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Job Hunting today..
okok.. today.. quite a busy day.. early as 1 pm i set of from my home.. suppose to be the safest place... to the society.. haha.. lols..so lame.ok..lets go straight to point.,today i went for a job hunt.. with my brother, shawn and his wife Sueh li...haha.

we went 2 grand cortorne..dunno if its spelt tis way..haha... it is a five star hotel.. but my brother was rejected..I'm accepted.. but i think shawn is a good buddy, he jio me when there is work..so i decided to let the job off as well..anyway its not so worth it as its pay is not even the same as pan pacific..haha.. then we went to a agent introduced by shawn cousin who went to him b4 for job..haha..den he help us to find job..haha.. bt i forget to ask got commission or not le..haiz..got to go ask again..haha.. so tts all for the whole entire afternoon... boring??haha.. its goin to be even more boring when i start working..haha.. NO NO is interesting... working le..i am dying for it man..haha

Gundam Destiny
after reaching home.. i took a short nap... den i watch tis cartoon.. Gundam destiny..veri graphic worx.. alot of graphic..bt haha.. its veri impossible in this world..opps.. i mean the scene of the cartoon is not possible in this world... take a look at tis screen shot..

imagine if this world is going to have tis kind of war machine. no longer like the present military facilities.. no fighter jets like F15 or sort.. no more tanks..everyting we depend on tis mobile suit.. looks like human..bt its veri powerful.. as u can see the impact of their power in the screenshot.. wow.. it is so powerful... it sure can vapourish someone if one is going to be hit by tt...bt true enuff..tt is powerful.. bt it is veri impossible in this world..tink the world can take tt blast?? tink we got enuff natural resource to make suits like tt?? tey need thousand milion to make a effective war on tis..true??..tis haha.. it can sometimes make me imagine too much oso

But it is a veri nice cartoon despite its violent and unrealistic scene..i'm touched by the characters... the cartoon truely showed the pain of war.. and how pain it is to lose ur loves one under a triggle of a weapon... why i say tt. tis cartoon is abt a boy who stay in a island which is suppose to be a safe and stable place.. bt..unfortunately in a battle...tis island under a govt was attacked...he lose all his family members..including his most dote sister.. its a veri bloody and sad scene.. of cos..tt guy cnt take the impact..he cannot believe it.. and he lose trust on the govt on tt island and he migrated to Plant..a place of higher military power.. 3 years later..he is a soldier fighting a war for plant..protecting its peace...

'Because there is always disputes..power is neccessary' is tt true??ya..tink so..cos human nature make no country in tis world to compromise their power.. humans..we are the dominant species

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Long time since I'm here

okok...again sorry for being so unfrequent here.. haha.. cannot blame.. all this day is really busy till no body cares..haha.. well quite abit happen during my absence over here in the blogging world...lets share...

Christmas Eve (24 December 2005)

ok this day is not veri nice fer me.. of cos i am not going to share the bad stuff.. its a relationship problem..bt i certainly make one enemy here tt day.. a guy.. bt since it is settled..i shd say tt is the best christmas present i received...

Ok minusing the bad things.. lets see the happy moments during tt day.. ok.. in the morning it is quite happy..as My brothers and shi mu and shawn's wife sueh li and me played fer the whole afternoon..haha.. We went for pool and bowling in Saffra..not forgetting how we run in the rain and everione being drenched... played like no one bussiness tt day..tts the life we have been asking for 4 years..haha..dun we??? den aft tt we joke and joke and joke like the world is foreva goin to be tt way.. haha... laugh and laugh and laugh..its quite a long time since we all laugh together tt way..its a heart warming session for me to tink back now..haha...

And oso not to forget..I gave my first flower to the gal i like..so happy tt she likes it.. haha.. durin the nite..quite unhappy fer me..as i receive SMS of challenge frm a guy.. bt.. i soon get it over and go back into the mood..got really thanks shi mu, Yi Qi..she comfort me when i feel low tt nite... and oso my 2 brothers Jing Ren and Shawn.. haha.. so we countdown in Somerset..since we cannot sqeeze ourself into Orchard.. haha... pathetic.we din heard the countdown actually..haha..all of us is like busy spraying the artificial snow lo..haha.. but its quite fun..haha..we seldom see snows in Singapore..haha..its a rare opp...WAHAHA...

