September 2nd, 2008; holidays coming to an end and comes the final run...

Kind of overjoyed when I see an email in my inbox this morning. I had made it to my goal earlier this semester; get my ass back to the academical rolls of honor!!! I'll say this before some people from a prestigous school have any comments on this, this is the result of my hardwork and sacrifice; so don't you dare downgrade it.

I am very happy about my semester 1 performance; something which I've been working hard on. The following is my result =D

Manufacturing and logistics system ----> A

Financial and Banking applicatoin -----> A

I.T. Project Management -------------->A

Marketing ----------------------------->A

FYP 1---------------------------------->B+

Well, my only regret is my FYP1 which I failed to get an A. I very much know the reason behind it; so shall work forward to prevent this from happening in FYP 2.

hmm, school is going to start in 2 days time. Will be taking the following modules.

Manufacturing and logistic system 2

Finance and banking application 2

Human Resource Management

Management Information system.

Same objective, straight A's. Well MIS will be very important for me because that is what I want to major in after teritary education..

Alright, shall stop here...

August 22nd, 2008... Having problem sleeping but the extra energy to read back some old entries of this blog.

What a collection of 3 years life experience from graduation from Junyuan to now about to graduate from Republic polytechnic. Quite alot of things had happend in my dramatic life anyway. So right here infront of a SCHOOL laptop, (have to really remind myself of this because I am starting to treat this laptop as mine) I came across some issues which was in the past.

An abstract from one of my entry in 2006, "someone also passed me up this question to be attached again.. well, sorry and sad to say, i got this feeling i might be bachelor for another 2 years?". Haaz that feeling was eventually right, I am already single for about 2 years and soon 3 years by this december. Ever since the day I had decided to walk out of the romantic industry, whatever that fills my mind had no longer be girls or relationship but my career, my future and my fianancial status. Well, thanks brothers from N~Zire to have always try to spark the old feeling back in me, but I guess it's near impossible. Some might say it's because of once bitten twice shy, some might say that I am beyond hope but I'll say the time is not right yet.

Speaking of this, I had a dream last night about this girl who I had strike a deal with. Very interesting because I heard something and soon I find myself searching high and low for her. Very vividly in my mind is the name of that girl who starts with a "Min" or something.. Haha, this is not the first time, just another searching scenario in my dream. But this is quite real(crap which dream don't seems real.

Another abstract from one of my entry in 2006, the decision to get out of SA "Will be also putting my heart into business climate, hope that my priority is right and this IG will one day regain its glory." Is it right? Business Climate is still in it's same shape after 2 years I made that statement. The same feeling I had in SA is in this IG as well now, it look as if it's dying internally but yet still doing well out there. The struggle over incompetent advisors are over and we have 3 very active advisors which gave hope to this I.G. GOD BLESS THEM~

About future, about academical results... No problem, I am it's getting nearer and nearer each day. WHICH is something I am so proud and feeling the sense of fulfillment in me. I have another 6 months more to prove my worth, and I'll just do it to the max.

OK, enough of such emo moments. Time to sleep for another sweet dream.

Thought of the day: You'll see, how's life when the past is all on the back of your mind.

August 20th, 2008. About 7 days into the vacation and right here I am not using my own laptop but my school laptop. This is the first time in my RP times, I feel that the performance of my school laptop and surplus my own laptop.

Well... Does machine have feelings for his owners? Whenever the thoughts of changing computer come, my laptop will visit the service center. Haha. Crap, I very well know the reason why; it could be the cause of buying a replacement adaptor from a "not so trustworthy" vendor. LESSON LEARNED.

So, it's second week of vacation and also a start of a race. Just as I had expected, the school will never let us rest well for the vacation. Got our allocation of FYP2 last friday and was expected to start our project on Monday. Well, I am ok with this anyway because the longer I rest the less productive I am when the school starts.

We will be building Sales Force Management System this time, not our choice but considered a very challenging task. But it will benefit us alot for those who wants to major in Information System such as myself. Our contenders, they are pretty strong; one of them is my friend Lester who have stress that drives his product and one of them was my classmate; rumor spreads that he is a very good programmer. Back home, I have confidence because I have a reasonable talented team. Most importantly, our advisor is Mr Juan Sng, my ITPM facilitator; he is one of my favourite facilitator in the school. Something tells me he might be quite expecting my ablity in project management since he is the one who taught me ITPM. But I believe I am up to the challenge.

