June 13th, 2008. It's a bad friday! There is a chinese saying which says that the unawared are not affected. Pretty true, I had not even thought that its a bad friday today and fortunately and glad enough that nothing bad really happen.(Except some discomfort when i wake up, engine starting problem.)

Haaz, guess I had really been down and wondering alot for the past 2 weeks in my holidays. See, I'm just never contented with myself, always finding fault in me to change. And I wonder if I can take that as a self awareness test or what they call, NO LIFE BASTARD...

FYP and we are practically left with 15 man-days to complete(assuming Sat and SUn we slack); the most recent and devestating delay just took place which makes this a unfortunate chance to crash the timeline again. Suppose to finish cart module and make loan module by wednesday but.... Now we must start our testing this monday, prepare the test cases by wednesday and finish Unit Testing and debugging by the following Tuesday(latest) Then we'll proceed on to system integration testing and finish every thing by the following Monday. After which is a marathon to complete user guide, presentation materials and our final report( its quite an ambitious thingy to do now) The final report is not really easy, guess I'll have my teammates to start writing their final report to save time.

Just came back from N~Zire meeting and some of us shared with us their MP(major project) experiences which is also the same concept as our FYP. I heard them playing games during lab moments and so on, and their MP seems to be timeless and easily done. Whereas in RP, I see everyone so serious and racing against time to get their project done. Those who are more up to hands will be enjoying completing things as they plan while those who are stucked will show some signs of stress and begin searching high and low everyday for help. Guess RP had reached its mission to implement PBL, it had really trained all of us to be independent and professional in the things we are entitled to do. (OR isit because this is the big thing which determine your graduation?)

As for me, my FYP teammates might had started find me demanding and expecting too much from them in this project. Haaz, thats my bad I always have high expectations for myself and those around me; perhaps thats why I'm not as popular. But after so many failures, I really hate it and want to do the best in things that matters me. Since year 1, I am really determined to make my transcript the most beautiful thing.


Now I understand the concept of "selling yourself". The diploma cert is like a product you offer and your achievements and undertakings in school are like promotions . Bosses looking for the best to take the job are like consumers looking for the best promotion. Am I right?

Haaz, all these are easiler said than done but I believe I'm doing well. Nevertheless there are more about myself for me to explore and improve on.

June 6th, 2008... Somehow I am very restless today. Holiday just started and I wake up everyday with prayers that everything is going to be fine.

FYP, we just entered and almost finished the second phrase of developing. Mainly the administrator and user functions. Pretty much to do within 2 weeks. I am done with all the module except one, which is to edit and update loan details. It went on pretty smoothly for me but it had been hell to my teammates somehow. Now everyday I'll be so shocked by my teammates MSN nick which goes like "DAMN FYP" or "FUCK FYP" which makes me wonder why am I so relaxing when doing codes. Is it because I am doing something simple? Or am I just being good at it? During the whole phrase of developing my own modules, I had found alot of interesting facts and performed stunts on codes which I had obviously not tried during any of the WAD lessons. I know, my teammates are all trying hard to finish their modules and find new ways to complete it. And lets hope they continue doing so because, "GUYS, its worthwhile... "

MELT camp, something which I am seriously brainstorming for ideas to revive it. Just recently a school started to respone to our proposal, NEGATIVELY. Just as I expected, price is not right for them(AND YET I KEPT QUIET DURING THE MEETING, HOW DICK CAN YOU BE MARK!?). Now I had been asked to do a cost evaluation again, AND YES I will do it.Somehow I feel that I had lost the confidence and trust from my teammates and I am also aware of the other negative things that is happening which cause all these screw ups. I had ideas to overcome this, but it means doing the extreme which the return is a variable and BUT it might steer the fate of this project. So should I or should I not?

Haaz, Shawn just called me a workaholic.Its' a negative notation according to wikipedia but I am not denying this fact. Yes I am a workaholic at times. It's fear and the set backs I had which lead and make me this way. Alot of people feels that fears are for cowards, but Scott Burken in his book the art of project management mentioned that "The braves are the ones who feel fear but took action to it" which I personally buy his thoughts(yes, I think I'm brave enough after all the shits i've been through). Maybe because of all the brush through I had, it makes me no longer forget in arrogance that the things around me are not as what I perceive. And you know, things had changed; no longer as easy as it used to be.

Thought of the day:I have not and never will give up on people along the side of me, and lets hope they will not give up on me and things we are fighting for.

May 21st,2008 what a long time since the last entry! Well have been trying to write a diary then to type in a blog. Its just a short one month, but lots had happened.

