November 18th, 2007. Its approximately 1 hour into the new day. Just came back from my company's gathering.

We spend our gathering over at East Coast Park, playing Frisbee,Soccer, Volley ball and my personal loathe, dog and bone.I seriously enjoyed the soccer game especially the beautiful step over and following a perfect shot into the goal. That was the first blood, and also some cuts on my feet, since we are playing on sand; doing step over is such a difficult task on sand(The ball just doesn't go with your momentum, it either your leg get stuck into the soft sand; or you will find yourself leaving the ball behind you) I score a second goal after a few minutes, after making a great escape from the goalkeeper's hand. Eventually we lost; taking the fact that all my teammates are dead tired running on the soft sand. We played monkey with frisbee on the beach after the soccer match, and that last us the whole evening before we went off for dinner. Ken, Amanda and I are all victims for today, Ken got pinned down; I got sat on the head by Andy(damn pissed off by that) and Amanda ate sand today =D

After dinner was pool, I win 2 rounds and lost 1 round. I shall spare the details as it is seriously nothing much. Took a cab home with Nigel, and I am very very pissed off by the driver. He was talking bad about Nigel for being stupid and lazy of him to U-turn into the road and drop him off when he can walk a few distance(WHAT THE FUCK, got money for you to earn you still ass so much) He was insulting me all the way during the journey,well I was too tired to even respond to him. But there is this particular comment which he made that really really boils me. He asked me where am I studying so I am really proud to tell him I am from Republic Polytechnic. Curse him to make the following comment "Why you go that polytechnic", I was telling him that because I choose one of the subject which caters what I want in the future. Haaz, he replied "Cannot be la, how much you score for your english". I thought its not a harm to be honest, thus I told him that I got a 7 for English, and the next sentence he said really really hurt and pissed me off. "No wonder, that only that polytechnic will accept those who fail English. " Get so pissed off and just reply him " ya - ya" for the rest of the journey, just too tired to bother about his comment. But eventually I did something out of that vengeance, I took out 10 dollar and asked him to keep the change, then I told him " Uncle, keep the change and next time just concentrate on the road, don't talk so much and make so much comments." We were waiting for the traffic lights before my alighting point, and he was telling me that his son have no interest in polytechnic as he got the potential to go to JC and stuff like that, making the comment that it is hard and impossible for poly grads to go to University and even if the go they just can't make it there. I got so agitated that when I asked him "How you know?", he confidently replied"I used to work in NUS as a computer engineer researcher"(arh, can't remember what he used to work as but it should be some researcher), out of my anger i replied"oh, then you are now a taxi driver, how sad? Your son still proud of you?"

Well,I am really angry with what that driver had commented; it makes me feels that this society, this country is only caring about those who walk through a Straight 'A's in O'level and JC school life and finally University. Hopefully thats not the case, if not this country will really be a gone case. But come to think of it, it just struck me something which I regret in life(for not putting 100% into my O'levels). I had learn my mistakes, but this wrong doing had lead me to a place(Republic Polytechnic) where I found my real interest and had changed my life. I putting 100% into my school work now, striving so hard for a high GPA; get a place in the academic roll of honors; just because I have a favor to fulfill for myself.

thought of the day: I know myself, might not be very clever and talented; but I don't need anyone to specially prove that to me!!

November 11th, 2007... Finally, I'm back to do some clearing of cobwebs. Its school holiday!!! for just one week, anyway I am too late to celebrate that since school is reopening this coming Monday.

I had finally finished my PP report last week, just in time of the submission date. Well it has been approved by my advisor thus I am clear for the presentation. So I will be presenting on how bricks and mortar retail stores can e-commercialize their business. Haaz, maybe my idea will work one day? So much that you will get to see Online Giordano or even TOP SHOP? But now I have a big problem, because I am still not done with my presentation materials.

Anyway, October is over and its pleasant to announce that I have hit 15 sales for that month. Its quite unsafe to hit that number as there might be a chance where 1 sales actually cocks up or something like that; then I will be down with 14 only which will not eligible me for the $130 incentives. But lets just pray for it. So, I will hit my personal target of cash in bank within 2 months with the cash from my October and September sales plus the bonus from my boss Andy(hopefully he remembers). November and December will be the peak period for sales, so I am aiming HIGH!!

M.E.L.T, something which I am seriously headache about. No replies from schools and I wonder how my teammates are doing with their task. I am seriously being tied down by working and PP and so on,that I almost forgot about this project. Its time to drift back on track....

Ahh..anyway I am dead tired, shall continue some other time....

November 02, 2007... Finally back to blog and I am feeling so overwhelmed today. Anyway the month of October had been really stress and busy for me. Surrounded by M.E.L.T, work, school and PP.

Job as a sales executive is really getting very well. Hit 15 sales by 29th October thus I really really hope that I can get the incentives and bonus which will earn me a thousand plus for the month October. Got to check it out with the customer if their services are good and steady, if not I will not get the incentives. November is here, a brand new sales month; lets aim high for November.

School? feeling so overwhelmed nowadays, no longer good at doing stuffs. No longer appreciated, no longer driven as usual. My results are slacking, and I just don't know how to cope it now. Really afraid of the slide in results. Finding myself learning nothing as the day go by. There is so many people over taking me now and I seriously feel that I had just failed my own target. Am I being brought down??

Well, seriously finding a way out.... Perhaps I have to buck up over the holidays.