets the best of you, and end up regretting how you act. Try to curb your temper more often. It only has to get out of control once to do some damage. Could You Be Violent?

February 14th, 2008, its Valentines Day(1 hour into it)~ Though I had never made any effort to remember this date because I don't have to =D But I can tell you tomorrow will be Total Defence Day.Gees~ I'm hopeless, no wonder I'm single. =D

Just now long ago, we celebrated Chinese New Year. As we always do every year since the day we graduated from JYSS, N~Zire made an effort to go on a CNY visit to everyone house. Our parents are getting along well with this clan of friends. I shall spare the details once again, just have a look at the photos

Derrick's House

My House

Si Yang's house

This year had our crazy times and also some "emo" time, along the way not much of the picture was taken, no one was keen of doing so, thus ya~... But this year there is something different, some are missing and we have new faces~ There is also a surprise~ We went to Yi Qi's house for dinner (=D.

CNY this year, is just lacking of the mood~ I wonder why, but the atmosphere is just not right~~I wonder why the laughters are almost fading, I wonder why the smiles on everyone are leaving.I pray hard that is not a bad omen.

Lets talk abit on valentines day, since its valentines day today. Honestly, I forgotten about this day only until Lydia MSN me "Happy V Day". Valentines,I suppose it mean your lovely couple so Valentines day are for lovely couples to celebrate their lovely and sweet togetherness.(WO~~ hair standing~!) nah, honestly I haven't celebrated Valentines day in my life( kind of fail huh?) since my relationship concidently starts after Valentines day and ends before it. 2 year already, I am single; never find luck in this there after 2 years ago but its ok, I never intend or specially wish to be attach so soon~ Lets just be natura. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY to those successful couples out there =D Anyway, I knew of a relationship which ends before this valentines day, they proved their love and cut everyone's throat but they gave up by ending it, haiz lets hope time will heal. Love is a variable of nature, the name swaps around words of emotions.Some starts with a struggle and ends with a question while some are fantasies that last forever.

Gees, I am tired... Going to sleep now~

02 February 2008, its another 4 more days before we celebrate another new year, =X i mean the lunar new year. Its drawing so near and yet I have about still 80% of my shopping list. Worse is, I had spend quite abit on unexpected situations, Taxi Fares; Birthday presents and food~!!! But more or less it will be at the balance of what I predicted.

Just came back from Melissa's Birthday party. She is celebrating her 21st Birthday!! Anyway, this lady(have to call her this way since she had attain her adulthood) was my Judo Captain back when she is still year 2, now she had graduated but still helping out in judo. I belonged to the judo gang there and they were crapping all the way but it is seriously very funny. Anyway guys, I am going back to judo; for 2 reasons:
1. I am still having the passion and itchiness to be a martial artist
2. Time to go back on form(fitness and muscles)
Going back to judo had already been set quite long ago, but it was just unfortunate that I land myself up in hospital. So yes, going back to judo already. Rudy said that he will be putting me down for grading in March so he says I better come for trainings. Yup, no problem will be going back for training and the first big thing that comes in my way is IVP!!!!!!!!!!!! For the first time the medal looks so interesting~...

Anyway, guess the bad news is I am unable to hit SSE for my job already. I happily hit 72 after the last time I worked, but after which the last 2 sales was on outstanding and another combo had failed installation due to "no signal"~! gees I m back to 68 sales after 3 months. My November and December's hard work, goes right into the drain. But its ok, I'm already looking for better opportunity, most likely I will be going into freelancing. My ultimate objectives of working and studying at the same time is very simple:
- To feel that I am not useless
- To give myself a Financial Freedom before I graduate.
Honestly, I feel super useless to know the fact that I am 18 and still living dependently on my parents, for food for fashion and so on. I want to sort of earn and start learning to financially support myself. Now, I have my own bank balance, I plan my own spendings and my families financial support on me had also go down; it makes me really feel that I had grown up.

Now holidays here, and I just don't understand why am I not so excited about it. Something is missing , I knew it but I'll just let that door shut and don't open it for now. If the zodiac prediction is right, I will take my very opportunity this year to make myself shine~

Thought of the day: You can shut this door right in my face, but I will just open another door. this cycle will never end.