School? I have been pushing all the way since the start of the semester for my semester target. So its like studying studying studying, doing FYP doing FYP everyday. And I just won't give up doing all these till I graduate. My results have been so far so good and I really hope I'll keep it that way through out this AY.

My FYP, finally we finished our desiging phrase, though its not really perfect in my eyes but at least we have some things there to refer us back. Right now, we are starting to develop the codes for the application, some of us favourite and desires since the start of this project. But I have to really emphasize the importance of design to my team; just to prevent the actual implementation to differ from what we propose in the designs. Its a very dilema thing here, as I try to strive 100% in the project and not compromise my teammates feeling. Just a penny of a thought, today I heard a story of a person who is so hardworking and helped his teammates so much that they got an 'A' and he got a 'B'; GOD MAN where is justice!? I had better watch my way as well.

Another project for me to revive, MELT. With the new advisors, who are extremely helpful; of all a sudden I saw hope for this project. Speaking of projects, I think I'll start to run entries in a black book to remember all the mistakes I made in projects. This way I'll improve.

Just last friday, I lost someone who is my next to kin. To be exact, he is my motherside grandfather. Right now, I am missing his presences. The scene of him cleaning the altar of gods and watering the plants will no longer be there when I visit my uncle house. Just another good man left the world; my grandfather is a well respected man, he is cool and just never lose his temper before. I didn't shed any tears during the wake nor the funeral but through out the 5 days, thoughts had been running through my mind like a busy river. My grandfather's death somehow, just make me feel that life is really precious as everyone has their limited times. Its important to live life as if you will die tomorrow, so that one day when you really leave at old age; there will be no regrets left on this world. His death also made me realised how important it is to be fillal to your parents though it is easier said than done. To me fillal is not about saying it out and celebrating every father & mother's day, its about the unexplanable care and love you gave to them. These thoughts just kept running through my mind whenever I am at the wake. Everything happened so suddenly that I can literally feel the slowing down of the hectic world I lived in, for a moment of thoughts...

Anyway, I'm 19!! My birthday just passed on monday. Can't really celebrate due to the death of my grandfather. But its perfectly fine because, I have many birthdays left in my life but sending my grandfather off to the afterlife will only happen once and only once. Ferlyn said that birthday wishes are wishes which usually come true, I hope I am not too late to make my 2 wishes
1. Complete my teritiary education with flying colors, flying A, flying merits.
2. Have many happy moments with my cliques and family.
Now the 3rd wish is normally a secret and can't really say it out; but honestly I am always blanked on the last wish.

Tomorrow, the hectic world continues and everything will resume its fast and furious speed.

thought of the day: I just want the best in my life, and I'll never rest trying to get it~

12th April 2008, I am late again for an entry about yesterday. It was a bad friday or should i say I screwed it?

Shao Hui was right, there's no point acting happy when you are not. But I have no choice because I know how much I can spoil a mood when I am really unhappy. I can say the most vicious the most hurting the most killing words in this world, but I just can't say words that are sweet and touch people. I lose my cool today; its really disastrous; its a failure to curb my unhappiness. Maybe its after all right to put all blame on myself and give in; little bro was right I am nothing just a loser. Anyway its my fault today, to make fun of a person who is already in pain. I owe a sorry to that brother i always call. But I just hate being rejected so violently even when I show no harm and I really do. Oh my fuck, Mark; Have fun do over you so much and make you forget about feelings of others?

I'm trying hard to stop making fun of people, its so uncool. No one enjoys it either and I can't find any other jokes.. Its really time to shut my mouth up for good.

Friends, we all stand on the same world. Maybe it's just me, I am out of the world. I need a break, to come back to this world? Or should I just continue listening to stories about the other world?

Anyway, I will still and still and still put a smile to disguise every unhappiness in me. Its only wise to do so.

April 7th, 2008 back to school and pulling myself back on a caltapult.

School is kind of ... today, took a cab to school and an frustrating experience at I.T. Helpdesk.

I guess the double intake of year 1s also means double the time to get to school every morning. The scenario of students + workers + NS men getting up 168 had worsen. Its the same time I set off for school as I did in the previous semester and always I will avoid this human jam; but this time round the human jam is really big. Thus, thats my morning~ Missed 2 buses. Along with some other year 3s like me, who gave themselves a silly smile " What the fuck, again??". Its first day of school and with the new policy, no one wants to get late so I was pretty left with no choice but to take a cab to school. Fortunately enough, I found 3 other year 3 students whom I know to share the ride.