After that went to settle my stuff..den with shawn, Jing ren, Andrew and his wife..we sit dwn under one void deck and tok all nite.. haha.. Shawn and I also tell abt some ghost stories we heard..haha..and encounters..haha.. SO FUNNY.. all of us is like so scared and our hairs are literally standing..haha..bt we all go home around 5 am..for me earlier as my parents are boiling.haha...

Christmas DAY!! 25th December

wahaha..tis day ar.. is shawn birthday..actually i am grounded at home..bt feel tt shawn is my brother..i cannot let him see a incomplete brotherhood coming to his hse..so i sort of convinced my mum to let me out.. haha.. so it success actually..and we had a great time at shawn house ..esp the whacking period..when we pour powder on shawn and we run away as he chase us..haha...

My parents lock me out tt nite too..so bo bian..i cycled back to shawn house..and called my auntie..den i spend my nite there le..haha.. reach home the nxt day at 9 am..slp and slp till 7 pm..haha.. surprise at my slping abilities huh??haha

today---> 27th December

ok..today din go out in the afternoon..till the nite.. i Called pan pacific today to check my bookings.. SO FRUSTRATED. as they cannot find my bookings..dun let me caught bala eating up my bookings..haha.. kiddin..tt manager is not so bad aft all...nvm.. i shall call tml.. den went fer meeting.. SJAB meeting..sort out stuffs for the incoming year 2006..

sad.. tt gal i like(hopefully i still).... is not feeling well.. humpf..hope she get well soon...I'll pray fer her..me myself oso sick.. got sore throat..humpf..bt i will still pray for her well being..heex.

Before I end....

hmmm.. 3 more days and tts the end for year 2005.... i shall write one entry abt my year tis year on 1st Jan..haha.. for now... i am still looking forward for 2006..as i am going to a new school new education.. I am going to a poly.. of cos i am still craving a flying color pass in my o level.. I have faith in myself .. I will pass!! and I WILL!!!

No one is perfect in this world.. perfect is a onli a word to convince urself tt u are good

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today...afraided

ok..today..whole day grounded at home.. feel so lonely..waiting fer call...waiting fer tis waiting fer tt..tis life is utterly boring.can't wait to go work tis friday..at least can stop me frm tinkin some tings tt can spoil my mood..

today i tht of O'lvl again..dun noe why tis ting can really haunt me like shit...though i feel tt i wil pass..bt there is times where a nightmare like i will fail it..really makes me afraid.. i really really need tt o'lvl...dunwan to live without it...I AM really veri afraid..

lately in the evening..went to meet her.. mood lighten... she gave me something.. a bag of cookies.. I love it.. really nice... felt so touched... she oso gave me a bag of something..something tt touched me.. well.. she haf history wif me..and i really find myself drifting back to her... dunno why either..feel so .... when she tok abt the other guy... also her nick...I am afraid to forever loss her cos i really dunno how to let other love in, afraid tt i might get hurt again and live in hatred... I am afraid and i am loss of what shd i do... :((

generally I am afraid today.. I AM REALLY VERI AFRAID just like a kid...feel like crying, with the tears of sturborn n reluctance...but tears dried up 7 yrs ago le.... i din really show my fears..bt deep in me.. I am afraid... I DUNWANNA FEEL TIS WAY ANYMORE!!!

HOPE ALL TIS IS JUST MY PARANOID......

OUT---> kiddy SHaO Cheng

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Dream

I had a dream ytd nite..the dream is quite a nice one..bt i really really really pray it is a real one too.. as in my dream i dreamt that I PASSED MY O'LVL.... Really really pray it is a real one.. I am really really really scare of the result..

DREAM COMES TRUE...DEY DO...

