31st August 2007, celebrating the last day of August. Well, again I am early for an entry. Its one week into holidays and seriously I had not felt any relaxing moments since then. Monday to Wednesday was judo camp, Thursday which is today had a briefing for a roadshow job which will happen today(Friday).
Judo camp.... It was quite happening, despite the multiple injuries we had for this camp. All of a sudden, I thought I am back for NCO camp as Rudy and Joe was so fierce and demanding on the Dojo. Well, I was frustrated when I heard their demanding and commanding tone on the dojo, thus I was quite fired up for the exercise and training. Day one was a killer, we did judo training, some PT, a 3.2km jog around our campus and 6 laps of swimming over at the pool in sports complex. Second day was quite fun, despite that I injured my knee cap during a Rendori. Partially my fault as I insisted on a throw ,despite that the opponent had broke my points. Third day, Ivan was injured and I accompanied him to the hospital; then it was a home sweet home...
Well, will be working tomorrow, thus shall stop here. There is much more I have to do now, for M.E.L.T which I will start working on it when I get back home from work tomorrow.
Friday, August 31, 2007
Monday, August 27, 2007
27th August 2007, a Monday... Feeling so excited for the judo camp tomorrow which gives me this ability to stay up so late to drop an entry here. Besides that I have 2 announcement to make, Semester One is over!! and I HAVE A NEW PHONE!!!
So going to miss the days in my second year of RP education, and I am really proud of myself being able to excel through my IT years. Think of it, I had move out of the IT idiots circle and I am IT savvy now!! =D I hope I'm really a IT savvy as there is still a long journey to be completed in the field of IT. Anyway, I have 3 predicted module grades A, so lets hope I really get them and my semester dream is once again reached =)
W66D~~! I will never forget the times we have, the laughter and the companions. Shall write some message to them here, since everyone one in W66D is doing so in their blog...Anyway SORRY FOR BEING LATE!
For all facilitators...
Bernard( C121 data communication and networking): Professionalism seems to be his core discipline. Never break rules and follow the flow... He can really show off his talent in this module with all his impressive terminologies.
Jimmy( C108 Oriented Object Programming): I will never forget the first 2 Bs he gave me, but I am happy to get A's from him. A very helpful and understanding facilitator if you ever come across him.
Deborah(C107 Database system): To have the ability of floating and sneaking around true is very impressive=p Of course we never know when she will be leaving or had left, but nevertheless I love her module and she is a very helpful facilitator.
Magdalene (C131 IT security and management): She has the appeal to be the apple in our eyes. Never fails to help, never fails to smile, advice and encourage you. I love her comments, they are very enlightening and useful. This module is top core interesting, but got to say sorry as my confidence led to the bad results in UT =(
For my classmates:
Ain and Roy: Very stylish couple over here. For Roy, you have a wonderful presentation skills; my role model when it comes to presentation =D Ain, you are a wonderful teammate, always there to give a helping hand =D
Mei Yean: Never fails to make the class go crazy. Well, I enjoyed your craps alot cause it really ease the atmosphere. But just a reminder, too much yellow colored jokes is bad for health =D ( you should have seen this in your individual comment, now you know who its from ? ) =p
Charlotte: The one with the exact frequency level with Mei Yean. Your laughter is so OMG~~!! Whenever it fills the room, we will definitely know its from Charlotte =D But its nice to have you in class...
Mei Qi: Sleep Sleep Sleep huh? =D You can be very hardworking in your work and you can be a 'A' student in class. You are also very ON, which I personally like it =D Wish you all the best in RP and in your Yamaha =D AND please come for M.E.L.T meeting =D
Wei Quan: Play boy.. haha... Never fails to have some girls chatting with her on MSN. Good teammate with plenty of jokes~! See you in more BC meeting and work together in M.E.L.T camp =D
Kee Yong: Basket, spiderman~! Crappy guy, which can never be told from his appearance. Thought to be anti-social but you are more than it meets the eye.. See you around.
Guess there is too much for me to tell my classmates what I want to say. Sorry for those who I had left out, but no doubt you guys are great in this semester and I wish to see you around in RP =D Awaiting our Pulau Ubin Trip =)
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In collaboration of Judo training camp and M.E.L.T Camp which is coming soon for me, I shall share my camp experience i had~!
2002
-> Sec One interaction Camp( camper)
-> St John annual Camp ( camper)
2003
-> NCO training course/camp(camper)
2004
-> Sec One interaction Camp(Instructor)
-> St John Annual Camp (NCO trainee)
->NCO training camp (Logistics/Messing executive)
-> Sec 3 adventure Camp( Camper)
-> OBS mobile training camp( camper/Watch Medi
2005
-> St John Annual Camp( Overall - in - charge)
-> Sec one Interaction camp ( Group instructor)
-> NCO training course/camp (NCO instructor)
2006
-> RP Cypher club SIT orientation camp(Camper)
-> St John Annual camp(Hiking activity in-charge/ Discipline Officer)
-> Networking IG Camp(Camper)
-> YA club camp(Camper)
2007
-> RP Cypher club SIT orientation Camp(Team leader)
Coming soon~
- Judo camp( Designer/ camper)
- M.E.L.T camp (Project head)
Failed attempts:
- St John interaction camp(2005)
- Mind your own Business workshop day camp(2006)
I had been through lots of camps since I started my secondary school life. Thus with the experience as a camper , leader or organizer; the things I see, feel and found ; I am very assured and confident that I will bring the best for M.E.L.T. Giving all campers a MELTED experience but I just hope my team will share the same as me ...
Thought of the day: SO long for a torture in Judo camp....
So going to miss the days in my second year of RP education, and I am really proud of myself being able to excel through my IT years. Think of it, I had move out of the IT idiots circle and I am IT savvy now!! =D I hope I'm really a IT savvy as there is still a long journey to be completed in the field of IT. Anyway, I have 3 predicted module grades A, so lets hope I really get them and my semester dream is once again reached =)
W66D~~! I will never forget the times we have, the laughter and the companions. Shall write some message to them here, since everyone one in W66D is doing so in their blog...Anyway SORRY FOR BEING LATE!
For all facilitators...
Bernard( C121 data communication and networking): Professionalism seems to be his core discipline. Never break rules and follow the flow... He can really show off his talent in this module with all his impressive terminologies.
Jimmy( C108 Oriented Object Programming): I will never forget the first 2 Bs he gave me, but I am happy to get A's from him. A very helpful and understanding facilitator if you ever come across him.
Deborah(C107 Database system): To have the ability of floating and sneaking around true is very impressive=p Of course we never know when she will be leaving or had left, but nevertheless I love her module and she is a very helpful facilitator.
Magdalene (C131 IT security and management): She has the appeal to be the apple in our eyes. Never fails to help, never fails to smile, advice and encourage you. I love her comments, they are very enlightening and useful. This module is top core interesting, but got to say sorry as my confidence led to the bad results in UT =(
For my classmates:
Ain and Roy: Very stylish couple over here. For Roy, you have a wonderful presentation skills; my role model when it comes to presentation =D Ain, you are a wonderful teammate, always there to give a helping hand =D
Mei Yean: Never fails to make the class go crazy. Well, I enjoyed your craps alot cause it really ease the atmosphere. But just a reminder, too much yellow colored jokes is bad for health =D ( you should have seen this in your individual comment, now you know who its from ? ) =p
Charlotte: The one with the exact frequency level with Mei Yean. Your laughter is so OMG~~!! Whenever it fills the room, we will definitely know its from Charlotte =D But its nice to have you in class...
Mei Qi: Sleep Sleep Sleep huh? =D You can be very hardworking in your work and you can be a 'A' student in class. You are also very ON, which I personally like it =D Wish you all the best in RP and in your Yamaha =D AND please come for M.E.L.T meeting =D
Wei Quan: Play boy.. haha... Never fails to have some girls chatting with her on MSN. Good teammate with plenty of jokes~! See you in more BC meeting and work together in M.E.L.T camp =D
Kee Yong: Basket, spiderman~! Crappy guy, which can never be told from his appearance. Thought to be anti-social but you are more than it meets the eye.. See you around.
Guess there is too much for me to tell my classmates what I want to say. Sorry for those who I had left out, but no doubt you guys are great in this semester and I wish to see you around in RP =D Awaiting our Pulau Ubin Trip =)
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In collaboration of Judo training camp and M.E.L.T Camp which is coming soon for me, I shall share my camp experience i had~!
