21st May 2007, monday blues?? No such things for today =D Hope everyone will forgive me for the late entry, had been quite lazy at the same time busy for the past week. I seeing more of such trends coming up soon due to the tight schedule I had, so guess the entry today will be a novel like one =D. What's new today,had IT security module for today thus as promised I will put some encrypted information here, happy decoding what I want to say...

19th May 2007, how can I ever forget such an important date to myself. They say a person who forget his birthday is a person who had forgotten himself. Looks like I haven't forget my own existance in this world. Anyway 3 major group of people I must really give a big thank you.

To W66D(all my classmates): Thanks guys for the pre-celebration for me in the class, your cakes and wishes really surprise me to being speechless... Really appreciate what you guys had done that day, will love this class more than ever =)

To N~ZiRe: Hey thanks, my secondary school buddies for the celebration over at East Coast Park. I will not forget the moment when I am under the sea... Last but not least, thanks for the guitar =) it really facilitate me in learning this instrument which I always want =D lets see if I got the chance to play in our chalet

To all those who wished me: Belated, early or just in time; can't really name everyone out as there is too many of you. But those little wish and greetings really brighten up my birthday till the max... Thanks everyone =D

That was my birthday, just another day but differentiated by fun... While of course there are some wishes and milestones for the matured 18 =)

wishes:
1- To stay happy with alot of friends and buddies around me
2- To fulfill my desires and help others achieve theirs too
3- Decrpyt this set of code, and there be my wish
Key: ZSTKJSPLOWOPQETHRI

third wish:
TNHNENPXEDSIXXFSHJTX
NPTDDITSPXYKBTLXIXXD
AYAASRJOOOOOOCBCNGNOE
IMIXZMOSSWNOAUEONDGA
AIXATEDTHAYGREIGUSJ
MJFIMECRRRXLKXTXXAH
(happy decoding=), I will reveal my wish when i feel the time is ripe)

The wants:
- Complete my Professional Profilling with absolute satisfactory
- Maintain or improve my overall G.P.A
- Complete and master Guitar
- Get a job
- Take a Car liencse

That is all for my birthday, just simple encrypted message to a band of friends?:
IIAORDARAEEOIS SXRTHNSOSWEFEH AYBHOOSNAWKFNI SEREOTTGFESRDP

21st January 2007, a energentic today.... Nothing much but just school and encrytion and decrpytion...


thought of the day: To be successful, we need not create an environment where we eliminate those who are weaker than us. To impress others that you are good is totally different from proving to others you are good.

14th May 2007, monday blues monday blues and more blues to come. This illness is really really affecting my performance today.

On this blue monday, I had IT security and management where we are studying on the various access controls. There are Mandatory Access Control, Discrepancy Access Control and Role Based Access control. All access control methods had their different kinds of characteristics and function to suit different types of business. Anyway, kind of switched off for today... Reasons?? Tired was one of the reason, another one was that I am all the way thinking of Business Climate project... The melt camp, how am I going to organize and so on... Just afraid how my team-members will react to my leadership and stuff like this... Thus for this, the presentation I had was really really bad. Got shot down terriblily, but kind of used to it; so lets just take it as a learning experience like preached by PBL.

Thought of the day: To forget about yesterday and to move on to tomorrow.... I had lose my courage, my determination to be a leader, yet yielding to be a great one one day.

12th May 2007, I skipped N~Zire's basketball session and attended the Welcome Camp of Business Climate where we welcome our new members. A little disappointed by the turn outs, 47 registered, 12 confirmed, 6 turned out. But after all it is expected since we are a business oriented interest group.

Anyway, the day was fun; enjoyed crapping with some new members who are year 2s actually. HAHA, mainly Micheal, Wei Quan and Meiqi. The craps are really crap, and fills the whole day; ranging from facilitator jokes to the lammest thing "singing lao shi zao". A great or bad news to announce, the W66D Tank Fever had been spreaded to Business Climate by 40%. hmmm...

