11 March 2007, just woke up for a day at home. I should say finally at home...

2 days ago which was 09 March 2007, we see what I will call sweet romantic scene on pasir ris park. The details again I shall not say, its something those N~ZiRe members who are there to know. The confidential part, we shall wait for the male lead to leak. After the scene was a series of sensational talk.

Holiday holiday holiday, bored.... feel so distorted...

04th March 2007, here I am pinning down another entry about the day before...

3rd March 2007, N~ZiRe had did something which no ordinary teenagers will care and do... Continued the culture from last year, we have a chinese new year visiting marathon yesterday. Though we were quite late from the designated time we are suppose to meet, the visit yesterday was still considered a mission accomplished. Pictures were taken and here are they....

First stop: Batman's hideout... My home

Second Stop: Shen's palace, Derrick's Home

Third Stop: JR nest, Jing Ren's Home

4th Stop: Xiao Fei Xiang safe house, Nigel's home

The last stop was at Tai Zi's castle, but no pictures were taken since everyone was busy. Some were busy playing blackjack, some were busy singing songs while some just chill around... Stay awake there the whole night till the very next day, which is today. we missed Ren Zhe's house, according to him, he is building bomb shelther there...haiz... but overall it was a fun day...

More pictures that had been taken yesterday....

Testing the camera, but somhow....

Shawn as usual..Photogenic

Sueh Li and Nigel

great guitarist

Jr and Shawn together with the peacock Shawn and me


See what happen when everyone snatch for a space


Honsonn, Ferlyn and me with Jolin Honsonn and me with Jolin



BlackJack!!! HUAT AR!!


Shawn and me with someone else shades


Don't know what comments you have but we
had been so like this for a long time... haha..


That should be all the pictures, however I still have some in my files... Now, the full stop will do his job here, to end this blog and also the end of Lunar New year celebration .

1st March 2007, another month just passed...

Good news for a new month...Accomplished my semester 2 target G.P.A. Here is my results of my modules...
Basic Science----------------------------------- > 3.5 B+
Cognitive processess and problem solving ------ > 4.0 A
Computing and Mathematical method---------- > 3.5 B+
Contemporary Issues in Culture & Aesthetics---> 3.5 B+
Enterprise Skills II-----------------------------> 4.0 A

So cummulated G.P.A for my semester 2 will be 3.7 !!! Very glad to announce a slight inprovement of 1 grade from semester 1. I am super happy with my own results, I've made it after all!! Will be aiming to do higher for the next semester.

Judo!!! I am back to training, hope I will win a dignity for myself. If possible, hope I could master the skills in Judo and join the IVP. Come back in two piece will be good enough(the second piece is medal, then the first piece will be my body of course)...However, it will be a long way to that day and I know it will be super tedious. Just went to 3 trainings, I already had aches around the body. But, shall remember one of my fellow Judo Ka's quote, NO pain NO gain.... Currently I am trying to drill some words of my master into my mind. I had found what is needed from me to bring down my opponent. My basic throws, still needs to improve, then speed and accuracy will be primary allies; get close to the opponent and gets him/her on the ground...

hmm... shall stop here, got 2 meeting tomorrow.. haa~~

thoughts: Love can be constructive, but they can be destructive as well. It can be a booster, however it can also be a hindrance...How can one over come this spilt personality of love...

23 February 2007, next day; another day of my holiday... Under the moonlight, here I am putting in the next entry...

A Song which I am recently crazy with...

Sum 41---> pieces
I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy, but no one believes me
I meant all the things that I said.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me,
But it's the only thing that I have.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.

On my own.

Ahh!

I tried to be perfect it just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.
____________________________________________________________

That's all for today... haha.. Boring =_='''

20 February 2007, third day of Chinese New Year... Nothing special, just went doors to doors to visit; considered normal rountine in such festival.

Once again, images of perfection appeared in my mind...
Followed by the feel of happiness, the sense of fulfillment...
Soon they dissappear, Awaking minds...
Which leaves a wandering soul behind...
Such dreams in my mind...
So near to feel it, yet so far to see it...

??? What am I writing??? Once a literature students, but yet so lousy in poems.......... (shi bai shi bai)

Now when I look around, things had changed and I am unaware. I feel so weak, feel so distorted and so hopeless. Others are better than me while I live in a pathetic state. All because I found the reason,that I still hear the voice of the devils louder than the angels...
Consciences speak and I must get rid of their voice and presence...Because their presence leaves things undone and milestones unfullfilled... Their voices make me a lousy guy, a useless man while others climb...
Devils are laziness, timid and loser... I will defeat them
Angels are discipline, confident and winner... I will welcome them
Damn.... Rome wasn't build in one day... All this shall take time...

Thoughts: So near to feel it, yet so far to see it....