Lifts broke down and a power trip~ thats what happen to my block today early in the morning. Guess the lifts and bulbs had too little excercise over the long holiday. Next on the school blues, I can't log in to my own computer using my own password. So much on the first day of school, lunch time is being sacrificed in I.T. helpdesk. Perhaps I should had consider working for my school I.T. helpdesk since I can even be asked for advices from the staffs. To solve my own problem, I gave a suggestion for the techs to help me out to solve( that was like after 1 hour of frustrating waiting, seeing them doing the same old thing over and over again without solving anything). Haiz, cool my circuits~ its a business bloom today over at I.T. helpdesk, guess they are all too busy.

Started on FYP today, met my team to get some planning on the way. Darn, everyone forgotten a very important documentation which our lovely indian advisor would like to see. THE REQUIREMENTS AND SCOPES.. But at least we were firm on the use case diagram for now. This wednesday is out as we can't have a full team to meet our advisor, so I suggested that we start on the initials and console the advisor next week. At least we won't waste this one week. Anyway, I am right I can trust this team of friends to do their work. Common goal- Graduation~

Some old friend came sighing this morning "haiz, its 8 more weeks to go~" Tomorrow, it is school again. Financial and Banking Applications, when it comes to money I'll take a little longer to digest. Yi Qi was saying, we should had chosen subjects/modules we think we can score high in. while I prefer to be good at something which give me good future. Interest and capability can be nurture so I should not study for exams only, but study for my future.

April 6th, 2008; again I am 20 minutes late to talk about yesterday. Had a very sporty week, cramps and aches are invading me...

Had visited the gym twice this week, once on monday and today. Most likely this is going to continue as I have a goal for myself and of course IPPT is around the corner. Right now as I type, I can even hardly feel my limbs. Its anyway good for me as I can prepare myself before going back to judo training, which is somewhere monstrous. Haiz, still arguing with myself for the reason to turn up for judo training.

School is like practically tomorrow and there is more reasons to sleep early and wake up early to catch a good bus to school. My school had just decided another scheme which leaves us no chance to be late or absent.

This was the announcement pop up when I sign in leo today.
It used to be deduction of 0.5 grade after 3 accumulated late arrival, but now its every single lesson. And there used to be a 15 minutes grace, thanks to some who misused it (inclusive of me during semester 2) now we have no more grace. So for RP senior years students, its 8.30a.m every day SHARP. Have to wake up early avoid the squeezing in bus~

And they also decided to be more stringent in their policy, the screen shot below is something in our student study portal. Its a tracking system of how many lessons have you been absent, present, late, partially present(which means you decided to declare end of lesson yourself) or not in the first meeting. What a way to remind us~
Unlike the previous years where the school decide what I take for core general and core discipline. This time round, I decide what I am taking for my core specialization and electives. So base on my interest and future, I made my choice. I even have plans on the modules I am going to take on the second semester.

It seems like I have lots to achieve and fulfill this year.haaz, I am a freak and geek who loves to be busy.

Ok, the tireness is killing me~

29th March 2008, just another day closer towards my final year. Getting alittle excitement about that, FINAL YEAR!!!

Anyway, I got the class allocation through some 'illegal' means. But it's all thanks to a pro hacker in our school who gain access to the school server. I mean I am not really sure whether this time round he hacked the server or the school just gave him some memo of understanding. Ok, back to topic. Just as I had expected, I have to run about block W6 through out the week.

Day 1:Manufacturing and Logistics system(W66L)
Some familiar faces like Kenneth. Ok make it a face.

Day 2: Financial and Banking Applications (W67F)
Alot of familar faces here all are my previous classmates. HAHA
Wei Tieng, Yew Wien, Shimah and Shee Ying

Day 3:Marketing(W66D)
I'm back to my previous class, W66D...
No one in this class knows me nor do I know them either. Total new faces... MORE FRIENDS!!

Day 4: IT project management(W66B)
Madi and Fion are the familiar faces.

Anyway, its really happy to know that I got all my choices for this semester. Same old goals I have every semester, nothing less than A!! haha.. Must be back to the roll of honors~

SJAB was one of my shock yesterday. Things had changed, from good to bad to WORSE~~ Politics among stubborn NCOs, ill discipline among cadets. I decided to actually listen to the stories that the NCOs have,honestly its all about politics. Jealousy and smart alecs, the core of the problem. I can't really return to help due to my tight schedule, so I'll just hope that SJAB will still be in one piece in the near future, should I decided to make a come back.

ok, got to go now...

March 28th, 2008 the sun is barely up and I'm already "up-ed". Awaken from a dream which I personally had trouble classifying, a nightmare or a comedy? Ordered 4 "roti prata", 2 eggs and 2 plain; but got roti john instead. Haaz, I woke up because of this and started to wonder what time was it. holyshit, its only 5 plus!!

The first song that rings in my ear when I woke up was this song, "Gui Ji" so thought I will search for this song in my classic song store. Found it and is happily listen to it now.