Done my planning on the FYP already, will need to consult my teammates tomorrow and get them to agree with the plan. It's the last FYP , my very last time to prove myself so that a very nice description about me will be printed on the transcript.

The last semester, I would say will be the busiest semester in my RP days, beside FYP; MELT camp is on the way, will be desiging website for BC and will be actively looking for a job after graduation. The door to the outside world, draws nearer each day.

That's all for the day, got to go rest for the meeting later... Time to push forward~

Thought of the day:
We all have our own boxes, and this boxes we carry contains our self image. And they will protect themselves by preventing us from being nice to others.

8th April 2008, 080808 what an auspicious number... Too bad I am not even the age of mariage else I will sure get married on this date =D. Anyway just a few minutes into this auspicious day.

Holiday is coming real soon, "SO FINALLY". With that low running adrenaline run, it's really tough to keep the thoughts of skipping school alway everyday. But hey! I had not skipped any lessons after FYP. My academical goals are within my reach seriously as I am pretty confident about my last few Understanding tests. But those results are still not out and there is already no more turning back, so the least I would do now is PRAY!! PLEASE no more moderation surprise for me~~

Have been really busy with some other projects such as MELT and BC website. MELT, OH OH OH GOD, it's so revived... But there are still some more unhappiness in me that this camp is being so downgraded on my hands, hmmm what to do? I have to force myself to understand the constraints in this school and also in this IG. BC website, another one step I am taking to put something interesting into my portfolio~...

Hmm.. That's all for today. I am about to review my strategy for my FYP this holidays.. So as to do better the next time...

Thought of the day:Because I hate the idea of giving up.

July 26th, 2008.. Finally I've got back my laptop.

Pretty speechless today, just some photos to share about the fishing trip last week.

My first fish

My second fish

It's so hot that our baits are literally COOKED~

19th July 2008, it's the first few minutes of a beautiful saturday. For this week, I celebrate the relief from an edgeline run.

Yeap, nothing feels more relaxing than knowing the fact that FYP 1 is officially over. Experiences gained which will help me in the next FYP and definately in my future endeavours in the industry. We had our evaluation that wednesday, honestly I had mixed feelings about it. For a moment I thought we did really bad for evaluation, but on the other side; I felt that we had done quite well actually. So anyone who will ask me "hey how's your presentation?", I would reply "er, standing between heaven and hell". It's hard to explain the experiences we had for this project and particularly the presentation in words, so I shall spare the details. Perhaps just some photos I took with my team, a team which worth my memory.

FYP team 2008040
Left to right: Kee Yong(GUI designer, Tester),
Shimah(The secretary, Business Analyst),
Shao Cheng(PM ,System Analyst),
Guo Long(Programmer , Database Designer)

Very much, the above allocation of job is just places which I think my teammates done better. In fact everyone went through all the different jobs at different phrase of the project. When in designing, everyone was very much a SA, when it comes to development; everyone become a programmer. But at different phrase, I get to see the strength of my teammates.

Just another picture~ Communication is our key to success

Sometimes when we face obstacles in coding, we look for the source for idea and stress
Our project partner(for information and skills) Mr Lester Stress=X

Haha, Lester was one of the few really hardworking people I had seen or encounter in RP. Though he might be the speculator of the stress sensation but I do respect his learning attitude and his talent in programming.

Now FYP is over and I had seriously learn alot. The experiences and knowledge gain will definately help me in the future. As for now, I understood my team's strength better and I am confident that my next FYP will be a greater experience. hmmm~ now I'll take a retreat, review my strategy in the project and improve it..

June 21st, 2008 entry; but its about June 20th, 2008. It had been a really lethargic week, FYP and studies... Republican's Year 3 isn't easy as what others thought it is. Yet something came which almost demoralized me today...

FYP... Raining days are over and things are back on track looking pink and in shape. It's really good plan + good execution and control. Right now we are at testing phrase where some other teams are still at their development. The power of design, it really speeds up our pace. In anyway, I'll not celebrate too fast until I left the evalulation room.

