May 21st,2008 what a long time since the last entry! Well have been trying to write a diary then to type in a blog. Its just a short one month, but lots had happened.

School? I have been pushing all the way since the start of the semester for my semester target. So its like studying studying studying, doing FYP doing FYP everyday. And I just won't give up doing all these till I graduate. My results have been so far so good and I really hope I'll keep it that way through out this AY.

My FYP, finally we finished our desiging phrase, though its not really perfect in my eyes but at least we have some things there to refer us back. Right now, we are starting to develop the codes for the application, some of us favourite and desires since the start of this project. But I have to really emphasize the importance of design to my team; just to prevent the actual implementation to differ from what we propose in the designs. Its a very dilema thing here, as I try to strive 100% in the project and not compromise my teammates feeling. Just a penny of a thought, today I heard a story of a person who is so hardworking and helped his teammates so much that they got an 'A' and he got a 'B'; GOD MAN where is justice!? I had better watch my way as well.

Another project for me to revive, MELT. With the new advisors, who are extremely helpful; of all a sudden I saw hope for this project. Speaking of projects, I think I'll start to run entries in a black book to remember all the mistakes I made in projects. This way I'll improve.

Just last friday, I lost someone who is my next to kin. To be exact, he is my motherside grandfather. Right now, I am missing his presences. The scene of him cleaning the altar of gods and watering the plants will no longer be there when I visit my uncle house. Just another good man left the world; my grandfather is a well respected man, he is cool and just never lose his temper before. I didn't shed any tears during the wake nor the funeral but through out the 5 days, thoughts had been running through my mind like a busy river. My grandfather's death somehow, just make me feel that life is really precious as everyone has their limited times. Its important to live life as if you will die tomorrow, so that one day when you really leave at old age; there will be no regrets left on this world. His death also made me realised how important it is to be fillal to your parents though it is easier said than done. To me fillal is not about saying it out and celebrating every father & mother's day, its about the unexplanable care and love you gave to them. These thoughts just kept running through my mind whenever I am at the wake. Everything happened so suddenly that I can literally feel the slowing down of the hectic world I lived in, for a moment of thoughts...

Anyway, I'm 19!! My birthday just passed on monday. Can't really celebrate due to the death of my grandfather. But its perfectly fine because, I have many birthdays left in my life but sending my grandfather off to the afterlife will only happen once and only once. Ferlyn said that birthday wishes are wishes which usually come true, I hope I am not too late to make my 2 wishes
1. Complete my teritiary education with flying colors, flying A, flying merits.
2. Have many happy moments with my cliques and family.
Now the 3rd wish is normally a secret and can't really say it out; but honestly I am always blanked on the last wish.

Tomorrow, the hectic world continues and everything will resume its fast and furious speed.

thought of the day: I just want the best in my life, and I'll never rest trying to get it~