19 February 2007, just finish visiting the relatives...Had to do this since its Chinese New Year, paying 'respect'.

"Never judge a person by his/her look", I will pay my respect to the person who created this quote but I will also feel sad for that man since no one seems to follow his quote. I am commenting this in my own personal experience, so you might have a different view about that or is it only visible in my country. Perhaps it is, then I really have to applause loud and clear to Jack Neo's production.
Some how I experience this from the people around me who are decades ahead of me
Clever, smart= Straight A's in O'level..
Great Achievements= Still scoring A's in O'level.
One strand of highlighted hair= Bad boy, sure get beaten up one day
What happen to the elder child will happen to the younger son
Back home late= doing something bad outside
Being fasionable=Nor respecting the elderly.
Handsome face = Bright future, trys to be handsome? You will get yourself into trouble

I had grown up in a environment where no one will be there to motivates me, no one will be there to give me a pat on the shoulder,no one will be there to celebrates my achievement, the first priority is given to monetary benefits and lastly your face will deter your chances. When I look around the teenagers around me, the smallest achievement or dreams they had; they will be showered by tonnes and tonnes of good words while all I get are just mere sarcasm... Every where I go, there will definately have people directly challenging me and bound to their greatest cause to put me all the way down, and normally they come in big bulks and it gets bigger. I tried to be perfect to others, but nothing seems to be worth it when some other teenagers don't even have to try. Thus sometimes I will sigh and quote the chinese saying:" tong ren bu tong ming" which basically means, same features as the other man; but leads a different life. I grew stronger, learnt to self-motivates myself and gave myself a set of principles to follow despite such agony. But whenever I fall down and stands up, some one around me will pushes me down again and soon I found out that I am walking the path all alone with self-motivation, day dreams and devils around me. The strongest man will fall one day and I am just afraid that, that day will come for me and I can't stand up anymore. Anyway, such life... I am used to it, perhaps I am just lousy as they said...

I will definately have lots of life experience at the end of the journey, but I will also experience severe and fatal injuries along the way... Life's like that, all the least I can do is tolerate and be strong....


Thoughts:I lived in a cruel cold world, where there is almost no love, no sense and no care.... what can be done, is to love myself and flood myself with achievements and self fulfillment....just to remind my heart and soul, " I am not bad after all"....

17 January 2007, the countdown is over and I am in a holiday~~!!!

Just came back from N~Zire meeting and again it is still a fun filled meeting. Jokes are there to make us laugh and tease are there to blush some people. Haaa~~~ The details shall not be here but in my head...

Just this morning, I am also just from my class W15L chalet.... Pretty fun~~~~ just bored at a little moment. I had little pictures with me, so guess I will be back with more pictures??

So fast yet so slow, chinese new year is coming~~!!

08 February 2007, I finally self-declared a holiday for me in Republic Polytechnic. Actually the official holiday was 12th February 2007, which is next monday. But no one seems to care?? Because the next few problems after Understanding test will be deem as "Rubbish" to all RP students.

Went to school as usual on 07 February 2007, normal routine... What differentiate today is that, I make my way home after the UT before the lesson starts. In simple words, I skip my lesson. Don't have any motivation to continue my lessons from then, the only motivation is to skip my first lesson in Republic Polytechnic.

I headed home for the first time at the time when I am not suppose to. Take a nap, after which was a period of gaming till I decided to visit the Library. Wanted to find some books on marketing and human resources. Ironically, I lose the interest to read when I reach the Library... Ha~~ but I still took a browse on some of the book, which are pretty good I feel... Back home, I gamed again... Life had yet to be interesting for me.

Some how, I am quite glued to the chinese myth story of the cowherd and the maiden weaver. Yup, you bet it; I watched the 9 p.m. show on channel 8. Though it is an edited version of the myth, but some how I felt the feeling of the characters of in this myth... This myth is definately a very touching romance story, haha; how it takes a cold mean person like me to understand romance?? The myth is about a heavenly maiden weaver, the seventh daughter of the mother queen who has an excellent hands on weaving silk clothing and her duty in the heaven was to make clothes for the deities. One fine day, the maiden weaver togethered with the other fairies came down to earth to play and then that was when maiden weaver met cowherd. They both got married with 2 children. The heavenly king who happen to know that her daugher was married to a mortal man, ordered a immediated action on the couple. On the chase between cowherd and the heaven troops who took away the maiden, the mother queen casted a river( which can been seen on the dark night skies as the milky way) between them to seperate the couple forever. The cowherd and the maiden weaver loved eachother very deeply, and their love had touch both heaven and earth thus mother queen allowed them to met once a year on the 7th day of the 7th month of the lunar calender. So on that very day, known as the chinese valentines day, under the help of all magpies in the world who built a bridge on the milky way for this two loving couple to meet. Ha~~. I researched on the myth and discovered that actually the same myth was shared in the ancient Korea and Japan. Incredible huh? Different land, different culture seeing the same celestial phenomenum. Furthermore research, I also found out that the river that is being depicted in the story is actually tht milky way we would see on the night skies and the cowherd and the maiden on the skies are the "Astrial" and "Vega" both the brightest star on the Augest-September sky. p.s: psst... anyone interested to follow me spot them on the night sky this Augest or September??? Share with you the picture I found.....

On the left is the cowherd star"Astrial" and on the right is the Maiden Weaver Star"Vega". The blur white stuff in between them is the milky way.

End of the story of cowherd and maiden weaver story, a very touching romance story of the mythology china. Teaching lovers on the modern world what is the meaning of true love...

Just recently, or long time ago I had face this problem in my project team. Members are missing from meeting, client delaying reply and project on the halt. Frankly speaking, I don't understand the phenomenum behind these. Is it people getting sick of my face, getting sick of my project or what? How can I let people understand my theory behind the chessboard when my own teammates don't understand????haiz.....

thought of the day: 2-2=0 or 2-1 =1 ???