Anyway, the 3 "big" bros in N~Zire had a chatting come beer session yesterday night. It used to be 4 though, haiz... To sum up everyting, yesterday chatting session was something really remarkable; never expected everyone had so much to chat about =D We have times that we really need to cherish and remember, if not there will be nothing worth to keep the friendship.

MELT camp, for the first in my lifetime I led with agony. I can't really portray my feelings here in words. Nothing seems to be smooth. My weaknesses seems to be pouring everywhere on everyone in BC due to this camp. Its somewhere I can't really act, can't really say, can't really convince and I just wonder if its about a deteriorating me or just some problems and facts that I cowardly dare not face.

Michael shared with me what really was in his mind, I really hope thats what's he fired from his heart than his extra rounds. Its pretty true, I am not strong enough; his version was that I have no power to control my teammates in the team and they are all on my head. The downsides of being democractic was my version of why I am weak. Maybe I really care too much on how others feel when their ideas are rejected in this camp; I should had stayed firm on what I thought was right. Melt, something that had turned into nothing of my ideals and its really my fault to miss the importance of team development. Haaz, I was really fierce back then in SJAB; perhaps I should be so in BC?

"Reminising about the past", something that grown stronger in me ever since the start of this year. Looks like I am really stopping down to look around myself, haaz its seems to be an annual routine anyway. Had I really lived better in the past? With status, respect and just little bit of fame. There are really some stuffs I wished I could be more matured back then to deal with the issue,and those are people and places in my life I once valued but losed today.Haaz, I always thought that I had forgotten my past for a new life; but I'm wrong, I haven't forgot those stuffs; I had just simply put them aside. Reconstructing the "used to be seems" rather impossible now, all are beyond my reach and of course some requires serious consideration. Those high peaks in my life, really worth my time to reminising and take a good look at what I am today. Comparing myself today with what I used to be is really a "sour" thing to do.

Love, something which I had left for quite a time but yet have not much urge to pick it up again.
There is something I really hid in me and something which I am very surprised I have the hearts to put it aside. Who's the real one, had I just found and lose one? Someone who just never walk out of my mind, god damn it=/ Love is about doing some stupid and irrational things, do I really want to do those stuffs again??? I am nothing good enough for these things though thusMy conscience is clear, achievements and career before anything.

Haaz, feeling really "shiok" now as I poured out those that clot in my mind for this moment. Guess its back to sleep and get ready for the swimming later.

Thought of the day: Remember the good times.

March 26th, 2008; I just got home from another N~Zire meeting + "Man's" talk with Honsonn. Damn it~ And I just found a undesirable truth; my holiday is ending in 1 week time, when I'm enjoying my holiday the most.. ARGH~~~~~~~

Its about K-box today, after the long time promise to Derrick that, WE WILL GO one day. It took long enough before I can adjust myself back to what I'm use to be in K-box. I almost forgotten how to actually sing a particular song, since they are Chinese Songs. To make it worse, I woke up with a throat full of flams(I wonder if you spell it that way?). Only manage to sing some songs which that is up to the "use to be" standard. Songs like dao dai? Soledad? and some songs which the four heavenly kings in N~Zire used to sing. Haha, even now I can't help to sing the chinese sad songs the rock style =D Too much of Simple plan and Click five.

Everyone went different ways after a dinner at Pastamania. Shawn and Si Yang went to see their dick=X I mean their friend Dickson.Anita and Derrick went home. Nigel left us early for his work(which is my work but I decided to once again off). Thus left with Honsonn and I for a man session. We invited a "long time no see" member to join us for a chat, Sueh Li. Man, I really wish she will be back to crap with us. Anyway she didn't leave us just that she's too busy to meet us. So ya, its a chit-chat session with thousands of topics.

Talked about our appearance and Honsonn and I personally thinks that we are abit "ah-peh" haha, really sad we are just a little more rational and matured mentality only. Its also because of our attire, Honsonn dress "retro-ly" while I dress way too simple. Its always Jeans and a Tee. What to do, simplicity is my trademark. =D My extreme was to wear sport wears, someone actually says I am suitable for sportswear more than fashionwear. I look sporty and have a sport build, can't really imagine myself in skinny and some shirt with Funky, punky creature/words like "HEY FUCK ME IN THE ASS" that kind. Ya, so I think I look better with Addidas or Nike or Puma. Love to wear bermudas, a tank, slippers ,my addidas jacket over and finally a shade =D
Talking about style, I wanted to try something really daring to me. Really want to have a tattoo, but it will be a stupid idea now as I am admitting into the Army in no time. Tattoo means alot of paper administration to settle, so I'll wait for ORD... (long to go) What I wanted to try was a tribal symbol on my upper arm above the tricep and biceps. But of course I need to train for some muscles for that, it will look suck on a bone. And of course there is much to consider about, will anyone get scared by that?? I look scary enough already=D

haaz, its almost 5 in the morning and I doubt I can wake up for Judo again. haha.. Initially it was laziness and now its because there is so much social activities=D

Damn lots to do and achieve, life had suddenly feel so short and fast. I have a list of goals to complete for year 2008 and I really got to start fulfilling some~~ hmm time for some sleep.

thought of the day: I will only cherish the wonderful memories of the past and never walk the same dark road ever again.