2002
-> Sec One interaction Camp( camper)
-> St John annual Camp ( camper)
2003
-> NCO training course/camp(camper)
2004
-> Sec One interaction Camp(Instructor)
-> St John Annual Camp (NCO trainee)
->NCO training camp (Logistics/Messing executive)
-> Sec 3 adventure Camp( Camper)
-> OBS mobile training camp( camper/Watch Medi
2005
-> St John Annual Camp( Overall - in - charge)
-> Sec one Interaction camp ( Group instructor)
-> NCO training course/camp (NCO instructor)
2006
-> RP Cypher club SIT orientation camp(Camper)
-> St John Annual camp(Hiking activity in-charge/ Discipline Officer)
-> Networking IG Camp(Camper)
-> YA club camp(Camper)
2007
-> RP Cypher club SIT orientation Camp(Team leader)
Coming soon~
- Judo camp( Designer/ camper)
- M.E.L.T camp (Project head)
Failed attempts:
- St John interaction camp(2005)
- Mind your own Business workshop day camp(2006)
I had been through lots of camps since I started my secondary school life. Thus with the experience as a camper , leader or organizer; the things I see, feel and found ; I am very assured and confident that I will bring the best for M.E.L.T. Giving all campers a MELTED experience but I just hope my team will share the same as me ...
Thought of the day: SO long for a torture in Judo camp....
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Saturday, August 18, 2007
18th August 2007, 1:46a.m. It seems like all my post are very early. I have really had to declare myself an owl.
Just came back from the usual N~Zire Gathering. Guess some of you are already guessing what is N~Zire. Well simply enough we are just a group of secondary schools friends and friends with chemistry who all have extraordinary and special memories/capabilities which bonded us all so well together even today. Its also a group of leaders, with special thoughts and has been leaders in their own ways.
Its Don's birthday today, so N~Zire had a small celebration for him on the basketball court. Before that was a series of challenging and fun basketball matches. HAHA~~~ We continued playing till the lights are being switched off which follows a chit-chat on current issues and some philosophy(HAHA~~) One particular topic was brought up and I tried to answer as I know the answer but too bad I can't structure and organize my thoughts in time to answer it. The topic was changed since no one have definate answer. Anyway the topic was on what is the difference between Intelligence and Wisdom, and this topic came right after some discussion on the current issues.
After organizing my thoughts which was too late, I came out with these. Wisdom is about making decision and sometimes in the context of advising while Intelligence is about the ability to think and analyze in a way which is better than the other. High wisdom means you can make good and accurate decision and High intelligence means you are able to think more than normal people and analyze things which others might never thought of. Some are wise but not intelligent, some are intelligent but not wise, some have certain level of wisdom and intelligence and some are perfectly both. Some are intelligent where they can think and give good analysis or they have good ideas which they thought of, but they just don't know what to do with them or make wrong uses of them. Some are intelligent, but crisis starts to hit them, they might not know what to do or they might make wrong decisions. Likewise, some had no good and fantastic ideas, but he always know what to do next for his task and make good decisions all because he is wise. When crisis starts to hit them, they have no fanciful ideas to do and turn things upside down but they just know exactly how they could tackle it in reference to their expectations. Some will find themselves being wise at certain issues and intelligent to a certain extents. These sort of category which I believes most average man will fall into. Powerful people can be wise enough to make right decisions and intelligent enough to turn tides, understand things and make new ideas. Some are born with wisdom and making good decision are so easy for them, likewise some are born with this intelligence that ideas flow out of their mind like river. But however out from all these, nevertheless wisdom and intelligence can be gain through years and years of experience. Thats what I thought about the difference between wisdom and intelligence.
Personally I believe I am wise and to a certain extent intelligent. So far I have no problems in making decisions, most of my decisions are right which had not bring lots of problems to me and I generally solve problems with some wise decisions I made. Last but not least, I had council quite a number of people. But though I am blinded at times and made a few bad decisions but they don't usually bad that will cost my life or giving me agony. So far the worse decision I had made is to patch with my ex-girl friend which ended me up in a emotional entanglement. I have no regrets in most of my decisions but the best decision which I am still very happy about is that I decided not to appeal to other schools when i found myself posted to Republic Polytechnic. Seeing me enjoying good results and learning so well, I am happy that I had made this decision which had changed my life to a better end. Another one was to decide to talk and make my stand clear instead of keeping quiet and see things fly by in my team of M.E.L.T management which I saw results coming out which I am personally happy and confident about the camp once again.
Thats all.... hmm somehow I finding out that my perfectionist thinking is going up and is already inviting some people to loathe me. Have to do something to curb that, on my way to earn more respect and more acceptance like what I enjoyed during my OC era in SJAB. Giving myself that drive again...
Just came back from the usual N~Zire Gathering. Guess some of you are already guessing what is N~Zire. Well simply enough we are just a group of secondary schools friends and friends with chemistry who all have extraordinary and special memories/capabilities which bonded us all so well together even today. Its also a group of leaders, with special thoughts and has been leaders in their own ways.
Its Don's birthday today, so N~Zire had a small celebration for him on the basketball court. Before that was a series of challenging and fun basketball matches. HAHA~~~ We continued playing till the lights are being switched off which follows a chit-chat on current issues and some philosophy(HAHA~~) One particular topic was brought up and I tried to answer as I know the answer but too bad I can't structure and organize my thoughts in time to answer it. The topic was changed since no one have definate answer. Anyway the topic was on what is the difference between Intelligence and Wisdom, and this topic came right after some discussion on the current issues.
After organizing my thoughts which was too late, I came out with these. Wisdom is about making decision and sometimes in the context of advising while Intelligence is about the ability to think and analyze in a way which is better than the other. High wisdom means you can make good and accurate decision and High intelligence means you are able to think more than normal people and analyze things which others might never thought of. Some are wise but not intelligent, some are intelligent but not wise, some have certain level of wisdom and intelligence and some are perfectly both. Some are intelligent where they can think and give good analysis or they have good ideas which they thought of, but they just don't know what to do with them or make wrong uses of them. Some are intelligent, but crisis starts to hit them, they might not know what to do or they might make wrong decisions. Likewise, some had no good and fantastic ideas, but he always know what to do next for his task and make good decisions all because he is wise. When crisis starts to hit them, they have no fanciful ideas to do and turn things upside down but they just know exactly how they could tackle it in reference to their expectations. Some will find themselves being wise at certain issues and intelligent to a certain extents. These sort of category which I believes most average man will fall into. Powerful people can be wise enough to make right decisions and intelligent enough to turn tides, understand things and make new ideas. Some are born with wisdom and making good decision are so easy for them, likewise some are born with this intelligence that ideas flow out of their mind like river. But however out from all these, nevertheless wisdom and intelligence can be gain through years and years of experience. Thats what I thought about the difference between wisdom and intelligence.
Personally I believe I am wise and to a certain extent intelligent. So far I have no problems in making decisions, most of my decisions are right which had not bring lots of problems to me and I generally solve problems with some wise decisions I made. Last but not least, I had council quite a number of people. But though I am blinded at times and made a few bad decisions but they don't usually bad that will cost my life or giving me agony. So far the worse decision I had made is to patch with my ex-girl friend which ended me up in a emotional entanglement. I have no regrets in most of my decisions but the best decision which I am still very happy about is that I decided not to appeal to other schools when i found myself posted to Republic Polytechnic. Seeing me enjoying good results and learning so well, I am happy that I had made this decision which had changed my life to a better end. Another one was to decide to talk and make my stand clear instead of keeping quiet and see things fly by in my team of M.E.L.T management which I saw results coming out which I am personally happy and confident about the camp once again.
Thats all.... hmm somehow I finding out that my perfectionist thinking is going up and is already inviting some people to loathe me. Have to do something to curb that, on my way to earn more respect and more acceptance like what I enjoyed during my OC era in SJAB. Giving myself that drive again...
Monday, August 13, 2007
13 August 2007, its a blue and angered Monday
Early in the morning I got a shocking news! Someone is actually avoiding me, well I pretty much can guess the reason why. Thus perhaps I will find a right time to talk to her. haiz~~~ being serious in work can also result into such entanglement of friendship, seriously there is something wrong in this world.
Sad to say, I had a whole night of soul searching; actually I had did nothing wrong, perhaps some misunderstanding and over imagination of myself. I am right to ask about the process, else if I will never know it and co-ordinate what that needs to be co-ordinate. I have to protect the integrity of the project, can't just let everyone off and let them do whatever they want. Everyone knows what they are doing, and true enough that is an impressive ability, but thats if you are working alone; don't ever use that when you are in a team because everyone has the right to know what you are doing.
