22 November 2006, its a wednesday night sitting down here entering the next blog entry. hmmm, its a very packed week for me. Monday was down with the SLA meeting with BC senior Zann and Liyana, Tuesday stayed back in school till 5 to study science UT(which is a sad case), Wednesday which is today, sat by the library like a statue waiting for the people who had promised to buy presents for the orphans in the orphanage. In the end, no one came; so no presents collected and job's done for today.

Oh yeah! I got 2 more A's for my Understanding Test. My Basic Science and Computering and mathematical methods module. So right now all my UT 1 has been out, here is the result.
A102- Basic Science >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>"A"
A112- Computing and mathematical method >>>>>>>>>>>"A"
G106- Enterprise Skills >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> "A"
G102- Cognitive processes and problem solving >>>>>>>>"B+"
G104- Complemantary issues and aesthetics >>>>>>>>>>"B+"
It is a real landslide sucess for this semester understanding test. But I am just a quater through. I will still have 3 more UTs to go and I really hope to score well for the next few too. But it looks like I am going to flunk today's UT on science; I haven't finished all the questions. Going to study hard for the next monday's UT which is Maths. Aiming for another sets of A's

While still deciding if I am taking my electives next year semester one or wait till year 3, I have another thing to decide on too. But for that I can't wait till year 3. That is my Professional Profilling. I am doing up my plans on the steps of my work, and currently deciding which to do a profile on. But under my choice right now is either to profile a profession or an industry. I am not risking to profile a entreprenuer, its hard to find one in Singapore; not company because I have not much external links . So down with these 2 choices. I will update my progress here, just as I need to report to the school... Stay tune...

I heard from Edwin today, " life is hard, sometimes when you are too soft others eat you up, sometimes when you are too hard others hate you". I agree to him to a certain extent, life is hard for it is hard to strike a balance of being hard at the same time being soft. I guess one will only be happy in life if he could strike a balance in everything he does, and that is what I always wanted to do.

Guess that's all I could say for now. the next 3 days would be pretty packed too. Upcoming events are...
Thursday>>>>>>>>>>>>> Judo training
Friday>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Business Climate meeting and N~zire meeting
Saturday>>>>>>>>>>>>> Staying home to monitor the singnet staff setting up my wireless connection.
These are just some of the major events I need to attend. Others like planning for the projects in BC under my hands and studying for the coming UT is not in the list.

Alright, thats all... Hope for a better day tomorrow. Later....

thought of the day: Stay cool, and everything will be just fine.....

November 19, 2006. sorry for the late entry, I was away due to some stuffs.

The war had ended, at 17 November 2006. Its a nice ending with a peace conference which was pretty smooth. No more war are expected in the near future, a peace treaty had been signed with one of the terms" respect and tolerance". The 17 November 2006 treaty will hereby represent the everlasting peace and symbolise the maturity of the world. Over the world, people are celebrating the peace coming and look forward a long prosperity.

18 November 2006 which is yesterday! I was out with N~zire to lots of place. First we went to watch the movie " Step Up". The dance steps there are pretty beautiful I thought. After that, we walked our way from douby ghout to Orchrid road. Take a look at the christmas lighting. We were bored and then decided to go to Melion park to slack with the melion. We sang and joked there.
For the infomation to those non-Singaporean. This is the merlion, Singapore's trademark. Its is now situated near the mouth of Singapore River where Raffles discovered the potential of Singapore shore as a trading port .Now, thats why I am proud of my own country Singapore, despite the little history, but our history is interesting.

Some more photos taken. credits given to honsonn and Ferlyn.

Hotels in singpore, we have over here from left" Marina Mandarin, Pan Pacific, The oriental Singapore" and " Ris Carlton"

A few blue luminous balls outside Esplanade

Oh, you need directions??

Caught Red handed!!

Ferlyn"Genie" and me

Thats what I have for yesterday, there are somemore photos from Shawn which are currently not available.

Hmm, I am deciding if I want to take my electives next year. If I take it up next year, then wednesday will not be a holiday for me anymore. Furthermore, I have to share my class in the electives with my year 3 seniors next year.. hmmm. thinking...But anyway if I am taking up, then I will be taking up "marketing". haha..

Got to go study for UT now, later.....

November 14, just another day as the war still wares in the far away land. No more details about the war.

Had judo today, oh I thought I improve. Right now I can do most of the throws well. Break falls nicely. Gonna train real hard for my judo grading which is coming up. ARgh.. I got a B for my enterprise module man, what the hell another facilitator who will give good comments without the grade tallying it. But I raftly know the reason, suay huh to have this kind of reason. I won't share the reason.

Why am I working so hard?? never sastified with a B or below?? what to do when you have a dream which the only way to get it is to work extra dual hard?? like I once say, my dream is the moltivating factor of me. Its so strong that even the best "suaner" I know cannot suan me down. Nah maybe its because whatever he say just don't make sense.

Thought of the day: Principles are just like rules a person follow, it is never wise to have strong principles and used it in every situation, it works for some but not all. Just like, we can't play basketball using soccer rules.

November 12th, 2006.. Right now, a war is going on, just wondering when it will it be ending. When there is a war, everyone suffers.. For the sake of the coming up peace conference, can one just settle of a truce?? The reason of this war is for a reluctant country to disarmament, the issue was ignored by the involved countries. The peace conference failed after 3 hours of real peace talking and subsequently a few more peace conference which are either ignored or abandoned. Right into the hearts of the people, they are yelling " WE WANT PEACE!!" For nation pride, the other party are fighting real hard...

That's something happening now, and little details should be out. Been fine nowadays. Oh, a piece of good news, I scored "A" for my enterprise module. woo-hoo, nothing could be happy than that. For a person who wants to be part of the business arena like me will definately jump to his joy over this. Adding on, I got to start on my project "SLA" soon in business climate; have been pretty idle nowadays. Coming up is also judo grading, my rashes had recovered and will be returning this tuesday to my training.

Alright, thats all for today; a day when one lives with the sum of fear in war.Tomorrow carries a hope for better day. just some penny of my thought. Got to rest for Enterprise UT tomorrow. signing out.

thought of the day: Business is more than just making money, it possess the element of passion, knowledge and skills; principles of trust and faithfulness.

10th November 2006, sitting here waiting for the class to start. Having A112 today. Just wonder what is the problem today.

Was a lively day yesterday, so hope that it would be the same today..

Got to go, read the problem statement, back with more later in the night.

8th Novemeber 2006, away from blog for a 4 days.

Just recover from my skin allegy which cause me rashes that swell on my body. What actually happen is a myth to me, I don't even know how i got it. The doc explained that it could be the sun block lotion I used which I am allegy to but the problem is, I had used it before!! hmm, so this saturday sun tenting is out, but gym is still on. Right now I am still feeling itches around my body.

Am I working hard?? I just know two of my module UT grades, I got B+ for both. Cognitive and Culture module. I don't know why but I feel that I am seriously lacking of something in my learning path. I don't study at home, thus I feel that I am learning far more little. You know, Republic Poly students don't have text book to rely on. haiz..

Coming up, there will be a Business Climate General meeting and bowling session with N~zire. But it is stil tentative for the bowling session as I have to rush down from Woodlands. Maybe I am not going for the bowling and head home to rest. Gonna study for the coming Enterprise UT. For tomorrow I will be skipping Judo thanks to the rashes I had.

Oh, and I just finish my english O'level today. I was suppose to retake it this year. Looks like I have the same feeling for that examination, again I got to wait for the results..

Guess that is all. Signing out.

4th November 2006, time flies!! 2006 finishing in about one month time. Sorry for the late entry anyway, I was busy and tired with school works, thus alittle late here.

Was busy training my abs nowadays, bringing my fitness up again. When was the last time I really train?? MONTHS back when I was still working and waiting for poly admission. That was when the word 'fit' was used on me,haha.. tracing back the history of my tricep, the proudest part on me. doing 50 sits up each day and practising some judo movement each day..

Oh, I made a decision!! I quited Student Ambassador, its a hard decision then. But I made it, I am not ready to promote RP, there are other areas where I really need to look into more, that's why I dropped the IG where I once worked hard to get in.