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General Apology

hmm..think quite long din blog already..haha.sorry..hehe... perhaps too busy and oso too tired to do so ba..aha..well within this long period quite abit of things is happening to me..lets see

NCO course 2005

ok...this is a very long topic here..well lets make it short.. well this year course day is alittle bit different frm last year.. as in this year the camp is 4 days 3 night.. hmm..lets talk about why i want to join this course as an instructor.. well its a long story...to cut it short, i went for this course to be an instructor was due to some personal impact NCO course had on me when I am still a training..basically I should say NCO course changed my life.. it sparkled off the leader in me... no doubt i am a leader now, and i am keen to see more leaders passing out..so therefore i join this course to see what i can help in developing new leaders new and better talents

The camp is quite a stressing one as the instructors had minor conflict with eachother...well i am sort of middle man..but its ok now as it is solved..alittle bit late...but at least it is solved..hmm..the trainees are good as in they are enthu. but they are some times getting out of hands... but lucky fer all the instructors..we still got them back under our command..haha.. this year's trainees are quite and pretty smart as they are more of the demanding lots.. no doubt they pose quite challenge to the Instructors...

Well, we instructors are the real victims.. we are sort of being pushed around and pinned pointed alot of times.. we sometimes feels that we are make to perfect something which is already perfect.. however the details are confidential..so i decided not to post it..but generally, we instructors feel that our ranks n post are challenged to obtain the minimum standard of the cadet than to be made use to help obtain the minimum standard.. Sumarise, I dun feel proud being a NCO course instructor 2005 untill today when the course ends and when all things are being brought up both by trainees and officers...

Basically, this course is another life experience for me..The picture of life is even clearer.. from what i can see from the stress in the camp, the stress of being put in front line..But i truly learn alot....lastly i am so glad to meet a group of potential and wonderful leaders in the course..and thats my instructed group---> Gryphon

the followings are the members of the team...

Cindy Peh(AHS),Wang Miao(AHS), Sharifah Husna(BNS), Norliyana(BNS), Nurul AIn(BNS), Toh Jia Ling(BVS), Muhd Arif(CCS), Nurul Jannah(ESS), Muhd Faris(JYS), Jasmine Low(SPF), Ang Wan Lin(TMS), Joseph Chang(TMS), Ng Zhen Ling(YYS), Nurash Wedia(YYS), Tay Jia Ren(YYS), Lim Chung Yang(YYS)

together we are the gryphons... ONE TEAM ONE ROAR.. you guys are a wonderful lots.. as u all place a up to standard challenge for my first time being an Instructor...

Chalet... 56 Brothers

haha..well after the stress, stern camp..i am resorted to a more relaxing environment..and that is the Chalet in SAF resort...haha...well truely we played alot.. and enjoy ourselves..like what Honsonn said, its quite a great time for fun and to learn to be independant..since its like 4 days 3 nite no parents no anything..just ourselves..And i am glad to say tt we really helped eachother alot in the chalet..and fun is the only word i can find in all of us..haha.. well.alittle craving still for the chalet..Hope can see the video soon..haha.. I wan to see my face in it..wahaha..

OhOH..not to forget these following pple who turned up..personal message..

Honsonn(tai zi): hey brother, thanks fer making this chalet possible..u did quite alot..u brought in fun and laughter... u are really like a leader among us.. u are really a person worth to be buddy

Shawn(ren Zhe) n Sueh Li: what says this couple..haha.. u both man..so loving..well perhaps this chalet shd had make the both of u to the next level of love evolution huh.. haha.. ok..think thats all fer u all

Jing Ren( bunny): hey brother..why so serious man.. chalet relax..dun need to be so kan jiong..cannot finish de thing we can slowly do.. hmm but..u are quite a coordinator over here..hmm..good job, things run well under u...

Nigel Sim and Derrick: ahem ahem ahem..both of u hor..pro at siting infront of X-box and play..haha...but nvm all of us do..well u all make a good companion..thanks fer coming brothers...

My beloved Shi Mu Yi Qi:hey hey hey..my shi mu le.. haha.. well same thing thanks fer coming.. well u really are the onli one who can split open my mask de le.. haiyo my feelings cannot hide frm u de .. no fun..haha. bt anyway tt prove tt u are truly my shi mu mah...hahah..well..thanks fer coming and listen to my grievances as i do have some ..thanks..

My beloved Ngin An:..no status fer u..haha..as i dunno how we are getting along.. hope we can go back to the closeness we have last time..our loving times.. and thanks for coming.. u make me feel touched..and i hope i make u touched too... thanks...muackies

Generally..thanks fer coming.. u all make a good companion.. well whether the sky falls or the ground splits.. I will never forget u all as the pple who lighten my life and make it so meaningful..thanks..