2nd February 2007, celebrating the end of another month January and once agian wonder the speed of time. Early in the morning, as I sits down over here alone in my classroom... That's Right, ALONE! Some instincts tells me that everyone is not coming for class today, its already 0815 and not even a company here.

Went to Honsonn house to celebrates her sister, also part of N~zire... Again and again it is a fun filled day... Cut the details but it will still run in my mind... Alright.. the best happy birthday for Miss Wong Ferlyn A.K.A Genie A.K.A Sotong

A picture of the birthday girl....Miss Ferlyn

hmmm...guess I shall stop here. As I enter this blog last full stop, I am so happy to see that there is at least afew classmates coming in already. I am not alone after all.. =)

31 January 2007, where the melancholy of the failure is no where to be seen; with a decision to be make.

A few days ago, someone offered me a position in the exco under the will of the new exco members. But, i don't quite like the idea because under the will of the members, i am not suppose to be in...Anyway, it feels as if it is a act of sympathy though it is explained not to be so. But I will still keep my words to this 'company' I am in that I will still commit as much as I do in the past and do as much as I do in the past. Once, I heard from a person that when a door is shut, the other door will be opened. For now, I have 2 doors opening for me... Which should I choose? A door is to the exco of the company that I am currently in, the other door that had been opened for me is to join the Coperation of all the companies(YA club). The person who told me that had offer to send me to there to excel myself. Right now, as I am writing this entry I am still thinking of the options. I enjoy the projects that I am holding in the company right now, but if I really go to the coperation, that might have to give up the commitment in the company. Analysing the benefits I will get, definately the coperation will give me a nicer and more sound transcript when I graduate. But I will be merely running internal projects, which is not the same as what I am running now as a project manager of a big external project. That will be a real challenge that I am looking for. Right now in my mind, I am thinking of trying my luck out at YA but not taking the exco role there so that I can run the projects in BC as well. In another words, I will join YA as a representative of BC. But that is something I have to think twice too, as can I cope with such work??? I use to think offers as conspiracy people who wishes to create, but I trust the source of the information thus I don't really suspect.

Dropping the previous topic, but again something regarding my projects. The "Mind Your Own Business" project is reaching the third stage of planning. Right now, the result of the project is still very vague as the deal has been delaying due to some disagreement among the two parties. Fortunately the negotiation is not hot in tension and that the client still show signs of keeness for the project. Moving on to the peak of the project, I want to make the project a well big and grand one. As I am preparing this project, there is another project which I am also the project manager will require my attention. That project will be something internal, its nothing big but it will affect the future manpower flow in BC for at least the next Academic Year. According to president Zann, the proposal had been accepted, thus I guess I can start working on it. Besides that, i will be sending in another proposal for a human resource team to be setted up in BC to utilize all the chemistry of members and to provide training of business to the members. That is one of the vision I have and hope to achieve in Business Climate.

Tomorrow will be genie's birthday and I am looking forward to celebrates her 15th birthday. This will be her first time celebrating her birthday with us. hmmm, but the sad thing is tomorrow she might encounter some one new, and also misses someone regular again. Haiz, Sometimes I wonder what is up that person's mind, (is attention, fame so that important?)

28 January 2007, the melancholy of the failure have yet diminish in me while laughter and fun accompanied my mask for being happy.

Was just back from another fun-filled N~ZiRe Meeting. Went to Vivo City with someone new and also without someone regular. Walked around Vivo and played at the arcade, had our tea break and dinner there and I guess the experience today is somehow more fun than it is. After which we went to the balcony of Vivo and had some great view of Sentosa before we rush off for the last train and finally slacked at Macdonalds. That is the brief of my day today.

Just the day before, someone sms-ed me and asked, feeling better today? Not wanting to show any sign of sadness, just simply replied,"huh, since when I am not ok?haha'. I am seriously Ok, this is not the first time I met big failure, failure is just part of what I met in life. The sad thing is only that once I fail, I don't know when will the next chance to shine come ever again. To be frank, when the results were out, I am not really sad but just tired. Tired that I failed again, tired that I have to started all over again, tired that I had just lost something that day again. But however, it gave me a real tight slap and woke me up from my lost perfect dream. A tight slap that tells me, "you are yet to be the best" a tight slap that tells me " your devil had make you fail today". I don't blame any one so I don't wish any one to tell me that they are sorry, thanks for the sympathy anyway, I know I look pathetic right now. Till today, I still feel pathetic and I believe is the matter of time before I can search my oldself back. How long can I take anyway?? Such repetive blows on me are just decreasing my effiency and confidence while I struggle to get back on feet.

thoughts: A lost wandering soul, detacted from its confused wondering mind as it search for the rightful path to walk the world again.

25 january 2007, yeah I am so back.....Just to write another sad sad dissapointed chapter in my life.

I guess the taoist priest who my mum invited home was too good to true. Too good to be true that the devil is never someone else but yourself. haa~~ I will be once again searching and destroy that devil in me. He had always been troubling my mind, that result in what I am now. Losing the things that I once possess, the confidence, the leadership , the charisma, the determination, the will.