Business Climate, SLA was over and I am back to my core project which I was dumped with. This time round, i am not going to do it like what I did last year. Waiting for guidelines? why not set my own~~ I am so going to make this project of mine to be the greatest achievement in my Republic life, together with my team members. Got to start cracking soon.

Business totally about money? So is it valid to say that those with money-sense will be very good in business? Partially true, Business is about money, but not all... Business could be a social science of managing people and resource, it could be an art of socializing and networking. Some people took business as their fields or join business because they enjoy the very sense of money making. No blames on them, money do serve a motivator for most to work but for now I chose Business out of passion. The interest in negotiating, socializing and having vast networks plus the sense of fulfillment and challenges ahead drives me all the way into the Business field. Indeed, passion drove me this far... I seen the rise and fall of my momentum in terms of passion, sometimes I let that passion to drive me all the way, sometimes I just forget and crumble my way. Haiz.. why am I so concious and reflective?? And why I am never sastified by myself?

Forget of all the sighing and moaning, in one weeks time I will be matured 18~~!!! hurray, that is a good news to me because that shows that I am grown up!! Bad news is, more responsiblities and expectation is coming in my way....

9th May 2007, WHAT A HOT DAY!!! Global warning is happening at a very fast rate i guess, nowadays the weather is hot enough to make you frustrate over your sweat.

9th May 2007, just 50 minutes into this very new day... Finished my RJ so decided to finally drop by an entry.

Just recently, I am addicted to this new game. Considered my favourite game in my entire life, NEED FOR SPEED CARBON... I completed the earlier version of this and now this version is an continuous from the previous one. Very fun and the graphics was cool. Now you guys know that I love cars and I love the drifting of those machine as well. The sharp cornerings, overcomed by a graceful drift. Nothing can be nicer than that I guess. HAHA.. As I type in this entry, I can literally feel the drift from the game~~ Well?? understand my joy ?? =D Anyway, gonna thanks my friend Steward for this game. Had been hunting for quite a long time.

Yeah man, its gonna be a off day tomorrow~~!! Off but no break -_-''' haiz.. I have to do revision and read up on PP... lol...

6th May 2007, beautiful sunday with a very indecisive mind. Suppose to go jogging together with my brother, but was seriously so tired and jelly that I call it off.A temporary new blogskin while I brainstorm for a design for my personal blogskin.Now, you better be prepared, cause it is going to be a long entry today...

Now, will May be a good month for me?? That really questions, but what doesn't is that May will be a birthday month for most taurians. Some fact files about Taurus...
Taurus, in latin means Bull. This White Bull in mythlogy was said to be sent by Zeus to bring Helena to him. In simple words, Taurus is a messenger of Zeus.
According to myth, Taurus was actually later being killed by Hecules or was it Orion the Great hunter?(P/M: sorry can't remember who killed that bull) . We won't get to see Taurus in a dark clear sky in Singapore today since the sun is in the direction of that constellation, but Taurus is a best known winter constellation thus you might get a chance to see this horoscope over your sky around Novemeber to January? (That's what I want to see anyway) So far, I had get to see Virgo, Cancer and part of Orion over the night skies.

It was believe Taurians are patient yet hot tempered, hardworking, calm and practical. I guess it somehow true to me at times, which makes me a real taurian!! (haha)Anyway I have some cadets from SJAB commenting that I look like a bull when I am angry with that red face and heavy breaths~~ (laughz).

Well, besides the craps up there; I am suppose to tell you guys a miracle today. Just before this entry I was complaining that I just couldn't get an A for Java. Take a look at the screen shot below and understand my shock~!
Anyway, C108 is the module which I do Java, see that problem 3-A. Exactly the problem I did after I complain.. HAHA what a irony... It is seriously a shock for me but explosion of happiness, since it is the first A that I got for that module. Well just for your information, I won't stop here and will be still working hard for more of it. What's sad is, my monday blues cost me the first B in C121, haiz... But I will work hard alright, for I am a great student!! the test below will varify that(heex)

You Are a Great Student

You aren't afraid to crack the books when you need to, and you make your education a true priority. You could become a PhD in anything, if you set your mind to it. There's no limit to what you can learn!