Other matters:

yeah found a job...training 4 the job tis tuesday.. finally.. got pay..can buy alot of things.. and can oso buy gifts to my beloved gal..hehe..dun reveal yet.. she noe herself.. hmmm..think tts all..yawn... slping time..ZZZ

A good leader is also a good follower, learn to follow b4 u lead..

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NCO course 2005- Hike Recee

hmm..today is the day for the hike recee..is it a impt thingy for me as i need to know the exact checkpoints of the hike..so as to have a better preparation during the hike... so now got the list of checkpoints le..haha.. cannot list out..haha..course veri dangerous here.. wahaha.. anyway I know PU in and out le..so no need to remember the route and so on onli need to know the checkpoints..haha..but maybe the deserted prawn farm tt part alittle unclear for me..hmm..today recee is kind of dead dead one.. not like last year..perhaps last year it is more lively as there is alot of laughter and talkings.. but today its almost dead..except for some craps by Johnathon, Alvin and me... we oso play some speeding dwn the slopes and so on..haha..kind of fun that side..but at the end..all like zombies le..haha.. but it shd be fun for all la..since the trip today is sponsored..wahahaha....

My mind keeps going...

Ok..after the recee..I went home..and then life is as usual le..haiz.. so sian.. I really dunno what the hell i am now.. it looks like i am never satisfied wif myself.. I am always imaginating things.. haiz..really dunno what to do..I had tried many ways.. I tired myself for one week le..play soccer..go NCOC..and so on and so fro..but i just can't let my mind free for not at least one min.. haiz..

furthermore.. all these days, quite alot of rumors.. and i sort of still wondering why these rumors come abt... lol... am i really that flirt that all this scandals thingy come to me..hmm..looks like i got lay my hands off on some matters...hmm tts not a prob to me..rumors aren't real till they prove they are.. but the real thing i am not happt is that all this days i am kind of being manupilated by pple around me in attempt...my mum told me sometimes i must learn to give in.. haiz. the problem is i am already a master degree in giving in le..I dunwan to give in anymore.. i am sort of being a loser..as whenever i give in..the onli thing i get in return is less troubles..and i mean less troubles that means still got trouble.. well I believe fate in love..I AM NEvER READY TO BELIEVE FATE IN ANY OTHER THINGS..so if fate is to fate me as a loser in life.. den i wil fight against this fate, i will change my fate.. I AM NOT A LOSER!!

Within my buddies..my buddies told me I am improving le..but at the same time pple outside are challenging me.. but I know challenges on life is something unavoidable..but sometime i really feel veri tired facing challenges aft challenges... but i noe that i had came tt far le..that i haf no choice but to make my life so miserable and systematic..tts life without love ba..perhapz.........haizzzzzzzzz..furthermore.. I felt so fustrated..it seems like what i had done is not appreciated at all.. ignored completely...but haiz..what 2 do..learn to comply b4 complain...

But anyway, tts life.. living up to the buddhist proverb, LIFE IS FULL OF SUFFERINGS...then i shall take that sunshine will come aft storm......but whether or not..I will live up to wat i expect of myself...tts my life...

Whats up tml??

okok..tml got to pack my things fer camp and at the same time for my chalet..then i will be free to meet up wif pple b4 i go real MIA in society...den at nite..soccer training.. SHAWN better be coming....... den tts all le fer the day..hmm..so lonely and boring and systematic hor...

Rumors aren't real till they prove they are...

Learn to comply b4 complain..learn to follow b4 lead

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cycling day..

hmm..today I woke up late, around 1 p.m. haiz... what to do no exams no school no nothing..so nothing to do so slp lo.. but today got a last min call frm Honsonn..asking me out to cycle..so I decided, Since nothing to do at home, so i go out and cycle lo.. along the way, Honsonn and me somehow talk through our personal stuffs..hmm since we are buddies, then we should listen to eachother ba... we talk of alot of stuffs...we talk abt honsonn's recourting his ex thingy.. asked abt my decision of patching.. we discussed the soccer team training and so on so on..we sort of cycle slowly and din really speed...along the way alot of stuff we talk abt...I kind of lose count oso..haha..