Today,I face my first ever set back in 2007. Just right smack at the middle of my path to my perfection.I guess failure only means that I am just not good enough, no execuse no reason. Just that. For now, there is almost nothing I can do. Not going to shout out loud, not going to show displeasure to anyone but to myself and just continue to do myself. Perhaps that this failure had waken me that I can judge others, so do others can... Again there is nothing I could do but to search and destroy the devil in me and get back to my feet to improve myself yet again. Improvement and opportunities are my only friend to Life. Although Life is so going to be a struggle, I have the will to just walk it through. There is a chinese saying " ZHI CHUO NENG GAI", that saying should be said to me now. I know there are somethings I am wrong about myself. Shall stop dreaming about perfection, shall start making these dreams real... soon....

Passion for business management shall drive me to go on instead of giving up, I am just upset that I had a blow that I didn't got the thing I want.For now, I also need to do something my grades, just calculated my GPA and noted a drop of 0.2 GPA.. Though little, but great to me!! If there is a will there will be a way??? Yup, such a blow will not blow away my belief. I am still standing tall with my pride and dignity.....

thoughts: professionalism had told me not to put my emotions into what I should do.....

22 January 2007, its a day full of displeasure..........

Just came back with a dental report, just found out the very reason for th on-off toothache I had. I had a wisdom tooth right at the left side of my gum, it is stucked inside the gum. For that, I have a bad news, I have to go for an operation. According to some experienced people I know, the operation will consist of injection to cause numbness and the slicing of gum to crush the stucked wisdom tooth. After which, they will stitch back the gum. I don't know if it is real or reliable, but if it is so, it will be a really BAD news. If it is not, then I will know how many enemies I have in this outside world.

What really bothers me is the aftermath of the operation, because definately I will not be able to speak for a few days. That is seriously a big problem as I have a project coming up which requires me to speak alot. BIG BIG PROBLEM......

So just tell me what have I done in my past life or whatever that make my fate so ill. Whenever a big thing is coming, I will definately get some unfortunate stuff. Life so unfair, life had made himself known as a struggle to me now. Struggle to excel, struggle to live..

Getting 'B's for most of module, just wondering what is happening. I tried to help my team with enthusiasium, I search the resources for them; I speak up for them when they are stuck during presentation, I will try to clear their doubts as much as possible. But all these seems to escape the eyes of my facilitators or they delibrately escape those stuff. But I have 'A' like comments nowaday but getting a B in the end. And the comment are kind of.... Like for instance my science faci, who wrote ,' I expect more from you' and give me a B, haiz; so how HARD should I try to an A, perhaps they are just trying to make me 'PERFECT'. Yeah, perfect.......

Sometimes, a good team really plays an important role to be in a project, or in my case, daily grade. Being in so many projects, had so many different kinds of people being my teammates I had found out the little needs to make a good team. A good team will possess the following
1. Good communication among each other
2. Enthusiasium
3. Understanding
4. No biasness
5. Good co-ordination
6. Helpful among eachother.
There is still a list of what makes a good team but I shall not name it all here. Although this is my topic to cover during the "mind your own business" workshop. Base on my experience, base on my knowledgea and what I had share here, it seems like I am a elite in such area. But my experience so far in so many projects, I had yet experience such a perfect team, even the team I have now for this project. Nevertheless, I met good team during some of my module presentation but sometimes, I just meet utter lousy team that spoils my day and spoils my mood. I guess I am having such teams nowadays. Perhaps no team is perfect as nothing is perfect, but it is up to a good leader to make the tide and I have achieved that level...

thought of the day: A stick is easily broken compared to a bundle of sticks.

20 January 2006, just finished part of what I am suppose to done. Alittle drained here, so before I go to sleep I thought of putting in a blog entry.

Yesterday, I say this because it is already past 12 and I am suppose to blog about 19 January. Alright cut the craps, yesterday was nothing; just the as usual Class routine and my N~ZiRe Gathering. What makes the thing different yesterday in class is the topic which quite arouse my intrest. Re-presenting Reality which we are focusing on the reality of a media. I will cut the very details here also, because it is really a broad topic. But I will share one of my view which I had wrote in my Reflection Journal: " In every story there is always more than one side to it, but in all the media in this world only show one factual side of the story but not the other. In the presence of human, there will always be a chance of conspiracy" Thanks to Shawn who gave me my views when I met him, I was able to give the last sentence to complete my RJ. Thanks man Bro. And that was my academic day.

Met up with N~ZiRe as usual Friday. And we have 2 hot topics today. One was to whether we want to include the 13th member of this club. Some of the agreement was because that particular person is able to click with us very well, ok lets make it too well. Thus quite a number of vote to allow that person in. I shall keep the name of that person confidential till any further progression. The next BIG BIG topic is once agian regarding JR. That guy is seriously hiding some heart desire issues from us. HaHa~~, as the details are suppose to be confidential so I will not put in the grandmother story here. But just a emphasize a KEYWORD which is almost always emphasize in our club, to JR(if he is ever here). That Magical keyword is 'TRANSPARENCY"(disclaimer: The "transparency" here is not relating to the transparent paper we use for OHP).

That was all for yesterday. Just sent an email to all my team(Project:MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS) regarding the submission of the booklet for their presentation during the workshop since I receieve none. One of my teammate is actually sick so as a project manager,I thought it would be fair to postpone the deadline of submission from today to tuesday, so that they will have more time to plan and co-ordinate theyselves at the same time not compromising the quality of the work. As we uphold the objective of this workshop for us is that we will give our best to the participants of this workshop, I also does not want my teammates to feel stress and fall ill for this workshop. A happy man makes a good worker, thats my belief and I believe that is what I should do. As the client had replied and shown great interest in our project, we have to move on and thus I had set a deadline. But however I had foresee this delay thus I gave my team and myself 2 weeks of buffer time to co-ordinate and plan this workshop but I trust my teammates to be responsible enough to move along. hmm...