Still meeting up with N~Zire, the candles of my life... Went out with the whole band yesterday, had dinner in Pasir Ris and next was an emo. chat on the beach. After that was what later known as the "long march". In Singapore? yeah, history repeats itself; from pasir ris to tampines. Along the way was really like a military expedition, we walk the big drain, under the fly over, which was part of the drain. The funniest part was when we reach somewhere near the patrol station, some beep sound came from it. Suddenly honsonn was like showing the hand sign and shawn and I crouch on the ground.HAHA, that was good awareness, we will survive if there is war one day. Entering the HDB blocks, we encounter Sniper on the high grounds, nah its actually some ass pointing laser at us trying to make a fool out of us. Sad! he/she fails..haa....

got to stop here.. chilling out..

31st october 2006, the last day of october. Here I am sitting down in my classroom waiting for the class to start, or i don't want it to start? haha.. Time flies, one year is just almost over, going to be promoted to year 2 in another 10 weeks??? Still deciding if I want to change my course, currently still at Diploma of Business Applications.

Yesterday, went to gym with N~zire , Honsonn; Ferlyn and Nigel... Was late since I have to fly all the way down from Woodlands to Tampines. Didn't really train intensively as I am having my judo lesson today.Started of with warm-ups followed by 40 sits up. After which I tried the machines, training my turso, triceps and biceps. Had a touch on the weights too, pretty fun but I am relying alot on my right hand. Disaster!!! I lose weight again, I lose 0.2 kg of weight. I am going to eat more now, the target this time round would be 65KG, at the same time TALLER!!

Alright, guess I got to stop here, class starting soon... Just nice the timing.....

Outz..

27 october 2006, have been a long time since the last blog. What can I say? nothing, just school after school" SUPER NO LIFE"

But today is a special case, met up with all the N~Zire Guys and we had our dinner at Bedok Hawker Centre. We had mutton soup for the day... It seems that today's mosque attendance wasn't that good, Derrick our "SHEN" had a bad day. We were all quening for our food, the stall tender took down our orders and completely forgot about Derrick's existance. HAHA, joke of the day. For the next few minutes, sorry correction for the next hour, we all sitting down crapping and feasting. Some jokes from Tai Zi honsonn, which is a repeition (oppz) but of one particular joke, our Tai Zi almost made a fool out of himself. HAHA, I guess its not appropriate to share what is the on going here. Just why is there a Japanese Culture high fever in N~Zire?? come on, we are in Singapore, haha crap, actually I am also one of the people who is learning Japanese Language. Partly of the reason is because, I am in Judo; want to understand more aboout Japan. So what is next? Kendo, Karate?? nah stick to one martial art for the moment. After that hour of dinner,we scroll around Bedok, went to the " P " shop to buy some discs for visual entertainment, (er.. sound abit wrong, I mean Computer Games). Together with Taizi, we bought Champion Manager 2007, alright finally I had a game to play. Next was sitting at the playground, surrounded by kids; but who cares? they bring the childhood memories back to us, maybe? We sang songs and alittle conversation about JR's Business Ambition and plan. Lastly, We spent more than 1 and a half hour walking back to Tampines. HAHA, I don't think I wanna share the experience of it, too fun to discribe here, it will flood my blog.

hmm, Shawn told me he saw her( my ex). ; I was just wondering? why he suddenly tell me that? do I care? I don't think so, she isn't happy with me either when we are together, she seems to be happier with her current relationship. There is a saying in chinese, love is something where nature takes it course, which means love is something we can't force. And I got this from Jeslin's Nick : " don't dwell in the past" That's what I am up to now, so why think of her, better girls are out there!? Ironically, I don't seems to have any relationship plans for the next few years, maybe I am not the Mr. Right for the many hers in the world. But who knows, someone might change my irony here. WHO? Lets wait and see....

I am still drawing up my blue prints of my future and a portfolio of myself. But till now, my dream future is still
1. Be a business development Consultant , majoring in Business Arena
2. Drive a trendy sporty Car ( my choice are Mazda, Merz , Mitshubishi or Lambo)
3. Own an apartment
4. Own shares in various Company
5. A public Speaker( not politician)
6. A happy family?
Still a long way, anyway the above information is subjected to changes.. haha

So what is up for the next week, nothing much either. Tomorrow will be going to suntent again, gonna be as dark as possible but below the darkness of Indians, don't wanna dissappoint my dad, I AM STILL A CHINESE.. Er, I am not being Racist here, paradox!! hmm should stop here ..

Outz....

25 October 2006, morning 0810 just a few more minutes to A112 Understanding Test... Am I prepared for it??? I guess lets not talk so much about it, be back with a second entry later today

Out.

October 23, 2006... A tiring and dreamy morning I have here. The haze remains high but much more healthier. Guess where I am now? Back to that white jappy campus, Republic Polytechnic. Time flies pretty fast isn't it, 3days missing from here and just didn't feel anything, life is as usual...

Last friday was pretty a happy day, finally i saw my class united and so "high". Maybe the problem is easy and that is why everyone is so happy about it? During the second meeting, one of my classmate; wayne actually felt bored and starts to tie rubbers together making a rope and plays with it. Pranks on passer-bys and our own classmates, haha pretty fun. I am kind of "bo liao" that day, sticking sticky paper on others' back.. HAHA.. one of the target was May.. muhahaha... After school, rushed against time to saffra to meet with N-zire to have a bowling session. My day sucks there, just don't feel right when I hold the ball and head towards the line. In the end, my scores are lesser than 100!! hate that feeling.

Saturday was not much a day.. Spent most of my time over at my cousin's chalet, was his 21st birthday anyway.

Followed by is Sunday, went to sunbathe with Honsonn. HAHA we fall asleep and when we woke up, we turn darker!! much more darker...after that session, went to have some food "yummy"

N-zire Chalet '06 is coming soon, how is it going to be like?? I hold a pretty optimistic feeling about it. Hopefully it is as fun and as high as usual. What is the difference anyway? This time round, I bring only myself to the chalet =D LONG LIVE N~ZiRe

I am kind of setting a target for my future now. Deciding to change course or stick to the current course, I AM STILL SO WAITING for the briefing, wanna know what and why the hell have they changed the structure. Anyway, my future career is something majoring in business, so soon you guys gonna see me with a suit on carrying a briefcase..haah...

And!! Yes; I am changing my blogskins soon.. I understand the agony of my readers with this blogskins on, changing into something new and fresh and nice.!! muahaha...

I guess that pretty much all for the past three days, gym is up after school and WOO-HOO tomorrow is public holiday. Just a question, since when I really had my holiday?? hhaa...

19 october 2006, a little from blogthing to kill the boredom in school

You Are 35% Normal

You sure do march to your own beat... But you're so weird, people wonder if it's a beat at all You think on a totally different wavelength And it's often a chore to get people to understand you

How Normal Are You?

You Are 60% Grown Up, 40% Kid

You've grown up a good bit, but you still have a way to go before you're emotionally mature. You have the skills to control your emotions, you just have to use them.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Innovating

You are the master of new ideas, techniques, and ways of looking at things. You are talented at structuring thoughts, decision making, clarifying, and making deadlines. You should major in: Marketing Psychology Desgin Cognitive Science Economics Photography

What Should You Major In?

You Are Very Honest

You tell it like it is, no matter what. Even if the truth hurts, you'll dish it out. And while some may get hurt by your honesty... At least everyone knows where you stand!

How Honest Are You?

You Are a Hunter Soul

You are driven and ambitious - totally self motiviated to succeed Actively working to acheive what you want, you are skillful in many areas. You are a natural predator with strong instincts ... and more than a little demanding. You are creative, energetic, and an extremely powerful force. An outdoors person, you like animals and relate to them better than people. You tend to have an explosive personality, but also a good sense of humor. People sometimes see you as arrogant or a know it all. You tend to be a bit of a loner, though you hate to be alone. Souls you are most compatible with: Seeker Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

18th October 2006, the middle day of the week. My day starts off with Understanding test of G106 module, enterprise. Pretty manageable I feel. Among all the modules, enterprise seems to be my best for last semester and this semester. It trains my skills on business arena, nevertheless it also help my reasoning skills.