AFter which..honsonn went to look for his 'hao peng you' me too look for 'peng you' the peng you who make me so confused abt my status.. what shd i do wif her?? i really dunno.. is it so sudden for her to come back..shd i or i not.. puzzled.. follow feelings or follow fate..i really blur.. i noe my stand..bt i duno hers' n she dunno hers... same old problem..dun feel the love frm her..is all this true or is it just another time push for me to fall back into the cliff..haiz.. puzzled..confused.. haiz..what is her choice in the end?? me or tt guy...perhaps nt me ...dun wan to see the worse case senario .......i really dunno...

where to find true love...cover all the grieves and guilts...

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Where is my stronghold??

hmm..today, start my soccer team's training.. sad hor.. my team now onli got 4 people. but what to do.. this 4 people are the permanent players..sort of the founders of the team...but one of them din turn up today..well can say today i had a showdown.. we played wif a few malay boys... i score one goal.yea..haha.. aft those boys..another gp of pple came to us..play 2 balls. i score one aft lagging one ball..

our mentor Honsonn..tell us our weakness and stronghold.. hmm he says that i am alittle bit nervous when put on pressure.. my shooting is oso always abv head level... and my passing is not penetrating enuff..hmm.. i sort of and kind of agree wif that..haha.. den he told me my stronghold..he says if there is a captaincy in my team..perhaps i am the best candidate, he says i had successfully showed the determined side by pushing forward despite lagging a goal to the other team..he says perhaps i am a borne moltivator wif leadership..hmm this one, i leave it to the others to comment ba..haha..then aft that, we start to specialise train le... they trained me in my speciality as a Winger.. Honsonn says, as a winger, we must be able to sort of humiliate opponent player..hmm haha.sound so ..haha..bt is that my stronghold..perhaps ba..since i got the tendacy 2 humiliate someone at times..hehe...

One team One Voice One Self One language-->passion

shd i not??

hmm..today..something happen.. But i dunno what to do.. I wan to patch wif her bt i dunno whether got chance..and where to get the guts..humpf..guts..where do u live in this world..chance, are u on my way?

Love depends on fate..

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NCO course 2005

today the day i prayed for.. but hmm.. its a disaster day...NCO course..day one..so suay, early in the morning already scolded le..but thats my fault la..cos i din cut hair..haha.. so i am like a ah beng instructor there.. so i am ready to get the whacking..its a veri stress and chaos in the morning..lots to do.. cadets registration, then must check strength, check uniform, choose grp ic .so on so on... all the instructors were so like busy den we heard this' INSTRUCTORS!!!!!' becos it is too busy so we din respone..den in the end..scolded again.. wah..sometimes i feel life can get too suay at times oso...

actually, i am not particularly happy today..maybe its that i am not use to the life yet..it has been 5 months since i scold people..5 months since i act as a leader..furthermore, pinned down on hair alot of times.. this kind of pin pointing reminds me about my NCOC as a trainee... I don't like to put personal stuff into my work.so I didn't argue..cos i got one strong feeling tt pin-pointing comes with personal conflicts... however,now i am more keen of training the trainees in my gp.. thought of leaving there at first, but their keen eager face to lead destroy my intention..I will stick to my reason of coming, The urge to train leaders..... anyway its NCOC that change my life....

back home, i am so dead.. don't feel like waking up, troubling over my hair..haiz..nvm lucky i noe how to spike nicely..haha..if not like mushroom head..haha..anyway, haiz..bothering over the course assessment, how to grade them..some veri hard to grade..cos dey quiet like no one bussiness...

99% of life is sufferings and regrets, how you juggle determines how long you live...

Life is like an expressway, can speed, can corner, can drift..but of course in the end got accident...

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another day out...

hmmm..exams over le... suddenly its a life with no directions and slack life....last time still got study to worry abt..still got tis thing tt thing..suddenly aft the paper, nothing to do..now life so sian..whats life now.. wake up late, watch tv, play computer, chat and look for jobs..haha.. bt what happen to me ar..isn't this what i want b4 o's end..haha.. shit hor...

Today..hmm spend time with buddies.. one of them got prob..so do what i should do..help... den aft that.. play ranonline..yea character lvl up le..so shiok.. haha.. then discuss with shi yong about training since i am going back..then prepare for NCOC this sat..haha.so fast...