Trust, all of a sudden this word ring in my ears like swam of bees. I used to get this from my ex-girlfriend but right now I have a upgrade. Have I not entrust enough trust? To split my project to so many parts for so many of you to take it up? I could have plan all this on my own, isn't it? Please respect my position and my offer, its not about finishing what is yours and hiding it as if someone will steal it, you are not alone~~~ Yes its hard for me to trust people, but if I had given you the trust, PLEASE STOP DOING THINGS THAT WILL MAKE ME SUSPECT YOU ANYMORE!! I am a defensive person, I know and hope you understand...
Was pretty disappointed after what I saw, thus affecting my mood a little. But solving the day's problem quickly enlighten my mood. Continued to soul search on bus, reached home and strum the guitar; lying on the sofa thinking of the issues; soon after singing "your call", I fall into a deep sleep on my sofa....
Early in the morning I got a shocking news! Someone is actually avoiding me, well I pretty much can guess the reason why. Thus perhaps I will find a right time to talk to her. haiz~~~ being serious in work can also result into such entanglement of friendship, seriously there is something wrong in this world.
Sad to say, I had a whole night of soul searching; actually I had did nothing wrong, perhaps some misunderstanding and over imagination of myself. I am right to ask about the process, else if I will never know it and co-ordinate what that needs to be co-ordinate. I have to protect the integrity of the project, can't just let everyone off and let them do whatever they want. Everyone knows what they are doing, and true enough that is an impressive ability, but thats if you are working alone; don't ever use that when you are in a team because everyone has the right to know what you are doing.
Trust, all of a sudden this word ring in my ears like swam of bees. I used to get this from my ex-girlfriend but right now I have a upgrade. Have I not entrust enough trust? To split my project to so many parts for so many of you to take it up? I could have plan all this on my own, isn't it? Please respect my position and my offer, its not about finishing what is yours and hiding it as if someone will steal it, you are not alone~~~ Yes its hard for me to trust people, but if I had given you the trust, PLEASE STOP DOING THINGS THAT WILL MAKE ME SUSPECT YOU ANYMORE!! I am a defensive person, I know and hope you understand...
Was pretty disappointed after what I saw, thus affecting my mood a little. But solving the day's problem quickly enlighten my mood. Continued to soul search on bus, reached home and strum the guitar; lying on the sofa thinking of the issues; soon after singing "your call", I fall into a deep sleep on my sofa....
13 August 2007, just 3 minutes into the day and here I am blogging. Just finished doing some parts for the M.E.L.T camp and decided to tell you guys about my dull and irritated life.
Is it my personality?? Why do I feel like everyone is keeping a distance from me? WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG??? Sometimes I wonder, but it will just be great for a person to actually tell me, am I so unaccessible?
Maybe I am not trusting enough, kind of hard for someone to convince me and receive my trust. I have to say sorry for those whom I had spoke to with suspicious and serious words, its my history that contributes to this. I believe I am a total perfectionist who have high expectations for myself and those working with me, and I understood that sometimes we have to lower down our expectations so that we are not strangling ourselves or those who are working with me. Sad to say, I can't do it, it just makes my heart go sour to see things falling apart and not into place; so guys pardon me.
I believe some people out there have certain expectations from me as well. Which I believe is what all my facilitators and teachers are talking about, potential... I find myself not using my human relation skills to work but with my own working attitude, my ambitions and my foresights. Practically, people approach me if they think I am beneficial to them but little will stay as real buddies to me. I saw this practical reaction in my school, when I can't solve a particular thing, I become nothing to others' eyes..
Life is so unpredictable and this society is so full of conspiracy. You never know what will happen next to you and you can never ever know what people are doing behind you. The most you can do is to suspect with no concrete evidence to take actions. Thus it is important to learn how to handle those who are out to bring you down.... And I promise I will learn to be cruel when I need to... Prejudgments from others, I will learn to prove them all wrong... Pessimistic, am I? No I believe I am just being realistic and practical.
Just got some lecture from my mother as she complain that I am too silly to do things for others without giving myself any benefits. Am I really so? Maybe at times I am just to considerate to others feeling which in the end making myself lost. Perhaps I shall train up on my killer instincts like what Honsonn is talking about. Cruel and fearful at the right time, its all man by himself.
Thought of the day: Why is it that some does things so smoothly with so little unfortunate things happening to them? While some always fails or things doesn't go smoothly and yet receive prejudgments from others?
ShaoCheng-logy(line 9): Cruel to those who are cruel, Friendly to those who are Friendly.
Is it my personality?? Why do I feel like everyone is keeping a distance from me? WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG??? Sometimes I wonder, but it will just be great for a person to actually tell me, am I so unaccessible?
Maybe I am not trusting enough, kind of hard for someone to convince me and receive my trust. I have to say sorry for those whom I had spoke to with suspicious and serious words, its my history that contributes to this. I believe I am a total perfectionist who have high expectations for myself and those working with me, and I understood that sometimes we have to lower down our expectations so that we are not strangling ourselves or those who are working with me. Sad to say, I can't do it, it just makes my heart go sour to see things falling apart and not into place; so guys pardon me.
I believe some people out there have certain expectations from me as well. Which I believe is what all my facilitators and teachers are talking about, potential... I find myself not using my human relation skills to work but with my own working attitude, my ambitions and my foresights. Practically, people approach me if they think I am beneficial to them but little will stay as real buddies to me. I saw this practical reaction in my school, when I can't solve a particular thing, I become nothing to others' eyes..
Life is so unpredictable and this society is so full of conspiracy. You never know what will happen next to you and you can never ever know what people are doing behind you. The most you can do is to suspect with no concrete evidence to take actions. Thus it is important to learn how to handle those who are out to bring you down.... And I promise I will learn to be cruel when I need to... Prejudgments from others, I will learn to prove them all wrong... Pessimistic, am I? No I believe I am just being realistic and practical.
Just got some lecture from my mother as she complain that I am too silly to do things for others without giving myself any benefits. Am I really so? Maybe at times I am just to considerate to others feeling which in the end making myself lost. Perhaps I shall train up on my killer instincts like what Honsonn is talking about. Cruel and fearful at the right time, its all man by himself.
Thought of the day: Why is it that some does things so smoothly with so little unfortunate things happening to them? While some always fails or things doesn't go smoothly and yet receive prejudgments from others?
ShaoCheng-logy(line 9): Cruel to those who are cruel, Friendly to those who are Friendly.
Friday, August 10, 2007
9th of August, National day; a day where all Singaporeans will remember and celebrate the independence of our nation.
So thus, I followed the gang of N~Zire to the Padang area to actually experience the atmosphere of this celebration. Kind of disappointed since we are unable to get the tickets for the parade and also failed to squeeze to the merlion park to get a close view of the parade. Thus we are left with no choice but to view the performance from the screen on Padang. Fortunately we are still able to view the fireworks and also some air performance. Well done, as I forgot to bring my camera so there is no pictures to show =( But its enough to actually have it in my mind and I swear I will try harder next year to get the tickets.
We joke about our own country, we curse and swear our leaders at times but its very heartwarming to myself that I'm still so happy to be in this nation. Without fail, I will feel the sense of patriotism when national day come and feel so proud when I see the flag flies in the air. It makes me feel that actually after all, we still love this nation of us. Since young, I had never fail to get excited when I am talking about enlisting into the National Service. It might sound very Singapore-educated for me to say that we should protect our own nation and Singapore owe no one a living; but come to think of it actually it all makes sense. Thus doing my best in the army which will soon be coming, had become one of my goal and a must-do principle. Despites all the unfortunate things I have, the failures and unhappiness I believe I will still do my utmost best to protect this country, not because the government taught me so but because this is where I mature, fall and stand up, my friends and most importantly its here where I got the sense of life.
Thats the patriotic paragraph above... M.E.L.T camp is on the run, and I hope I am doing fine as the project head and transparent to everything; I just don't like the feeling of being outdated. Holiday is coming, but it is never going to be a rest, there will be lots to do during this holiday, I will sum them all out in the next entry. Last but not least, I got another A for UT3 networking.. HAHAHA, looks like my target to score good G.P.A is on its run!! A series of happy and good things are happening to me, I love it and will cherish it just pray and hope that these will last longer =)
Thought of the day: I will learn to protect those I love and those who love me, the things I have and my style...
So thus, I followed the gang of N~Zire to the Padang area to actually experience the atmosphere of this celebration. Kind of disappointed since we are unable to get the tickets for the parade and also failed to squeeze to the merlion park to get a close view of the parade. Thus we are left with no choice but to view the performance from the screen on Padang. Fortunately we are still able to view the fireworks and also some air performance. Well done, as I forgot to bring my camera so there is no pictures to show =( But its enough to actually have it in my mind and I swear I will try harder next year to get the tickets.