Guess that is very very all, got to get moving. Drafting the letter to my client soon and catch a good night/morning sleep.

Thought of the day:
Rome wasn't built in one day, so if we have the will to move on, there will be a way for us to be successful one day.

In the very presence of human, there is a chance of conspiracy; what is morally right or wrong is solely depending on individual logical reasoning.

17 January 2007, Wednesday; sitting right here in my small cozy classroom about to prepare my third meeting presentation. Alittle bored by the topic today, so decided to drop an entry.

I am suppose to blog that saturday, but due to some reason I didn't came here. And Ya, Saturday was a day of events for me. First was the CCA fair back in JYSS, as a FDI , I am very proud of what the contingent had done during the CCA fair. (minus-ing all the mistakes in their drills). Also get to perform some public speaking due to some reason again... I will drop the very details of this event. Here are 2 pictures that I took with my fellow officer/instructors in JYSS.

From Left: Me, Fairoz, KevinBambang,Shiyong, Bambang

Smilez instructors

That was CCA fair in JYSS, still happy being an NCO there and not intending to go OTC. Sorry all officers but my belief is " leadership does not neccessary be symbolised by ranks" that is my belief but of course there are still some officers who i see have ranks and leadership, and that is really something remarkable.

After the CCA, rush back home to bathe and out I go agian. This time I went to NAFA, watched Ferlyn's performance. Wow... Ferlyn... she can dance and sing very well, what more can we expect from a 14 year old? bright future she has. The concert was pretty entertaining, except for some singers who have voice that are so beautiful that they put my buddy, Nigel into sleep. =p

N~Zire Visits to NAFA

Guess I got to go prepare the stupid presentation which I am growing to hate it...

08 Januaray 2007, second week of 2007 which means there is sort of like 3 more weeks to the next holiday. Ha~~ Why am I so looking forward it, the school just started for goodness sake~~!!

Finally I got back my laptop from Acer service center, so much that I won't suffer Laptop-Sick. I mean I will not miss Laptop so sickly that I fall asleep in class and attitude in class. Well, you guess it this Acer Travelmate 4150 had really became my travelmate, so much like my wife , so much like my house of thoughts , so much my wisdom so much my travelmate. Almost everywhere I went to, I am with this laptop. So I can't live without it.

I had a very nice lesson today on cognitive processes, the topic of the day is about moral... What is right and what is wrong. I shared my piece of mind through out the forum on what is right and what is wrong for some issues that are being brought up. This ought to be one of the best cognitive lesson that I had ever had.

I will be super super super super super duper duper duper duper duper duper duper busy for the few days.

Tomorrow: Have Business Forum to attend and after that had to rush down in cab to Junyuan Secondary to continue the contingent training for this coming saturday CCA Fair. I am the Overall Commanding Commander.

Wednesday: Not much, but got to go get my hair rid to a shorter length so that I won't be suan or caught for inappropriate grooming this coming saturday. The issue about FDI(Footdrill Intsructor) badge will be once pressured on me. Though I am a bronze badger for FDI but still they expect the discipline

Thursday: Got to skip Judo that day, will be meeting up with my workshop team regarding the Mind your own business. As the chances of clinching of the business with ESSS seems to be alittle bit far away, I am still clinching it with my team till the end.

Friday: General meeting for BC, going to end school late once again

Saturday: CCA Fair over at Junyuan.

While most of time are spend in RP and also travelling time. haiz../

4th January 2007, another day in school without a proper laptop infront of me. I really got to say that days are hard for me without a laptop....

Had a sleepy Enterprise lesson for me today. Particially due to the absence of my laptop, but it was quite a fulfilling lesson despite the fact that I am always dozing off. I manage to help my team put together an almost perfect presentation. I did a perfect finale for my team, which I am happy because I sent everyone impressed. That was the next perfect thing I had done for 2007, lets hope it will be a good year ahead.

Finally, I will get back my laptop tomorrow. According to the Acer engineer who return a call to me after I call them in Acer, my laptop was actually due next monday but I force them to get it done as soon as possibe by Friday. They told me that the fault can only let them get it done by saturday, but I was like alittle not happy with that, so I ask them to get it done as soon as possible under my will because I urgently needs it. I guess they still have conscience, they immediately get it fixed after I called them. HAHA.. so shiok..

Yeah! Will be wearing formal next tuesday for the youth entreprenuer forum. I am just a mere questioning team during the event. I was suppose to be the presenter, representing my IG, but due to the tight schdule i have and also that I have 2 major BC project in my hands, thus then I reject this very good chance to present infront of ministers.. HAIz...Lets hope there will be a second chance

thought of the day: No matter how bad it is, I am going to withstand it...