Well since life so sian.. so today nothing big to write..onli to say that i have to change b4 i become a pig in the end..here is some things i wan to do for the nxt, like 7 mths

November n begining of dec 2005--->

1. settle my soccer teams..all the necessary researches
2. go help in NCO course and 2 bring JYSS SJAB back to its shape
3. moltivate SJAB comp team to win
4. Go train my physical fitness through joggin and swimming and doing sits up..
5. change a outlook appearance...highlight my hair(mayb aft NCO course then do)
6. search for a job, take a income

Mid Dec 2005---->

1. Do my job to the best
2. Get on with advance training in my soccer team
3. Go take up Akido(mayb, still need parents consent)

Late Dec and Jan---->

1. still do job
2. go SJAB to train pple
3. get the COmp team ready

Feb---->

1. be there for SJAB and comp team
2. be prepare for result slip..humpf..dis one scare le
3. choose my courses for POLY
4. improve my appearance again

March- July---->

1. Do the same thing as above
2. prepare for Poly life
3. get on with life
4. find one new gal friend(hehe, kiddin)
5. no more slacking

thats should be all..but this is only the draft..i feels like there is alot for me to do.. i am not the best yet now.. somehow i got urge to get the whole world..but i know if i really have the whole world, in the end i wil still need to hav a fix place to stay.. maybe it give me a veri impt thing to do now, think of my future.. I always want to be in a mangerial post or a presenter or a moltivator.. but it looks like i am still undergrad of all this..after i saw an ambulance tt day, i mean yesterday... i think back, i did quite alot of first aid thingy, and thus found out that i am more confidence in rescue work and first aid...nvr i see myself panick when emergency come or saving someone..compared to ytd when i play soccer...i am not panick when i dribble the ball pass defenders, but i panick when i shoot...furthermore, i am more confidence when give instructions during an emergency, remembering a case i once met..though tts my first time and a little chaos..its still prove my basic abilities in handling stress like questionings and so on...I find myself more to those kind of risk taking and adventure seeking type..so its like a very stressing thing now for me.. but whether or not, theres one thing i know, i have to do something to myself b4 i can do something for others.... as for part time job and about taking up some pain in life..hmm i feels tt still early.. life for me is still long.. pain and sufferings I had b4, the rest, let it come naturally i dun find it for myself....hmmmm.. tts shd be alll

KK.. now signing out.. with one chinese qoute(translated).. so long as u don' give up at the edge of time, tradgedy will turn to miracle....