We joke about our own country, we curse and swear our leaders at times but its very heartwarming to myself that I'm still so happy to be in this nation. Without fail, I will feel the sense of patriotism when national day come and feel so proud when I see the flag flies in the air. It makes me feel that actually after all, we still love this nation of us. Since young, I had never fail to get excited when I am talking about enlisting into the National Service. It might sound very Singapore-educated for me to say that we should protect our own nation and Singapore owe no one a living; but come to think of it actually it all makes sense. Thus doing my best in the army which will soon be coming, had become one of my goal and a must-do principle. Despites all the unfortunate things I have, the failures and unhappiness I believe I will still do my utmost best to protect this country, not because the government taught me so but because this is where I mature, fall and stand up, my friends and most importantly its here where I got the sense of life.
Thats the patriotic paragraph above... M.E.L.T camp is on the run, and I hope I am doing fine as the project head and transparent to everything; I just don't like the feeling of being outdated. Holiday is coming, but it is never going to be a rest, there will be lots to do during this holiday, I will sum them all out in the next entry. Last but not least, I got another A for UT3 networking.. HAHAHA, looks like my target to score good G.P.A is on its run!! A series of happy and good things are happening to me, I love it and will cherish it just pray and hope that these will last longer =)
Thought of the day: I will learn to protect those I love and those who love me, the things I have and my style...
Thursday, July 26, 2007
26th July 2007, back once again.... Having some trouble sleeping, thus thought of blogging now. Hmmmm, just finish up what I have to do for the proposal for the melt camp...
Nowadays, I am working on a list of quotes which is creatively generated by me. This set of quotations shall remind me of my principles. Thus, they will all form Shaocheng-logy. You see, the purpose is because I need something to remind me of my principles so that I will not forget them and betray myself.
About going to school, I should be soon celebrating the coming of HOLIDAY!!! That is so going to be saying good bye to JAVA, IT security, Database and networking. Kind of love these modules though, gave me the specialty. So school was great anyway, as I found back the very moltivation to go back to school. Anyway facilitators are always commenting that I should ask more questions to other teams, hmmm but they never know why I never do so... I don't take questions as personal attacks, but I have this feeling some do. Either it makes the whole class think they are in a war of "A"s or its some principles of theirs which makes them be so defensive. But however, one of my facilitator gave me the following comment, which is quite a useful advice for me.
Sorry its kind of blur, I am particularly attentive to this whole paragraph talking about questioning other team.
" I understand that some students 'shoot' questions for the sake of making the other person look bad, but I hope that you will not feel personally attacked its normal, constructive questioning turns a little aggressive. This is one of the skills that you have to learn. That is learning how to handle people who are out to bring you down. Think about how you can defend your stand, and whether or not the questions they are asking is relevant".
WoW! I love this facilitator... She is right, I have to learn to handle those who are out to bring me down as there seems to be alot... Can't just keep avoiding those people because they will always be back to shoot me down. I shall learn to not let those people get what they want, but maintaining a peaceful me....
hmm.. shall stop here...
Shaocheng-logy (line7) Learn to handle those who are out to bring you down.
In my head, I sing....
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
I'm listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take
while you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
Nowadays, I am working on a list of quotes which is creatively generated by me. This set of quotations shall remind me of my principles. Thus, they will all form Shaocheng-logy. You see, the purpose is because I need something to remind me of my principles so that I will not forget them and betray myself.
About going to school, I should be soon celebrating the coming of HOLIDAY!!! That is so going to be saying good bye to JAVA, IT security, Database and networking. Kind of love these modules though, gave me the specialty. So school was great anyway, as I found back the very moltivation to go back to school. Anyway facilitators are always commenting that I should ask more questions to other teams, hmmm but they never know why I never do so... I don't take questions as personal attacks, but I have this feeling some do. Either it makes the whole class think they are in a war of "A"s or its some principles of theirs which makes them be so defensive. But however, one of my facilitator gave me the following comment, which is quite a useful advice for me.
Sorry its kind of blur, I am particularly attentive to this whole paragraph talking about questioning other team." I understand that some students 'shoot' questions for the sake of making the other person look bad, but I hope that you will not feel personally attacked its normal, constructive questioning turns a little aggressive. This is one of the skills that you have to learn. That is learning how to handle people who are out to bring you down. Think about how you can defend your stand, and whether or not the questions they are asking is relevant".
WoW! I love this facilitator... She is right, I have to learn to handle those who are out to bring me down as there seems to be alot... Can't just keep avoiding those people because they will always be back to shoot me down. I shall learn to not let those people get what they want, but maintaining a peaceful me....
hmm.. shall stop here...
Shaocheng-logy (line7) Learn to handle those who are out to bring you down.
In my head, I sing....
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
I'm listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take
while you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
Monday, July 16, 2007
16th July 2007... I should say a big FINALLY to see myself sitting in front of my laptop screen with the blogger browser up.A real long time since I last blog, and the reasons are the usual busy.
School life? Honestly speaking, there is almost nothing to say here besides telling you that I went to school almost everyday only till recently when I started to skip lessons. Mainly last week which I skipped Friday and Monday lesson. Meiqi was like saying that I have Monday blues and Holiday mood. Haa~~ smart guess I would say, that was one of the few reasons I had. For last Monday, I was seriously so frustrated and tired that I decided to not go to school for the day which I found out later that it was a wise choice though. For the sinful bad Friday(13th), so tired to go to school thus faking my sickness and sleep my way for the day. Its the 13th of Friday, it might had been a bad day.
Melt camp? Planning stage coming to the end. And I wonder if I had done a good job... But it seems like we are all behind schedule for one week. The meeting today was canceled at the very last minute. Pretty angry when I heard that news as I am in the doubt that my teammates can't make it till the last minute and not directly even. So anyway, that was some rushing hot blood, thus I am cool right now. I am more concern on the plan of the activities that will be running on the camp, the proposal which I need to compile and the clients which I need to settle and approach. I fully aware that this is no one man job, I will take the good initiative and all that I have for this thing as a project head just to run this marvelously for one good time. I failed before, it can be quite demoralizing.Its understandable for me that sometimes we just can't put down our pride to be under a person that have failed before, but I have to emphasize that I don't need anyone to work for me BUT TO WORK with me for a better good. I am aiming right at the camp, to run this well; trust my teammates are with me, I believe they will. I understand that I am already in a situation where I just can't fail this anymore. I am blinded from some facts, or everything is just fine?
Just for the past 3 weeks, I had receive comments and also comparison of my face with others. Personally, I am quite pissed by that.I shall spare the details because its a "everywhere I go thing". Well, I wonder should I blame anyone or should I blame myself. Part of the wonder, have I had really comment someone's bad looking face on a random basis so much so that I had hurt that person; I have to say I have not seen the high frequency in that? Anyway thanks for those who had commented, I understand where I stand and I will never bring my look out as a means to serious market myself to irks the other party off, so EASE!! Next, I don't need any one in this world to tell me how turn off I am in terms of appearance or worse a third party to determine or prove how turn off I am. Lastly, if you would like to comment on me please take a good look at the mirror as well.
Climate changing is for real, world is turning upside down is also too good to be true. You might have heard people saying "APPEARANCE DOESN'T MATTER". Ladies and Gentlemen, I present you that lie of the world. Once I heard from my buddy saying that the society is very particular about how a person look, he says for example a handsome guy with better charisma will tend to get a job in an interview compared to an average man with a good charisma. I thought that was something which is not so true. But soon I see this practical reality of this society. Just recently I went to Giordano for interview, so what happen was I am suppose to give them my particulars. Upon handling up those information, the staff started to look at Nigel, Shawn and me very throughly on our hair and face. Very practical, it seems like they are looking for those who look good to fill the part time slots. So another thing was that, once I walk down my Campus Agora with another friend of mine who had been quite popular among the girls for his look. So we met this lady whom we both know, being polite I said hi but her immediate attention was to my friend beside me. HAA~~ I was like, thanks huh??? I watched 200 pound beauty and there was this particular quote in the movie which says "there are 3 types of women in this world, the beautiful ones who all man will treasure; the average ones are the necessity and the ugly one are rejection." A pretty structured quote to describe women in men eyes. I had did something which I thought was quite stupid of me but it was just for fun. " there are also three type of man in this world, the handsome ones who will always be the topic of admiration, the average one who are all subjected to comparison and the ugly one who will always become the joke for the year." SIGH~~~ Fortunately, this is just the frown side of the society; there is always otherwise. Part of Shaocheng-logy will say: Comment only the good things, reflect on the bad things. To use this on the scenario here it simply says, for those who like to randomly comment on other's appearance please only make a big hu-ha for those who you think looks good, for those who looks bad just keep it to yourself/among friends and make sure it don't leak. For those bad looking or average ones, know where you stand and don't invite idiots that may just demoralize you...