Are You a Good Student?

Anyway, I did a questionaire which test how mature I am emotionally...( er.. Just ignore the picture on the result slip, I don't look like that definately ....)

You Are 74% Grown Up, 26% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature. Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

Well, just the questionaire which I kill my boredom at home as I slack.... Whether it is true or not, up to you to decide =)

Continuing with the entry, for last friday... It was JR birthday!!! Don't have his personal pics, so guess will not post his pics here. Had dinner at pastamania and a small cake cutting session over at saffra. Then we had a dat game which I won with a perfect game points(eyes like an eagle) before a bowlling session which I keep lame-ing haha.. That's all for that day I believe...

For tomorrow, it will be somehow just another week of studying in school.... Really have to discipline myself to go further. Can't afford to slow down or even stop now, it is a rough journey ahead... Lots to accomplish...

2nd May 2007, the fifth month of the year and into my birthday month....

Apologies for the missing in action from this blog, guess just alittle busy with some activities. Shall not bore this blog with the full details of what I had done for the past week...

Yesterday, went out with Honsonn, Anita, Nigel, Si yang and Derrick to the goddess of mercy's temple at bugis. It is a special trip back to return the favour, as during the time when Honsonn, Shawn and Jing Ren were facing some problems over at HK. Before that, was a long waiting for the love birds to appear(those who are there will understand what I say). After the temple, all of us headed to Sim Lim Square where Honsonn found his Motherboard while I am still searching for an external hard drive for my laptop. Had dinner at Bedok block 85, happy time waiting for 'Ba Chor Mee' and the rest of the feast which includes, 'auo jian' and 'satays'. All in all, I reach home with a very bloated stomach. That ends Labour day and after which I stay home to revise Database for the upcoming UT, can't believe isn't it?=D

The faithful today, a number of Diploma in Business Application students went to visit one of the manufacturing factory in Singapore. Situated around the west side of Singapore, sits one of the top branded bread; Gardenia. I am pretty fascinated by the process of bread making in the factory when I visited them. Using of IT to do quality checks and so on. This trip was actually intended for our senior who take manufacturing and logistic module, but I put my leg in since that is the module I want to take for my core specialization. Another module under that catergory is Hosipitailty and Retail. Out of all these, I still have to study hard for my year 2...

Tomorrow, will be happily Java-ing... Hope that I will get an A tomorrow, because I had been getting B for this module. And I just don't know why??? hmm...

26th April 2007...

Brain is getting rusty,
Body is getting lazy
But a mind that is forever going
Its time to do something
Before I turn to be nothing...

Back from Judo and just finished my Reflection Journal for the day. It had been a busy week; a flash of thousand things and here I am... A week after the last entry.

I am getting alittle bored with my blogskin nowadays, guess it is pretty a good time to change one. But this time round I am thinking of making it uniquely mine. With my programming skills with html, I should be able to create my own blogskin. Hmmm, but do I have the time??? Will soon be engaged into Professional Profilling, god knows how I am going to do it... Just afraid that I will be struggling in my year 2, thus I am taking the initiative to read up more on my modules to prepare for the next lesson. Judo!! getting so jelly during trainings, literally I can't feel my body!! So much to make myself something, which means time... Guess lets pioritizes!!! ( I shall replace the old blogskin with a new one soon)

Finally, I get a breather nowaday for a tired mind and restless soul to ease himself... SLA is over!! The project that had been a heart poundering one to me for 3 months. The result was so fine, but with some last minute of changes to the marketing plan which I prepared 3 months ago. Now all I can hope is, the EXCO do what I proposed for BC; since I believe it is the way to keep members around. 3 things up in my head for BC, I shall draw the curtain from here. =p

It is truely thousands that flash by, and I guess millions are on its way but there is no point guessing what will come next, but to prepare for what that might drop by. Got to go, IT security and management for tomorrow... It better be good ;D

thought of the day: Perfect, is it? Faithful, will they? Trustworthy, are they? murmurs around to kill, but shall not listen till its true...