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First Entry...HOW's Life??
lols..this is my first entry in my new blog..ya.. new blog also mean new life..haha.. hmm.. almost 2 months since i'm ditch back to single...sort of getting with the single life here.. that kind of systematic life kind being unloaded from worries...thats life, teenage love, how many of them are successful? har... hard to understand hard to answer... Given a chance to go back in time, perhaps i would not had gone into relationship in the first place..haha.. but anyway..ya life is kind of good and smooth now...After the 7 october accident...My injury after an accident on the day i was ditch is getting better...no longer pain, but scars all over, perhaps that should be on me now emotionally, scars...haha.. but anyway..ya life is kind of good and smooth now....
Time drifting:--- back in time...code **071005**
maybe i should write what happen to me here 2 months ago...ya its sad, but kind of a way for me to forget...so I don't mind sharing....but the aftermath of the tragedy is a life-changing path for me
abt 2 mths ago, a girl i thought to have love me, left me... unreasonably left me... don't know why when she tell me the reason, i became so angry... so lose... she said her feelings had died on me.. har... so funny to think back now.. what a joke.. that love is a joke...b4 she broke up with me, i cycled pass her house, met her sis.. got the info she was wif the other guy... upset?? think too much??? cross the road.. then a BANG!!!..wow.. dislocated my wrist.. Good buddy shawn, sent me home.. then the msg came in... asking me to call this no. So i call..its my gf.. she wants to break up with me..ask her, tt guy is wif u..she say no... ironically... so who's no. is this.. i have no choice..but to sliently listen to her bullshits... I asked 3 times why? she say her feelings dead..no longer like me.. tell her... if thats the case, we shd not have start this..ans was nt 2 hurt me..reply frm me... then which is more hurtin?? now or b4??quick in mind, she changed her words, like me b4,bt feelings dead now...asked her...is she in love wif other guys..she said NO... i asked why again?? she emphasize again..her feelinngs dead on me.. ANGERED!!..I rebuked UTTER BITCH!..hang up the phone... went cycling again...
Perhaps its the pain..perhaps its the sorrow.. I felt nothing from my injury.. not till i calm down, then i found out that my wrist hurts...look on my fone, wow..the news spreads fast.. i got 5 miss calls frm my buddy, 2 msg frm my buddy... sleep quite well tt day, perhaps just too tired..wake up..found out that i can't bend my wrist.. afraid..refuse to tell parent..go find buddies..buddies bring me to doctor... send to hospital..thereafter in cast for one week..Pain no longer aft 1 week..but wound is still on its way of healing..whether or not.. likewise of my physical wound, emotionally i too will have a ugly scar...
along the way, heard lots of story... wonder why the news spread tt fast... so its that unfaithful ex who send the words around...
heard she wif one man, a 20++ man.. no names shall be mentioned...but he is a 'man'... i know him as he is in sjab.. the man who always ask me abt the status btwn my stead..."broke up already?"... the ans is always no..till then there is finally a 'yes, we broke up'.. that man no console... mocked me...onli reply wif" HAHA, relax la..over means over le..haha"laugh and laugh and laugh...i could have describe him wif this poem
that man is a thorn my throat...A man who dun knows wats love...a man without a brain. is that still a man?? stupidly straight forward??no conscience?? egoistic, womanizing...thats a man?? its an outdated man...modernally a loser..thats the 'man'
second piece of news...the unfaithful one insulted me... she broke my heart..wat more she wants??? i shd be the one insulting, bt she did it beside the fact i din insult her..i could have start a rally describing abt bitch using her as an eg.bt i din...Ironically the story made up by her is to put me in losing end..bt neither she noes she is quite hated among all.. reason to brake up wif me is tt feeling is gone... bt the words tt is spread around..she explained" SHAO CHENG IS A GUY WHO SEE PPLE GOT STeAD DEN WAN..SO I BREAK UP WITH HIM"... so lame... a little gal trying to be noble?? nvm dreams are there for her to dream on...always hears frm her tt guys doesn't respect gals...so she hate guys...har?? then what abt her.did she respect guys??hmm.. dun noe...she is a sore loser..she doesn't wan 2 be pinned dwn..well..dun blame her..she still young...
One month passed..getting prepared 4 o'lvl... met her along the streets..she smiled..and say hello... i din smile to her..onli a simple hi n walk away fast enuff... funny?? why she still got the cheek to smile?? har..forgotten.. she can smile becos i am like no other guys in her, a toy in her toy box..to play... i found out too why i kan smile..tts becos i once treat her like an angel..now she is a devil..who on earth will smile to a devil...sickening...
2 mths flies..i'm finishing my o'lvls... whether tt sorrow and painful exp she gave me had really spoilt my life is yet to be known... i felt guilty for myself even till now...o'lvl its still a mystery whether i pass or nt..so scared.. but whether or not.. i know i won't revenge on her... anyway hatred begets hatred.. and i shall take shi mu yi qi's words.. tt gal..is not worth it...forget abt her and i will find true love and the worth one...I wun also be demoralised..thus taking my god proverb... happiness after tragedy...And i will strives on....for taking my motto...Life is full of sufferings, No pain?? no gain...
What i had learnt
In regards to no pain no gain... i have to say tt..the pain i exp allows me to matured even more and know even more...Love was once purely a need of trust n faith to me initially...but aft all this it proved me that its more than what it is... Love as usual needs absolute trust and faith...Love is also as usual noble and life changing... What i really learn is that, love is more than just celebrating anniversary and saying tt three magic words... I also learn that True love comes with no reason... i learnt also to have big pairs of eyes in searching of true love..never shall i be hurted again by my nxt love.. and of course i will not hurt my nxt love....i will leave a perfect memory even if my nxt love dun work..bt i will make it work...
Lastly.. MY FAV CAR
haha.. well i play max tuning..and my new speed now is 640 HP..wow..haha.. so fast... kind of like speeding and so on abt cars..u noe cars have hidden beauties... now i shall share some pics of my fav car.. "" MAZDA RX 8""
marks fav car..initializing pics code**mazdarx8**