Since I got the time, I shall share a story told by Honsonn about his senior. This man named Donald(correct me if I am wrong) who was a very enthusiastic man and had excellent results. He is a cheerful man, though he likes to irritate others. A few months ago, he was diagnosed of brain tumor. It was a malicious tumor which spreads fast and was endangering his life. But this respectable man knew he will die, but he never gave up and fought with the devil till the end. Unfortunately, god always takes away a good life; he passed away. Honsonn told us this story of his senior in the context of a brother who sort of sell us out and he feels that everyone should have a second chances for the mistakes they made because life is unpredictable.I am agreeable to him, life is indeed unpredictable. Thus I have to learn to treasure and cherish the every moments I have with the people around me... Unpredictable life...
I am done for the day, with more busy and ****-up days coming for the week. So much things to worry, so much things to consider and so much things to think and brainstorm on. As usual I will pray for the goodwill in each day I go through.... zzzzz
Shaocheng-logy (line1)
The world will never try to accept you, but you can try to make the world accept you...
Song of the day:
School life? Honestly speaking, there is almost nothing to say here besides telling you that I went to school almost everyday only till recently when I started to skip lessons. Mainly last week which I skipped Friday and Monday lesson. Meiqi was like saying that I have Monday blues and Holiday mood. Haa~~ smart guess I would say, that was one of the few reasons I had. For last Monday, I was seriously so frustrated and tired that I decided to not go to school for the day which I found out later that it was a wise choice though. For the sinful bad Friday(13th), so tired to go to school thus faking my sickness and sleep my way for the day. Its the 13th of Friday, it might had been a bad day.
Melt camp? Planning stage coming to the end. And I wonder if I had done a good job... But it seems like we are all behind schedule for one week. The meeting today was canceled at the very last minute. Pretty angry when I heard that news as I am in the doubt that my teammates can't make it till the last minute and not directly even. So anyway, that was some rushing hot blood, thus I am cool right now. I am more concern on the plan of the activities that will be running on the camp, the proposal which I need to compile and the clients which I need to settle and approach. I fully aware that this is no one man job, I will take the good initiative and all that I have for this thing as a project head just to run this marvelously for one good time. I failed before, it can be quite demoralizing.Its understandable for me that sometimes we just can't put down our pride to be under a person that have failed before, but I have to emphasize that I don't need anyone to work for me BUT TO WORK with me for a better good. I am aiming right at the camp, to run this well; trust my teammates are with me, I believe they will. I understand that I am already in a situation where I just can't fail this anymore. I am blinded from some facts, or everything is just fine?
Just for the past 3 weeks, I had receive comments and also comparison of my face with others. Personally, I am quite pissed by that.I shall spare the details because its a "everywhere I go thing". Well, I wonder should I blame anyone or should I blame myself. Part of the wonder, have I had really comment someone's bad looking face on a random basis so much so that I had hurt that person; I have to say I have not seen the high frequency in that? Anyway thanks for those who had commented, I understand where I stand and I will never bring my look out as a means to serious market myself to irks the other party off, so EASE!! Next, I don't need any one in this world to tell me how turn off I am in terms of appearance or worse a third party to determine or prove how turn off I am. Lastly, if you would like to comment on me please take a good look at the mirror as well.
Climate changing is for real, world is turning upside down is also too good to be true. You might have heard people saying "APPEARANCE DOESN'T MATTER". Ladies and Gentlemen, I present you that lie of the world. Once I heard from my buddy saying that the society is very particular about how a person look, he says for example a handsome guy with better charisma will tend to get a job in an interview compared to an average man with a good charisma. I thought that was something which is not so true. But soon I see this practical reality of this society. Just recently I went to Giordano for interview, so what happen was I am suppose to give them my particulars. Upon handling up those information, the staff started to look at Nigel, Shawn and me very throughly on our hair and face. Very practical, it seems like they are looking for those who look good to fill the part time slots. So another thing was that, once I walk down my Campus Agora with another friend of mine who had been quite popular among the girls for his look. So we met this lady whom we both know, being polite I said hi but her immediate attention was to my friend beside me. HAA~~ I was like, thanks huh??? I watched 200 pound beauty and there was this particular quote in the movie which says "there are 3 types of women in this world, the beautiful ones who all man will treasure; the average ones are the necessity and the ugly one are rejection." A pretty structured quote to describe women in men eyes. I had did something which I thought was quite stupid of me but it was just for fun. " there are also three type of man in this world, the handsome ones who will always be the topic of admiration, the average one who are all subjected to comparison and the ugly one who will always become the joke for the year." SIGH~~~ Fortunately, this is just the frown side of the society; there is always otherwise. Part of Shaocheng-logy will say: Comment only the good things, reflect on the bad things. To use this on the scenario here it simply says, for those who like to randomly comment on other's appearance please only make a big hu-ha for those who you think looks good, for those who looks bad just keep it to yourself/among friends and make sure it don't leak. For those bad looking or average ones, know where you stand and don't invite idiots that may just demoralize you...
Since I got the time, I shall share a story told by Honsonn about his senior. This man named Donald(correct me if I am wrong) who was a very enthusiastic man and had excellent results. He is a cheerful man, though he likes to irritate others. A few months ago, he was diagnosed of brain tumor. It was a malicious tumor which spreads fast and was endangering his life. But this respectable man knew he will die, but he never gave up and fought with the devil till the end. Unfortunately, god always takes away a good life; he passed away. Honsonn told us this story of his senior in the context of a brother who sort of sell us out and he feels that everyone should have a second chances for the mistakes they made because life is unpredictable.I am agreeable to him, life is indeed unpredictable. Thus I have to learn to treasure and cherish the every moments I have with the people around me... Unpredictable life...
I am done for the day, with more busy and ****-up days coming for the week. So much things to worry, so much things to consider and so much things to think and brainstorm on. As usual I will pray for the goodwill in each day I go through.... zzzzz
Shaocheng-logy (line1)
The world will never try to accept you, but you can try to make the world accept you...
Song of the day:
Thursday, July 05, 2007
05 July 2007, it had been a long time since the last time I blog here. The weeks had not been very good for me.
What will you do if you are frustrated over things around you? What will you do if you fall down? Will you learn to fall. Can you tolerate the injuries and hide the scars after that? Can you stop thinking and imagine about your surroundings for that one minute?
Just lately I am kind of very frustrated nowadays and it had been deteriorating my performance. There is no definite answer to that, just feel frustrated every morning. It seems like any thing around me can frustrate me now. In the morning, when my hair refuse to stand, waiting for the bus, which is always late. When I can't really think about an issue effectively when my brain feel so struck, thus when the other answer to the issue came, I will get glares which seems to be saying"hey, why are you so stupid?". Then generally I will feel stupid. Thought of using violence to solve that, like punching a punch bag; but the problem is I have no punch bag. Thought of singing, but my sister is forever in my room. I don't quite like singing out my anger in front of any body. haiz.. Should stop this frustration soon, if not the message that transmit to my mood everyday is " hey, lets just give up."
What will you do if you are frustrated over things around you? What will you do if you fall down? Will you learn to fall. Can you tolerate the injuries and hide the scars after that? Can you stop thinking and imagine about your surroundings for that one minute?
Just lately I am kind of very frustrated nowadays and it had been deteriorating my performance. There is no definite answer to that, just feel frustrated every morning. It seems like any thing around me can frustrate me now. In the morning, when my hair refuse to stand, waiting for the bus, which is always late. When I can't really think about an issue effectively when my brain feel so struck, thus when the other answer to the issue came, I will get glares which seems to be saying"hey, why are you so stupid?". Then generally I will feel stupid. Thought of using violence to solve that, like punching a punch bag; but the problem is I have no punch bag. Thought of singing, but my sister is forever in my room. I don't quite like singing out my anger in front of any body. haiz.. Should stop this frustration soon, if not the message that transmit to my mood everyday is " hey, lets just give up."
Friday, June 22, 2007
22 June 2007, look back and it had been a long time since I last blogged. Well, you guys are used to it? (haha)
Back from school holidays, pretty bored at home. Thus for most the time, I am out to play sports. Every tuesday and thursday is judo and Friday Basketball. Swimming on wednesday, if not soccer. Anyway, just very happy that my skills for all these sports had improved~~!! Visited Kbox on the last wednesday of the holiday, sung and drunk all the way. errrrrrrrrrrrr kind of forget what else I had done after that HAHA so is the rest of the holiday.