19 April 2007, back to school!! Yesterday was a off, honestly speaking I am so not use to it... Just a day off, I thought I am in holiday =D

Get to the class early today, in fact very early! I was the first student in the class today, hail to my achievement!! The credit goes to bus service 168 which happen to be very punctual today. Frown at my results of JAVA, a B I had got. hmmm will my biggest concern for year 2 ever happen?? Hope it will not =)

Back to work....

17 April 2007, I will smile slightly for the new school semester. First is for the new classmates whom I had just met, a group of quite powerful IT students(though mostly girls). Second is for Republich Polytechnic which finally looks and sense like a polytechnic.

First day of school was quite a bad luck for me as I almost get myself late. Suppose to meet Wei Quan and other friends from SIT camp, but I was seriously late. The culprit of couse is not myself but the bus. No kidding, I missed 4 buses during the first day of school; all so fully packed. I waited at the bus stop at 0655 but got my first bus at around 0730 and reached woodlands at 0830 due to a heavy traffic jam. But its ok, since the bus company did something to deal with such situations and the it is somehow better today. When I reach the school together with Alvin; we saw a sight that had never been seen in RP before, a very crowded path along RPC; so crowded that you can hardly see the tiles on the floor. Agora is getting even more crowded for the first day and the whole campus finally came alive!!

First lesson yesterday was networking, did something very interesting. Setting up a communication system in 1821 on a deserted island. My team created a sound communication system using sound encrytions to communicate simple basic messages such as " I need water". The results were quite sucessful, just a little misinterpretation which happen during the communication. Second lesson, which is today; I did something which had been a wonder for me; JAVA programming. Did VB programming before, thus found JAVA somehow even more troublesome than VB. For VB I could simply start a class, get the codes in and end the class. For JAVA, I have to end every single line of codes with a colon(;) when a colon is missing, the whole program will fail. LOL!!! so challenging. But the increasing interest in IT will get me further for the next 2 years =)

Back to the dull topic which my readers had complained. Business Climate -_-''' SLA reaching its final preparation, the plan are understood and will be implementing it soon. All a sudden, the world went into a fast forward; and I will be happily busying for this event for the next week and the whole of this week. Alittle drained here =D

Last but not least, N~ZiRe's Tai zi; Ren Zhe and JR had safely reached home yesterday from Hong Kong, a celebration for the three of them will be on its way =)

Kind of tired now, words just run out of my mind and spill on this entry. Got to go for a sleep and wake up early tomorrow (despite the fact that its my off day tomorrow), to prepare the details of the SLA for the members and head to Chinatown to get the sticker printing if I can get the budget and design tomorrow. BUSYING!!!

thought of the day: my ideas is facing a heavy traffic jam on the highway of the great mind.

15th April 2007, to celebrate or to frown for a new school semester tomorrow?? Nothing much today...

Bought a pair of shoe today, not really of my liking actually. It is a pair of black puma, with a white and gold stripe across one side.Thought of taking a white version, but the vendor told me that there is no white version for this. This shoe cost me $50.15 which is cheaper than my previous Nike by $9.

Comments??? Actually it is still presentable, so I will live with it... Just came to notice that, I have worn quite a number of branded sporting shoes. I have a Nike totalssium(which is 1 and 1/2 years old and is about to go); Addidas soccer boots(4 years old); Lotto( lost) and now I have Puma, guess the next brand I will go is Umbro or Fila. Anyway I am going to purchase another street soccer shoe; considering taking umbro or back to Lotto.. hmmm??

So the other 3 heavenly kings are having some fun in Hong Kong, which I am personally happy for them. Despite the problems they had faced there, guess this is a well good experience for them. Maybe the next taiwan trip will be a safer one =) They will be back tomorrow night, with my jacket!! =p haha... Will be planning a welcome dinner for them as well.