Today, I am taking the science module. Guess what? the problem drafter is trying to be funny, he broke my record by drafting the longest problem statement I ever seen. Today topic is more or less the same as the last week, its about Light. Waves, it is interesting but brain draining. For the whole day, I am staring at the resources, fortunately it pays of. Logic can't explains science, to a certain extent yes, but for today I sucessfully used some logic to interpret how light behaves, as a particle and as a wave. But however it is also thanks to some fundamental physic knowledge I had in the past. I learnt something today, all about lights. Science can really drain someone's brain, what can I say; "thanks ar science".

hmm, something came to me today. Its about my course "diploma in Business Applications" I am kind of puzzled, the programme chair send a email to all the students taking this diploma clarifying that our modules in this diploma during year 3 is not solely programming or business, it is focusing on how IT can apply on business. Yes I know that, but hey!! i thought they just say that we can choose to major in business or IT?? QUESTIONS!!!! I will ask the programme chair, since a briefing for year 1s are coming up soon.

Guess I am still deciding my fate in Student Ambassadors, I GOT THROUGH!! but I am not contented either... SO what should I do???

15th October 2006, HAZE HAZE HAZE!!! the psi today rise above 100 degrees. man I getting to hate this weather, it makes me seriously sick!!

Supposed to go to judo today. But once again I pon that IG, why? reaching the end of class I feel super sick, feel like vomitting; not just me my classmates and facilitators felt that too. HAZE AGAIN!! since morning, my eye are like very irritated then.. ARGH!!

currently, I am half done with the design of my clan logo and also the video..hmm its going to be something I am looking to for the up coming weeks.

October 15, 2006. Another week had just past and a new week coming up. So what is ahead of me? I wish I can find out but future is always a unsolved mystery.

Understanding Test ahead of me, my only target now is to score as many As for my UT, so that I will secure that 50% of my results. Last semester is a lesson for me...

Ok, lets show case some of the blog things..

You Are The High Priestess

You represent mystery - secrets that are yet to be revealed. You find yourself sitting between two worlds: one dark, one light. You tend to hold these two worlds in balance, reconciling the two. Open and welcoming, you invite others to learn your secrets. Your fortune: Something hidden, or latent, in your life is about to come forward. You need to pay more attention to your dreams, thoughts, intuition, and imagination. And if that involves tapping into your dark side, it will all balance out in the end. You have a lot of potential dying to be unleashed, so let those gates open!

What Tarot Card Are You?

You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause. You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them. Power: force beams from your eyes

Which of the X-Men Are You?

People Envy Your Confidence

You have the attitude and self esteem to take on anything. Failure is beyond not an option for you - it doesn't even cross your mind. People envy your ability to take on any challenge ... and they're secretly afraid you think you're better than them. You don't. You're just sure of yourself.

What Do People Envy About You?

14th October 2006, alittle bit late here to blog. Going to blog about 13th october 2006. hmmm

First would be school, smacked with the problem from Cognitive processes and Problem solving. The problem today is really something I don't really enjoy man. Its about contradiction and logic. wah.. Nightmare ar.. guess gonna get another B for Cog already... Nothing much for the school day.

After which was going to meet brothers and sister for a bowling session.. Played quite well for the day my points are " 112" at the first game. Second game I dropped partially they are betting la, then I stress..haha.. so my second game is like "68". haiz.. Friday the thirdteen la..

A good news!! we got a name for our clan.. Guess what it is.. It is call Й-Zi?e..HAHA nice ar.. hmm N is because in all our names N is the most frequent letter. zire is from the word desire, it means our desire in life and bla bla bla.. That is definately something new for the clan.

12th October 2006, the last time I blogged was the starting of the week, now its reaching the end of the week. i spoke of whether i should be optimistic for the week, I got an answer now; yes I should be optimistic.

I guess the problem is that Monday I am suffering Monday's blue. I couldn't focus and my mind is in quite a Chaos.Culture and Aesthetics, hey I am once an Art student, why can't I do that problem well?? maybe it is because it is about the elements and principles of art that makes me hard to apply it

Tuesday was enterprise, my most happy day besides the judo training. I learnt about marketing that day, touched on the 4Ps and SWOT Analysis. Actually the SWOT analysis is something extra and bonus to the class, I added it in because I know of such stuff in the marketing Area. Surprised? haha. The whole level only my class know about the SWOT analysis thanks to me.As the facilitator already said in my comment "your swot analysis is something bonus to the class" hmm I am happy for that day for what I had learnt, I am more confident for my pending project run " mind your own business Workshop". The East Spring Secondary teacher is in favor of my proposal,so hopefully it can be done. But I still got to thank the three ladies, my seniors who helped me alot along the way. Judo was again a torture for me, the day was tiring for me and I went into the martial art room with a half dead body. No strength no stamina, in the end I got thrown like a doll as usual. Phobia to train with HK , he is too much for me man. Kata Rendori for me I had not really performed to the fullest, but the ground work was quite a battle for me. First was Edwin, I pinned him once and he pinned me twice. Second was HK, got "K" !! Third was Kelvin, also the same. But I am getting to get very frustrated overmyself that I just couldn't fight well enough. The last was Nicklaus, I managed to pin him down twice, but I just couldn't forget his body crush on me, for your information he is 100++ kilograms.Currently suffering from cramps that is still mingering around my body. Fizal was right, I am too angry to fight; got to learn to cool myself down when I fight.

Wednesday, nothing much besides schooling and going home to sleep.. Maybe UT is the one that I can remember of.

Thursday, which is today. Its maths module that starts the day, guessed what I learnt today? Chi-Square Statistic. The formula is X^2= Summation(observation freq - expected freq) / expected freq. Once you got that you will get the Chi- Square of a set of data. To find if the set of propotion data is true, we uses chi square. Statistics, it is fun but tough, so far I learnt from Binomial distribution to Chi square distribution. Moving in towards intermediate level of statistics studies. It is important for my future since I wanted to be majoring in business arena. After the lesson was a hardcore game of Counter strike with my classmates; had a real fun game with them. HAHA, if I had not flash back I might not have notice that the dynamics of the class is improving; we are getting more and more united. They are hardworking but at the same time fun..hmmm

Tomorrow is 13th friday, suppose the cursed friday. Phenomenum says that you are gonna be real unlucky on this day. hmm not many people beliebe that either.

hmm.. I was just thinking of my future nowadays. I wanted to be a business consultant where my scope would be consulting on my client business developement and also reviewing their business plans. But I am still vake about the requirements of this career path. But it is definately one of my drive now. I am pumping myself with business knowledges from the fact that I am from business climate IG.

A piece of news, I am touching on my clan video now. currently stucked after the intro of the video. Haven't continue.

hmmm.. I am seriously tired now..got to go and sleep.. tata....

Just a little bit of blogthings survey that I had done.

You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker. What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions. You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself. Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

How Do You Communicate?

Your Life Is Worth...

$813,000

How Much Is Your Life Worth?

Your Hidden Talent

You have the power to persuade and influence others. You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around. The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it. Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think!

What's Your Hidden Talent?

You Are 25% Left Brained, 75% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

Your Love Element Is Metal

In love, you inspire and respect your partner. For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience. You attract others with wit and a bit of flash. Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you. Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life. You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past. You connect best with: Earth Avoid: Fire You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

What Element Is Your Love?

You Are Bold And Brave

But daring? Not usually? You tend to like to make calculated risks. So while you may not be base jumping any time soon... You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!

How Daring Are You?

9th October 2006, the week starts again; how optimistic I am to it? Currently in school, guess theres no need for me to blog the process in school. Come to that later. Alright lets show what is happening last friday and saturday. More interesting I suppose.