Anyway, there is this girl whom I saw on bus for continuous 2 days. First day, she was sitting diagonally opposite of me and the second day she walk past me while alighting the bus with a surprised smile to me and that was WHEN i started noticing her. HAHA, but anyway I find her quite beautiful and cute. Height is about 160++ with a beautifully tanned body. There is a saying in chinese which says, the first meet is by chance, second meet is concidence, third meet is fate. So I was waiting for myself to see her again for the third time but sadly I didn't see her for the third day else if I might make an effort to know her! HAHA... Something tells me I am just a bus away from her on the third day....Such a puzzle of my heart as her face had been imaging on my mind for the past 3 days already, could this be an infatuated love?Or is it just a spark that cause that small fire which will extinguish one day?
School had been quite a drag for me for the week. Database SQL, JAVA, Networking and IT security and what SO EVER!! Don't really have the mood to do things right or even lead my teammates well to the solution for the day. Well, I had been forcing myself to come to school just to get that few more good results...
Now, I have some problem dealing/handling or even getting use to some people around me. Some just take me as a competitor, omg as if they are worth for me to defeat them. Rubbish.... I shall spare the details, don't wanna invite any revenge oriented spamming on my tagboard =D
Will be going for grading tomorrow, FOR MY YELLOW BELT!! Finally i have the drive for this sport.HAHA...
Shall stop here, i am still in class actually...
Back from school holidays, pretty bored at home. Thus for most the time, I am out to play sports. Every tuesday and thursday is judo and Friday Basketball. Swimming on wednesday, if not soccer. Anyway, just very happy that my skills for all these sports had improved~~!! Visited Kbox on the last wednesday of the holiday, sung and drunk all the way. errrrrrrrrrrrr kind of forget what else I had done after that HAHA so is the rest of the holiday.
Anyway, there is this girl whom I saw on bus for continuous 2 days. First day, she was sitting diagonally opposite of me and the second day she walk past me while alighting the bus with a surprised smile to me and that was WHEN i started noticing her. HAHA, but anyway I find her quite beautiful and cute. Height is about 160++ with a beautifully tanned body. There is a saying in chinese which says, the first meet is by chance, second meet is concidence, third meet is fate. So I was waiting for myself to see her again for the third time but sadly I didn't see her for the third day else if I might make an effort to know her! HAHA... Something tells me I am just a bus away from her on the third day....Such a puzzle of my heart as her face had been imaging on my mind for the past 3 days already, could this be an infatuated love?Or is it just a spark that cause that small fire which will extinguish one day?
School had been quite a drag for me for the week. Database SQL, JAVA, Networking and IT security and what SO EVER!! Don't really have the mood to do things right or even lead my teammates well to the solution for the day. Well, I had been forcing myself to come to school just to get that few more good results...
Now, I have some problem dealing/handling or even getting use to some people around me. Some just take me as a competitor, omg as if they are worth for me to defeat them. Rubbish.... I shall spare the details, don't wanna invite any revenge oriented spamming on my tagboard =D
Will be going for grading tomorrow, FOR MY YELLOW BELT!! Finally i have the drive for this sport.HAHA...
Shall stop here, i am still in class actually...
Sunday, June 10, 2007
10 June 2007... Look here!! I am the owl again for tonight.....
Kind of bored, BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That should work.. understand?? bored....
Kind of bored, BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That should work.. understand?? bored....
Saturday, June 09, 2007
9th June 2007...
All of a sudden, I thought I am an Owl. Why? I noticed that I have been much more active in the night than in the day. Is this part of mutation?? Most of my ideas for projects and stuff like this are done in the night.What is worse is I am always sleepy in the day. I am done for sure man, having more night life than day life. hmmm, should I join Police Force than since I am so active in the night, for then I will be the reason why Singapore sleep well in the night. WAHAHA...
Holidays had been trainings ,some games and guitar. Judo's grading had been postponed to next saturday. Had continuous physical excercise for the past 3 days and I admit that I had not been excercising for a long time. Stamina and strength had all deteriorated. Speaking of grading, I had not even really practise on the throws and ground work.. hmm I am so going to take that 5th Kyu(yellow belt). HAHA, quite slow in grading because the federation is alway slow further more I missed 2 gradings already. Pathetic huh?? Had been crazy about Need For Speed and also Blitzreig. Games are always boring to some, so I guess I shall not share the details. Guitar? hmm what is there to share beside the melodies and rhythm of it?
There is this one extra thing I am doing currently, and that is designing my own blogskin!! hahaha.. I had been trying since the start of the holiday, thus if this is successful more skins will come from me!! If I had really have the capablities then I might go into even more advance development. haha..
Shall stop here, a few days more I will be going to K box again... Seriously I had not sang for a long time, I am quite dissappointed with my deteriorated vocal the last time I went with my classmates.. hmm, back to some more vocal training!! wahaha.
All of a sudden, I thought I am an Owl. Why? I noticed that I have been much more active in the night than in the day. Is this part of mutation?? Most of my ideas for projects and stuff like this are done in the night.What is worse is I am always sleepy in the day. I am done for sure man, having more night life than day life. hmmm, should I join Police Force than since I am so active in the night, for then I will be the reason why Singapore sleep well in the night. WAHAHA...
Holidays had been trainings ,some games and guitar. Judo's grading had been postponed to next saturday. Had continuous physical excercise for the past 3 days and I admit that I had not been excercising for a long time. Stamina and strength had all deteriorated. Speaking of grading, I had not even really practise on the throws and ground work.. hmm I am so going to take that 5th Kyu(yellow belt). HAHA, quite slow in grading because the federation is alway slow further more I missed 2 gradings already. Pathetic huh?? Had been crazy about Need For Speed and also Blitzreig. Games are always boring to some, so I guess I shall not share the details. Guitar? hmm what is there to share beside the melodies and rhythm of it?
There is this one extra thing I am doing currently, and that is designing my own blogskin!! hahaha.. I had been trying since the start of the holiday, thus if this is successful more skins will come from me!! If I had really have the capablities then I might go into even more advance development. haha..
Shall stop here, a few days more I will be going to K box again... Seriously I had not sang for a long time, I am quite dissappointed with my deteriorated vocal the last time I went with my classmates.. hmm, back to some more vocal training!! wahaha.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
3rd June 2007, finally june and here I am in the middle of the night? Ok fine, morning.... Don't really have the urge to turn in to the bed, thus stay up for movies; games and blog of course.
Finally, this thing which we call holiday descend to my life. So like an angel in my life... Cut the crap, I am going to enjoy this 2 weeks long holiday. Whats up for this holiday?? Into some planning for the external project, it will better work this time. Putting my time in Guitar as well, Don advice to hold my perseverence and patiences for this instrument. Just loud and clear here, I WILL!! There will be more things which I will be doing for this holiday... Anyway, my results for the term ends...
Well, quite satisfied with the results but of course what I want is stll pretty far. When I used to think that good results doesn't mean that I will be sucessful, but not really so now; I had to accept the fact that I am living in this world where that piece of paper and recognition is so much important. Just doing myself a favour=)
For the last day of my school, I had JAVA lesson. Touching on Object Oriented Programming. Till now, I still can't get the codes done.. wahaha.. FOR THE FIRST TIME I FAILED A PROGRAM!!GOD DAMN IT!! Its ok, human make mistakes and I truely understands it...
As usual for friday, there is this standard; N~Zire Meeting. I read Xiao Fei Xiang's blog, and gave some thoughts to it. Had everyone changed? or had everyone matured. What caused it? Happy or sad? We have a important person handling his 3Ps, we have competitivness in a casual Basketball Match. Fortunately we have smiles and laughter occasionally. Is it a stage of maturity when guys became serious in things they do, play hard work hard? Or was it something else bad enough to happen?? Well, I have no exact answer to all this questions but just hope that all the good brothers will not just disband like this. Remember the craps, remember the soccer teams we trashed, remember the songs that rock others....
Well, I too had changed.. I am pretty sure about it =) The way I dress, changed. The way I think changed... My perspective changed... What else? There is this something which I lose, after one year in RP. Remember there was once this facilitator of mine during my year one semester one class told me that I have the verbal power to convince and to inspire. Well, I lose that confidence and that drive to be a good presenter at a time when I don't even know it. I find myself stumbling more and more... Just recently I felt that confidence and drive coming back, is it that the devil had been moved away from me?? I really hope so... I don't want to lose my faith and confidence again..
hmm,well I am done for the day.. er.. ok morning... Before my mother steps in and yell at me, i shall turn in to the bed for my own good...