Alright, guess got to stop here, but not to bore the reader of this pathetic blog, here are some photos before. Enjoy =)

Da shui Zhang; hmmm, change it to dilect please.. =D

East coast sun rise, a beautiful scene?? just minus the litters =p

This is nice....

So like Ellysium...

No comments...

Beautiful sea... clouds covering the sky

The tide so high la!!

That is so creative.. . Spiral Staircase... I love it..

er.... Nice butt .... -_-'''

That will be the end of my blog for today, stay tune for more updates!! Hopefully as cheerful as this blog entry today =D

Thought of the day:
Others look down you, and if you look down yourself as well.. then you are really down
- Prophet Shao =p

12 April 2007...

Songs from a lonely soul
The blues of the strings of words
Tears from that weary eyes
The pain to live in a cruel world
Scars from that last fight
The reluctance to fight the next war
The mask had been torn
So please never again let it be on.

7th to 11th April 2007, I was in the school attending the Cypher Camp 2007 as a student leader. Despite the cockups I faced, it is considered a well enough camp. My team was Vista, the most hyper team. It could be the reason that they are very active during the waiting on hold for the RP break game. That was when they had finally generated the cheer.Our Alliance think thing was a fun case, they had very enthusiatic and funny people there like Nicklaus and the banana man. I personally believe that they have the qualities of a good team I desire, but nevertheless Vista possessed some of them. Finally got a taste on how club could had look like, low lights and loud music. Swear!! I will go to club once I turn 18!! For that 2 night over at the camp, i had never had a good sleep. Went into a one day coma after returning back home haha!! Anyway, just to tell you guys, I met a very chio girl in my group. Guess what?? She was bornt on the same day, same month and same year as me!! WHAT A CONCIDENCE!!

After the long coma,went out to meet the long time no see N~Zire. This is sort of the last dinner before the three out of the four heavenly kings go for their tour in Hong Kong. Hmmm... maybe Honsonn is right, I should be the one to feel lack of sense of belonging. I truely had feel it strongly nowadays, no reasons but it just feel this way... Hong Kong trip.... haiz.. how I wish I could join them.

Sometimes, it can't help to be so envious of your own siblings. My parents look more upon my younger brother. But I can't blame them, my brother had trophies after trophies for competions he went. He had now 3 trophies while I had only one medal from the last sports day. Though my own brother look upon me, but I still feel that he will do far better than me... Since young, it had been this way; no attention for me; no sense of fulfillment; no luck; no nothing.... Life I led is a considered a miserable one, thus now I wonder how can I make it interesting?? Childish isn't it, am I? But I don't really care about those now, just get on with what I want; but just sad that it had always been obstructed.

I stayed in this small island for 18years, everytime yielding to get out to play and see the world. When young, I wonder how it looks like to be out of Singapore touring in other country. To see the whole world, and know it. Thus that was when I had a dream to be a pilot when I grow up, childhood dream it was; to see the world in the plane I fly. But sad, I was inherited to have slight
astigmatism. Thus had this dream off since secondary school. But I still have the hope to see the world... Thought my parents will support me, but looks like they never will... Over concern to kill me, money to strangle me... haiz...But I can't blame them, because of our family background and I understand...
A matured man will understand why is life is down, and I understand why.... But sometimes, chances just don't come as it likes. But people around kills me just as if they like. But I will never give up, for the future of me and for the sake of myself... Because if I don't help myself; no one will...

Thought of the day:sometimes, we really have to stop and take a look around...

06 April 2007, just awake to find the sun above me so high...

The reason is simple, I was preparing the SLA neccessary things late in the night yesterday. Finished designing the flyers. Calculated the maximum expense of the event and is ready to send for vetting. Now what I am left with is the banner design and 2 of the poster designs which will be done by the exco team members. Its pretty ironic to see so many things done already and it look as if we are ready for the recruitment event, but some how deep in me I feel that we are still lacking of the X-factor to get potential year ones to join us... Currently the major concern I have here is not about the printing, not about the booth location or anything related to marketing, but human resource is the big thing... Wondering what can I do to let a group of ignorant BC members (who's only interest is the rich points the IG provide) to have more enthusiasium in this event??