Last friday was Xiao Fei Xiang Nigel's birthday. So the whole clan went to celebrate for him. Where? Marina Bay is the place. I suppose we ate quite alot as Ferlyn had some problems as we went back to Tampines. Oh, it is no hawker centre or whatever that is low class you are thinking. It is middle class, we are eating at a buffet, some sort like seoul garden but alittle bit middle class..haiz.. have some problem how can I explain it. Here are some pictures of the day..

From left: Shawn; me ; Nigel; Yi Qi and Honsonn

Shawn and me, from good pals in sec one to brothers now

That's me and Ferlyn, advertising that Green Tea. Actually you know what I am taking picture with a future singer =D

That's me and my shi mu Yi Qi, don't ask me why I call her shi mu, the reason is like so unknown to both of us.

How can I ever to forget the man of the day : NIGEL SIM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

There are still lots of photo that is being taken, but not all I am going to put up here. After the dinner, we went to saffra to play bowling. HAIZ, I am so lousy in it.. haiz. haiz.. Anyway along the way, we met this bunch of colour wolves who eyed at yi qi and ferlyn, the whole clan of brothers was like staring at them with fierce eyes that they shun away..HAHA.. good day i feel, anyway; happy birthday to brother Xiao Fei Xiang... The day ends with us chatting at honsonn house, till day breaks. its a hazy week, haiz.. how come the PSI drop ar.. sianx ar got to go to school.

Anyway just to share something intresting to me, I done these surveys and here are the results

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary. You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts. All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

What Time Of Day Are You?

Your Chances of Being a Multimillionaire: 68%

You have a good chance of being a multimillionaire. Better than most people. You simply have a natural knack for money and the personality for success.

Will You Be a Multimillionaire?

You Are From Saturn

You're steady, organizes, and determined to achieve your dreams. You tend to play it conservative, going by the rules (at least the practical ones). You'll likely reach the top. And when you do, you'll be honorable and responsible. Focus on happiness. Don't let your goals distract you from fun! Don't be too set in your ways, and you'll be more of a success than you ever dreamed of.

What Planet Are You From?

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT) You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test

You Should Drive a Ferrari

Sleek and sexy, style has a lot of importance in your life. And you'll pay a lot to look good!

What Sports Car Should You Drive?

You are Agnostic

You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care. For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine. You rather focus on what you can control - your own life. And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you.

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

5th October 2006, A simple life or an extrodinary life?? thats a decision I had to made. It is still about student Ambassador. If i chosse to lead a simple life now, it would be not so much commitment to SA, if I choose an extrodinary life, then I would be into SA spreading the name of Republic Poly. But Zero was right when I went to the principal dialodge. Why am I so uneasy when I come to Student Ambassadors?? Why?? Isit because I don't feel right to be there, or lack of confidence? tired? or what? to be honest, I am tired of event being clashed together. I choose BC out of everything, not just because I got a hand in there, but because I felt that they had train me alot interms of enterprising skills. This is something I couldn't learn from student Ambassador. But deep in me, I don't feel like going off SA, as I have friends like, Rudy, Raj, Zero, Edmund, Ronald, Chun Long all this who are nice people; but I just feel that the working style and the requirement doesn't met me. What should I do??

3rd october, 2006; 1 day away from blog, though one day but there are also lots for me to say..

Monday, 2nd October 2006; was a pretty much good day for me. Its the module, Cultural issues. Learnt about Cultural Intelligence. The topic is pretty interesting to me, and my team made a good presentation of it. I felt more confident that day when I stood up for presentation, as if I gotten it back. haah, didn't I said before that I found my confidence to present dropping very rapidly? that's the point, I should had got it back. Regarding the results, I score A for that problem, but a comment by the faci that really makes me think,the individual comment goes like "Thank you for your participation in class today. You were certainly one of the more vocal members of your group (though in the third meeting, you were mostly active when questions were directed at your group and did not really ask other groups questions about their presentation)." thats the first paragraph, second paragraph is in relation to my RJ, so I drop that. hmm, is she trying to hint me on my interpersonal skills? hmm should I explain to her how i felt that day??

Tuesday, nothing much; just the debate. HAHA, got through!! I convinced partially of the class with my conclusion, but got to really thank my teammates, Kin Sheng,;Joan; Li Fen and Khad; thanks for their solid speech before my conclusion, then I can made a good conclusion. Anyway the topics is whether to outsource or not for RP D&D, my team is debating on we should use RP students more. It is a real challenge, because I had always share a mindset that, outsource would be a good solution to solve the inexperienced people in a company and of course I felt stucked at points of the debate. But nevertheless, it changed my mindset today, I made a strong stand, my conclusion was like " Students are inexperienced, but they are not unabled; we feel that, RP students should be given the rightful opportunity to gain experience through running a considerable major event for RP; of course the issue on inexperiency had to be addressed and I can assure that, advisors and experienced seniors will not let their juniors just as they are". Disclaimer: I edited some of my words up there ;)

Continuing to JUDO, finally I clear myself from other commitments to come for judo training, its like very rare to see me on the dojo. Felt so guilty. Of course absence pay a pricel; I LOSED AGAIN IN JUDO.. haiz.. can't throw properly, got whack like a doll... and so on. hmmm; but the last fight , I put in all my might, but I got head butt by HK, got wound on my lips now.. haiz.. there is some upcoming events that I hope I can get to it in judo. The grading test, the training camp and the IVP.... haiz.. tired always after JUDO.

hmm, guessed i had forgotten to blog about Business Climate that last saturday when the retreat happens. hmm, I am very glad that I had a strong impression as a talent to my seniors in BC. I found more the reasons to stay in BC now like I always do, BC really makes me learn alot of the business arena and boost my confidence to touch on external projects like the one I am doing, the workshop. I got a chance to do a project which might affect the publicity of BC, that would be the " SLA " hmm, I had a goal right now, I WANT TO ATTRACH AS MANY YEAR ONEs next year into BC. Hope to work with my senior closely and together, bring BC back into every RP student's mind.

Student Ambassador, as I am still wondering to be happy or sad for passing the probation. This pass would mean that I am officially appointed as Student Ambassador of Republic Poly. I asked Eugene, my mentor about how they progress in selecting the SAs, because I doubt my pass to be honest. I once talked to Hadi that I will leave SA since fundraising is my last event in SA, I doubt myself to have show large commitment, but I STILL GOT IN?? Frankly speaking, yes I have some unhappiness for myself in SA, but the main reason and is the largest REASON why i wanna leave SA is about time commitment!! Date back in the entries, I stated what I want to focus, adding SA into the list would mean I got myself a new title " SUPER BUSY MAN'

hmm, considering the SA issue; I find myself enjoying the previllages of leaving school early, listening to MP3, singing at home, playing games and etc. Am I ready to give up all this previllages to tie myself down with commitments like this???

October 1st, 2006; children day.. Long long ago I celebrated that, right now I am no longer a kid, young adult?? hmmm...

Sunday, finally!! I get to rest, had been very very busy with 2 IG projects. Now one is over, the other is pending. Student Ambassador, I am still considering if I want to take back my words.. But most probablily I will.. YOu see, I am just too busy; I am afraid of my heath.. Mental health...

Got to go out now, its school day tomorrow....

29th september 2006, friday; at Honsonn house.. chatting and singing... hmmm.. what is the topic?? as usual, relating the past, present and future...

hmm, my brothers, their childhood were so interesting... haah, just mine not that interesting at all.. my childhood is only being filled with, expectations... At the age of 1 and a half I am already starting to learn ABC , drawing and abacus.. haiz.. all the skills are just mild right now.. age of 3, I started to play soccer.... my father and mother wants me to be a lawyer, being stress on that for 5-7 years till I reach primary 6 when I decided my own career path... hmmm... sometimes I wonder what is happening man, whenever it speaks of the past and the future, I am always been shoot down.. haah, not interesting ba....

hmm, got a shock.. HEY HOW COME.. how did I still got into Student Ambassador?? hmmm.. nah, I don't know what to do now........

haiz..sianz.... Why I am always being shoot down in terms of ideas and stuff like that, am I that lousy??? why am I that i share my experience, everyone changes topic, am I that boring???????

thoughts: What is my life.. what is all this???? What is happening...............