1st January 2007, Monday. Here is the first blog in neverending89.blogspot.com for the year 2007. I just woke up from my sleep, was very tired since I get home very early in the morning. Ha~~

My very last moment of 2006 was with my forever and ever clan, N~ZiRe over at Downtown East. Sorry, there is no pictures but the memories are up in my head, flowing through my river of thoughts. We met at 2000 hours at Pasir Ris control station, had our dinner and we headed to Pasir Ris Park to have some chatting going on. I specially want to comment about the carrot cake I had yesterday, it is so not nice. Ferlyn's carrot cake was very blend, mine was salty only Don's is the perfect one. lolz.... forget it... So we went to Pasir Ris Park before the countdown and we were chatting about "ghost", what a nice topic before a new year; that topic seems so suitable for the environment there since it was so dark there. 2250 hours, we headed to downtown east to get into the countdown area, we were forbidden to go as we have Dangerous item on us, what? We have Foams with us, which was forbidded by law after the incidents last year when some people from... molested or pickpocketed during the event. Nevermind,we used up all the sprays first before we enter the place.

Its real HOT there, i mean fun there. Though its alittle bit noisy for some of us, but it seems that the ambience there is pretty high. Screaming and shouting and dancing, what more can you desribe happy will be there. When the countdown starts, we all gathered together shoulders to shoulders and count down to the new year. Fireworks, lightings and the music Au-lang-sang marks the new year for everyone in downtown east, everybody screams and dance to the music, it feels as though all the bad things are no longer in this world and we are in a new year!
N~ZiRe dance around for a moment when we decided to head to the beach again and have some emo talks.... After which, due to some emergency, we all headed home and that resemble the end of our countdown 2007 event..

As part of a new year......

my review for 2006
2006 is a year full of unfortunated events for me.
The biggest regret I had for that year is that I let myself work too hard and aimlessly that I neglected things around me. Along the way, I lost alots of things, my vast social circle, my own dignity and self confidence. I also regret to chiong too much that I had neglected myself too, making myself alittle too tired.

The only thing I am not regret for the year 2006 is, I am still single =p...

my resolution for 2007
2007 will be a brand new year for me.....
I will live up to this motto from here then
"if there is a will, there will be a way"
I will live happily for this year at the same time maintain my good results
I will not care about the social circle that I had lose, for I have a dream to fulfill.

my new email address: will2ways_seah@hotmail.com
Anyway, I changed my contacting email address, hope this will really mark a change. My new e-mail will be will2ways_seah@hotmail.com , feel free to add me for there are some contacts that I might had missed out. Currently I am waiting for all the contacts to accept my new e-mail before will2ways_seah@hotmail.com will be fully in operational. "chey" majiam like enterprise... Ha~~ just add me in.. thank you.
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That is all for the first blog entry in 2007, seriously hope that this year will be a year for me and those around me. I don't wish for any bad encounter this year anymore.


Thoughts of the day: If there is a will, there will be a way.

30 December 2006, just one day left and 2006 is over.

Woke up early in the morning 9 am to make call to acer regarding my laptop. He told me to bring my laptop down to the servic center over in Jurong. Initially I was thinking it will be a real rush to there. Furthermore, I am not sure of where is the service center. Jurong, yes it is in Jurong, but which part of Jurong? But come to think about the consequences if I don't bring it down to service today, I will have to wait for another 3 days with a faulty laptop to be fixed and I won't be free then. No choice, I made my way down to Jurong. My parents forbid me taking taxi, for they think it is a HUGE expense, so I have to rush down by MRT and I know I have not enough time for it but I just blindly rush my way down to Jurong; and that was 10a.m. 2 hours before the service center is closed. Half way through the journey, my dad called me and ask me to take a taxi down, so I did, I took a taxi from Bedok to Jurong and I reach there at 1030. Goodness sake, just when I most need a taxi, none was there for me. Finally one came, and he told me that he was unsur of where Acer building is. I told him it was somewhere around Jurng IMM, so he brought me there. The fee was $15.00 exactly. Another big problem just come, I came to notice, it is not just around IMM but one street down IMM then it is Acer building. Fortunately, my uncle who stayed in Jurong brought me to the Acer building.

When I met the service personel, it was already 1130 and another thing just make me completely puzzled. I told the service personel that I encounter a long beep sound when I switch on my laptop and I couldn't even start the window. He look at me, he pressed the power switch. Ironically my laptop obediently switch on without any fault. =_=''' He advised me to leave my laptop with them for a further check on what is the problem. I agreed, anyway I have no choice, if I don't get it settled by today I will have no laptops with me for one week of the school term. After which I left the building, that was just nice 12 noon and the service center is closed.

When I reach home, I got a continued nagging and repremand from my parent. First was about my laptop, they blame me for the fault of my laptop. Come on, do I look as if I delibrately fault my laptop and find this nonsense for myself? The laptop is down and I have much more problems to face upon that, give me a break! Second was about the taxi, I was scolded for taking taxi from Bedok which is much more expensive than for me to take the taxi from Bugis or Clementi instead. OMG, where is the sense of time urgency? If I continue to take the MRT to clementi or Bugis, I will waste 30mins of the trip, plus the time for me to search for a taxi in bugis or clementi, if I ever reach there for what I take a taxi I am nearing Jurong already.It will be a real wastage if I do that, not just that I will not be able to make it on time before the service center is down. Then the nagging and reprimands continues and continues, obitting on one issue; MONEY. There is a saying in chinese, "qian bu shi wan neng de" which means money isn't everything; for that I will never find it within my family. Money somehow had become the first priority for my parent.