Will be off to play soccer with N~Zire later... Will not be back till next tuesday since I will be in camp.


Thought of the day: Seriously hoping for the very best in the next few big things I do....

03 April 2007...

When hatred kills love
When no one is down to earth
When the streets are cold
When Friends became Foes
When everyone close their doors
When slience is an adore
When the mood is down
When my world turns around

For the day, I was thinking what will happen if one day I am not what I am... What will happen if one day when everyone shut their doors from me and etc. Not for any real reasons, just a penny of my thoughts. For life now I have what I'm blessed, buddies and family; friends still pass by and say hi; then they say bye. The urge to know more friends is still there, but just afraid I might close that door again...

For the faithful today, I can't attend the second dry run of Cypher camp as I am having a SLA meeting today. Plan was quite smooth as I watch the exco team nod their heads to my plan, but here I am forseeing and fearing the possiblities of cock ups. Yesterday was a dry run of the camp, get to know more people like, Evon, Wei Quan and Shirley who will be my partner in the camp, not forgeting people who I happen to work and play with again, Alvin and Li Jing.Things are well, but still I am here hoping the best in the camp. I also had missed out the fun N~ZiRe had yesterday at Sentosa,(haa) clashing streak is back again... When Usual Routine is not the mulitples of your important things...

Ren Zhe told me that my blog is always revolving two things, Business and Judo; nothing else... HAHA... that is why my blog is black, suppose to be dull... Will try to brighten my blog one day...
Thoughts:Sometimes i just can't stop thinking, my brain is 24-hours functional

31 march 2007... Last day of dear march, coming next is fool april. Here is a early entry for beautiful saturday, just reach home from N~Zire meeting.

Once a man with achievements, with wits,determination and support to arm him to sucess. Look at him now, much like a defeated man. The consequences of falling down is being forgotten and back to square one, the journey of falling down and getting up is such a shameful and painful one. Failure had cast a shadow on him, he lost his wits and spirit; no more support. A wandering soul he is, sitting in his own shadow trying to mend his dream. Cruel world he lived in, passer-bys are everywhere but no one reach a hand for him. No one wants to help him, because no one wants him to be strong again. Others pitied his pathetic state,doubt his ability. He want to mend his dream and take it to the peak, but he is overwhelmed by the fear in him. He is afraid that he can't bear the next failure. But he knew it himself, no matter how cruel this world is; there will be someone who are willing to support him and give him the confidence he need. For those people, he will defeat his devils to bring his dream to peak and also for the long lost feeling of being cherished and to cherish. Because a failure today is for him to cherish his sucess tomorrow. And that man, shall be me....

30 March 2007, once again I am reaching the end of another month. The sun is on the direction of the constellation Aries this month... Nothing much to do for the day, just came back from a swim with Taizi at the swimming complex.

Facts on Aries:
Aries is often associated with the Greek myth of the ram which carried Athamas's son Phrixus and daughter Helle to Colchis to escape their stepmother Ino. Individuals born under this sign are thought to have a confident, aggressive, energetic, active, adventurous, enthusiastic, fair, passionate, and pioneering character but one which is also prone to selfishness, boastfulness, intolerance, impulsiveness, and impatience.
(Information taken from www.wikipedia.org)

I was reading the web, which wrote there for taurus, as a sign which is sexually responsive... the opposite sign of taurus is scorpio which is also sexually responsive.. So I wonder, is taurus sexually responsive to scorpio and vice versa (heex)

Just alittle curious on the various myth of the zodiacs.. So it is perfectly fine to find me sitting infront of my laptop doing research on this during my free time...

Alright I guess I will stop here and prepare to go out again.. haha...

25 March 2007, came back from IVP for judo. Lose my match, at the very last minute. Haiz.. its a story of a judo ka who tries to minimize the pain of his injured opponent but got pinned in the end.

Very tired. So I will have a short blog here... will come back for a longer one...