March 22nd, 2008 just got back from N~Zire meeting. Had a rather fun basketball match, honestly this time round, I have a different feeling playing this ball game. Used to be very frustrated playing this game, because I can't dribble, shoot, pass, tackle well. But now, its not really the case as I can dribble and shoot better now thus the game is much more enjoyable now. =D

FYP allocation is out, my team are allocated to do a inventory system for our school(SIT). So basically just a online web base inventory system where user can check status of item and the administrator and issue and check the item. Considerably an easy task. So FYP means busy, I will soon be fill with planning, codings, designing and meetings. I really want to clinch an 'A' for this module like any other module I took. FYP 'A' here I come!!

Anyway, my sales had been really atrocious since February =D 5 sales 5 sales, haha I am wondering how to survive the balance in my bank. SO IT CAN'T GO ON THIS WAY~~!!! Got to do something, will be working tomorrow and clinch dealsSSS.

Thought of the day: Success is the mixture of everything I have.

20th March 2008, less than an hour late to talk about what happen on 19th March 2008. Sorry to have to repeat this kind of introduction sentence in almost all entries. What to do? The perfect feeling for blogging only comes in the night.

Its Honsonn's birthday today(19th March 2008), simple and nice. Had our dinner over at Seoul Garden and damn I had phobia on chili already, after it inflicted a terrible throat infection after the BBQ. But anyway its quite fun down there, eating and crapping. After that was movie time, watched the Semi Prom, quite funny though; initially I thought I had just wasted another 8 dollars on the movie tickets. hmmmmm, not really those tickets are complimentary. THANKS SHAWN~ haha.. go for more laser competition.

School is going to start soon, approximately another 2 to 3 weeks more. Pretty reluctant... I am excited about the fact that its final year already and it means time to put in double effort and 'chiong' all the way towards the finishing line to be a champion. Reluctant because my holiday fun just got to its peak~!

I am starting to think am I abit getting to become a feeling-less jerk? Use to sweet talk people and so on, but nowadays I am shooting off without being considerate~ hmm....

March 15th, 2008... Mark is down with the same problem again. Throat infection, which also means if the infection don't subside, my fever will not go down. Gees, wonder which god had I offended to meet with such a misfortune. It has been more than 10 years since my last throat infection. Fortunately this time round its not as 'jialat' as the previous case, about 2 months ago.

Haaz, lets forget about that I will make a speedy recovery before Honsonn's birthday this coming wednesday.

I am about 2-3 days late to talk about the Aranda Chalet N~Zire had as a replacement/compensation of the missing chalet last year December. Suppose to head back to SAF but Nigel has been lucky enough to get a 50% discount from Aranda. Honestly, I prefer Aranda now(haha), its so 'mansionate'. Its big, classical and comfortable(except the chairs I slept on). But sadly, it had been raining for the whole 3 days 2 nights in the chalet which really affect our activities. There is too much to share about this chalet, the pillowfight, trying the hottest sotong in the world, up and down beer game and so on. All I had to say is, this chalet was fun~

Everyone is down after the chalet, so I guess there is no N~Zire meeting yesterday. The very next outing is Honsonn birthday~ hmmm

March 8th, 2008. It's another friday. I mean Saturaday, just late for 2 hours. Don't have to say, you know what I am doing on this friday. Or should I say every friday? haaz, nothing much just usual routines.

Darn! I made a mistake again, a very foolish; stupid mistake. Just recently I had clinched a deal and I just subconciously forgot to take the customer contact number. Its already the second time,purely the result of stoning during work. But its because of this stupid mistake, I tasted the harsh reality of working life. It is almost near zero possiblities that someone will help you when you make mistakes, its all on our own. Just received some lecture from the Admin Manager of the company for this stupid mistake, of course I won't retaliate because its after all my fault. But I offered the possiblity that I can get the number from the customer which I think it's responsible enough for me to offer that but all I got was a very sarcastic remark ." Save the trouble la, just put down your number, anything wrong call you lo". Thanks huh! You, goh-liee goat. mEh-h-h~ (so random)