Finally, this thing which we call holiday descend to my life. So like an angel in my life... Cut the crap, I am going to enjoy this 2 weeks long holiday. Whats up for this holiday?? Into some planning for the external project, it will better work this time. Putting my time in Guitar as well, Don advice to hold my perseverence and patiences for this instrument. Just loud and clear here, I WILL!! There will be more things which I will be doing for this holiday... Anyway, my results for the term ends...
Well, quite satisfied with the results but of course what I want is stll pretty far. When I used to think that good results doesn't mean that I will be sucessful, but not really so now; I had to accept the fact that I am living in this world where that piece of paper and recognition is so much important. Just doing myself a favour=)
For the last day of my school, I had JAVA lesson. Touching on Object Oriented Programming. Till now, I still can't get the codes done.. wahaha.. FOR THE FIRST TIME I FAILED A PROGRAM!!GOD DAMN IT!! Its ok, human make mistakes and I truely understands it...
As usual for friday, there is this standard; N~Zire Meeting. I read Xiao Fei Xiang's blog, and gave some thoughts to it. Had everyone changed? or had everyone matured. What caused it? Happy or sad? We have a important person handling his 3Ps, we have competitivness in a casual Basketball Match. Fortunately we have smiles and laughter occasionally. Is it a stage of maturity when guys became serious in things they do, play hard work hard? Or was it something else bad enough to happen?? Well, I have no exact answer to all this questions but just hope that all the good brothers will not just disband like this. Remember the craps, remember the soccer teams we trashed, remember the songs that rock others....
Well, I too had changed.. I am pretty sure about it =) The way I dress, changed. The way I think changed... My perspective changed... What else? There is this something which I lose, after one year in RP. Remember there was once this facilitator of mine during my year one semester one class told me that I have the verbal power to convince and to inspire. Well, I lose that confidence and that drive to be a good presenter at a time when I don't even know it. I find myself stumbling more and more... Just recently I felt that confidence and drive coming back, is it that the devil had been moved away from me?? I really hope so... I don't want to lose my faith and confidence again..
hmm,well I am done for the day.. er.. ok morning... Before my mother steps in and yell at me, i shall turn in to the bed for my own good...
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
30th May 2007, opps I broke my promise on the last entry.. Kind of forget to continue the last entry..haha.
It had been a very long week after my birthday... Finally I submitted my professional profiling proposal to the school. hmmm, I will be doing a profile for Retail Industry. For alot of RP students, this choice seems to be a sucide. But I am ready to take this... Industry is definately a very big thing to analyse and so, I took the advice of scoping my profile all the way down to the sectors of the industry...So thus, I will be looking into the competitive environment in department stores and E-commerce, which from there I will recommend new entrants on the competitive measures. Well there are 2 reasons why I did not choose to profile a company...
1. I have no company in mind...
2. I want to learn more about the industry I am interested of...
Yah, and that is the two main reason why I choose that.
Academically, I also hope that my profile will help me somehow since I had been hoping to field into Retail and hospitality next year. Knowing how retail industry process, I will be able to quickly understand the applications used in that industry. I guess I shall not talk so much about it, lets just wait till it is being approved.
There is this thing which I am personally happy about. I had got my first A in the UT-_-''' there is only one test so far that is being graded. But A will be driving force for more of such 'A's in the future... PUSH FOREVER!!
I guess I shall stop here..there are plenty for me to do now...
Again.. out of boredom, I did these
Mermaid 'cbo', am I that beautiful? haha...
It had been a very long week after my birthday... Finally I submitted my professional profiling proposal to the school. hmmm, I will be doing a profile for Retail Industry. For alot of RP students, this choice seems to be a sucide. But I am ready to take this... Industry is definately a very big thing to analyse and so, I took the advice of scoping my profile all the way down to the sectors of the industry...So thus, I will be looking into the competitive environment in department stores and E-commerce, which from there I will recommend new entrants on the competitive measures. Well there are 2 reasons why I did not choose to profile a company...
1. I have no company in mind...
2. I want to learn more about the industry I am interested of...
Yah, and that is the two main reason why I choose that.
Academically, I also hope that my profile will help me somehow since I had been hoping to field into Retail and hospitality next year. Knowing how retail industry process, I will be able to quickly understand the applications used in that industry. I guess I shall not talk so much about it, lets just wait till it is being approved.
There is this thing which I am personally happy about. I had got my first A in the UT-_-''' there is only one test so far that is being graded. But A will be driving force for more of such 'A's in the future... PUSH FOREVER!!
I guess I shall stop here..there are plenty for me to do now...
Again.. out of boredom, I did these
Mermaid 'cbo', am I that beautiful? haha...
| You Are a Mermaid |
 You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are. While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need. Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational. You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else. |
wahaha , this one is cool.. I always thought I am either an owl or a hawk... this test comfirms.
| Your Power Bird is an Owl |
 You are beyond wise. You are so smart, you're almost prophetic. Your inner voice always speaks the truth, and you take the time to listen to it. You are good at seeing who people are... including the darkness of others. As a result, you tend to have a rather dark - yet realistic - outlook on life. |
hmmm...
| What Your Favorite Color Blue Says About You: |
 Emotional --- Affected --- Sensitive Peaceful --- Tranquil --- Connected Spiritual --- Experimental --- Deep |
exactly my physical blood type..
| Your Inner Blood Type is Type B |
 You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day. Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable. And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success. You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible. You are most compatible with: B and AB Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio and |
yeah.. i feel it too..
| You Are 78% Perfectionist |
 You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others. While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high! |
| Your Inner Color is Blue |
 Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor. |
Quite true...
| What Your Hands Say About You |
 You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills. Flexible and broad minded, you can fit in to any situation. There's no telling where your life will take you. Practical and down to earth, you're a doer not a dreamer. You rather get something done than think about it all day. Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life. |
Do you guys???
| People Envy Your Confidence |
 You have the attitude and self esteem to take on anything. Failure is beyond not an option for you - it doesn't even cross your mind. People envy your ability to take on any challenge ... and they're secretly afraid you think you're better than them. You don't. You're just sure of yourself. |
Monday, May 28, 2007
28th May 2007, just back from school.. A Showcase of what I had done during the bored and tired third meeting...
| Your Life is Rated PG-13 |
 Your life isn't totally scandalous, but you definitely don't shy away from adult themes! |
| You are a PC |
 You're practical, thrifty, and able to do almost anything. Appearances and trends aren't important to you. You just like to get the job done. |
| You Follow Your Heart |
 You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind |
| Taurus - Your Love Profile |
 Your positive traits: You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad. You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice. Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak. Your negative traits: Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships. If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander... You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset. Your ideal partner: Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you. Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave. A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart. Your dating style: Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant. Your seduction style: Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy. Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either. Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time. Tips for the future: Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you. Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best. Lighten up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions. Best color to attract mate: Pale blue Best day for a date: Friday |
| You Are Incredibly Logical |
 Move over Spock - you're the new master of logic You think rationally, clearly, and quickly. A seasoned problem solver, your mind is like a computer! |
| Your Values Profile |
 Loyalty: You value loyalty a fair amount. You're loyal to your friends... to a point. But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties. Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself. Honesty: You value honesty a fair amount. You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it. If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it. In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity." Generosity: You don't really value generosity. Your needs always come first, no matter what. And you'll possibly help someone else out... But only if it helps you in return. Humility: You value humility highly. You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are. And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better. You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low. Tolerance: You value tolerance a fair amount. You are open to new cultures, beliefs, and ideas. You have very few prejudices that you're aware of. And while you are tolerant, you do stand true to what you believe. |
| Slow and Steady |
 Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it. |
| You Should Drive a Blue Car |
 You're the type of driver who isn't hung up on the what car you drive. You don't need a flashy car to show off your wealth or style. Instead, you go for value and reliability. You're quite practical. You're a great driver, but you don't show off. Part of your skill is not standing out on the road. |
Monday, May 21, 2007
21st May 2007, monday blues?? No such things for today =D Hope everyone will forgive me for the late entry, had been quite lazy at the same time busy for the past week. I seeing more of such trends coming up soon due to the tight schedule I had, so guess the entry today will be a novel like one =D. What's new today,had IT security module for today thus as promised I will put some encrypted information here, happy decoding what I want to say...
19th May 2007, how can I ever forget such an important date to myself. They say a person who forget his birthday is a person who had forgotten himself. Looks like I haven't forget my own existance in this world. Anyway 3 major group of people I must really give a big thank you.