I can't even show any sign of displeasure when I come to this money issue in my family. I can't blame my father because he forbid me from taking taxi, limiting my pocket money and how much I spent each month and stuff like this, since he belongs to a low income profession. Neither can I blame my aunt who stayed here and live dependant on my father, and neither can I blame my grandmother for giving pressure my father about money. They love money so much, but they handle in such a way that life is so difficult but yet simple for them and for me.Till now, I am still standing firm on the claim that I made during the my O'level english oral where the topic is " do thing money is an angelic or a devilish thing", I chose devilish and now you see what I mean after this entry.Back to topic, I can't blame them but to only blame myself for having a different mind set about handling my own money and my spending habits.

My philosophy and logic about spending is very simple. I spend my money when I need to and want to if there is enough. I put principles and happiness infront of this god damn thing money and that is the main difference between my parents and myself.

My mother wants me to study to get a high qualification and get a good job. When I found a new target when I enter polytechnic and that was to get into university and get my degree before I come out to work, I told my mum about my future plan. She was supportive at first but soon got very angry with me when I told her about the school fees. Just because the school fees is in 5 degees with a comma in between the second and the third degee and for goodness sake they don't even allow me to apply loan if I want to further study.They told me to work hard in NS and get a job in army and let them pay my school fees. For what the army wants a person who is going to study business? Are they so going to make me market M16 rifles and M203 grenade launchers after I further studies about business.. Argh.. I want to excel in my life, I want to get a high qualification as high as possible; but it seems to me the biggest barrier is money and my own parents....

I think that is enough of moaning and groaning, it protrait a even childish and stubborn side of me. Right now, I have to solve the problem of not having a laptop for school, how am I going to do my research for the workshop materials, how am I going to finish my daily assignment and how am i going to trace back all my work in the laptop. My new year had been spoiled and I does not want spoil it furthermore. I am so unable to join my buddies for a K-Box session tomorrow since my parent will be raging at me agian if I do so but I am going to forget everything and enjoy my countdown with them tomorrow. And I swear, I will find a way to condemn my bull like temper and I swear I will not be lazy anymore. Enough of troubles this year....

30 December 2006 Friday, just back from the usual outing of N~Zire. Its pretty a long time since I last blog, raftly 6 days? Actually, there is quite alot to blog for the past 6 days. My mind had always been with this blog, thinking of what to put up here.

Christmas
Once in a year, we celebrate the birth of jesus during the christmas day. I am not a christian, but this day 25 december had become a festival celebrated by almost everyone in this world regardless of race or religion. I am not extempted from this either.

24 december 2006, went to count down with Jing Ren, Nigel, Nicklaus and Shawn. Nothing much, it seems like some of us are not in the right mood to celebrate christmas. Had a few pool and foosball action over at e-zone before we move our butts to Orchard road. Along the way, we were chatting while some part of the journey with a complete silent and Shawn reading his "the imperial spy". The only joke is when we were discussing about Shawn's sudden intrest in reading. Ha~~ sorry brother, it is really something worth to find out. Its a real hard time trying to squeeze through the crowd over at Orchard Road, and my mood was pretty spoilt by then. We spent our next few hours before the clock struck 12, walking around Orchard Road, spraying frost and strings. It was quite an enjoyment, running around spraying and shout"merry christmas". We didn't heard the count down, cause we can't hear it; thus as the crowd roar... we just dim its already christmas and head to simei to meet Honsonn. We prepared a present for Honsonn that night, at the very moment when he stepped infront of us, we spray the last can of frost at him. Haha~~, he is very "on" as in he didn't really come chasing us around like a bull. After which, all of us stayed at a nearby coffeeshop and moan.. WHY moan?? because it is a boring christmas when we are all bachelors.....

The very next day, Christmas!!! It was Shawn's Birthday, and you guess it he is the christmas boy in our group.We decided to catch a movie, "curse of the golden flower"; before we all head to his house to celebrate his birthday. The movie was quite nice, nice effects nice story and whatever nice things you name. And I am alittle puzzled with N~ZiRe recent new hobby, foosball... We just keep playing it. Celebrated Shawn birthday at his warmth home and had a fantastic dinner there. Whole lot of us went down to the playground at the late, so as to play flour. But our good buddy Jing Ren ran away because we all want to make him all white that night. Had a search party to search him down, we were unable to so because we had little information about his whereabout. We called him to have some restriction of area if he wants to play hide and seek. The rule is simple, no second floor, just the ground level... In the end, he hid in shawn house -_-'''. Nevermind.. its ok.. we are fine with it. Then right after that, it was home sweet home.

26 December 2006, it was post christmas and also 2nd anniversary of the big disaster Tsunami on the south east asia. I was still a secondary 3 boy at then. But life continues despite the tragedy 2 years ago, N~ZiRe went to bowling for that particular day. My mood was still as shacked as it is for the past 2 days of christmas celebration. My bowling skills are as usual, not constant, my first game sucks to the core, the second was very good, strike and spare like no one business and the last one it was back to sucks again. But I am not particularly affected by that, anyway my dream is not be a bowler. I was suppose to join my class for a BBQ night, but I got the time wrong; my fault or the person who told me the time 's fault??? Fine whatever, in the end I did not join my classmates and head home and bury myself down for an emo. night.

And that is what I had for christmas, fun surrounds me but i just can't grasped them. Just wonder what is happening to me for the past three days.

After christmas
27-28 december 2006 I did almost nothing but staying at home. Playing games and also trying to boost my mood again. And 2 days just pass in a blink of an eye.