I guess I had become more and more unpopular among my circle lately and wonder if its because my mouth had become more lethal and consider no feelings or isit because I am already being given up by this world? I notice I've been really harsh in my words and jokes nowadays and GOSH, I'm really trying hard to curb these. But I guess I just found the source of such evil progress in me. Being slammed because where I'm from.

Just got slammed AGAIN today. "Why you in RP, SO LAN(lousy in chinese)", "Learning to be a difference to have difficulty finding job in the future?" Thanks for the comment and I shall assume you are abit too quick in your words that you didn't know you stepped on my tail. I'm really sorry that I'm so anal about being commented that way and taking it so seriously but it meant a poke to you but a piercing to me. I was so glad that I hold the trigger and prevented myself from firing the 50 calibre sniper rifle from my mouth when that "poke"came to me. Just not right to do so, killing one will anger the rest; the spartans only hold off the persians but was defeated after all. And I can't be defeated now.

I might be really lousy and useless in the past considering my academical results. But I've really really regretted to flunk my O'lvls due to my wasted time on "RELATIONSHIP", CRAP CYCLING, CRAP GAMES and so on instead of time on books. But here I am finally getting something and there you are, trying to convinced me that I'm DONE with my life because I am from RP.

Though its the school they slam but its as much as slamming me because I'm from there. Why is it exactly so piercing to me? Perhaps no one I've known had really pull,cut, stretch and push themselves for an EXCELLENT result but has no one close enough to share the happiness with? But that's ok, but how about being slammed that "But you from RP lea" after sharing the happiness. Something even more sad to hear about, once I introduced myself as a RP student to someone out of RP, the very next few scenes you would see is that person stopped talking to me there after but before everything he was joking and crapping with me.

What's so bad about RP? SERIOUSLY? Have anyone who slammed me asked themselves SERIOUSLY that. Let me tell you what are the common replies which you guys refuse to tell me or never phrase it properly because you saw the change on my face.
1. Because its new ar, not prestige enough ar..
(CRAP~ Temasek was once like this also)
2. Because its different in learning ar, no teacher really teaching so not good not good.
(Ya, have you been really there to study to comment whether its good not? Somemore, ask them why aren't they learning? ITS BECAUSE THEY CHOOSE NOT TO LEARN! )
3. I don't know lea, I heard one.
(Good, the person you heard from, is he/she from RP? if he/she what is his reasons? it got to be one of the 2 reasons above RIGHT!?)
4. Statistics shows that RP has very low employment rate for its graduates
(Tell me where you get that statistics from? www.you.com? If it's really so, you know why? Because the whole society CONVINCED that the difference is stupid. LABELLED RP as inefficient and a land for failers. SO WHO DESTROYED OUR FUTURE?)
5. No university recognize RP as a Polytechnic
(Tell me who you heard it from? someone non-republican who is convinced by the slamming? OR just some oldies who see differences as something bad?)


So is prestige really really so important to you? Because you can show off fame and achievements that are not yours to make you sound nicer? Then tell me what is considered a good school? Because you can get in that school with a paper with some 5 'A's on it?

I was once very redudant to come to RP, but I was convinced by someone not from RP to come. Mrs Quek from BB; she asked me when I complained... " why do you think RP is bad? just because its new?". At that moment I really had no idea why I thought it was bad and I felt it was unfair to judge something this way just because its new and not prestigous. Thus somehow, I gave up about appealing for TP and joined RP. And I am thankful that I made that decision.

But I wonder why god gave me this path to walk on? Couldn't I get to just walk a smoother and direct life.Perhaps he wants me to understand what is rise and fall. And how to understand that what you think is good might not be necessary to others. And how to cherish your own sucesses because not all will share that happiness with you. And lastly have a choice of my own destiny. 3 years in a school which is commonly a target board for craps, unfactual statistics and comments had really changed me alot. If god want to train my tolerance, had he had enough? I believed I had reach the maximum level of tolerance, so max that I wonder~ How much longer can I stay calm and friendly to those who came to destroy me or what I've came to love?

Guess, I'll just stay firm on what I think is right for me. FORGET WHATEVER those from pretigous schools had said....