September 28, 2006. Second blog of the day. hmm.. my life is getting back on his track?? I hope so. I don't think I perform well today for the problem again. Overloaded with events.. hmmm..

First would be Student Ambassador Fundraising, my very last event in Student Ambassador. suppose the sales is very good today.. hmm That's great I feel. .. Tomorrow the result will be out..

Business Climate.. yeappie, I heard that my proposal is on high demand. alright man, high percentage of getting through a deal. bad news is that SMU is fighting us, with the same idea; wonder if copy right applies here, as I don't know whether is it they are first or we all. Furthermore, their course are free, they got lots of sponsors..hmm lets pray for the workshop... Lastly, I got another project up my sleeve.. working alone, with the whole BC members aiding me on the actual day. Its open house, so I am suppose to come out ideas for the open house.. hmm gonna work hard with it...

Its still a long way to go.. yet i am so tired to it.... making my life more than interesting, thats my vision..

September 28 , 2006. Currently in Republic Poly W15L, my class; hmm have not blog yesterday as I am seriously tired. hmmm...

September 27, 2006... SA fundraising stars here, hmm I guess sales are making profit which is good isn't it. But the sales were not very good during my shift, guess it is due that the agora is not packed by then. I was like very busy yesterday, for a moment I am in Student Ambassador event, the next moment I need to run to the printing library service to print proposal for the "mind your own business" workshop as my seniors are going to present it to the client in the behalf of me. I guess my daily result yesterday is going to be very sucks as I don't seem to have contribute alot.Just afraid that the coming 3 days will be the same.. haiz...

For today, I going to be at the fundraising booth at around 12 to 1. WHEN I AM ALSO GOING TO HAVE A BRIEFING ABOUT TOMORROW TALK at 1230. So i emailed dun fu to request that i will be at the first shift which is from 11 30 to 1215.. after school, will be Business Climate general meeting, which I must go if not I will be eliminated from the list. hmmm Tomorrow is another very long day, wah.. must persevere through man....

26th september 2006, a pretty EMO day.... why? two things in mind, Student Ambassadors and some personal problems again.

Student ambassador, its the event tomorrow... What am i gonna do?? I can't fake myself through that, I just don't know what to do. I really really felt useless over here. But nevermind this, because this friday the results are gonna be out and I don't think I am in...

Personal Problems. BROTHERS!!!... just got a call from one of my brother, pertaining to the lyrics that honsonn and ferlyn set for the singing. He was not happy with the allocation of lyrics as he sings only mile mile part of the song. Actually I also sing the mile mile part. As he speaks, he became more and more replusive, he started to raise his voice through the phone. I gave him quite a few solution like, " hey lets see how things go first , maybe the later songs you might get more involvement?", " hey what about sitting down and talk to honsonn nicely?" then he started to reject this solution and of course I explained to him why i felt thats the way, but he just don't listen. So then I ask him, so what you intend to do? he said of his solution, he said he want to talk to honsonn about this, then I was like, ok, no problems. But i saw things happen before, he will show faces and so on when people finish him off, so i gave him an advice, "hey, ... look here, i got to be frank, everytime when you negotiatate, you are replusive, that wun solve the problems" then here he go even more replusive, he reputed me in the end" I don't think I want to talk to you anymore, you make me even more angry about this thing." So I said, "huh whats wrong??"he replied" I called you is just hope that you can give me a solution to this, but you make me even angry only" come on, i said so many solution but none seems to work for him, what can i comment now?? furthermore, I am that straight forward, I say what i feel is going on, because I also grow in a world where pple are straight forward to me. haiz, in the end, i sent a message to him to say sorry...So what's gonna happen now? I don't know, I just hope that it won't be another bloody friday..... man looks like I am the one that is always giving in, not you brother...

25th September 2006, finally said out what I actually wanted. I told Hadi that I will be leaving Student Ambassadors after the fund raising event. Considered for a very very long time, I suppose about 2 months already after the camp. Found myself not suitable to the surroundings in Student Ambassadors, and I am always so reluctants to go for SA meetings due to my uneasiness in the IG. Decided to end my misery of this, so I told hadi that, since it is the best time to tell as he was speaking of commitment. Anyway the probation result is coming out soon, I don't clinch much hope either since after the camp, I am sort of not so committed to SA. Its quite a pity, since I worked pretty hard from the interview to the selection camp, have I made a right choice? An arrow can never be retrive once it is out of its bow. I'll stay to my decision because I feel I have more to concentrate on. Right now, I have to tell my mentor, but how can I ever tell that to him???

Out of Student Ambassadors, I had coming up plans for myself. Beside that I am going to concentrate on my studies, I was considering to stay back in the library to read up on management books every friday or monday. Tuesday and Thursday will be the time for me to train my judo. Will be also putting my heart into business climate, hope that my priority is right and this IG will one day regain its glory. Will be practisiing my singing. I just want to make my life a pretty much enjoyable one before the real hell come which is unavoidable. Wanna be an abled student, abled leader, abled manager, abled singer , abled judo ka and an abled sportsman. That's all I wanna concentrate for now.

Life is so full of decision, sometimes bad sometimes good. No doubt my life is so much like it too...

24th september 2006, Sunday, sunny mood!! Since I got to sleep and also have a chance to play my games.. haha..

I was back from shawn house that satyrdayday, the previous night was a whole night of singing and also chatting plus gaming. hmmm, sang a very nice song with honsonn, Gan qing xian( affection line) by 183 club. hmm..Currently so crazy with this song, ting ma ma de hua( listen to your mother)....

So pple say we must be driven by ambitions and dreams.. but sometimes are we over driven by our dreams and ambitions that we become over confident and ignorant to advices?? hmmm that just came to my mind.... I then ask myself, is my dreams driving me? haah, they are...... but i will stay humble for whatever achievement i ever achieve, not going to boast it around....

22 september 2006, right here in my school; together with a very wonderful class I suppose. hmmm. Having G102 today, boring facilitator I had here, super systematic. Got time table for class.. duh.. how to work???

Met up with SA people. Seriously I don't understand what are they discussing. Maybe is due to my long term absence. cannot blame either, I had too many stuff to focus. Right now, I just want to focus on my academics, my external projects, and my daily life. Tight schedule..

Gonna torn at shawn house later. Suppose we are going to practise the songs again. hmmm.. A group of buddies staying at one house , acceptable..HAHA...

Alright, gonna start presentation soon.. Signing out..

thoughts: Business = black and white only?? nope, its more into personalities, the arts of business, how much u understand.

20th September 2006, suppose to be 19 but was once again late for the the blog. Share the reason later.

I was suppose to be over at Republic Poly to training my judo.. but I skipped it today, guess I just don't have the mood to go either. Just felt like swimming and singing my day. "emo" again. Nevermind, I was not in the right status either, my right hand was pulled the last time I went swimming. I did went swimming today, its has been my favourite sports since I get to touch the water some sort of 10 years ago? haah.. history... Swim alittle today since my hand couldn't get me long, so went to sun tent with Honsonn my buddy. Chat big time again. Its fate that this team came together, people who have endless topics to speak of. After swimming, we went to look for job at sushi bar but seems like they don't need any employees. So went to Honsonn house. We are suppose to eat out, but his mum cook le, so we stay over. HaHa, our parents very know every single member of this group, so it is like when we go to eachother house, " SELF SERVICE PLEASE" practice our songs( tell you about more about this) hmmm. I am suppose to sing the Wang Shao Wei part in 183 Club 's Magical smile...

My class for the next semester is W15L... hmmm saw the name list of my class, got 2 of my classmates are from the academic rolls de worx.. guess they must be those kind of good good students, haah.. I didn't make it to the academic rolls, my UT killed me.. suppose to have score 3.7-3.8 if my UT is still ok, but right now i am at 3.6.. haiz.. hmmm. got to chiong for the next semester. hmm.. I look forward the new class, hope it will be a fun fun fun and also nice nice nice class...

oh, we are practising our ssinging and we are going out as a BOYBAND... alright man.. thats the reason. We can sing, but we are still not very good at it. haah. Music is another thing I love, remember how it cure my "emo-ness" everytime.. haah.. we are going to be a bunch of man man man boyband. Its a real dream to come true one day.

hmm.. my friend audrey speaks to me about her problems today..its about love..hmm, what's love? why is it that some can have a lovely relationship while others can't?? But nevertheless I still trust that love is a wonderful thing.. I can be driven by love, I know that. but right now, I AM OUT OF LOVE!!! so what? loving myself is enough for me now, i know i am not suitable for a relationship right now. Till time is ripe, lets wait..