P/M:
Kelvin- Hey my fellow judo-ka, yellow belt senior... Take good care of yourself... A good fighter needs to have a good rest, for a better fight the next day..

21st March 2007, spend my day at East Coast Park with Business Climate members. A very small number of people, merely only the exco commitee was there; I am the only member anyway. Negotiation failed,(haaz) since when will it be sucessful.

I am going to cypher camp as Asst. group leader!! That was what I promise I will be when I was still a freshmen, to be a group leader though it is a grade down to be a Assistant leader; but I guess it will just be fine. Initially I was not suppose to be part of the leaders since I missed the interview. Edmund requested for me to join since they are suffering a manpower shortage. I am partially excited about the camp. For the leaders I am going to meet and for the long lost feeling of being a camp instructor. Somehow as I browse the group leader list, I spot one or two people whom I know will set up barricades on my way. Honestly speaking, I am still in the dark of what have I done wrong for them to treat me like enemy. I tried to make friends with them, I give a pat on their shoulder, I shook hands with them, I cheered with them then when I was a camper. It could be their arrogance and the way they look down others, but what I know is I will put up my professionalism up and not to avoid them. Just doubting that they will do the same and create a leadership war in the camp(which I personally hate). I want to work with a group of keen leaders and thus then I will cherish the moments not like the take it and forget it attitude I had in the past. Lets hope for the goods in the camp.

Judo competition, guess I will lose this good opportunity to shine again. A very small inter-tertiary competition, but will really give a edge on what is call sportsmanship. Sporty person like me, bound to traditional surrounding which bars me to advance. Parental disapproval is what I am facing now. Indemnity form, chinese(shen shi zhuang) is signed in all martial art competition stating that the competitor is taking part in the competition at his/her own will and will not liase their death or injury to the organiser's responsibility. Now that is the problem, my parents doesn't want me to take the risk. I am just a yellow-tip white belter; what accident can cause my death unless I didn't take care of myself? That is the nice things my parents put it up to tell me that they don't want me to risk, the sad thing is they don't trust their son to do well. I tried to explain and assured them, just to laugh at myself for being a fool once again. Ya! why must I try?? It totally makes me look like a son who can't bring glory and pride to his own family. Tired, I really had tried to make my parents feel proud of me and trust me; perhaps I have just failed under the curse of the Seah Family.

Sometimes I will realize that actually I am not at all sucessful in my leadership path after all. But I choose to believe that I can be a leader and lead my followers to heights. Perhaps I was once sucessful but later I suffer. Sometimes the consequences of falling down is being forgotten once and for all and it is always "back to square one". The journey of me climbing back to the max, gaining back the things I desire, have a bulleyes on my targetboard; will be a tough one... Shall abid to the quote: tough times will end, tough man won't...

Thought of the day: When you fall down, Just try again.... Can it be done??

20th March 2007, a day in Republic Polytechnic Sports Hall Martial Art room preparing for IVP and training myself for IVP. Spend the end of my outdoor activites at SJAB in Junyuan Secondary School, teaching the secondary 1 students CPR (honestly its a real challenge).

First thing first, talk about the competition. Judo is an offensive Japanese martial Art. It was originated from Jujitsu in Japan. Guess what, I am selected to go represent RP in the coming IVP. But however, the sad thing is my parents will not be allowing me to join this competition. Because they say, I am their first son, so I should not risk my life or any part of my body unnecessarily.But I know why is it so, not because I am weak but because I have alot of injuries before lea... Almost all my limbs had been injured and have scars on it already. My left and right ankle had suffer sprain for more than 5 times that the ligaments are alittle damaged. I broke my wrist before and injured my back as well. I guess all this is the consequences of my childhood mischief. Nevertheless, I doubt I can even stand a chance in the Dojo(Judo Mats). I might be fast, but my accuracy sucks! Perhaps more training will be good before I join the next IVP, but.... This opportunity seems so tempting!! I really want to join the rest of my judo kas in the fight.. ARGH!!! Shall continue to negotiatate.