But afterall, the customer haven't call; guess that goat is already off to submit the Service agreements. Just pray hard the customer don't owe money or do anything to starhub~

Listening to some chinese songs now, its been a long time since I listen to these chinese songs. Its a change that I took 2 years ago? Year 1 semester 2, that was when. No more chinese songs, but soft English rocks or any variations of English songs. Jay Chou, Tank, Ah Du, LJJ are all history to me. Click Five, Boys like girls, Simple Plans are the present melodies and rhythms for my ears. Its a sudden taste change 2 years ago but I don't know why? But I know I am dying for a change back in my past and I know I had succeed because I had become someone who no one who known me 3 years ago will recognise me as Seah Shao Cheng Mark today. haaz, I really miss the road behind me and it makes me wonder; have I changed from good to bad? I had departed from where I am without landing on another place which it feels like flying alone among the clouds; performing stunts without any audience seeing. Or just crashed?

All that is left from my past is N~Zire, all of the rest had been thrown away and all that I have now is a new designed key with no lock to fit, it can't fit the past and it can't fit the present. But I'll stick to my theory, everlasting friendship is about putting the effort to maintain. So its about me to remember the common past and ignore the different present. Though my stories will never be understandable anymore but its ok, I'll listen and understand the stories being told.

haaz, looks like its always friday that I am specially emo. But its always short coming and smile will be back tomorrow, as always and hope it does. Thats all I have to share about my thoughts today.

Melodies from chinese songs died in my ear, its time to go back to English soft rock!~

Thought of the day: Future lies unknown to everyone, just where and who will I be?

March 1st, 2008... I am just late to talk about the day which happens only once every four years, thats the 29th February. Thats what they call the leap years when Earth will have an extra one day in the year. Something to do with Moon gravitational influences on Earth, but not really sure what is it about~ 29th February falls right on friday this year and just had the usual N-Zire meeting. Haaz, looks like those words are very common in my blog "usual N-Zire meeting". Lets put it this way, without them I think I will be back to my loner days~

Thought of the day: Don't understand why I will be so full of thoughts at the end of the week~

February 23, 2008... March on the way, times flies. Anyway, I am just home from N~Zire Soccer and some spooky expereince(damn, its not a nice story to share) Kind of thoughtful today, but I am feeling hard to put them into words today~

Its 3 weeks into holiday for goodness sake. The result for the semester is out anyway, damn just as I predicted~ No longer in the role of honors and there is nothing more saddening than that for now~ But I know its my fault in this slack in result, if I only I had put in more effort to this than the sales work. Thats it, I have to really gear myself up and drive for what I want from my poly. There is another 2 more news, awaiting to trigger my emotions. 1. FYP project allocations 2. My modules selection results.

Sales into the last phrase and I am still stucked with 5 sales~nothing much to comment from here,I am geting lazy nowadays~


Thought of the day: As always, I am always not sastified with myself ~

February 18, 2008... Just another day of holidays, BoRED~ so just a show case what I did~

You Are Wind

Strong and overpowering A force to be reckoned with, no one dares cross you You have the power to change everything around you You are best known for: your wrath Your dominant state: commanding

What Type of Weather Are You?

Your Chances of Being a Multimillionaire: 76%

You have a good chance of being a multimillionaire. Better than most people. You simply have a natural knack for money and the personality for success.

Will You Be a Multimillionaire?

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT)You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test

You Are a Phoenix

Driven and ambitious, you tend to acquire material success easily. You have grand schemes - both for your own life and for changing the whole world. You are a great leader, and you have no problem taking the reigns. However, you aren't all business. You also have great talents for performing and visual arts.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Your Power Element is Wood

Your power colors: green and brown Your energy: generative Your season: spring Like a tree, you are always growing and changing. And while your life is dynamic, you are firmly grounded. You have high morals and great confidence in yourself and others. You have a wide set of interests, and you make for intersting company.

What's Your Power Element?

What Seah Shao Cheng Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

There's a Chance You Could Be Violent Overall, you're a pretty chill person - and you have a good handle on your emotions. Sometimes your anger gets the best of you, and end up regretting how you act. Try to curb your temper more often. It only has to get out of control once to do some damage. Could You Be Violent?

February 14th, 2008, its Valentines Day(1 hour into it)~ Though I had never made any effort to remember this date because I don't have to =D But I can tell you tomorrow will be Total Defence Day.Gees~ I'm hopeless, no wonder I'm single. =D

Just now long ago, we celebrated Chinese New Year. As we always do every year since the day we graduated from JYSS, N~Zire made an effort to go on a CNY visit to everyone house. Our parents are getting along well with this clan of friends. I shall spare the details once again, just have a look at the photos

Derrick's House

My House

Si Yang's house

This year had our crazy times and also some "emo" time, along the way not much of the picture was taken, no one was keen of doing so, thus ya~... But this year there is something different, some are missing and we have new faces~ There is also a surprise~ We went to Yi Qi's house for dinner (=D.