So, school is reopening but all my friends is still in their holidays.. that's sad... there is time, I am really in deep thoughts why am I in Republic.. Is it a wise choice? I am doing well in Republic, but I feel this way? whenever i go to RP, I feel home sick.. haah.. But its nevertheless a path I choose, what else can I do?? I can't give up, because future is in my hands.....

19th september 2006, my 10oth post in neverending89.blogspot.com. Haah, after nearing one year of blogging. hmm, that's slow... its about 18th september on this blog, since I am late to blog before 12 a.m.

Woke up at 12p.m. love sleeping, keep sleeping, guess is better to sleep now then to doze off when semester starts. hmmm. Cutting that habit of sleeping nowadays actually, despite my dear to sleeping. Called Acer mulitple time today, kept getting this respone " our agents are currently busy, please hold while we attend to you shortly, alternatively".... Finally the call went through at 1720 hours when I called the 5th time since noon. Told the agent my problem with the labtop and she is sheduling an appointment this coming wednesday, meanwhile I will stay at home for the next 2 days to rest and also troubleshooting my laptop. Will be doing my rush revision tomorrow, was busy with proposal and socializing and stuffs like these, not even had a chance to really read up my past semester works.

Yuppie!! Finally I finished the "mind your own business" workshop proposal. I am proud of my ideas then, after brainstorming for almost one whole month!! That boost my confidence alot, right now my only hope is that Xue Ning , Zann , NurLiyana and me can clinch the deal with East Spring Secondary School. Lets make a big HU HA for business climate in Republic Poly then. muhaha... But you know what's sad too, I am not able to present my proposal, the client is meeting us at wednesday which is a school day for me and Zann had put my slides under Xue Ning. Haiz... hmmmm... nevermind we are one committee after all.

While my laptop is still at a half-dead situtation, I can't play any games, but I took some pictures of my cars from Need For Speed. I shall upload some of my favourite Rides... But not now, the connection currently sucks...

Right now, I thought of creating a website for my clan.. the 56 dui. But still needs to learn how to publish websites from microsoft frontpage... Anyone mind to teach me??? Awaiting your call...

2 days before semester starts, what is it going to be like? the next 16 weeks of schools. How will my classmates be?? good or bad? I don't know, and don't really want to know, for whatever it is I am there to learn. Republic Polytechnic, can it mould my future into a great shape? is not RP's responsiblity i feel, its mine... I have to learn to be independant in Republic Poly, unlike other poly, where they got their resources right in their hands, I have to go about in search of my own resources.. hmm.. that's my fate....

thoughts: How long how long wil it ever last???

16th september 2006, suppose to be 17, but I was 20 mins late. It was a real fun for yesterday and today. Out with my brothers.

Yesterday, a trip to jurong. We are suppose to be at the Swimming complex but the weather was not on our side. So its a walk around jurong. Jurong is kind of boring man, we were like, haiz sianx ar.. But lucky for us, we are a bunch of real fun people, we crack jokes and did alot of stuffs in jurong. Just something that we found out yesterday thanks to an unknown Auntie, whenever when the group is together, a massive road block will be created.She said in chinese " I just hate to walk infront of this kind of people man, block way"..... HA-HA... We did went to the swimming complex, after walking in the rain due to some direction errors. It was really fun, we played the slides and also the lazy river. Shawn made the day but slipping off the float alot of times.

Today, cycling day. Went to Shawn house early to get a bike, since I don't have one. its fun as in we cycled all the way to East Coast and we sat down and had a real chat. It something magical I suppose, this team of buddies just never fails to run out of topics to chat; it ranges from craps to serious. It is just a nice team i feel. Yup and its really a chat. From then we cycled and cycled till we reach bedok camp hawker centre and had our dinner. Its another long chat then beside that, we also look at girls. HAHA.. ahem.. Cycled back to shawn house, after returning the bikes, we all sat down and chat. HAHA.. honsonn likes shawn's cousin ,wei en.. haha.. nah just kidding, he is right ;i agree to full extent that wei en is pretty. Yup, from there we kept on chatting till 11 plus then we all head home.

Haiz.. my laptop is still the same. WHAT IS HAPPENING????

September 12, 2006.. mood is still very shacked by the condition of my laptop. Don't understand what has happen, it just been very laggy suddenly nowadays. haiz..

12th september 2006, suppose to be training in judo, but a bad stomachache deny my presence for judo. So i didn't went to judo, fell asleep in the end in my room. All the way till 3 pm. Played game to relax, away from serious work. Got a good piece of news, I SCORE GPA 3.6 for my first semester.. that really is a drive for me. But what lies ahead is still a myth.. got to stop here. Tomorrow will be meeting up my collegue to do up the workshop planning.

11 September 2006, night time. suppose to sleep but the mood for it isn't right.. After the afternoon blog, I was stucked by the planning of the workshop. Till now, I am still having Messenger problem, just can't sign myself in. Got to wait for tomorrow. Ya tomorrow, back to judo..

11 September 2006, Afternoon decided uploaded some photos from the Air Force Open House. SOmething I promised to do..

here it goes....
2 super duper F-16s that guards our air space

Alright man, thats the plane that guards our air space
We are forever Operational Ready!! haha
After lunch at the grandstand
F-16C , our photo with it.
It is suppose to be a shuai photo ..haha

ok, back to my serious work now; Business Climate workshop planning and also my revision for the last semester work. Coming back to blog again in the night =D

10th Septemeber 2006, its a reflection day for me.Flipped through all the archives files in my blog, hah, it has been a long way to here...

I saw changes in me from November 2005 till now, felt it is from good to bad. haah, a man with life in the past to a man with no life now. It all the same questions that I asked once, isit love that had make me a very fantastic person and had love just made me worse than what I will become?? Came across some of the posts entered when I was a Pan Pacific employee. Work life? its fun indeed, the money that comes in, miss those days when my pocket is forever full. Those were the times, where there is no more worries, life is just working and having fun. haah.. Some fun moments of the brother and sister family was entered too, those are the days I really missed. The lively days, the ambient of those days seems to have come to me for that short moment when I was reading the post. haah, its kind of different today, thats the cause of my miss; the only similarity is that this family is still there for me and we are still having fun, the difference is... everyone is leading their path to their future. Seriously hope that this happiness of mine will forever be there beside me because " In life, friends come and go thats becos we din cherish them.... In my life, there is this group of people who is more than just my friends.. thats why they come..... and stay.." . Saw the entry when I was posted to Republic Poly, haah, I was reluctant then, ya its true its a good school to mould the future but why am I feeling so lonely and lousy in RP?? Whenever I go to school, it feels like I had break away from what I am, I missed textbooks I missed pens, if I ever get a chance to go back in time, will I choose a lap top life again?Back to relationship, haah, how it feels like to be love again? question marks, I felt so numb to it now, once I love someone alot but she left me, haah... Love? its just too early for me..

I was once a person who enjoys successes in almost everything I done, that joy I once jolt down in this blog had never become a sight now. Suffering failures after failures nowadays, my shoulders are crying out of pain. Life is full of obstacles, never had been 7 sundays in a week, it all prove hashly true to me. Got to get over my failure derpression.........

I never know, what lies ahead of me........

9th September 2006, long time since I last blog.. hmmm... nothing much either, just a day after day. I am into recovery, from my failure. ....

5th september 2006, it has been a long time since I last put in my last entry. Life is yet so beautiful for me, and I wonder why. It's just one day after another. Lucky for my pass 2 days, pretty well over.