To W66D(all my classmates): Thanks guys for the pre-celebration for me in the class, your cakes and wishes really surprise me to being speechless... Really appreciate what you guys had done that day, will love this class more than ever =)
To N~ZiRe: Hey thanks, my secondary school buddies for the celebration over at East Coast Park. I will not forget the moment when I am under the sea... Last but not least, thanks for the guitar =) it really facilitate me in learning this instrument which I always want =D lets see if I got the chance to play in our chalet
To all those who wished me: Belated, early or just in time; can't really name everyone out as there is too many of you. But those little wish and greetings really brighten up my birthday till the max... Thanks everyone =D
That was my birthday, just another day but differentiated by fun... While of course there are some wishes and milestones for the matured 18 =)
wishes:
1- To stay happy with alot of friends and buddies around me
2- To fulfill my desires and help others achieve theirs too
3- Decrpyt this set of code, and there be my wish
Key: ZSTKJSPLOWOPQETHRI
third wish:
TNHNENPXEDSIXXFSHJTX
NPTDDITSPXYKBTLXIXXD
AYAASRJOOOOOOCBCNGNOE
IMIXZMOSSWNOAUEONDGA
AIXATEDTHAYGREIGUSJ
MJFIMECRRRXLKXTXXAH
(happy decoding=), I will reveal my wish when i feel the time is ripe)
The wants:
- Complete my Professional Profilling with absolute satisfactory
- Maintain or improve my overall G.P.A
- Complete and master Guitar
- Get a job
- Take a Car liencse
That is all for my birthday, just simple encrypted message to a band of friends?:
IIAORDARAEEOIS SXRTHNSOSWEFEH AYBHOOSNAWKFNI SEREOTTGFESRDP
21st January 2007, a energentic today.... Nothing much but just school and encrytion and decrpytion...
thought of the day: To be successful, we need not create an environment where we eliminate those who are weaker than us. To impress others that you are good is totally different from proving to others you are good.
19th May 2007, how can I ever forget such an important date to myself. They say a person who forget his birthday is a person who had forgotten himself. Looks like I haven't forget my own existance in this world. Anyway 3 major group of people I must really give a big thank you.
To W66D(all my classmates): Thanks guys for the pre-celebration for me in the class, your cakes and wishes really surprise me to being speechless... Really appreciate what you guys had done that day, will love this class more than ever =)
To N~ZiRe: Hey thanks, my secondary school buddies for the celebration over at East Coast Park. I will not forget the moment when I am under the sea... Last but not least, thanks for the guitar =) it really facilitate me in learning this instrument which I always want =D lets see if I got the chance to play in our chalet
To all those who wished me: Belated, early or just in time; can't really name everyone out as there is too many of you. But those little wish and greetings really brighten up my birthday till the max... Thanks everyone =D
That was my birthday, just another day but differentiated by fun... While of course there are some wishes and milestones for the matured 18 =)
wishes:
1- To stay happy with alot of friends and buddies around me
2- To fulfill my desires and help others achieve theirs too
3- Decrpyt this set of code, and there be my wish
Key: ZSTKJSPLOWOPQETHRI
third wish:
TNHNENPXEDSIXXFSHJTX
NPTDDITSPXYKBTLXIXXD
AYAASRJOOOOOOCBCNGNOE
IMIXZMOSSWNOAUEONDGA
AIXATEDTHAYGREIGUSJ
MJFIMECRRRXLKXTXXAH
(happy decoding=), I will reveal my wish when i feel the time is ripe)
The wants:
- Complete my Professional Profilling with absolute satisfactory
- Maintain or improve my overall G.P.A
- Complete and master Guitar
- Get a job
- Take a Car liencse
That is all for my birthday, just simple encrypted message to a band of friends?:
IIAORDARAEEOIS SXRTHNSOSWEFEH AYBHOOSNAWKFNI SEREOTTGFESRDP
21st January 2007, a energentic today.... Nothing much but just school and encrytion and decrpytion...
thought of the day: To be successful, we need not create an environment where we eliminate those who are weaker than us. To impress others that you are good is totally different from proving to others you are good.
Monday, May 14, 2007
14th May 2007, monday blues monday blues and more blues to come. This illness is really really affecting my performance today.
On this blue monday, I had IT security and management where we are studying on the various access controls. There are Mandatory Access Control, Discrepancy Access Control and Role Based Access control. All access control methods had their different kinds of characteristics and function to suit different types of business. Anyway, kind of switched off for today... Reasons?? Tired was one of the reason, another one was that I am all the way thinking of Business Climate project... The melt camp, how am I going to organize and so on... Just afraid how my team-members will react to my leadership and stuff like this... Thus for this, the presentation I had was really really bad. Got shot down terriblily, but kind of used to it; so lets just take it as a learning experience like preached by PBL.
Thought of the day: To forget about yesterday and to move on to tomorrow.... I had lose my courage, my determination to be a leader, yet yielding to be a great one one day.
On this blue monday, I had IT security and management where we are studying on the various access controls. There are Mandatory Access Control, Discrepancy Access Control and Role Based Access control. All access control methods had their different kinds of characteristics and function to suit different types of business. Anyway, kind of switched off for today... Reasons?? Tired was one of the reason, another one was that I am all the way thinking of Business Climate project... The melt camp, how am I going to organize and so on... Just afraid how my team-members will react to my leadership and stuff like this... Thus for this, the presentation I had was really really bad. Got shot down terriblily, but kind of used to it; so lets just take it as a learning experience like preached by PBL.
Thought of the day: To forget about yesterday and to move on to tomorrow.... I had lose my courage, my determination to be a leader, yet yielding to be a great one one day.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
12th May 2007, I skipped N~Zire's basketball session and attended the Welcome Camp of Business Climate where we welcome our new members. A little disappointed by the turn outs, 47 registered, 12 confirmed, 6 turned out. But after all it is expected since we are a business oriented interest group.
Anyway, the day was fun; enjoyed crapping with some new members who are year 2s actually. HAHA, mainly Micheal, Wei Quan and Meiqi. The craps are really crap, and fills the whole day; ranging from facilitator jokes to the lammest thing "singing lao shi zao". A great or bad news to announce, the W66D Tank Fever had been spreaded to Business Climate by 40%. hmmm...
Business Climate, SLA was over and I am back to my core project which I was dumped with. This time round, i am not going to do it like what I did last year. Waiting for guidelines? why not set my own~~ I am so going to make this project of mine to be the greatest achievement in my Republic life, together with my team members. Got to start cracking soon.
Business totally about money? So is it valid to say that those with money-sense will be very good in business? Partially true, Business is about money, but not all... Business could be a social science of managing people and resource, it could be an art of socializing and networking. Some people took business as their fields or join business because they enjoy the very sense of money making. No blames on them, money do serve a motivator for most to work but for now I chose Business out of passion. The interest in negotiating, socializing and having vast networks plus the sense of fulfillment and challenges ahead drives me all the way into the Business field. Indeed, passion drove me this far... I seen the rise and fall of my momentum in terms of passion, sometimes I let that passion to drive me all the way, sometimes I just forget and crumble my way. Haiz.. why am I so concious and reflective?? And why I am never sastified by myself?
Forget of all the sighing and moaning, in one weeks time I will be matured 18~~!!! hurray, that is a good news to me because that shows that I am grown up!! Bad news is, more responsiblities and expectation is coming in my way....
Anyway, the day was fun; enjoyed crapping with some new members who are year 2s actually. HAHA, mainly Micheal, Wei Quan and Meiqi. The craps are really crap, and fills the whole day; ranging from facilitator jokes to the lammest thing "singing lao shi zao". A great or bad news to announce, the W66D Tank Fever had been spreaded to Business Climate by 40%. hmmm...
Business Climate, SLA was over and I am back to my core project which I was dumped with. This time round, i am not going to do it like what I did last year. Waiting for guidelines? why not set my own~~ I am so going to make this project of mine to be the greatest achievement in my Republic life, together with my team members. Got to start cracking soon.
Business totally about money? So is it valid to say that those with money-sense will be very good in business? Partially true, Business is about money, but not all... Business could be a social science of managing people and resource, it could be an art of socializing and networking. Some people took business as their fields or join business because they enjoy the very sense of money making. No blames on them, money do serve a motivator for most to work but for now I chose Business out of passion. The interest in negotiating, socializing and having vast networks plus the sense of fulfillment and challenges ahead drives me all the way into the Business field. Indeed, passion drove me this far... I seen the rise and fall of my momentum in terms of passion, sometimes I let that passion to drive me all the way, sometimes I just forget and crumble my way. Haiz.. why am I so concious and reflective?? And why I am never sastified by myself?
Forget of all the sighing and moaning, in one weeks time I will be matured 18~~!!! hurray, that is a good news to me because that shows that I am grown up!! Bad news is, more responsiblities and expectation is coming in my way....
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