CNY this year, is just lacking of the mood~ I wonder why, but the atmosphere is just not right~~I wonder why the laughters are almost fading, I wonder why the smiles on everyone are leaving.I pray hard that is not a bad omen.

Lets talk abit on valentines day, since its valentines day today. Honestly, I forgotten about this day only until Lydia MSN me "Happy V Day". Valentines,I suppose it mean your lovely couple so Valentines day are for lovely couples to celebrate their lovely and sweet togetherness.(WO~~ hair standing~!) nah, honestly I haven't celebrated Valentines day in my life( kind of fail huh?) since my relationship concidently starts after Valentines day and ends before it. 2 year already, I am single; never find luck in this there after 2 years ago but its ok, I never intend or specially wish to be attach so soon~ Lets just be natura. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY to those successful couples out there =D Anyway, I knew of a relationship which ends before this valentines day, they proved their love and cut everyone's throat but they gave up by ending it, haiz lets hope time will heal. Love is a variable of nature, the name swaps around words of emotions.Some starts with a struggle and ends with a question while some are fantasies that last forever.

Gees, I am tired... Going to sleep now~

02 February 2008, its another 4 more days before we celebrate another new year, =X i mean the lunar new year. Its drawing so near and yet I have about still 80% of my shopping list. Worse is, I had spend quite abit on unexpected situations, Taxi Fares; Birthday presents and food~!!! But more or less it will be at the balance of what I predicted.

Just came back from Melissa's Birthday party. She is celebrating her 21st Birthday!! Anyway, this lady(have to call her this way since she had attain her adulthood) was my Judo Captain back when she is still year 2, now she had graduated but still helping out in judo. I belonged to the judo gang there and they were crapping all the way but it is seriously very funny. Anyway guys, I am going back to judo; for 2 reasons:
1. I am still having the passion and itchiness to be a martial artist
2. Time to go back on form(fitness and muscles)
Going back to judo had already been set quite long ago, but it was just unfortunate that I land myself up in hospital. So yes, going back to judo already. Rudy said that he will be putting me down for grading in March so he says I better come for trainings. Yup, no problem will be going back for training and the first big thing that comes in my way is IVP!!!!!!!!!!!! For the first time the medal looks so interesting~...

Anyway, guess the bad news is I am unable to hit SSE for my job already. I happily hit 72 after the last time I worked, but after which the last 2 sales was on outstanding and another combo had failed installation due to "no signal"~! gees I m back to 68 sales after 3 months. My November and December's hard work, goes right into the drain. But its ok, I'm already looking for better opportunity, most likely I will be going into freelancing. My ultimate objectives of working and studying at the same time is very simple:
- To feel that I am not useless
- To give myself a Financial Freedom before I graduate.
Honestly, I feel super useless to know the fact that I am 18 and still living dependently on my parents, for food for fashion and so on. I want to sort of earn and start learning to financially support myself. Now, I have my own bank balance, I plan my own spendings and my families financial support on me had also go down; it makes me really feel that I had grown up.

Now holidays here, and I just don't understand why am I not so excited about it. Something is missing , I knew it but I'll just let that door shut and don't open it for now. If the zodiac prediction is right, I will take my very opportunity this year to make myself shine~

Thought of the day: You can shut this door right in my face, but I will just open another door. this cycle will never end.

26th January 2007, early in the morning but I just reached home. Went for two things today, MSH DS chalet and met Honsonn for the usual men talk.

Talking about chalet, quite and pretty fun I believe. Met some new friends, though don't really remember their names. If not, its just mingling with some colleagues that we used to be very fun with. I was being ganged up by two of my colleagues to make me drunk, and yes I knew they were up to this game. But out of social purposes I just blindly fall into their trap. We played up and downs and seriously I was very unlucky in the game. (Think they are very happy that I am the one clearing the beers) I got the highest value card and was supposed to guess the next care to be of higher value or lower value, of course under this case I would have chose lower value card. But what the hell, it came out to be of the same high value. And when it happens that you open a card which has the same value of the opened card, you get double(as what they called pairs). Very lucky, I got 7 pairs. So that means I gulped 14 mouths of beer in less than 10 mins. I continued drinking of course after that but went off early to meet Honsonn for the men talk.