Last Saturday, 2nd September 2006, I visited the Republic of Singapore Air Force( RSAF ). They are suppose to exhibite about the changes in our Air Force to the 3 G air force. It is really a good sight, the F-16Ds, the Apaches, the chinooks and the F5s, all being modified to suit the modern world, because in this new kind of world, needs a new kind of force, a force that can act like nothing on earth. Saw how the RSAF is going to support our army in combat and how capable they are in defending our air space, only one sentence will desribe how i feel," I feel safe in Singapore now." The RSAF planes are all highly modified into a incredible version of fighters and combat aircrafts. Took quite alot of pictures during that day, it is still out of my reach, will upload some here when I got it.

Sunday, bought a new camera, kind of late but it was into good use today for the outing, but sadly there is some technical problems that all the pictures taken are gone.. haiz... sometimes I just don't know how to explain the unfortunate reason for me.

Today, was my project day the outing. its a failure to me, long expected? I don't know but it just don't feel right today. Not in the mood, not enough power, not enough ambient is what I see today. I am not someone who can really bring up the atmosphere anymore... Searching that ablity back.

Sometimes, I just have to believe in things like destiny and fate. Some people just don't have to work so hard to get the things they want, they are blessed that everything just fall into their places nicely. But things just don't fall nicely for me, whenever things that I do, it will be accompanied with human errors, if not low popularity. I feel very tired to work so hard, think so hard for things that I want and I like, but it feels as if I am going against my fate and destiny. I read one of my Student Ambassador's nick, " There is always obstacles in life, we have to climb over it." sound so moltivating and enlightening, what if right in from of you are just obstacles after obstacles?? Obstacles will come to an end one day, but will I have that stamina, that strength reach it? haa, quit asking, sentence that ends with question marks will never be completed. All that can be done is to bit my lips and find my way out that obstacles, till then lets hope for a smoother journey. NO!! life is never smooth, just accept it.

There is always a time when human will lose his faith in himself. Who will search that faith back for him, who will bring him back on track, who will guide him along? who will moltivate him? HE the owner of the faith got to find it back himself, because in this world there is no one that can really moltivates him anymore, he had just lose his soul and direction...But lucky him, he had just left with that sufficient amount of determination, lets hope it last him through. Thats me...

Septemeber 1st 2006, at the silence of the night I decided to put this entry up. nothing much. Just living day by day. Tomorrow going to "K" with my buddies, going to be happening.. thats all.. mmm

27 August 2006, I was put into a state of low morale and high guilt. Just wondering what is going around with me, my actions are going agains my integrity and not having any confidence in anything I am doing. I used to be able to locate the source of my demoralisation and act to it, thats why it appear that I am confident, but now I can't locate it, I don't know why is it that I am so demoralised out of a sudden.

Nowadays, when I am free it will be really free but when things starts to come such as meeting and duties it totally come together. I just rejected 2 appointments, SA meeting and class chalet. It is because I had piorities BC project and judo this time. Judo, because that I have to go for my grading soon and Judo has become one of my interest martial arts and I really want to excel in it. This wednesday is the due date for my proposal for BC, got to rush for it, I know if I were to go for SA meeting, I am so not going to complete this task, so I decided to push away SA fundraising meeting. Though its seems that I had piorities, but I am seriously very guilty of what I had done, its just that all this appointments are draining my energy that sometimes I also cancelled appointment because I overslept and stuff like these. haiz.. Should I drop one of the IGs?? I should but what should I drop?? It all dates back where I am over ambitious in the past...

thoughts: if only that the world is not so competitive..

mood: bored

27th August A.D. 2006, 4 day into the holiday. once again spend most of my time playing at home. Played Need for speed and Rise Of nation, currently on blacklist # 4!! finally i should say. In rise of nation, beat 2 country using Japan. I aided the Russian to conquer Koreans,what a change in history. Planning to break diplomatic ties with the Russian and conquer them.Still brain storming for ideas for the workshop, got some of it will be touching up a proposal and a timeline soon. Hope that East Spring will accept our proposal, it shall be a bigger project for me in Biz Climate. Speaking of that, went back to East spring to retake my O'level English, and I met my client there!!! Was like "oh My GoD", so just pretend I didn't see her,just in case she will think, how can a person who fail his english be a good presenter in workshops."_" hopefully it is just my paranoid.

I notice something. Am I getting just alittle not trustworthy? I was suppose to work yesterday, but I didn't at the very last min. The manager called me but I reject her phone. I promised my classmate to attend the chalet, but I am also having second thoughts on it. I want to work but I just don't feel like it that day. As for the chalet, its just that I am tied down to some cashflow problem. hmm just what happen to me?

August 26, 2006 A.D... woke up with a undesirable tireness that demoralise me to work. Spend most of my time brainstorming the ideas for Business Climate's "mind your own business" workshop. Did came out with abit of ideas and is drafting down my proposal soon. Sing alone in the room for 4 hours, nothing better to do.

Called shawn to check out if he is working today in Pan Pacific, he said no. Same sentiment as him, I want to work too, but no more Pan Pacific please. That place is 50% hell. So soon going on for a job hunt. Recalling what I had learnt in Enterprise module in school, not all personalites and style suits all kinds of job, guess it is pretty much true.

I saw a email from the student ambassadors. my purpose of joining this particular group of people is to do something memorable in RP. However there is this unexplanable agony in me that I just feel like moving away from SA at times. Just feel that I don't belong to that Interest Group, their styles just happen to collide with mine and I am quite suffering.

Have I lose something? I don't know just feel as if I did lose something along the way. Just that I don't know what it is. hmm, kind of miss secondary school life, miss alot of things. Alot of it. Seems to have lose the confidence I once prossess. What a lose....

A holiday of a month, how am i going to go over it? Can i get back my form within this month? well it all depends...

hmm.. am I very far away from the last blog? maybe acceptable, four days only. What I should say about these few days? serious work, serious mood? ya thats the words.

First I shall share what happen today. I retake my O'level english again, guess its badly done. I don't know how to explain is just that my mind today is not in the right state!! haiz make it everyday. Nowadays I starting to fall asleep more easily. Laziness is really ruling over me. haiz. WHAT TO DO?? but luckily I am still what i am when I am suppose to work, just lazy to travel, lazy to read, lazy to play also.

Watch THE LAST SUMARAI again today, my second time. Well, I like this movie very much, i find it very heart warming. Its not a love story between 2 people, but the loyalty and the disipline of a Samurai that makes up Japan. It sets of during the industrial age of Japan when the emperor is desperate to make Japan modern and invited lots of foreign developed countrymen to advise the Japanese. Of course, the Japanese are also desparate to overdo the western countries. But however this small group of imperial troop, the samurai feel that Japan is moving too fast and the foreign countries are slowly invading Japan. They rise against the industrial path. I shall not bore you guys with the content of the movie. But this part where I am really touch of is where the samurai push themselves forward the imperial heavy firing of machine guns. They fall apart which marks the end of the samurai, the imperial corps eventually cease the fire and pay their last respect to the trademark of the ancient Japan, the Samurai. The movie ended with the emperor rejecting the offer of arms offer and American Ambassadors direct help in the government of Japan, he quoted holding the imperial Samurai sword: " Its important for us to modernise ourselves, but we should not forget who we are"


haiz.. Mood is getting somehow bad nowadays. I scolded my brother today as he gave me some attitude face when I wanted to take over the computer, and this is not the first time he use violence to show his unhappiness. He push me and stare at me.. out of anger, I slapped him tight. But no elder is happy to beat up their own siblings, so do I shed the tears of pain when I see my own brother getting from bad to worse. I know I had pretty much failed to be a elder brother. maybe its just that they thought that I am those kind of carefree person, to be honest, I am not, there are lots of things I just choose to shut my mouth away from it. Just like my brother case, he is getting more and more rebellious and more and more rotten. he shouted at me and push me around.. I was so fed up that I almost use the judo osoto gari to pin him down, but i didn't, I know of his asthma. I shed only a few drop of tears the rest of the time I was shouting very loud at him, guess those who know me in SJAB will know how loud that is.
he cried and shouted at my parents who came out and stop us from the quarrel and also wanted to scold my brother. He told my parents that he wanted freedom he blamed my parents for his lousy self now. of course I am not happy with it, but somehow I managed to cool myself down alittle, I talk to him and he continued crying. I am still firm on one thing that I tell my brother much less also tell the SJAB when I was in power, "violence don't solve anything". I know these because I was once in deep trouble before. I slap my brother, but out there with his attitude he is bound to be killed. I reason with him alot, just hope he put those words into his mind. My family..... is a complete one but with cracks around and I want to mend it.