Will be going for an outing tomorrow with all the Business Climate members. I should happy that I have little problem working there and learning there. Hope it will be a happy day tomorrow..






Since I have the time I shall talk about something which I happen to encounter nowadays.

Just recently, i have been giving advices and view points on 3 kinds of love.
1st: A sweet and stable relationship.
2nd:A missing and full of surrounding obstacles relationship.
3rd: A being played and confused love.

The 1st is the story of a country with a prince and his new wife, the countess. They had never work or even know eachother well for months. Till one faithful day during one of the class in a institute, they both met and was task a project. Soon, the two of them got closer and closer and in the end they are together under the blessing of the people. From a third party view, they seem to be a loving party. A healthy relationship indeed.

As I continue to tour around the little world around me, I met the new era of cowherd and weaving maiden. Now they are the dark ninja and the beautiful princess. The beautiful princess had a secret crush on the dark ninja for quite a long time. And was unfortunately exposed by the king. The dark ninja was a great warrior and was all the time eyed by the king. The king however would like to give a 3 year challenge to the dark ninja before he will bless the princess and him together. Two loving couples, hopes to see eachother more but was blocked for some domestic reasons. A distant love to grow love sickness among two loving bird, for them to cherish the once in a blue moon meet up, so as to build a strong red line between them by the end of the love crime sentence.

Finishing my tour, I met a long time no see junior of mine. He got a crush with a girl. That girl seems to have interest with him. But that girl was so beautiful that all men's eyes will never escape. This junior have no knowledge on what a girl want, and the girl is a play girl. She had somehow become the puzzle of his heart. He wants to love, but she steps back for a pending. Seem so much like a game, where the patient ones wins the prize of this beautiful girl while the loser sits one side and weeps his way. Such love, dangerous??

Along the way, I gave advices, comments and comforting words... So much it is enough to open a love consultant agency. Someone drop by and ask, "wanna practise your promotion line?" I thought for a while," nah, I will rather have all this advices for my own use in the future". Hahaa...

Love can be a want or a need, if I have love now, most likely it is a want not a need. Love is happiness, and it is not something where I can force and make it up. To simlify, love is part of nature, so let the mother decide...

Thought of the day: guts... I need it.. I am out of guts!!

19 March 2007, a ordinary day for most of us but not so for my brother who had just turn 18 this year. Will reveal his photo here...
That is who we call Tai Zi, meaning crown prince. Nickname is not there for fun, and yes this brother I have enjoys the good fate and hospitality of a real crown prince.

The past three day was a big bomb, but only explosions of just pure fun...And without my knowledge or even not the saint can explain, I got myself a daughter...

17th March 2007-
N~ZiRe have a BBQ at East Coast Park. And that day I enhanced my knowledge on setting up fire and also equiped myself with a skill and that is bbq satays. Drank beer on that day, Tiger beer is the beer and soon found myself so hot!!!!!! After that stay awake all the way till the next morning and we saw the sunrise.

Reach home on 18th March 2007, a boring day with me spending almost the whole day on the bed. I sleep that day in hope that it will be a brand new day, but soon i woke up on the same day -_-''' Went out at 6pm, head to buy present for our TaiZi and head to the surprise that our TaiZiFei had planned for him. Mission was sucessful and we attain surprise. A game to test how much our TaiZi know about us, it was a game that I personally find it fun and lengthy... Cut the details, just understand that he is surprise.According to some factual information, TaiZiFei stayed at TaiZi castle for the whole night and after that was forever and ever going to be mystery that no one wants to know. =D

The very next day, which is today; we visited Sakae Sushi... Eat our way till everyone had a real bloated stomach... Now the problem of having a celebrating streak is that, when the cash is not there, the mood will also not be there... We slack around in the arcade and in the end we are left with nothing to do. End the day with a basketball match, when my shoe decided to open its big mouth.
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I guess I shall stop here.. will be back to judo tomorrow. Because I got a warning sms from my yellow belt senior.
" coming down tml? Competition coming this sunday i hope u are aware of it. "