Took a cab down from changi to Tampines then, the fare was like $8(Think the taxi driver didn't turn on the midnight charge) Waited for Honsonn there and we went to buy beer to drink. I can't drink anymore because I was quite full with the beer from the chalet and somemore the perspiration is making me giddy. Drank abit and finally drank the hot tea to cool down. There goes the men talk. You know, men talk only happens when something happened to one man who needs another man to give a lending ear, views and advices. Thus the story shall be spared under the rule of being private and confidential.

Any way, this video I edited for my web multimedia team. Kind of proud with this particular advertisement enhanced and edited by me.

As usual Credits are the must.....

Main Actor: Thin Guo Long
Supporting Actor/actresses:
Wei Jie
Yi Xiu
Footage director:
Evon
Story Board:
The whole team except be because I was absent during the day they are designing the storyboard
Editor and effects::
Shao Cheng(thats me)

Dummy Phone: Sony Errisson K610 (not the shaker phone)
Music:
Delta Fog
HardGay

Kind of my last minute idea to make this video hilarious

Last update before I go, my FYP team chose our project already...
1. SIT- IT items management system
2. Fortex Trading System
3. Event Management System

We are so going to do one of the project up there.

Ok, chilling off...

Thought of the day:
Fated to meet, but not meant to stick...
She makes herself a passer-by...
who says hi and bye...

22nd January 2007, finally I feel so comfortable... The bed ridden days are over once and for all, I sweat to god that those days are really an agony, I'll never ever go into such situation anymore. So finally I am back to drop an entry here. A couple of things to update.

School again... Time really flies, I am reaching the final phrase of Year 2 as a Diploma in Business Applications student. Use to think I will die under the cruel hands of I.T., well its not the case; falling in love with I.T. now. Life will be so about I.T. project management,Analyzing and designing system so about PHP, Java, HTML, CSS and any other programming languages. I am so imaging myself being part of this ever growing industry of the information age. I am doing fine in school, will not fail, but can't get into the roll of honors for this semester. I had over-estimated about myself, pushed my limits too far. Thought I could handle both job and studies well, but its not really the case. Yes, did really manage well in the first place but soon my body gets tired and things starts to go really wrong. Now, I face some problems of result sliding below 3.5 G.P.A which is kind of affecting my current overall G.P.A. Now I have to really work hard for the final few problems and the last UT to push up my overall G.P.A(preventing it from sliding below 3.65) Lesson learnt, next semester onwards; it will be school results and FYP at top priority.

Sales? 1 week being bed ridden can't really work, so that means no sales for that one week. But my first day back was fruitful although its kind of 'phew', both outstanding sales but cleared already =D So now I have 14 sales, one more to hit the incentives. I am still clinching hopes to get promoted to SSE next month. I am now 12 sales away from this target. Got to get 12 sales in the next 2 weeks, I better do it =D

Speaking of FYP, final year project. Formed my team, comprising the following people. Guo Long, Kee Yong and Shima. Tell you guys I am hopeful and very confident about this team, they are all serious about doing well for this project and that is the attitude. But knowing their working style and their stronghold in I.T. makes me very confident that we will do perfect for this FYP.

Guo Long -> Database language and PHP expert. His magical hands on codes tame the unpredictable system well. He is one serious guy when it comes to programming, having him in the team is like having a walking PHP manual =D. His best is reverse engineering codes, but so perfect that it look as if it is his =D Anyway everyone had to code in this project because if fail to do so will result in individual failure, thus G.L. will help alot to his teammates when we face problem like "SYNTAX ERROR"!!


Kee Yong -> Pretty good in designing and handling multimedia stuffs such as Flash. Very hardworking and dependent teammate to have. His attitude and seriousness during work sings loud and clear to his teammates "Give me the job and consider it done!"

Shima ->Programming is not her cup of tea(according to her) but her working attitude and the willingness to learn and help those around her makes her an ideal choice to be in the team. Anyway, she is the research queen; she finds the best resources from what the world wide web can provide.

As for me?(disclaimer: not being BHB here) Analyzing, planning is my trademark =D , I'll keep my silence and leave the comments for public because my colleague Shao Hui taught me "silent films are full of sounds".

I am all geared up to do fantastic for this particular project and bring this team towards graduation with a wonderful port folio about our FYP. Thats my personal milestone.

MELT camp... I am also dangling about this, but however I am still very optimistic about this camp. I told those who came for the dry run, "MELT camp is going to run at least once before I graduate and that is my promise to Business Climate" I am seeing glimpse of success from this project, though at time this land me into the darkest moments. I will move on about this despite all the shits.

I shall stop here. Gees, haven't get my new year stuffs... Setting aside a bomb for it anyway. Holidays are around the corner as well, I am into some serious business during this holiday. Shall draw the curtains here..

Thought of the day: "I'll forgive myself from all the wrong doings, to take the next important step in life"