A series of super unfortunate events
Somehow I believe I can start to contact hollywood regarding a new movie to be screen dipicting me as the male lead. And the movie can rightfully be tittled as "A series of super unfortunate events"

I don't know what is nailed in my fate, and I always believe I could change it if it is bad cause my actions means everything. I pray to my god almost daily when I left my house for some work. I lead almost a normal life, almost normal but it became extrodinary when I face a series of real suay events this year. Let be share with you from the start of year 2006, as much as I could remember.

January: Retreive O'level results with a shocking result for English, D7. An obvious slide in result, sorry make it TOO OBVIOUS! Prelim Enlish B4, O'level English D7. WTF....

February: Entered Republic Polytechnic unexpectedly. Others who choose RP as first choice got into my favourite poly at that time TP. I put RP behind, I GOT IT! anyway this prove nothing as life is still stable for me in RP.

March: I don't remember any "suay" events here

April: First day of school, miss 3 buses and was almost late. Squeeze with some idiots who refuse to move to the rear of the bus. That is so vivid in my mind.

May: Met some idiots from my SIT camp who are so childish and attempted to bully me. A fold in my pants means I am horny.. Super CHILDISH and for goodness sake the person who started it was a year 2 lady. What a slut and those who followed after that was even lamer! they are dragon in groups, but cowards alone.come on man, a little message to those guys, HEY GROW UP!

June: After an almost one whole year of check up due to some doctors who suspect I have back proble, they told me it was not my back but the problem with my legs. The "good" doctor scare me by saying "its very obvious that your legs are not in equal length which might make you not able to jump or even run properly, this is very serious that I might write an letter to execuse you for army." my immediate reply was " MR DOCTOR, I got 4 points for my standing board jump, I was once a high jumper in my primary school and also an athelte when I was primary 6. If that is not enough, I am telling you my Fitness test is always Gold or Sliver." He was pissed obviously but ordered me to take an x-ray of almost MY WHOLE BODY. The x-ray cost my parents $200, and the next checkup when another doctor screened me told me, "wah, why are you screening so many x-rays. There is not much problem with your legs, its just 2.5 cm shorter, and it is not really a matter and you can still go to the army if you love it. " WTF, doctors nowadays!!!! For 6 months I felt so demoralised that I am not able to serve my NS in the combat specialist side.

August: Was doing rolling break falls during my judo training. Suddenly I lost balance for no reason and sprain all my toes on my right leg. HAPPY! =(
And not to forget, Knocked on a bamboo stick while listening to MP3. WTF

September-Buffering sounds was heard from my laptop, before I could even thought of anything, the acer engineers reformated my com and it is for goodness sake one day before school reopen. First day of the new semester, already I am busy with 2 things. Third meeting presentation and also to monitor what the person over the IT helpdesk is doing to my laptop...

October:Got Rashes after using a suntent lotion which I had used for almost 2 times before without anything. But just the last use cause this stupid rashes. In the end, I missed alot of Judo lessons

November: nothing much....

December:
I am going to make this long!!! because It just happen recently.
A few months ago, my laptop was reformated one day before school starts. A few months later, I received an early present for new year and late present for christmas. MY LAPTOP JUST CRASH!!!! I am so fucking angry right now as I put in this entry in the middle of the night. You might think that it is common for laptop to crash, but this time my laptop really make the timing right. Just when I am about to do my project after knowing that my seniors are already begining not happy with my project. AND MY PROPOSAL is in there. So, if the lappy really crash, I am doom for sure. Tomorrrow, Acer will be closed by 1, so I have to make a call to them early in the morning. Worse, its saturday tomorrow, and they will only make up for me the next working day. which means next wednesday since tuesday and monday are public holiday. TO make things even suay and worse, I have a Understanding test next wednesday. Without my laptop, IT IS REALLY DAI JI DUA DIAO!!Thanks to the UT rule stating students are to be responsible to maintain his/her laptop before a UT. Students without a laptop during the UT will be doing the UT on a paper with no other reference. These means that I die got to study fully for the next UT....

WAH~~~~ super angry, feel like killing and slaughter anything that comes in my way. I HAD NEVER BEEN SO SUAY!!!

Somehow I am stressed...
ya, some how i am stressed with something which I am not sure of. For this whole entire month, I am so tired of everything that is around me and somehow struggling to survive. It seems like my confidence level is dropping, real real fast and I am coping with it. Have sleepless night almost every night. haiz.. I wonder what happen to me.. Fortunately this is diminishing after christmas, hope it continues and never come back.
But anyway, thanks Xue Ning my senior in BUsiness Climate handling the workshop team with me for encouraging me, I won't let the whole thing down.....

Endless rain and earthquake in Taiwan
Climate changing in this sick sick earth. Human activities caused all this shit I suppose. Since the day of N~ZiRe Chalet till yesterday, it had been showering around the island. It stopped for sometimes but came back soon. This caused some areas in Singapore to be flooded and also some land slides on slopes. It also make life so difficult for some of us. Then came the earth quake 3 days back in southern taiwan which damaged the under water cables and seriously slowed down the connection speed of internet around Asia. WTF is wrong with this world...... Are we so in the dying generation??
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Alright, these blog is getting too long, got to stop right here. I will be back if I have something to tell this world about my life. For now, I will relax as I do my project without my lappy and enjoy my next few days of holiday.


THought of the day: If there is a will, there is a way