What i see today only makes me think back of the past. Once a carefree ignorant me have changed to what I am today. I worked so hard to have prove others wrong of what they think of me, I think i had pretty done it. But I know there is still lots of people out there who is sterotyping me, i changed my strategies, I just do what I think is right for me. I also guess my new friends in poly had just getting to know the other side of me, the serious and straight forward of me. I have spilt personalities, I know it myself. One side, the crappy, ignorant and carefree side of me is just a mask of the serious, straight forward strict side of me.

I am done for today, and just hope a better tomorrow. I shall put up the samurai spirit on me, persevere on what is right.

thoughts: the samurai is the most disciplined group of warriors I ever known, thats the reason why I am interested in japanese martial arts and the samurai so much.

just what I am

Mmmmm.. Late? am I?? nope.. not so..

How's life?? just as usual, no deep impact. Just getting busy. Get a hands on finally on Business, from business climate. I guess it is quite a poorly perform IG internally. What's wrong?? well, you can't really blame, business who is really interested? well I am but not others. Alot of people was attracted by business because of money, the "M" that drives. But not for me, passion drives me. Money? yes it is important, but it can never be the drive for me to do things that i don't like to. Student Ambassador, its an very well run IG, nothing much a problem in there, professional commitment, yes they have. I am driven by the impression i had on SA, the organised working way, just want to be part of them, and I really want to, but i am yet qualified? Judo, nah just a sport , not much organisation, but it really trained my mind, to be a perservered person.

That should be all, majority of my life is revolving around school and home. nothing much. I know its back to boring me. But I have a dream to persue............ hmmmm

yawn!!!

Another little time slot to blog..hmmm... Getting very busy liao.. SA meetings, BC meetings JUDO training.wah.. can really kill me. hmm.. short blog here, I have no energy to type anymore..

liFE GETTING BORING.

(look around) opps.. dusty blog I had.. hmm. .. What a long long time since the last time I blog..hmm, finally found that little time to blog today.. Hmm, so what can i blog?

National Day..
Torned out the night before after the fireworks.. So its Honsonn, Jing Ren, Derrick and me, walking around the CBD area. We chat, sing, and so on. Met shawn and his classmate at 4-5 plus. Where we chat with shawn.

Speaking of that, WAHAHA, Honsonn recognise the wrong person..haha. He thought Anitawa to be a girl who he thinks is "chio" haha.. but it didn't turn out to be? haha. Speaking of Anitawa, suddenly some distant cousin of her, Anitasa.. (Anita S***) come to my mind. My secondary life was a interesting one due to some songs.. haha( honsonn should know what i mean).

National day was a whole day camp for me, I reach home at 7++ am and was knocked out till then. Watch national day parade. then thats the end for national day.

Other matters....
I was also very happy that my toes are clear from injuries and will be back to judo. HAHA.. grading coming soon, will be yellow belt then, provided I pass. But seriously hope I pass. Don't want to be mocked for not being good in judo. OSOTO GARI..

Biz Climate. hmm.. My project, "jaunt and retreat" hmm the signing up don't look very nice? what happen?? isit because they don't trust a year one heading a project or??? haiz.. perception errors, what an example. Lets hope the result wil be better, I will persevere, hope my teammates are then so, don't lose hope on me.. I am just disabled, not unabled.

Student Ambassador, don't find myself super active there, go to workshops and so from here, haven't really head or involve in projects from here. Why? maybe is the sense of infior..

Just recently during Yi Qi's birthday,in the middle of the night; 56 teams had a liitte chit-chat session and our ex love life was brought out. Shawn, Honsonn, Jing Ren shared their piece of mind. But I didn't really share. Nothing much to share actually, its all history. But shawn said that I have nothing to be proud of my ex-relationship. Well, wanted to defend myself, but choose not to. I am not proud at all, I know how stupid I was then at that time. But I learnt it and I had vowed I will be good from then.

To add on, I chose to be single for the next few years as a plan, whether it change or not is within my control. But being single, the reason i can give is, I am just not a Mr. Right to any girls out there. I am not as talented, not as handsome, not as cool, not as humourous. Till then, I had enjoyed my life being alone, reading books, playing games, performing to the standard i set for myself, pratising self-love.. What can i say? numbed to love.. a frozen warm heart.

I am reading up.On the laws of leadership. I know i pocess that power of leadership but just to mild. I have my own style, but I am reading up to become better, to increase my power. End my declining personalities.

Semester coming to an end, will be changing Class, a few questions poped out in my head. " Will I still survive as well as it is now in the new class?", " will my classmate be nice be hardworking be complying be good instead of political?" ," Will I be a hatred in class or a love in class?" I seriously feel at times I don't want to change class, I want to stick to what it is now just in case it go to the worse. But accept it, changes are inevitable, I thought I accepted that fact, am really so?

NO MONEY!!! haiz.. used to be senseless in terms of that. But now i know, everything needs money.. haiz.. got to find time to work for money.

Laziness is ruling over me too. I played in class, I rot at home, I slack out. I only listen to music,, play games and sleep. Life getting just way too boring

Moonlight shines on me, I stay so long away from blog that i forget how it looks like. Hmmm..sorry.. for the long time dissappearance, tireness and laziness put me away.. nothing much happen recently, just school, Biz Climate project, SA meeting, Judo training. hmmm

I learnt my lesson from Judo now, never go and push yourself when you are seriously tired and sleepy. Why I say so? thats because I was injured during the tuesday training. What happened? I was doing my left rolling breakfall, because I am sleepy, I used the wrong leg to flip, causing me to lan with all my toes bended!! thus injured. didn't went to visit any doctor till thursday when i feel cold the whole day due to the swellness. Right now, I am back to normal, fast huh?? I still feel so lousy, my friends are still laughing at me that i am not good in Judo, time to train harder, real HARD!!

I seriously wonder why is my confidence SO LOW nowadays, I was not able to speak well enough, I stumbled during the meeting of Biz Climate when I am suppose to present my project, in the end is my advisor zann that help me.. ARGH!! what the hell is happening?? but neverthemind, as i am back to full gear now!!.

A question came to my mind nowadays, Can i get to my future? compare to my other buddies, their future is quite clear. Honsonn wants to be a doctor, Jing Ren is going to be a combat engineer in the army for ten years and open a shop after that, Derrick is going to be a Air Force Radar officer, Shawn is going to be be his own boss, Nigel is going to be ? (forget le shit.. sorry nigel). I want to become a Army Guardsmen, Can i get to my dream?? I injured so many time le, I'm so scare i will kana SCDF!!.. I planned a alternate path for me to, I am aiming to become a presenter also, can i ever reach it??? lets hope and strive.

And nowadays, my brothers 'tao hua" keep booming ar, what about me?? nah, phobia of the black humour .. furthermore, I am not very optimistic coming to that kind of stuff. For people who don't know "tao hua'' , its a term used in chinese to discribe someone love life. hmm ya?? looks like my chinese improved!! haha..destined to sing "lonely"? nah, lets not hope so.. be optimistic!! Any way, I just educate my junior how to woo girls,haha.. maybe he will suceed? anyway, i suceeded once and almost once.. I am not experienced ma, I only woo gal twice in my life so far, other days? i woo happiness and things I like, or maybe some gals woo me..lala..impossible..just kidding.

I have to say, I am living fine nowadays, stress?? there is bound to be some, but I should be optimistic to over come. Lastly I have to say, sorry to all those who suffer my Attitude problem during the past few weeks, seriously in a very bad mood and stress during the past few weeks. but I feel, everything is going back to normal. =)